ASHLEY'S P.O.V

I shouldn't have kissed Spencer last night, now she hates me again.

Me kissing her has erased everything that's happened over the last couple of days and now I'm back where I started.

I tried to talk to her last night, but she wouldn't come out of her room.

When I woke up this morning it was early, this morning was the first time i've woken up and not felt sick since this whole thing started.

No one was up when I walked out of my room, it was only eight thirty, I didn't think anyone would surface for hours.

It wasn't until after lunch that Johnny and Madison got up and went for breakfast.

Those two have been at each others hips for a couple of days now.

When Madison and Johnny left, I grabbed my songbook from my bag and started writing.

I have a contract with Interscope and they've been waiting for me to start working on my new record for a couple of months now.

I was just sitting there tapping my pen against the table when Sammy walked out of Spencer's room.

"Sammy?"

I feel like someone's knocked the air out of me.

"Ashley hi"

Sammy works for me.

"How are you doing?"

"I've been better"

I grab my book off the table and start walking to my room.

It hurts I knew she was mad, but I didn't think she'd bring another girl back.

When I get to the room, I close the door behind me, I can't do this anymore.

I slide down so i'm sitting on the ground by the bed, gripping the book tightly in my hand.

"ASHLEY"

I don't say anything when she knocks on my door.

"Can I please come in?"

I rest my head against my knees.

"Ashley please"

I don't look up when I hear the door open.

"Ashley if I had of known you were friends with Sammy"

"It doesn't matter"

She sits down beside me.

"I feel horrible Ashley"

I hop up walking over to the cupboard, grabbing my clothes and throwing them in a bag.

"What are you doing?"

I don't answer her.

"You can't leave"

She hops off the ground walking over to me.

"Ashley I was really drunk"

"You don't owe me an explanation"

"Yer I do"

I walk over to the bedside table grabbing my sunglasses and a hat.

"CAN YOU STOP FOR A SECOND?"

I slip the glasses on so she can't see my eyes.

"Ashley I didn't go out last night for that"

"Spencer I get it..."

I grab my wallet and phone off the chest of drawers.

"...I hurt you and you wanted to hurt me back"

I pick up the bag off the floor, but she grabs my arm before I can make it out the door.

"It wasn't like that Ashley, can you just give me a second before you leave?"

"Let me go Spencer"

I'm begging her.

"I can't do that Ash"

I let go off the bag, dropping it on the floor.

"I can't be here anymore"

I can feel the tears building up in my eyes.

"You came here because you needed help"

"I didn't know you lived here when I agreed"

"But you stayed"

"I was delusional"

She lets go off my arm.

"Spencer we don't want the same things"

"How do you know what I want?"

"You just slept with Sammy"

"That was a mistake"

"Spencer you went out last night to forget about me..."

She's biting her bottom lip.

"...so don't pretend that wasn't what you were looking for"

"It wasn't what I was looking for"

She tries to take my glasses off, but I move my head so she can't

"You frustrate me so much"

"I've been tip toeing around you for days"

"Exactly"

I don't understand her.

"I don't want you to keep telling me what you think I want to hear"

"I'm not"

"You have been Ashley"

She grabs my bag off the ground and throws it back in my room.

"I just want you to be honest with me"

I have been honest with her.

"It's the same old problem Ashley"

Ray-J.

"You need to call her"

Why would she want me to call her?

"If you don't call her she's always going to be this unresolved issue we have"

"I'll get a new producer"

"Ashley you don't want another producer"

"Spence..."

"I'm not going to be the reason you get rid of Ray-J"

I walk over grabbing my bag.

"I can't do that Spencer"

I can't invite Ray-J back into Spencer's place and work with her again.

"I think it's best if I leave"

"Ashley if you run away now... don't come back"

"I can't stay trapped in your loft and watch you bring home other girls"

She's biting her lip again.

"I'm meant to be getting better, i'm meant to be getting rid of everything that makes me want to go back to those things i'm trying to escape"

"Am I one of the things you're trying to escape?"

I reach up brushing her tears away.

"Spencer I love you more than anything, but I can't handle seeing you with someone else"

Why does everything have to be so hard?

"Ashley I was upset and I shouldn't have gone out and got drunk"

This time she wipes her own tears away.

"Ashley when I woke up today I felt sick, I felt like I was cheating on you"

She reaches up grabbing my sunglasses.

"I made a mistake and I should never have invited Sammy back, not after everything that's been happening these last few days"

She brushes her thumb along my cheek.

"You need to sort your life out Ashley, you need to figure out your career and work past your issues with drugs"

She grabs the bag again, throwing it back in the room.

"You need to sort out you, before we can sort out us"

And then she leaves.

I guess i'm staying.