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Chapter 14

I sit on the chair looking out the window in to the woods, "You okay?" I turn looking at Stefan and smile nodding at him.

"Just wondering about my life here," I let out a breath. "It's weird seeing these memories, it feels like me but it doesn't at the same time," I tell him, as he moves to me.

"That's understandable Bella, you have had a life changing event, and it changed you."

I hum and Stefan just sits waiting on me to speak again "I'm worried about this Edward guy. What if he still wants to be with me?"

"Do you want to be with him?" I shake my head at him.

"When I see him in my memories all I feel is hurt and anger, same with this Jake guy. I just feel as if I am not who they want me to be, but I know deep down their Bella is not me; I can't be her. I don't think they will like me, this me; and I was changing me for them."

Stefan sighs and pulls me in his arms. "You are fine the way you are, sweetie." Stefan grins, "And the way you are is amazing. Let's face it, Damon has been alive for over hundred years-nearly two and he loves the bones of you, and him giving some of his heart, his full heart, just shows how amazing you really are. If Edward and Jake couldn't see that then it is their lost and our gain."

I shake my head at him, "I feel this guilt inside about them both, I…," I stop talking because I have no idea what my relationship with them was like, even with the little knowledge I have gained there is still so much unknown. "What if I did what Kathrine did to you and Damon? What if I find that I played them?" Before Stefan can say anything I am talking again. "You all could get hurt or killed and it could all be because I was a stupid ass teen who wanted all the guys."

Stefan snorts loudly and I just keep looking at him. "Not possible from what you have said and remember, the fact you left would say that they were playing you, that they were equal if not more to blame in this whole triangle thing. Even if you did play them you have changed Bella." He shakes his head, "I really don't see you doing that. You seem shy and don't like the attention, but you are easily led. Let's just see what happens, let the memories come without jumping the gun. Not that I think anything will happen; if it did it would not be your fault. I would gladly lay my life down for you; you have made me a better person." He leans over kissing the side of my head.

I hear the front door open and give Stefan a smile as he winks at me. "Come and see what they brought us." Stefan stands up holding out his hand, when I take it he pulls me up, and walks out holding my hand.

"Hey," Damon looks towards Stefan and I, his smirk drop a little, but just as quickly he puts it back in place.

Stefan drops my hand and walks to Damon and whispers something too low for my ears and then grabs some bags from the car. I move to help pick up a box.

"Oh this is cold," I say with a shiver.

"Yes, that's because it has our blood in it." I turn wide eyed looking at Damon, and then chuckle shake off my wanting to be sick.

"Okay, this goes in the basement right?" Damon raises his eyebrow at me. "I have been living in a house with vampires, and am completely in love with one of them; I will need to get uses to being around blood," I say making Damon snort but nod his head.

"Basement, Love."

I get to the basement and open the fridge and start to place the bags in making sure I keep them in their blood groups.

When I get upstairs Lexi, Damon and Stefan are all talking about how Stefan is going to feed.

"No animal blood bags then?" I ask walking into the room. Damon smirks at me shaking his head. "What if Stefan tried blood bags? I mean, you said that I focused your thoughts that time we were kidnapped. Why don't we try that; see if works with blood bags?"

Stefan takes a deep breath and looks to Damon, but my eyes stay on him. "I'm not sure," Stefan says meekly. "I don't want to hurt you never mind anyone else"

"You won't," I reassure him.

"Let's wait till Nick is here first and we can get his input too." Damon says. I turn to him, unsure why all of a sudden he wants Nicks input.

"He's right Bella; I don't want to lose myself to that beast again." I bob my head as I walk to him, hugging Stefan to me.

"I'm here for you no matter what," I tell him before pulling back. "Love you," I tell him and he just shakes his head at me grinning.

"Love you too," He winks at me as Damon comes behind me hugging me to him.

"Oh Lexi, I love you too." I tell her, letting her know that even though we just met, she is already in my heart.

"You really are something Bella," Lexi says. "But I think we should take a seat and let these boys make us some yummy food." Lexi links her arm with mine and we walk out of the room.

Damon's point of view

I watch the love of my existence walk out the room, but my eyes stay there even though I can't see her. I take a few minutes so that I can tune my hearing in to where she is; something over the weeks has become easier.

"She'll be fine with Lexi," Stefan says hitting my shoulder. I turn looking at him. Not feeling any anger or hate towards him, which for me is odd. I spent more than a hundred years being pissed off, hating him. And then this small, sweet, caring beautiful girl walks in to my-our- life and turn my word upside down.

