"So Blaine," Jamie started to say, as she and Blaine cleaned up the table.
After Blaine has asked about Jamie's hot cocoa recipe, the two got into a long and heated discussion about different food recipes and meals, their favourite spices, favourite cooking methods, anything invoking cooking. And by the time they had finished their omelettes, they had all the meals for the entire week planned out.
"Yeah Jamie?" Blaine asked, smiling as he scrubbed the dishes.
"I know you're in a happy mood, and I don't want to destroy it, but we need to talk about what happened upstairs."
"Oh," Blaine said, his face falling and the wall above the sink was suddenly very interesting for him.
"Blaine," Jamie warned.
Blaine gave out a long sigh before he put down the dish and wash cloth and sat down at the table.
"What do you want to know?"
Jamie sat down across from Blaine and crossed her hands. "Okay, so why were you cutting upstairs?"
Blaine hesitated before answering. "This is going to sound really stupid..."
"No, it won't." Jamie said, grabbing Blaine's hand. "Just tell me."
Blaine sighed. "When I woke up this morning, I saw that you and Cooper weren't in your room, and I panicked. I thought you two had left me. Like everyone else."
Jamie felt her heartbreak. "Oh Blaine, Cooper and I would never do that, never." She said, tightening her grip on Blaine's hands.
"I know, I know." Blaine said. "But when I walked into your guys' room, it was empty. The bed was made, your clothes weren't in any of the dressers, it just looked like you guys had left. And I couldn't deal with the pain of more people leaving me." And with that, Blaine collapsed into sobs.
Jamie was in shock, had Blaine's parents leaving him really affect him this badly? She should've expected this, but Blaine puts on this so believable front that made him look so much stronger than he was, you just had to fall for it.
"Oh baby, come here." Jamie said, standing up and pulling Blaine into her arms. "We just hadn't unpacked yet and we just decided to shove our suitcases in the closet." She explained, hoping it would calm his sobs, but it didn't. "Shhh, shhh, it's going to be okay." She whispered into his hair, as he sobbed into her chest.
Jamie felt her own tears spill over as she hugged Blaine and whispered words of comfort. This poor thing had to go through so much. How could he have dealt with this all by himself? Jamie knew that Blaine wasn't coping. Not if this was his method to deal with emotional pain, by causing himself physical pain to forget. She personally believed that Blaine needed professional help, badly.
She knew not all psychiatrist were great, but she had a bunch of great friends here in Ohio who she knew would be a great help to Blaine.
"Blaine, honey, do you think you could stop crying?" Jamie asked, a few minutes later, while petting Blaine's hair.
Blaine sniffed a few times before nodding his head yes.
"Good. Now, why don't we sit up and take a look at you."
Blaine slowly pulled out of Jamie's grip, rubbed his eyes, and looked into Jamie's face. And Jamie's heart broke again. Blaine's eyes and his nose were a bright red, his hair was a complete mess and he had such a defeated look about him, he was just a pitiful sight.
"You're not too bad. Let me just get you a wet washcloth and a box of tissues." Jamie said, putting her hand on Blaine's shoulder while getting up to go get what she said she would.
She quickly ran into the living room and grabbed the tissue box she saw on the side table the night before, before running back into the kitchen, not wanting to leave Blaine alone when he was feeling this down.
Blaine was still sitting in the same position as before, but now staring off into space. She dropped the tissues into Blaine's lap, gave him a quick kiss on the head, before heading in the direction of the downstairs bathroom to get a washcloth.
As she walked upstairs, she pulled out her cell phone and dialled Cooper, hoping he was done with kicking those Warblers' asses.
Cooper picked up on the second ring.
"Hello."
"Hey, baby. It's Jamie."
"Hi hon, is everything alright?"
Jamie let out a long sigh.
"What's wrong?" Jamie could hear the obvious worry in Cooper's voice.
"Everything. I made Blaine breakfast this morning and when I went upstairs to surprise him with breakfast in bed, I found him cutting himself in his bathroom."
