Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air

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:Time Passes:

And so history seemed to repeat itself in Konoha. The city felt dead. The young blonde girl had managed to bring life back to the city after Naruto's exile and she took it with her when she left.

For a while the only people who went on like nothing had happened or even celebrated a bit were the people who still thought Naruto's exile was the right thing to do (They now called themselves 'The People's Voice of Konoha') but that all changed three months after when a group of over ten thousand ninja consisting of Oto Ninja, Iwa Ninja and Kumo Ninja showed up at Konoha's gate.

Apparently the Raikage and Tsuchikage had written letters to Konoha asking that if Konoha wasn't going to join them in their advances against Onigakure than would Tsunade please allow their ninja to make camp for a time while they planned their invitation of Oni.

Tsunade complied only for the sake of Konoha. She knew that the Onikage, who ever he was, wouldn't hold it over her and that if Oni's overall power was anything compared to Houtaru's as just one person than Oni would probably pull out of the attack unscratched. Toshiro had kept true of his promise and had not told anyone anything Houtaru had told him, but he didn't really say anything to anyone anymore.

Tsunade allowed the ninja to make camp in the forest on the outskirts of the city and that's where they stayed for three weeks before they packed up and left for Oni.

The day that they reached the Great Mountain Range was a day that they intended to be bookmarked in history as the down fall of The Land of Demon's. It was bookmarked but it was called 'The Day Demons Rose' and gained the country the name 'The Land Protected by Demons.'

The Iwa ninja had knocked down a wide pass in the mountains sufficiently gaining then ground-level access into the valley. The ninja had made ranks and planned to charge into the valley, using sound to navigate, and destroy Oni and leave no survivors, then go home and celebrate.

They never got the chance.

They had known there was a fog that blocked any access to the valley and that no one had ever gotten through the barrier to Oni but they had foolishly thought that was going to be their biggest problem. As they were about to charge into the valley the mist had poured into the pass but they had stupidly paid no mind to it and kept charging. Only about a dozen of the backmost ranks had been able to escape with barely their lives and told of how nine giant masses of different colored chakra had swept out of the mist and destroyed everything in their wake. The ninja told of how each mass appeared like tails from something that was glowing black in the center of the mist and behind it the silhouettes of nine giant beasts, each with one more tail than the next, could be seen behind the glowing form.

The destruction had been immense and the death toll had been half of the first Great Ninja War. Almost ten thousand ninja died and it was because of some mysterious weapon that Onigakure had possessed and it did nothing but fuel the fear in the opposing nation's eyes. It had fueled the fear but to a point that no one would try anything against Oni any time soon.

After the attack on Onigakure the nation seemed to all but disappear again. The mountain had sealed itself back up and the mist hadn't retreated but instead engulfed the other side of the mountains. Nothing came from Oni. No notes, no messages for Iwa, Oto or Kumo demanding apologies for the attack or any reprimands, nothing about declaring war on the other nations, nothing; absolutely nothing.

A few years past with nothing but stress between the different nations. No one was promoted, no one went on missions outside their countries, and no one traveled. Everyone was waiting for Oni to make a move.

For Houtaru, her world had progressed in leaps and bounds. After she returned home there was a celebration to celebrate her return and the twin's birthday. She had allowed herself to have some fun because she knew that the road from now would be brutal, and she was right.

The next day she had begun her training again. Her father trained her relentlessly and she had even summoned all nine of the Bijuu one day before training under them as well as training under Gaara and with her team: Takeru and Nozomi. She had managed to get control of some of her power and by the time of the other nation's attack she was able to easily kill the army of ninja and that's what had scared her. After that her power had grown. She was now able to fully control all of the Bijuu's full power however she was having trouble controlling her own.

She had found that she had two different types of her own chakra: black and gold. Her black chakra was what she called her 'demonic chakra.' She could use it to destroy only and it would slash trough, burn or destroy almost anything including other chakra. It was extremely powerful and she would use it in all of her jutsus such as all her versions of rasengan and everything else she would use. It was a solid form of chakra that she could use anyway she wanted to.

Her gold chakra was what she had referred to as her 'angelic chakra.' She didn't call it that because she thought she was anything compared to an angel, but she called it that to represent that extreme difference between it and her 'demonic chakra.' This is a chakra she hadn't known about before. This chakra could be used to a greater extent than Ni-bii's healing chakra. It had healing properties and, as the Lord of Demons, it allowed her to heal any wound inflicted by anything, even a demon. She could even bring someone back from the brink of death and easily use this chakra to adapt someone's chakra network in any way she pleased with the help of her Aoi-byakugan. She could increase the person's power or take it until they were left with only enough to keep them alive for about a minute. In a way it was more deadly than her demonic chakra but it could be used for so much good she just couldn't bear to give it a bad name.

