14 Rachel POV
"I understand, this is amazing. This is just, amazing. I can't believe this…I know, I know, I just have to talk to Luca about it, okay. We just moved here, I don't want to relocate everyone already okay. Just let me talk with them and I'll see," I said to my agent and then hung up the phone.
I sighed a bit and looked in the backyard. Beth was still playing soccer outside. it seemed to be her outlet for anger or sadness. It was good however she still barely talked to me or Luca. She seemed to just be silent most of the time except for when she asks something or uses her manners.
I walked outside and watched Beth play soccer. She stopped after a while and turned around. She saw me and walked towards me. she sat down across from me at the patio table.
"What's wrong?" she asked me and I shook my head.
"Nothing," I said, "Just thinking, wondering." I said and she nodded.
"About what?" she said while looking down at the ground. She then looked up, "About me?" she asked and I shook my head, and then nodded.
"Yes and No. I'm thinking about many things,' I said and she looked at me.
"Phone call." I nodded.
"Yeah it was, Lisa who was with Renee…I got a job offer," I said, she looked at me when I said job.
"In new York," she said a bit excitedly. I shook my head.
"LA," I said and she looked at me, "A movie, but I don't know. I have to talk to Luca and I don't want to move when you just got settled." Beth gave fake laugh as if it were an inside joke. I knew she didn't see herself as already being settled in Lima. I mean who would when you move somewhere and drama already fills your life.
"What Movie?" she asked and I looked at her.
"One Week, it's a love story," I said.
"You have to take it," she said and stood up to leave, I looked at her shocked. She was being insistent.
"Why?" I asked.
"Because," she said and of course 'because' is always a great reason to kids. I sighed and smiled at the same time. I went back inside the house and started to make dinner.
I thought about the role some more and I realized I really do want this job. However I don't want to relocate the family, I don't want to do this while Beth is still in this state that she's in. I don't want to do this because what if it sets Beth back a bit. I mean what if it hurts her.
I finished making the chicken and mixed it in with the pasta then poured the marinara sauce over it. I heard the front door open and then close. Luca is back from helping out at the community theatre. He came into the kitchen and we kissed. He then grabbed thre plates and set the table. I called Beth down for dinner and Luca left to wash his hands. Beth came in with Luca and Luca smiled at me. He opened the cupboard that stored the wine and brought one out. It was our celebratory wine.
"What's that for?" I asked and he smiled.
"Congratulations, for getting a job offer for a movie. And not just any movie, your wanted for the female lead in One Week. The life of this character changes in just one week because she falls in love with a man she met at the beach. This is a big career move" he said with a smile as he poured wine into two goblets. We sat down at the table and ate.
"I don't know though," I said and he looked at me with a raised eyebrow.
"It's because of me huh?" we both looked at Beth, shocked.
"Why on earth do you think that?" I asked her and she looked down.
"Because it's true, I'm messed up," she stated and pushed her chair out and ran up to her room. I looked at Luca who was just as shocked as me. I stood up and walked upstairs. I opened Beth's room to find her looking at the mirror, my red lipstick in hand. She drew an X on the mirror were hear face is reflected.
"Beth," I sad. She turned around and looked shocked to see me. "Beth what is that supposed to mean?" I asked and she shrugged. "No you answer me, Elizabeth. What is that supposed to mean and how are you messed up?" I stated. She looked at me and shrugged again.
"Elizabeth Shay Berry," I stated and she cracked.
"I'm stupid and broken and everything he said I was," she yelled out and looked down to the ground. Of course she knew what she said was wrong in my eyes. She felt ashamed.
"Beth, none of that is true," I said and realized just how deep a whole Beth was dug into. The court made everything come back to her. Her nightmares, her mental scars, everything was brought back to life. I walked up to Beth and bent down to be at eye level. "You are not worthless, you are not broken, and you are not stupid. You are amazing, full of light, and a great person Beth. You are none of the things that he said you were." I looked straight into her eyes to see if anything I said had entered her mind. "Sweetie, I love you, you know that?" I said. She looked at me and nodded.
"Love you too," she said and I hugged her. She rested her head on my shoulder and I heard her breath in. my scent was calming her down. I carried her up and put her in her bed. She grabbed my hand and I lay down in the bed with her.
I saw Luca looked through the door.
"She's tired, but I think I know how to deal with everything know," I said and he nodded. He walked in and kissed Beth's head.
"I'll wait for you downstairs," he said and I nodded.
I held Beth close to me. I now know what is going on in Beth's mind, which means I can help her deal with her emotions. I kissed Beth's head as she snuggled closer to me. Her breathing lowering to that of one asleep. She is my life and I hope that my Beth knows that.