"Shit." Cooper swore and Jamie heard him speed up the car, nearly hitting a few cars if the loud honks she heard were anything to go by. "Then what happened?"
"I bandaged him up, took him downstairs, and we ate breakfast while talking about cooking. By the way, you're brother is an absolute genius with cooking." Jamie said, wanting to get rid of some of the tension.
She heard Cooper gave a weak chuckle at that. "Of course you two would bond over food. And what happened after breakfast?"
"I confronted him about what happened upstairs and he told me that he thought we had left. He explained to me about how he's terrified of everyone else leaving him and that he didn't want to deal with that pain, so he cut to forget about it. By the end of our talk, Blaine was full blown out sobbing into my chest and had me in tears." Jamie said into the phone, tearing up at the memory as she entered the bathroom.
"Dear god," She heard Cooper whisper brokenly over the line. "My baby brother is even more broken than I thought."
"Cooper, I think Blaine needs to get professional help." Jamie said bravely over the phone, wanting Cooper to see that Blaine needed help while he was realizing how much pain his brother is in.
"What? No! I'm going to send Blaine to some shrink to tell him he's crazy!" Cooper yelled over the phone, causing Jamie to sigh as she grabbed a washcloth and stuck it under the faucet.
"Cooper..."
"No! What if they're a homophobe and just say Blaine needs to be locked up for being insane enough to be gay and it happens? I can't have my brother suffering in the nut house!" Cooper said hysterically.
"Cooper, I was thinking of sending Blaine to see one of my good friends."
"Oh,"
"Yeah, none of my friends are homophobes and they have their PhD's, which makes them more than qualified." Jamie said, leaving the bathroom with the wet cloth.
"Yeah, but what if they just make it worse?"
Jamie let out a sigh as she stopped outside the kitchen. "Listen, why don't we talk about this when you get home? And I'll bring it up with Blaine now."
"I don't think that's a good idea. Should we really bring this idea up with him when he's this hurt and broken?" Cooper asked, concern and worry laced in his voice.
"I think he has a right to decide for himself and he should do so right away. And plus, he's emancipated, so he can't do anything without agreeing to it. And I want Blaine to heal and this seems to be the best plan for him so I want him to see that." Jamie said thinking of how broken Blaine looked and hating that mental picture.
Cooper sighed over the line. "Okay. Bring it up with him. And we'll talk about it when I get home."
"You already confronted the Warblers?" Jamie asked.
"Yes I did. And it actually went pretty good. But I'll tell you all about it when I get back."
"Okay. I'll see you later.
"Alrighty. Bye. Love you."
"Love you too. Bye." And Jamie hung up the phone. She sighed and rubbed her face. Life was too stressful with Cooper, but she wouldn't change it at all.
She then walked into the kitchen, hoping Blaine hadn't heard her conversation and/or notice how long she was gone for. Blaine was sitting at the kitchen table with a glass of warm milk and was surrounded by tissues.
"Hey there buddy. I got the washcloth!" Jamie said in a bright voice while pulling up a chair in front of Blaine and sitting down in it. "Is it okay if I clean your face? Or do you want to do it yourself?" Jamie asked, not wanting to push any boundaries.
"You can do it." Blaine said hoarsely, before clearing his voice and taking a sip of warm milk, his voice sore from all the crying he did.
Jamie reached over and slowly and gently washed Blaine's face, cleaning away all the tears. When she felt his face should be clean enough, she pulled her hand and the cloth away. When she uncovered Blaine's face, he had such a peaceful and calm face, she couldn't help but smile. It was a vast improvement from sobbing Blaine.
"So, are you feeling a bit better?" Jamie asked.
"Yeah, I feel much better." Blaine said with a small smile.
"And you look it." Jamie said with a wink and a tap on Blaine's nose, causing him to giggle, reminding her of a small child. "And since you're feeling and looking better, do you think we could talk about something serious?"
Blaine smiled faded a bit. "Like what?"
