hi readers i'm sorry this chapter is so short but it just felt like it needed to end when it did. i'm sorry. i want to thank my faithful readers/reviewers! you are what pushes me to write! i understand everyone's probabaly not finished mockingjay yet but when you do pm me i would LOVE to talk about the book with other people who understand amazing literature! luv ya suzanne collins- my insparation!
chapter 14
the next day passes in a blur, school, home, chores, even the games offer nothing to stir emotion in me, seeing as how my sister still lies vulnerable under the poison of the capitol's mutt's. so all in all a surprisingly boring day, unfortunately i know that tomorrow won't be so "boring" because we're in the final 10 and it's been 2 whole days since the last deaths, something will happen tomorrow, but what.
"prim?" his voice brings me out of my daymares "prim are you okay?" he asks "no" i reply having given up the pretence of being "fine" and he knows i'm not okay, i also know he wants to help "ya i figured, is there anything i can do to help you" he asks i want to reply to tell him he' does more than enough for me already, but i just can't find my voice "i know it's hard, i want to help, if that means you just want a shoulder to cry on i'm here, or if it means you want me to go shoot snow, i'd be okay with that to" he says giving that wry smile that melts my heart and forces a giggle to my lips "how would you get there?" i ask smiling back at him. "i'll hijack a hovercraft" he says jokingly "well i appreciate it but i don't think your a good enough shot" i say teasingly.
"oh i'm hurt, wounded, how could you say that" he says acting as though i've physically hurt him, and i can't help but laugh. "eh your right, but hey it's the thought that counts, right" he says "yes i'm very touched that you'd kill someone for me" i say then i lean in to kiss him effectively cutting off his response "hey let's get out of here" he says "what, where are we going to go?" i ask "i don't know somewhere we can be alone" he says pulling me out he door.
we can't find anywhere to go where there won't be people eavesdropping on us, we walk until we're almost at the edge of town, in the victors village where i may, i mean will be living soon, and though every fibber of me screams not to we decide to break in, though we don't have to, because weirdly it's unlocked. we go into the cellar, which is cold and dark, and has white sheets covering the floor and walls, he removes his coat and puts it around my shoulders and we just sit there where no one can find us and we just sit together and he holds me while i have yet another emotional breakdown. i cry until i'm all dried up and have a giant head ache but he never tells me to calm down, or be strong he just wraps his arms around me protectively, and lets me get it all out. then we decide that we should go home before the peacekeepers find us.
when we get back to my house gale is sitting in the kitchen talking to my mom. "hey kids, where have you been?" asks gale eyeing physalis "none of your business" i say in my best bratty voice "it is so my business" he says "how so?" i ask "because i care about you" he says trying to sound genuine, but he can't keep a straight face "oh just be quiet gale" i giggle tossing a pillow at him "what me quiet… it's like you've never met me" he says "ya i wish" i sneer at him trying to look mean but i also can't keep a straight face and then we're both laughing.
gale gives us a turkey, 2 squirrels, and a rather fat rabbit and still has plenty left for his family, then he says he has to get home, so we say good night and then we go into my room and once again he tucks me in and sings for me… when he finishes his song i'm barely conscious "i love you" i mutter before going completely under.
I am sitting in the arena where the careers were underneath that tree i look up and see katniss, physalis, latania, my mother and my father all up in that tree sawing at the tracker jacker nest, trying with all their might to drop it on me. as i realize this i try to run but i can't stand, can't even move, i sit there waiting for death to come by the hands of those i love most in the world. and yet as they are trying to drop the branch that will kill me i notice something off about them, i look around and see president snow sitting in a lavish chair with a slim black remote in his hands with bright red buttons each reading the name of one of the people above me, and i realize they are nothing but puppets, and then more show up and more and more until nearly every person i've ever met is in that tree, attempting to murder me, but i know they have no control they are all just puppets being controlled by the capitol. i look into their eyes and all i see are endless back pits, and then i'm falling in the darkness of katniss's eyes, as i fall i see him again with his remote only, a new name has been added and it's more prominent than the rest and it reads "Primrose Everdeen"
i'm woken up to the quick jolt, that always ends a falling dream, the odd sensation produced when your heart skips a beat, but i'm still trying to figure out what my dream means, though i already know i just don't want to admit that I am also a puppet for the capitol, we all are, and i just wish i could find the knife to cut us all free of our strings, but i know i can't.
