THE SECRETS THAT CAN DESTORY US

Wow this story is getting to be a lot longer than I had ever imagined it would be and the support you all have shown me is amazing. Thank you for all of the wonderful responses that you have sent me. I will worn you that it is still going to get a little darker before it cheers up at all, but be patient, it will get there. Thanks again to everyone who has read and/or reviewed my story. Wow I am rambling… here's the update. Hope you like it.

CHAPTER 14

CHUCK'S BEDROOM

When Chuck woke up the next morning he felt like he hadn't slept at all. His night was filled with horrible dreams about what Jack did to Blair, and also of the possibilities of what more he was to find out. His only comfort was when he woke up from those dreams the love of his life was lying safely in his arms, but this time when he woke up he found his arms to be empty. He rolled over and hollered, "Blair are you in the bathroom sweet heart," "man" he thought to himself, "when did I turn into such a sappy sensitive pushover." When Chuck got no reply he worriedly go up and headed to Serena's room to see if Blair, the early riser she was, had gone to search out her best friend. Chuck knocked on the door and when he got no response, he eased the door open and found that the room was still dark and that Serena was still sound asleep. "Where the heck could she have gone?" Chuck wondered to himself. He then proceeded to check the living room and the kitchen, and no Blair. "I guess I could call her, maybe she went home to change, but I would have heard her, wouldn't I?" Chuck wondered. When he reached into his pocket he pulled out a phone and a box. "What the heck, this isn't my phone?" Chuck thought and then remembered that he had confiscated Blair's phone from her at dinner when his uncle called and said all those horrible things. Just as he was about to open the phone to find the number for Blair's penthouse he heard a noise down the hall, it was coming from Erik's room. "I didn't think he came home last night," Chuck thought, "he was going to stay at Jonathan's." Obviously Erik had come home and Chuck wandered down the hall to get to his room.

INSIDE ERIK'S ROOM

"Blair it is going to be alright, we will all help you no matter what," Erik reassured Blair.

"But, what if Chuck and my mother hate me? No one would want to be with something as damaged as I am. You know I am right Erik, I can already picture the disgust in there faces when they find out what happened on New Years. Australia was bad enough, but I was just a stupid gullible kid. I knew what it would cost me this time, and it was so bad, and I needed him, and and," Blair rambled breaking down into tears.

"Blair you were drunk and desperate and Jack preyed upon that and blackmailed you into it, its not your fault and if Chuck can't see that then its better you know now and learn to heal without him, I love my brother, but he has already hurt you enough. If he cares about you the way I know he does he will stand behind you, but if I'm wrong and he doesn't there are plenty of us who do love you and will stand by you until the world comes crashing down and after," with that said Erik drew Blair back into his arms and held her as she cried.

Chuck had witnessed all of this from the doorway. He wanted to be glad that Blair found someone to comfort her, but he had so much anger in him from the previous night, and he was so jealous and angry that Blair would take comfort from Erik, but that she wouldn't take it from him, that he exploded and lashed out at the two of them before he even had a chance to think. It was 5 minutes that he would wish that he could take back for the rest of his life.

"Well isn't this cozy, the two little damaged peas in a pod," at this statement Blair cringed, thinking, "I really am damaged and disgusting." Chuck continued on his tirade though never noticing the effect that his words were having on Blair, "Looks like bed hopping is the new tradition around here, and you Blair I thought you had some decency he's a little young for you isn't he. I guess though age really doesn't matter to you that has been made abundantly clear," Chuck said using the information from last night in a way he had never intended to. It had its intended result though and Blair curled further into herself burying herself in the protection of Erik's arms, which just increase Chuck's anger and jealousy, he still hadn't allowed his brain to catch up with any of his word when he continued, "and you Erik, I guess now I know why you were always trailing around behind me like a little puppy dog, it was to get close to this dog in heat over there. What about Jonathan? What's he going to think about you cheating on him with a girl, MY GIRL! or was he part of it, tell me who was the meet in the sandwich you three had going on?" Chuck ranted at the two of them, tearing Erik away from Blair and shoving Erik up against the wall, the site of the two holding each other just made Chuck continue to see nothing but red. He took out all of his anger and jealousy on Erik, hew was holding him there against the wall with one arm while he swung at him with the other. His punches found their mark in Erik's stomach. "She is MINE Erik, you got that," Chuck continued to rage.

"Chuck, what are you doing? Leave him alone he didn't do anything we were just talking, nothing happened. Please let him go, you are hurting him." Blair said frantically as she tried to pull Chuck off of Erik. When she grabbed his shoulder trying to stop him he swung backwards and the next thirty seconds happened like they were in slow motion. Blair was thrown back wards and the action caused her to spin around slightly and the front of her body was slammed into the corner of Erik's desk. After Blair hit the desk she crumpled to the floor and screamed in pain before passing out. When that happened Chuck let go of Erik and raced to Blair's side.

"Blair, baby wake up please, I need you. I am so sorry I didn't think. I didn't mean any of it; some times I do stupid things and don't think before I lash out. I am sorry, I had just been so worried when I woke up and couldn't find you and then when I found you were with Erik and you let him hold you and comfort you and you told him what happened, you told him everything and you did it before you told me anything and I was so jealous and I still had all of this anger from what you told me last night, and what I over heard you talking about with Erik that I over heard, and I am sorry I will do anything to make it up to you. I love you, please Blair. Baby. Please come back to me, please give me a chance to fix this," Chuck pleaded with Blair's unconscious form for the second time in two days and spilled everything that was going through his head as he had the thought, completely unfiltered.