It was with this chakra that she found a way to summon all nine of the Bijuu once more and keep them sustained. She would create a chain of gold chakra the appeared as a giant leash and collar on each of the demons. They didn't really mind; she was their master after all.

But everyone knew she had changed. Something about her eyes had always seemed to be empty, dead in a way. Everyone, especially Takeru, noticed. (it was a twin thing) Takeru had even addressed it once but she had said it was nothing. Finally her father asked her:

:Flash:Back:

"Houtaru?" Naruto asked while he knocked on her door and found her looking through a scroll about some demon that she had heard wanted to speak to her about something. Demons would sometimes show up in Oni asking to see Houtaru now. There weren't many but it was evident that they were all realizing that they had a new lord to answer to. They had found out about heard after word of the failed attack by the apposing ninja on Oni. Every demon knew that no mortal, powerful or not, could do something like that.

"What is it, Papa?" Houtaru asked while looking at him with her piercing black and gold eyes. She had been back for a few months now and she had decided on a neutral look that combined her human appearance with her real one. She had kept her eyes, ears and one of her tails but she had kept her hair it's pure golden color and her teeth, nails and whisker marks weren't a sharp or pronounced. She still wore her hair in its usual high pigtails but over the past months it had straightened out a bit but was still spiky.

"I wanted to talk to you about something." Naruto said with a sigh and came to site down next to his daughter. She looked at him and waited "Something's been wrong with you, I can see it. I used to act the same way, wear the same mask that you're trying to get away with. Would you care to tell me what it is? And does it have something to do with that necklace you wear all the time?" He eyed the black necklace that had somehow been able to retain its sheen throughout all the training she did. He had been curious about the Uchiha crest being on it the first time he saw it but didn't ask her about it.

Houtaru looked at her father and nodded "May I speak to Mama please?"

Naruto looked surprised. Hinata and Takeru had always been close and he and Houtaru the same. Sure, Hinata and Houtaru were close and they did share one of those 'mother, daughter bonds' but Naruto didn't know why she would want to talk to Hinata about this instead of him. He pouted a bit "Fine, I'll go get her."

Houtaru laughed a bit at her father "Don't take it personally, Papa, it's a girl thing." She laughed again as her father's lips made an 'O' shape "And you don't have to go get her, she was spying on us from downstairs. She'll be right up."

Naruto rolled his eyes. Living in a house full of byakugan users wasn't something he had learned to like over the years.

There was a knock on the door and Hinata stepped in to the room with a coy smile "Just testing out some of those tips you gave Takeru, dear. They work quite well, just so you know." She smirked and Naruto grumbled and stalked out of the room causing the two left to laugh.

Hinata turned to her daughter and smiled "What do you want to talk to me about, my little firefly?" Houtaru smiled at her mother before going up and tapping the door twice with her finger and walked back to her couch and pulled her mother down with her.

"That was to make sure no one could spy on us." Houtaru explained and her mother nodded. Houtaru got really quite for a minute and wondered what to say while her mother patiently waited "I fell in love with someone in Konoha."

Hinata nearly choked at Houtaru's frankness but she had never been good at easing someone into things – just like her father. Hinata reached out a hand a fingered the silk Uchiha crest one Houtaru's necklace. "The young Uchiha I presume?"

Houtaru nodded and Hinata smiled "Is he cute?" Houtaru blushed a bit and nodded. She needed someone to talk to like this and she was glad she had her mother. When she had tried to talk to Nozomi the red-head had gushed about her twin brother. Ew! Even if they weren't identical she did not need to here that.

Hinata picked up the onyx teardrop in her fingers "Is he the reason you've been so sad?" Houtaru nodded again.

"I think he thinks that I left because I wanted to. If it was my choice he would be here in the village with me." Houtaru said. Hinata understood, if he was anything like his father he would have appeared mad because he couldn't control the situation "Even after I told him I loved him."

Hinata breathed out a bit "So that's where you slipped off to that night." Houtaru nodded again sheepishly. Hinata sighed "I don't really know what to tell you. I believe that you will be able to see him again but I do know how you feel. Your father has decided not to communicate with the other nations for a time now, but regardless I know you'll see him again."

"Thank you Mama, but I need to ask you a favor? Will you help me with my Aoi-byakugan?"

"Of course dear, how is that little apprentice of yours doing? Is Tora-chan getting any better?" Hinata asked.

"She's not my apprentice yet, Mama. I just got back a few months ago, maybe in a couple months."