Fuck, she openly tells Stefan that she loves him, and I don't feel any jealousy what so ever, maybe because I know for a fact it's a sibling love that is between them.

"Damon," I shake my head coming out of my inner thoughts.

"I'm fine," I tell him walking over to the counter.

"I am here if you want to talk," Stefan says lowly and I side glace him.

"I know," I smirk and then let out a sigh. "I am only going to say this once so listen up." Stefan turns looking at me and I close my eyes as I face him. "I'm sorry for all the bullshit I have put you through since we were changed." I stop, swallow, but keep my eyes on him. "Thank you for being here supporting me, Bella. I know she loves you and you love her too, but I…love you little brother." Stefan grins at me and move to give me a hug.

"I love you too, brother, and for what it's worth, I am sorry for my part in it too. But…I am so happy to have you back."

I chuckle, but push him away from me. "Come on enough of the girly shit let's get this dinner done."

Stefan and I work side by side; reminding me of the older days when we were both human, and it was mainly just him and I. While I know we have fixed some of the hurt between us, we still go a long way to go, but I know that we can get back to the deep brotherly love we had shared. In fact I, don't think we every lost it; it was just smothered by all the hate and stupidity that Kathrine and our father put us through.

"I've been wanting to give Bella our mom's necklaces," I say lowly keeping my eyes on the sauces. Normally I would have just took it and given to whoever I wanted, but I now I feel that I need his input first, after all she was his mom too.

"Really, she will love it, and it feels right you know her having it." Stefan says sounding happy and sure. "Mom would have loved her."

"She would have," I agree, knowing full well mom would have fell in love with her just as much as Stefan has.

"Do you think dad would have agreed with us being together?" I wonder aloud.

"Probably not, but he was an asshole toward you." I stop and turn to him frowning a little. Stefan was the golden boy, the apple in dad's eye, but he never took sides between dad and me.

"What?" Damon turning in to a vampire has made me see things through new eyes. Looking back, I should have stood up to him on the way he behaved and treated you. He was so wrong about you, so very wrong, and in a way, sometimes directly to blame for how you acted."

"Maybe, but I was a dick most of the time." I reply knowing that as much I want to blame my father, I was equal to in the blame… 'Fuck I am grown up!' my inner monologue mutters.

"What do you mean was, you still are." Stefan jokes out and I raise my eyebrow at him.

I have been awake for a few hours, but like always, I find myself just watching the beautiful creature lying next to me.

"Damon," she slurs out making my heart flutter. I can still remember the first time I heard her say my name in her sleep. She was screaming for me, I rushed to her room, finding her panting with her heart rate racing. I just stood there staring at her till my name came out in a sob. I moved to her try to desperately to wake her up.

It took minutes, and felt like I was losing my hearing with her screams for me. Yet, I was powerless to do anything. She woke shaking in my arms as Stefan got her a drink of water. That was the first night I took her to my room, to my bed, the first time in all my adult life that I had felt at home, felt needed, wanted.

The night passed with her still having restless sleep, nightmares, it was very clear from the get go that there was a lot more in it than just your common nightmare.

It was just before the sixty dances that my name came out in a soft calm whisper, it was as if she was calling me, my heart. That is when I knew she owned me, owned my heart. I may never forgive myself, but for me it was odd, scary to know that my heart belonged to another. Then she got hurt because of the bitch Kathrine. That night my name came out just like normal, but this time she followed with 'I love you'. I couldn't take it; it sent me over the edge and sent me running. But, no matter how far I went, no matter how much I drank, I couldn't get the girl out of my head. But, I knew me, and I knew that I would fuck it up and she would pay the price, a price that I was unwilling to let her pay.

Now looking back on it I know that I was stupid hurting her to stop her being hurt. At the time, I wasn't thinking straight, all I could see was that everyone that I have ever hurt to the point they walked out on me, and I knew if she did, it would kill me. There would have been not return from what she would, could do to me.

When I found her so close to death I found out just how right I was, but it sled her fate to my fate; I knew then and there that I would live the rest of my live for her, that I would try to be a better person, vampire for her. Thankfully she loves me just the way I am-so I don't have to change too much.

Since that time we have become closer, between making out and sharing of blood I know that we both have begun blending together, even without the sex, which I know that I am happy to wait for her to be ready.

"Why are you watching me," husks a sleepy voice. I lean to her catching her lips, kissing them softly.

"Just thinking baby," I tell her and she peeks her eyes, looking at me.