"Like what happened upstairs."
Blaine smile completely disappeared at that. "But we already talked about that. You already know what happened."
"Yeah, but now we need to talk about what we're going to do now."
"We're not going to do anything. We're just going to forget this ever happened and move on." Blaine said before getting up to leave.
"No Blaine, you have to be grown up about this. This is very serious. I personally think you need to see a psychiatrist." Jamie said, grabbing Blaine's arm to stop him from leaving.
"No! I don't want to be grown up!" Blaine said angrily, close to yelling. "I've had to be grown up for too long already! I just want someone else to take care of me for once! Not me making my own decisions again!"
"Oh Blaine," Jamie said sympathetically. "I know it's hard to be grown up and that you had to be so grown up way too early, and I want you to take a break from being grown up, but you are needed in this decision. It involves, and is just about you, and you should have the right to decide for yourself. And since you're emancipated, you have to sign and agree to it."
Blaine let out a sigh. "I know, but I don't want to have to be grown up. I just want to be worrying about school, video games and boys, not taxes, buying food to eat, and now whether I should see a psychiatrist for self harm or not."
"I know, but you have to. It's extremely important." Jamie said sympathetically. "But you don't have to make a decision now. You can make it later, okay?" Jamie asked, putting her hand on his shoulder.
"Okay." Blaine said, nodding his head. "Can we talk about or do something else now?"
"Sure." Jamie said agreeing, noticing how awkward and uncomfortable Blaine looked. "Why don't we make some lunch? Cooper should probably be here in a little while and I'm sure he'll want something to eat when he gets back.
The two then started getting vegetables, steaks, pasta and spices from their different places around the kitchen, planing on making a pasta salad and steak for lunch.
They then started chopping the vegetables, at first in an awkward silence. But after a little while and Jamie succeeding in cutting her thumb, the two were talking like old friends.
"And it was like love at first sight. When I first saw him, I just knew he was the one. Though of course, being the oblivious idiot I am, I didn't realize he loved me back until a few months later." Blaine said smiling widely, a look of love in his eyes, as he stirred the pasta salad.
Jamie had to smile at the look. "You really love Kurt, don't you?"
Blaine stopped stirring and turned to look Jamie seriously in the eye. "Yes, I do."
Jamie looked at him for a few seconds before nodding her head. "I'm happy for you Blaine. I really am."
"Thank you." Blaine said with a huge smile. "And I'm happy for you and Cooper. You two are good together."
"Thanks." Jamie said with a huge smile before going back to seasoning the steak.
The two fell into a comfortable silence for a few minutes, before Blaine spoke, breaking that silence.
"Jamie, I want to go see that psychiatrist."
Jamie completely stopped what she was doing at that. "I... I'm glad Blaine. I do think this will be extremely helpful for you."
Blaine nodded his head before going to the fridge and pulling out the ingredients to make Iced Tea. Jamie watched him as he did so, Blaine looking extremely calm as he put all the ingredients together.
"Jamie!" Blaine suddenly cried, shoving Jamie away from the stove and taking over the cooking off the steak.
"What's wrong Blaine?" Jamie asked, confused and worried about what could possibly be wrong.
"You were burning the steak!" He said, looking horrified at the thought of burning a steak.
Jamie stared at Blaine for a second before bursting into laughter.
"What's so funny?" Blaine asked, confused as he flipped the steak over.
"Nothing," Jamie said with a smile. "Nothing at all."
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A/N Omg, this is this the longest chapter I've ever written! Eeek! :D All my awesomely long and awesome chapters are just happening in this story for some reason! And I believe it's all because of you guys!
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Anyhoo, the next chapter is going to have Blaine and Cooper talking, we need some more brother communication. Even if it's about Blaine getting help for cutting. It's needed for Blaine to heal and get better! :) And as soon as that chapter happnes, we're going to have Cooper yelling at New Directions and Kurt finding out about Blaine's homelife and cutting. This story is finally going to move forward! :)
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