i rush through my morning activities in record time, and am out the door a full 15 minuets earlier than i need to be, because i decided i'd meet him at his house today i arrive just as he's walking out to the door "hey, I was just on my way to your house" he says "hm well i guess i win" i say he laughs "um no i'm pretty sure i win" he says "what no i got hear first" i say because i clearly win "okay but i'm the one with a beautiful girl on my door step" he says cockily "okay let's just deflate that head of you're a" i say grinning "alright, but let's go to school first" he says "fine" i say sighing and then we're off.
the morning is boring we finish reading that horrible book, and when we get to the last boy that is murdered before final 2 physalis looks like he's ready to rip the book apart, and then we get a quiz on coal miners outfits, just naming the parts, it's easy i could do it in my sleep. when, lunch rolls around we go sit in our usual place with latania and bosea, and once again it's just us since our friends are still being incredibly immature. it's fun hanging out with them i like having another couple who understands what it's like. "oh shut up you did not" shrieks latania as we tell her about our break in "no we did it was awesome!" i tell her, though all i did was cry it was still nice to be alone. "ha sweet man, never thought you'd be the first one to break the law of us" says bosea "well not first, prim still has that" he says "ya right like prim could break the law, i mean kat and gale always went hunting but you could never do that" says latania half joking "what you think i've never been with them?" i ask "hm well you rebel" she says and then we move on "hey so you guys wanna do something after school?" i ask them "ya sure" says bosea and latania together the bell goes "okay so we'll meet outside after school, cool" i say and they agree
after school we meet them right outside the classroom door we all give our greetings then we're down to what we should do "i don't know" i say "we could go to the meadow" suggests physalis "or we could we could go to the park" suggests latania "well it doesn't matter to me" says bosea "okay the park sounds good" i say because the meadow is supposed to be just ours.
we have lots of fun me ans latania let the boys push us on the swings we almost go over the bar, then the boys go on and when they both jump off and do a roll "showoffs" we both ell at them giggling "oh you know you like it" says bosea wrapping his arms arround her. "oh please i jumped way higher than you, right" says physalis also wrapping his arms around me "ya settle this like men" says latania "oh i think i know what you mean" i say smiling the boys both look at each other and yell "slide race" wow "i'm glad they're so mature" i whisper to latania.
we watch them race up the stairs to the double slide "wait let one of the girls say go,so it's fair" says physalis "okay, one of you say go" calls bosea "think i'll let you do that one" says latania giggling "oh sure, make me do it" i say laughing "alright, alright i'm coming" i call so i go stand by the bottom of the slide "wait, wait if i'm calling latania has to be the judge" i say "oh fine i'm coming" she says then we're both standing there "okay ready" i call "THREE, TWO, ONE, GO!" i scream out and they're off, it's really close so latania has to decide "sorry bosea i thnk he's got you" she says "oh ya" he says then walks over to me "see told you i win" he says and i can't help but laugh at our words this morning "oh c'mon, babe i had him" says bosea complaining about her judgement.
"sorry he definitely won" she says and he sort of pouts "aw poor baby" she says pulling him in to kiss her. "aw they're so cute together" i say "yes absolutely adorable" he says smiling at me "aw don't worry your cuter than him" i whisper he just laughs. I think this is the most fun I've had in what seems like forever, but then i have the hunger games to ruin my life "hey i know it's the last thing you want to do right now but we've got to go" he says "ya i know" i say.
we go into our seats and wait for the show to begin. katniss is awake again but so are the careers, katniss is walking through the forest, with little rue practically on her heals, but she's so quiet even katniss doesn't know she's there, they show peeta completely eaten by the river bed. the careers, now with a fresh hate for my sister, are sharpening their weapons, and having an argument about who gets the honour of killing her "i'm doing it!" shouts the girl from 2 "no i am, she killed glimmer" yells the boy from 1 "NO I'M KILLING HER AND THAT'S FINAL" bellows the giant boy from 2 "fine cato but give the audience a show" says the girl pouting "no problem,there" he says, then we see katniss shooting harrows into a tree for practise, she kills a squirrel and some weird bird, that i couldn't name then rue who's been watching from behind a tree snaps a branch and gives herself awayat first i think katniss will send an arrow through her brain, but then she says "you know their no the only ones who can make an alliance" it takes a minuet for rue to come out and they team up, but it won't be a very long alliance and i keep telling myself that this girl has to die for my sister to come home. the careers hunt through the night but don't find them up in their tree talking about destroying the food supply, and i think this is a great idea, they could starve them out. then they show the other tributes sleeping, just to assure us they're alive, and then the screen is black.