"Is everything okay?" I can't hide my smile. The worry in her voice is not pretend, like what Elena and Katherine often had, not just acting the part like my father would have. This girl genuinely worries and loves me. I can even hear it in her voice and see it in her eyes. This girl is an open book to me.

"Just thinking about you, us," I tell her hoping to calm her. She has been through too much these past few months.

I know that I am partly to blame and I hate that she doesn't remember, but the other part the selfish part of me is glade as this memory loss brought her too me. I know I would have fallen in love with her anyway, but it may have taken her longer to love me back.

"What about us?" she asks kissing me.

"How lucky you are to have me," I smirk and she saddles me.

"That I am, very lucky to have such a sexy hot vampire all to myself." I chuckle, but kiss her as one of my hands stays on her leg and the other rubs up and down her back.

"Happy belated birthday," I hate the fact that I missed her birthday-that she spent her birthday not knowing who she was.

She gives me a smile, as if she can read what I am thinking.

"That is one of my favourite days," she tells me and I look up at her, brushing her hair out of her face.

"That's the day we first made out." I give her one of my lopsided grins as the night springs to my mind. Fuck I was so ready to have my way with her right there in front of everyone. The beast wanted me to claim her, make her mine-his, it took everything I had to stop and walk out with her.

"Mine to love," I say rolling us so that I am on top.

My hand is running up her soft silk leg when a car pulls up outside. I pull away from her and hear not one but three vampires making their way to and into the house.

"Nick has just arrived," I say as I pull away from her. "Stay here till I tell you to come down," I say as I pull on my pants. As I walk down the stairs I button up my shirt.

"Nick," I grin looking at him, my eye flashes behind him seeing Elijah and a woman both looking angry and upset.

"Brother, why are the Salvatore brothers here? What are you up to now?" Elijah demands out.

"So you have not told him anything, and Stefan thinks I misbehave." I chuckle, not that Elijah or the woman take any notice of me.

"Damon," Stefan hisses in warning to me.

"Stefan," the woman stutters out and I turn looking at her, seeing that the anger has turn to hurt.

"Not now Rebekah," Nick says not even looking at her.

"What's going on?" The woman-Rebekah yells.

"You better start talking Nick, what the hell is going on," Elijah asks.

Her scent hit me the same time as her voice echo's "Hi."

"Bella," both Elijah and Rebekah whisper together.

"Yeah?" I move quickly to her.

"Told you to stay up there," I say in her ear feeling a little angry that she didn't do what I asked.

"Nick, what the hell is going on and why is Bella with Damon," Elijah yells. "Come with us now Bella," he carries on, and right away Bella's shield comes up covering her and me.

"Nick," Elijah hiss

"Nick, you said you would help with the cold ones." Bella says sounding hurt and worried. "You said that I could stay with Damon," Elijah just looks at her frowning.

I smell the blood as it drips out of her nose. "Baby put the shield down they can't take you from me," I whisper to her knowing that the shield and the stress she been under will cause her to get wiped out quicker.

"No," she says in a sob "He, he is the one that took my memories he'll do it again." Bella caries and I look from her to Elijah to Nick. I roll my eyes when Elijah moves from Nick pointing at him.

"I told him not to!" Elijah says. "I told him that was stupid to bind your powers and make you forget us," he carries on.

"Are you forgetting our father tried to kill her?" Nick yells out.

"WHAT," I roar. "Fuck so let's get this straight. She has a cold one that wants her dead, some teen wolf thing and another cold one that thinks they have a claim on her, your father who wants her dead too, and to top that off she has some power we have no idea where it came from and her memory of everything is gone?" This is unbelievable, how this small sweet girl can have so many things after her.

"You forgot the powers that be want her dead too," Rebekah says, not in a snappy way, but almost with a sigh of knowledge of just how fucked up things will get.

I rub my face looking at Stefan and Lexi who both look as worried as I am.

"Okay, first Bella put your shield down," I say softly to her. I am glad when it goes down.

"Give me my memories back. I know this was you and not Damon," Bella says looking at Nick.

Nick sighs walking to her. "It must have been damaged when you crashed your car." He frown as he pulls something off her top, as he takes it I tilt my head looking at what looks like a dead flower, before I can say a word Bella drop to the ground.

"What did you do," I yell grabbing Nick by the collar of his shirt.

"We had no choice," Elijah says softly.

"Oh my head hurts" Bella says softly. I chuckle looking down at her. Her eyes flutter open and she frowns looking at me.

"Who are you?" I feel my heart drop at the confusion not only in her words, but her eyes.

What did you think of Damon point of view? Next up date 24 December.