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This is a really short chapter but I felt really mean for leaving you hanging!

I'm a softy at heart, well kind of.

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Grief

Rose's P.O.V:

"I'm afraid your wife's lost her baby." I male voice said, through the fog and darkness which had set into my brain. I couldn't move, I couldn't see anything but I could vaguely hear snaps of conversation. The next thing I heard was a tirade of Russian which sounded very much like Dimitri. I tried to call out to let him know I was okay but my body was numb, I felt as if I was floating and I had no connection to my own body.

The heartbreak set in as I thought about my baby, the baby that I had lost. Dimitri would be heartbroken, I just knew he would. It was my fault I had lost the baby, I was shadow kissed therefore I was one of a kind, a scary monster. My baby was dead because of me, my body wasn't made up for it.

A jolt hit my body, jerking me out of the darkness, my eyes sprung open to a white room, I was in hospital again. The numbness disappeared along with the hearing issues, I was in shock. Dimitri stood above me, his brow creased with worry and his eyes were pools of concern.

"Roza?" Dimitri cried as he saw my eyes open, he wrapped his arms around my body and held me close to him. I melted into his warm embrace and let tears steadily fall down my cheeks, I couldn't bare to look at Dimitri again and see the sorrow in his eyes, the sorrow I had caused.

"Roza, how are you feeling?" Dimitri asked, pulling back and sitting down on the side of my bed, he kept a hold of my hand.

"I'm sorry." I gasped out in-between the heart wrenching sobs.

"Roza, you have nothing to be sorry for." He said, pressing his soft lips to my forehead.

"I lost our baby." I cried out, throwing my arms around Dimitri's neck.

"Roza, what are you talking about?" Dimitri asked, pulling back from my iron grip.

"I heard the doctor Dimitri, I heard him tell you I'd lost the baby."

"Roza, you didn't lose the baby and your doctor is a woman." Dimitri said, smiling at me whilst wiping my eyes with his thumbs.

"The baby's okay?" I asked. I had to be one hundred percent sure.

"The baby's fine, the doctors can't figure out what caused you the pain or what caused you to black out."

I lay curled up in Dimitri's embrace in the hospital bed whilst he slept, all I could think about was what I had heard the doctor say. '"I'm afraid your wife's lost her baby."' The doctors words we in perfect English with no Russian accent and the doctor had said wife, not girlfriend or fiancée, he had said wife. I had no idea where I had conjured up the conversation from, it had felt so real and emotional at the time. I decided to just forget about it and go to sleep, I needed the rest it had been a long and stressful day. As soon as my eyes shut I felt a darkness come over me again, I fought against it and opened my eyes. What I saw when I opened my eyes was not what I had been expecting.

I was in hospital, I knew that from al the machines that were surrounding me but I wasn't in my hospital room. There were arms snaked around my waist but they were too skinny and cold to be my Russian god's.

"Lissa?" I heard a voice from behind me whisper in my ear, then it hit me. I was in Lissa's head, why was I in Lissa's head? Lissa and I had had a conversation about this, we had decided to keep our guards up so moments like this didn't happen. I was worried as to why Lissa's guards were down and why the hell was

Lissa in hospital?

I opened myself up to feel Lissa emotions, as soon as the guards came down sorrow and anger flowed through me. Lissa rolled over, in the small hospital bed, to face Christian.

"I'm sorry." She whispered, looking up into Christian's worried eyes.

"Liss, you have nothing to be sorry for." Christian whispered, tightening his arms around her waist.

"I lost our baby, of course I have something to be sorry for." Lissa sobbed, clutching onto Christian's shirt.

"Lissa, you didn't even know you were pregnant it's not your fault."

"It is! If I'd known I was pregnant I would have been more careful. I thought it was just stress."

"Lissa, it is not your fault."

I knew at that point I had to get out of Lissa's head, I had to talk to her. Lissa had been pregnant and she had lost her baby, I knew how she felt. I pulled myself out of Lissa's head, leaving her to be comforted by Christian.

"Roza, you were crying in your sleep." Dimitri said, as soon as my eyes opened. I wrapped my arms around his neck and cried.

"Roza, what's wrong?" He asked, pushing the hair off of my face.

"I just got pulled into Lissa's head. She's just had a miscarriage."

"Oh Roza, is she okay?" Dimitri asked, wrapping his arms tightly around me.

"No, she's not. I think I was pulled into her head when it happened, her guards must have come down." I explained, resting my head against Dimitri's chest.

"I'm sorry Roza. Why didn't Lissa tell you she was pregnant?"

"She didn't know."

"Do you want to call her?" Dimitri asked, kissing the top of my head.

"I want to go home."

"Roza, you know it's not safe for you to fly."

"Lissa needs me." I cried, clutching the bed sheet in my hands.

"Lissa wouldn't want you to risk our baby's life for her." Dimitri said, slowly prising my hands off of the sheets.

Dimitri was right, I couldn't risk our baby's life like that and I knew Lissa would understand.

Dimitri pulled his mobile out of his coat pocket and handed it to me.

"Call her." He said, kissing the top of my head.

"Do you think she'd want to talk to me?" I asked, my voice was small and vulnerable.

"Roza, if it was you in her position would you want to talk to her?"

"Yes."

"Then there's your answer. You and Lissa understand each other like no one else ever can, she'll need you right now."

"Stop being right all the time." I whispered, pulling Dimitri's lips down to my own.

"I'm going to use one of the phones out there and call my mother to let her know where we are." Dimitri said, pulling back from me.

"Okay, thank you."

I looked at the phone in my hands, I had to call Lissa, I dialled her mobile number and waited for her to pick up.

"Rose?" Her voice came from the over end, she was crying I could hear.

"Lissa, I'm so sorry. I was sucked into your head I know what happened." I said, trying to fight back my own tears. I couldn't bare to hear my best friend so heartbroken.

"Rose, I didn't even know about the baby." Lissa gasped out, sobbing.

"Liss, I'm so sorry. I don't know what to say, I just really needed to hear your voice."

"I miss you Rose."

"I miss you too Liss, I want to come home."

"You can't, the baby!" Lissa cried, sounding horrified.

"I know. I'm sorry Liss." I said, feeling really guilty.

"Don't be sorry Rose, you have to stay strong for my niece or nephew."

"You're going to make a great mum one day Liss."

"Thanks. I've decided that in a few months I'd like to try for another baby."

"Really?"

"Yeah. I never knew about this baby but now it's gone it's made me realise how much Christian and I really want a child."

"Lissa that's great."

"Yeah, our children can grow up together."

"Yeah, that would be great." I said, smiling to myself at the thought.

"I'll let you go Rose, you need your rest. Thank you for calling me, I really needed to hear your voice."

"You need your rest too, bye Liss love you."

"Love you too, bye Rose."

I ended the call and put the phone down in front of me. Lissa was doing really well all things considered. I smiled to myself at the thought of our children growing up together, they could be best friends like myself and Lissa.

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