"well that was…interesting" says our mother "more like stupid" says gale "why?" i ask "oh face it she'll never be able to kill that little girl she's just like prim" says gale a little louder than necessary "then again she'll never be able to kill lover boy, either" says gale not attempting to hide the venom in his voice. "gale don't talk like that, besides she may not even have to" i mutter "what!, what do you know prim" he asks me "well nothing for sure" i say "okay so what are you unsure of" he says "i can't tell you" i say "prim you have to tell me!" he says raising his voice at me "i know, just not here" i say "fine the second we step in your door" he nearly growls at me, i've never seen gale like this and i can't help but wonder if it's because she's in danger or something else.
before i even have a chance to open the door i have gale's strong arms turning me to face him "prim please you have to tell me" he says returning to the old gale "okay" i say and tell him what haymitch said about a possibility of 2 victors gale just sits down, head in his hands and i think he might actually be crying, so i decide to give him some privacy "hey, lets go call" i say to physalis "okay, sounds good" he says.
when we get to the city hall we grab the phone and dial 6 once more "hello" says haymitch and i think he may actually be sober "hi" i say weakly "oh it's the idiots intelligent sister" he says "don't talk about my sister like that" i say through my teeth "well what would you call it even if the kid could help her, you know she won't be able to kill her" he growls using the exact words that gale did "she won't have to" i say "someone else will find her or maybe peeta will be able to" i say "oh please if he makes it out he will be the first victor to have never murdered someone" he says "though peeta's stunt definitely put the capitol over the top every citizen is upset and not even enjoying the deaths witch is not good for them" says haymitch giving a throaty laugh "so their going to change it" i ask excitedly "not officially no, but they would if katinss would give something back" he scoffs "ya i wish there was someway to let her know that" i say "well your guess is as good as mine" he says "anyway how much has district 12 managed to get for our beloved tributes?" asks haymitch and then it's all business.
GALE
no this is horrible it was bad enough when i thought i was going to lose her but now, now no matter what i lose her because even if she comes back she'll come back with frieken bread boy, she'll never be mine, who was i kidding she'd never be mine anyway even before the games every boy in 12 is in love with her, she could have had any boy she wanted, but now she'll have him, katniss MY katniss who hunts and breaks the rules and hates the capitol and defies them every day will be with the merchants son, the baker, the "boy with the bread" she's talked about on occasion. and all of a sudden i find myself hating this boy this "peeta mellark" i whisper under my breath and his name feels like acid on my tongue. I should have done it volunteered taken his place, to protect her, then we could be the star crossed lovers forcing a new rule on the gamemakers, but she would have hated me for it, no my job is to make sure our families are fed and safe,it wouldn't have worked anyway i'm not good at the mushy gushy love stuff, but why should he get her i mean sure he says he's in love with her but so is everybody, even the capitol fell for her. i just want my katniss, even though i know that can never happen, no matter what for her protection i have to
give her to the bakers son, oh well at least she'll be alive. i think bitterly.
i'm just turning the door knob when i notice he hasn't said one word the entire walk "what's wrong?" i ask him "hu oh nothing" he says unconvincingly "i know you better than that, pleases tell me" i say "i was just thinking about phalaris" he says solomly and it takes me a minuet to realize who this is because i've never heard his brothers name before. "oh i'm so sorry i din't mean to" "no it's okay,you couldn't have known" he says we sit on the step and alk about it "so did he make it to final 10" i ask hoping that talking about it might help "ya he made it to final 3, then the 2 careers left found him, and.." he trails off "do you want to know why i hated that book so much?" he asks "why?" i ask "gloss killed my brother,then he killed the girl from his district, then he became victor and then my life changed forever." he says i can't think of anything to say so i just sit beside him and let him vent, like he does so often for me. "he didn't just kill him he did it so slowly and painfully, when we burried him he was completely cut up and destroyed, we could barely recognize him it was horrible" he says breaking down almost to tears.
"and now i'm breaking down about something that happened years ago , and i should be comforting you not the other way around." he says "what do you mean, i think it's your turn" i say smiling at him "i think we should get inside before they think i kidnapped you" he says i giggle and we're inside "oh your finally home" says gale "what did haymitch say" he asks "not much just that if kat would show she's in love to they would have to make the new rule" i say "then i hope she does" he says it's late so i go into my room with him and he sings like always, and i'm half unconscious when i mutter "no, don't leave me" he leans down and whispers in my ear "never"
okay i know waaay cheesy but what can i say i'm a romantic! i hope you liked my gale, i loove peeta so i'm trying to get into gale's mind and understand his thoughts, if i did a horrible job tell me and i won't do him anymore :) pleeeease review even if you do nothing but rip on it just let me know i have people reading it! PLEASE i luv you all!