Houtaru smiled at her mother, she was still said but somehow having her mother say something helped a bit but it didn't matter, she still felt breathless but not in the good sense. She felt as if her air had been all but taken away from her, just giving her enough to survive. In reality though her mother's words hadn't helped her at all. She didn't think anyone would understand and knew that she just couldn't go around asking if anyone had been in this situation before. So she just coped - if only just.

:End:

(A/N the song is 'No Air' by Jordan Sparks, she doesn't sing it, I just think it accuratly depicts how both of them feel, when I say Houtaru That means it's her POV, same for when I say Toshiro)

Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air

Houtaru: Do you think that this is any easier for me, Toshiro-kun? Do you think because I wouldn't let you stay that I don't feel anything?

If I should die before I wake
It's 'cause you took my breath away
Losing you is like living in a world with no air
Ohh

Houtaru: I feel as if I can't breathe, like I'm suffocating but just can't die. I know I sound silly but I can't help but think that. I keep getting stronger and stronger but each night I can hardly sleep. I got so used to being in your arms, Toshiro-kun, that now I have endless nightmares. I dream that I see you dying because I'm not there with you and it scares me.

I'm here alone, didn't wanna leave
My heart won't move, it's incomplete
wish there was a way that I can make you understand

Houtaru: I know I was right to leave and I know it's what made the most sense, it's what was best. But I didn't want to leave, I feel as if I have an empty feeling inside of me and it hurts like physical pain. Do you know that? Do you understand that I had to leave for your safety and that of our homes?

But how do you expect me
to live alone with just me?
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe

Houtaru: Do you really think it's been easy for me? Can you survive and do you feel the same thing I do? I centered my whole world around you and now you're gone and it's all my fault. Why didn't I just tell you the truth? I know there wasn't a way to but I could have found a way. I'm sorry Toshiro-kun, I'm so sorry.
No air, airohhh
No air, airnooo
No air, airoh a
No air, air

Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
That's how I feel whenever you ain't there
that's no air, no air
Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gonna be without me
If you ain't here, I just can't breathe
there's no air, no air


Toshiro: It's been so long since you left. I've trained and I've gotten stronger. But I feel nothing and my days go by in a haze. It's like I'm here but just barely. It's like trying to breath through a tiny tube that's been closed off and it hurts until I just got tired of feeling anymore.


I walked, I ran, I jumped, I flew
Right off the ground to float to you
There's no gravity to hold me down for real

Toshiro:The only place I ever see your face is in my dreams now and I can hardly get there anymore. I got so used to you being here with me while I slept that most nights I just lay awake. I'm so cold. Everyone's worried about me but I don't care. I just don't care. Whenever I manage to dream I always dream of flying. I'm flying in a mist and I see you but then something pulls me back and I find out it was all just a dream and I become cold again. Just like my father, everyone says, Just like my father.

But somehow I'm still alive inside
You took my breath, but I survived
I don't know how, but I don't even care

Houtaru: I don't know how I managed it but somehow I can still be happy. Whenever I train I think that if I can only have a bit more control, only a bit more, than I can come back. Somehow, I think by some miracle, I'm still alive but for now I don't even care. All I care about is getting stronger and doing whatever I can to get back.


So how do you expect me
to live alone with just me
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe

Houtaru: Do you have a secret to helping this pain go away? Or are you just as empty as me? Can you honestly say that you think it's any easier on me?

Toshiro: Whenever I walk by people give me looks of what appear to be pity, as if I should be hurting. But I'm not. I'm just numb. I can't feel anything. Have you moved on yet? You've always been so beautiful, so full of life so I'm sure you have. That's why I stay numb, so when I find out you've moved on to someone better fit for you that the empty feeling I felt before won't come back. It hurt to much and you are the only one whose ever been able to hurt me like that, Houtaru-chan, because no one else has ever mattered to me.

Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
there's how I feel whenever you ain't there
there's no air, no air
Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gonna be without me
If you ain't here, I just can't breathe
there's no air, no air

Houtaru: I told you I loved you and I hope, somehow, that you believed me. I could understand if you didn't, I could understand if when I came back you had someone else. I hurt you too much, I hurt me to. I would deserve it, to be alone. I would deserve it because I caused you pain. I saw it in your eyes when you found out I was leaving. Even if you don't feel it anymore, it was still there and I still caused it.