"Get away from her Chuck, don't you think you have done enough damage already," Erik said as he took Blair away from Chuck and tried to lay her on his bed. "I thought you were better than this, I was trying to convince her to tell you everything but I was wrong you are just like the rest of the Bass men, you have more fun breaking you women than being with them," Erik berated Chuck as he started to try and unbutton the bottom couple of buttons to her flannel shirt. When he did though he noticed that there was blood on the bottoms of the pajamas. It changed everything, it was about getting help for Blair and they would have to get along until they could hash this out later.

"Chuck, hurry call an ambulance right away," Erik told him as he tried to feel around on her stomach to see if the desk had cut her anywhere, but he couldn't find anything. Chuck was completely in shock from what had happened and didn't even register what Erik was saying, so Erik picked up the phone next to his bed and called for an ambulance, when he go off the phone with the dispatcher, he turned to Chuck and shook him. "Chuck man you have to snap out of it we need to get her down stair so that the ambulance can take her to the hospital faster, they are going to meet us in the lobby. I need your help I can't carry her as well as you can and I don't want to jar her in case it causes her more pain," Erik said to Chuck and that finally snapped Chuck out of his shock and he picked Blair up as carefully as he could and Erik got the doors in front and behind him and got the elevator.

Bye the time they had gotten to the bottom floor the EMTs were just coming into the lobby with a gurney and Chuck gently laid her down on the gurney.

"Can one of you tell me what happened?" one of the EMTs asked them.

"We were fighting and she tried to break it up. She fell and she hit her stomach on the corner of my desk. She has been unconscious since that happened and when I went to check her stomach to make sure she was okay, I noticed she was bleeding," Erik replied trying to remember everything that happened.

"Does she have any conditions? Is she on any medications that we should know about?" the EMT asked again as the two EMTs, Chuck and Erik headed out to the waiting ambulance with Blair on the gurney.

"Ah," Chuck said hesitating for a minute.

"Whatever it is we need to know to figure out what is wrong with your friend here. We won't judge we just need to know to make a correct diagnosis," the EMT said when he noticed that Chuck was hesitant to tell him anything. At this point they were all in the ambulance and headed to the hospital.

"She's bulimic I know that. I don't think she is taking anything," Chuck said really worried about Blair. She looked so pale and she still hadn't woken up.

"She's been taking her mother's Zoloft," Erik supplied after Chuck said that he wasn't sure. All eyes at this point turned to Erik.

"Do you know how much she was taking? When the last time was that she took it?" the EMT asked now turning his questions to Erik, because that boy seemed to have a better grasp of what was going on with the unconscious girl.

"Um I think about 3 is what she said, but she didn't take any last night. She didn't have them with her she said. It was why she had so much trouble sleeping last night," Erik explained answering the man's questions. Chuck just stared at him, and felt so guilty about the fact that Blair was laying her unconscious and jealous of Erik because he knew so much more about what was going on with the woman that Chuck was in love with.

"Okay, thank you for that. Is she on any other medication," the EMT asked again while he made a note on the report. When he looked up both boys shook their heads in the negative in answer to his questions.

"Is she pregnant?" the EMT asked. The bleeding, from his observation looked like it could be spotting or the beginning of a miscarriage. The girl looked young, but he had learned in this line of work, that unfortunately now a days that really didn't make any difference.

"NO"- Chuck"Maybe"-Eric, the two boys said at the same time. Chuck just stared at Eric when he said that. Chuck knew that it had been a long time since he and Blair slept together, the night he came to her before disappearing and he had remembered at the last minute to use protection, and before that it had been a couple of days before his father had died that was like 2 months before. There was no way, she would have known by now and she was so dedicated to finding him while he was gone, everyone had told him how she had turned over every last stone. Unless, no she wouldn't, but she was so upset did she sleep with Jack? As Chuck thought it, he wanted to discredit it, but the more he thought the more it made the pieces fall into place. He was going to be sick.

"So there is a chance that she is pregnant?" the EMT asked cutting into Chucks thoughts. At this point both sets of eyes turned on to Eric.

"She didn't know. She was going to take the test today. She was scared," Eric told the two with fear in his eyes and voice from what Chuck's reaction was going to be.

After that the EMT and the two boys in the ambulance were completely focused on trying to get he unconscious girl between them to wake up. Within about 4 minutes the ambulance screeched into the bay and Blair was rushed away by a couple of doctors that were trying to help her. Eric and Chuck were not allowed to follow them back and were required to stay in the waiting room and well wait, though Chuck was annoying every person in the waiting room and the nursing staff trying to get information about how Blair was doing.

It took about 45 minutes and several forms that the two had to sign about Blair's medical history, most of which they didn't have, before the doctor came out to talk to the family of Blair Waldorf.

I know I know another cliff hanger again, but I haven't completely decided what I am going to have the outcome be of this hospital visit, so I am very open to suggestions and opinions. Thanks again to everyone who has taken the time to read my story. I have to admit that it is not completely following the path I originally mapped out for the story and it has a lot more characters that I originally expect, hopefully you all still like it though.