__________________________________the next day_____________________________________ it turned out Meelix and Frank had been secretly going out for a while, they did a good job of keeping it secret, i didn't suspect a thing and i don't think anyone else did.
Frank had said that he would stay with Meelix and between us; we would bring up Bandit to be an intelligent happy child, things were looking up, we were all going to be parents and i felt, like we could actually pull through this. We celebrated with a movie and some alcohol and decided that we would ring the social services the next morning to organise Bandit's homecoming.
_________________________________the next morning__________________________________
I woke up happy, i felt refreshed and awoke with a cheerful smile on my face, i saw that gee wasn't lying next to me, i glanced at the clock, 7:30, it wasn't like Gee to be up at this time, especially before me, he must have gone to the toilet, i got out of bed with a huge stretch and stomped towards the bathroom, gee wasn't there, i noticed a razor on the sink, covered in blood, frightened i ran downstairs.
Gee was in the kitchen making some coffee so i decided to go and give him a hug, i really needed one, and i guessed he would too. I walked slowly into the kitchen and crept up behind him but as i approached him i saw that he was crying. My whole body filled with empathy and worry, i stood next to him and he turned around to look at me, he wiped his eyes quickly and cleared his throat,
He turned to me and gestured an offering of coffee, in hope that i had no idea that he was crying.
"I can do it myself in a minute thanks," he looked at me, god! His eyes!
Ahhh! I loved him so much at that moment; i grabbed his neck and pulled him into a deep, passionate kiss. Soon enough, the kettle clicked and he pulled away to continue with the coffee making, i was angry, what was up with him? Well there was only one way to find out, even if it was a bit weird, i started to walk away from him as if going back out of the room but then suddenly turned around and silently crept up behind him, the kettle was steaming loudly and he didn't hear me kneel down behind him, he turned around coffee in hand, and began to walk, he tripped over me and fell to the floor, luckily neither of us got any boiling hot coffee or sharp china in our eyes but as he filled up with anger, lying on the floor, i pounced on him and yelled,
"What is wrong with you, crying and not telling me what's wrong? Putting a kettle click before a kiss? Self harming Gee, i thought both of us had got over that?! Why won't you just talk to me at least?"
At that moment i saw his eyes fill up with fear and sadness, i felt a horrible feeling in my stomach, guilt rushed through my body like a drug and before i knew it we were lying on the kitchen floor, in each other's arms crying. We were lying there for ages, or at least it felt like it, he still hadn't spoken to me and i still wanted to know what was going on inside his head, i guess my plan didn't work, i got up but he stayed there on the floor, i got a pen and paper and wrote on it
"if you don't want to talk i don't mind,
But i do need to know what's wrong,
Please just tell me,
I love you so much,
Write back xxx"
I threw the paper at him soon followed by the lobbing of a pen. I walked back towards the kettle and poured myself some coffee. He scribbled back on the paper i took a sip of my coffee, it burnt my tongue i put the mug back down and ran to the fridge i licked the coldest thing i could find and slammed the fridge door, i looked down to see gee on the floor crying, as he wrote, his tears dropped onto the paper like broken hearts.
I sat on the floor next to him, he passed me the piece of paper, it was hard to understand what he had written, the ink had bled and his writing was messy. Luckily managed to understand and as my mind processed what i had read, i too burst into tears dropping the paper on the floor. The ink continued to bleed, i watched it through my watery eyes and it read
"Im sorry, i love you too, but....Mikey has cancer"