No air, airoohhh
No air, airoohhh
No air, airnooo
No air, airNo more
It's no air, no air

Toshiro: One day I woke up in the hospital. Apparently I did a jutsu over and over again until I nearly died of chakra exhaustion. I didn't even know, it didn't hurt because I can't feel anything. Everyone told me I was being so tough by not showing pain when in reality nothing hurts me anymore, until I see you again, if I ever see you again, the only thing that will hurt is the gaping hole in my chest that I can't feel anymore. But sometimes, if I dream of seeing you and I wake up and find you gone, I can feel it. If only for an instant I can feel just a sliver of it and it hurts more than any injury I've even been dealt.

ohhhhh baby
ooohhhhh It's no air, no air
Hey ohh no aiiiiir ohhh
ooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhh

Toshiro:You told me everything I wanted to know and more, you told me you loved me. Whenever I remember that everything feels better but only until I remember you've probably moved on and realized I wasn't worth your time. Would it have been any different if I had had the courage to tell you that I love you too? I still love you. Somewhere under all this icy numbness I can feel it.


Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
no breathingno breathing
Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gonna be without me
If you ain't here, I just can't breathe
It's no air, no air

Baby! Baaaaaby!

Houtaru: I wonder what people would say to them if I told them the reason why I was sad all the time was because I watched the only person who I've ever loved like I love you be carried away from me. Would they say I'm too young to know what love is? Would they tell me that it was just a crush and I should move on? Do you know what I would tell them, Toshiro-kun? I would tell them that I'm already in to deep to come out ever again and I don't want to. Even if you have moved on I don't think I ever will, don't think I can.


Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
it's no air no air

Toshiro:I can't breath and it's because I love you. I love you so much that it hurts me just as much when you're not here. I don't know when you're coming back. Are you ever coming back? You didn't say goodbye so does that mean your coming back?


Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gonna be without me
If you ain't here, I just can't breathe

Houtaru: You know that necklace you gave me? It seems like forever ago doesn't it? But all this time I've never taken it off. I put a protective chakra shell around it so it can't get damaged. I never take it off because it makes me feel special. It makes me feel that I have to come back because I belong to you. In a way I do. My heart belongs to you and there's nothing you or I or anyone else can do about it. I don't even think Kami could do anything about it now. I can't breathe without you. You're my air and my life now; do you feel the same way about me?


It's no air, no air
No air, airohhh
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air

Finally, after five years, Naruto called everyone in his council – this included Hinata, Takeru, Nozomi and Houtaru – and held up a scroll in his hands with his seal on the bottom.

"Who wants to review it first?" he asked the people in front of him and Houtaru held out her hand. He threw the scroll to her and she unrolled it and started reading. A smile slipped onto her face and her eyes lit up, then her face turned into a smirk.

"I must say I'm impressed, who knew you could come up with something like this by yourself." Naruto sent a glare at his daughter as she passed the scroll to Nozomi, who nodded as she read it but kept her face impassive. Takeru read over it next before passing it onto the council of eight who gave it to his mother to read.

"I agree with Imouto, it seems like a good idea, considering the fact they've been to scared to promote any chunin for the past five or six years I say you have a brilliant idea on your hands there." Takeru nodded.

"Naruto-sama, is this just Konoha or are you going to involve Kiri as well?" Raku asked.

"I think the Mist deserves an alliance with us, considering they refused to be apart of that joke alliance that thought they could take us down." Nii said with a look towards the Onikage who nodded in agreement.

"I think we should respect the alliance a little more in all there troubles towards us. I believe not troubling them with the thought of an alliance with us will do them justice, after all they still have quite a bit of rebuilding to do if they plan on making up for the ninja they lost, isn't that right Houtaru-hime?" Gaara said with a smirk.

Houtaru grimaced "While I do think they deserve the punishment of knowing we haven't quite forgiven them yet, don't think I'm proud of what I did." She got up and walked out to the door. "Send the letters, I'll go collect the other genin I believe would be good candidates."

"And after that?" Takeru asked his sister. He knew she was up to something by the tone in her voice.

She turned back around and gave a little smirk "I think a makeover is in order on my part. Papa and Mama's appearance will already put mental strain on the population of Konoha, no reason for me to show up with a tail."

Takeru jumped up and pumped his fist in the air "Road Trip!"

Nozomi rolled her eyes and got up as well "Immature idiot." She mumbled while walking out of the room.

Takeru blanched "Nozomi-chan, please don't do this to me, baby! I'll be more mature, I swear!" he said while running out after her. Naruto smirked as Gaara growled and he sealed the scroll and gave it to one of his fastest messenger birds. "Take this to Konoha and give it to Tsunade-oba-chan. Make sure that she responds immediately." The bird nodded and Naruto called another one after making a copy of the scroll and the two birds set off: one to the Mist and one to Konoha.

Ok so next chapter is beginning of part two! I realize that the part of the song was a bit sad and it's supposed to be but I hope I did a good job of it. I'm not good at writing depressing things.

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