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The rehearsal diner was tonight so I was meeting up with everyone at the restaurant after work. I haven't talked to Emmett since that night but Alyssa has seen him just about every day, He was all she talked about. When I did she him he gave me death glares, He officially wanted nothing to do with me.
"Mommy! Finally you're here." Alyssa was sitting in a booster seat all dressed up in between Jasper and Emmett. I forced a smiled walking over to her giving her a kiss on the forehead.
"Sorry I'm late guys. What did I miss?" I asked taking my empty seat next to Jared and James.
"You missed everything." Emmett said in a cold tone, Only I got the true meaning behind it. James laughed at Emmett not understanding.
"You didn't miss much cuz, We where all late." I smiled at him picking up my menu.
"Mommy guess what?" I looked up to a very enthusiastic Alyssa.
"What baby?" I asked feeling Emmett staring at me.
"I have a pretty dress and aunty Alice let me see her pretty dress, had I get to wear it soon, and um I went to the park with Em and Uncle Jasper and we played tag." I laughed at the rush of words that flew out of her mouth.
"Oh yeah? That sounds fun Lyssa. Maybe I'll take you to the park tomorrow, You want to do that?" I asked because it was my day off and I had nothing to do. Alice had the rehearsal dinner tonight but the wedding was in a few days. It was the only night Jasper got off besides the wedding and honey moon. Alyssa nodded her head then looked up to Emmett.
"Wanna come tomorrow Em, We can play again?" Emmett looked over at me with a somber look.
"Sorry kid I don't think that is such a good idea." He patted her head giving her a weak smile.
"Why not Emmy, You don't want to play with me?" I looked back at Em sorrowful.
"Honey Em is probably busy, he will play with you another time." I thought I was helping him out by answering but once again I was wrong.
"I'm perfectly capable of answering for my self Isabella, Stop trying to control every situation." His tone was truculent but his words where kind for Alyssa's behalf. Everyone was watching us no one was talking. I cleared my throat thinking of how to respond. Emmett was eyeing me before braking away to look around the table.
"Can you come Em?" Alyssa asked not under standing the tension between us. Emmett looked down t her and smiled.
"I would love to Lyssa, I'll even buy the Ice cream." Emmett smiled at her the kindness smile but glared at me. Alyssa clamped her hands together giggling.
"So you guys still haven't gotten over what ever happened between you guys huh?" James asked shacking his head Jasper laughed.
"Bells you sort of are a control freak." I smiled at them really wanting to scream on the inside. Once are drinks arrived I excused my self to the restroom. I needed a quick breather. I knew this wouldn't be easy but I wasn't expecting this to be so hard either.
"Are you ok Bella?" When I walked out of the stall Emily was standing there waiting for me.
"Yeah why?" I said going to the mirror to wash my hands and fix my hair.
"It was ugh pretty tense back there for a minute." She leaned against the counter watching me curiously.
"Emmett has always had a problem with my way of controlling everything." I was trying to sound nonchalant.
"Yeah I guess he had, You guys used to be pretty good friends, what ever happened with that?" I took in a deep breath picking up my purse.
"I didn't like Rose, He didn't like Tyler. We fought about and had a falling out. It just snow balled after that." I walked away from her hoping she would drop it.
"Emmett say's it's because Tyler had a problem with you two being friends. So you stopped talking to him." I rolled my eyes before turning to face her.
"whatever the reason is, it doesn't matter. We can't stand each other and that's it." I was more Icily then I mean tot be. At least she dropped it. When we came back Everyone seemed to have moved on. The night seemed to drag on. Alice made a few wedding announcements along with some changes in the line up. I nearly chocked on my chicken when she said Emmett was now my usher to walk me down the isle. I couldn't wait for this dam wedding to be over with already, I wanted things to go back to normal already. When we were finally done and ready to go. Emmett picked Alyssa up from her booster chair and walked out with us. I said good bye to everyone opening the door, I reached for Alyssa but Emmett pushed past me strapping her in.
"See you tomorrow kid!" Emmett waved to her goodbye shutting the door.
"Bella wait." Emmett stopped me from opening my door. I looked back at him wishing I could disappear. "I didn't mean to snap at you, I just Look if I can't have her in my life as my daughter at least allow me to be her friend, let me spend what little time I have with her. Please." I could hear the desperate tone from deep in his throat. Alyssa adored Emmett, how could I take that away from her.
"That's fine Em, How about we meet up tomorrow around 1?" I he raised an eye brow, I'm not sure if it was my defeated tone, or if he was surprised at how easy I caved in.
"I was thinking I meet you at your place around 9 go have breakfast then head off to the zoo. We watched some discovery kid show about monkeys and Alyssa really liked them so I wanted to take her to see some." I put my hand to my fore head then pushed my hair back. Why did he have to be so dam good with her, I looked him over he was even more handsome now then before.
"OK we can do that, I'll see you at nine." I turned to get in my car with out saying goodbye, holding back the never ending stream of tears. He walked back over to Jasper and Alice with his head hung low. Thank god Alyssa feel asleep on the car ride home, as soon as she was safely in bed in went to bed letting sleep take over me.
"Mama are you hungry?" I woke up to Alyssa sitting on top of me. Opening my eye with her tiny fingers. I laughed and grabbed her in a hug. Alyssa was giggling as I tickled her.
"Mama stop come eat" She squirmed away from me running out the door, I got up to chase her. I ran right into something hard, with a familiar sent.
"Emmett?" I whispered looking up into his golden eyes. Emmett cleared his throat.
"Sorry, I'm a little early. I picked breakfast up. I like the Zoo." Emmett blushed a little backing away from me. I was stunned, there was an electric current was pulling me to him, I backed away like he did.
"How did you get in?" I was trying not to get upset with him. He looked over at Alyssa, who had a guilty look on her face. "Alyssa you know better then to answer the door, why didn't you get me."
"It's not her fault. She looked out the window and I told her to open the door for me, she was going to get you but I wanted to surprise you with breakfast." Emmett spoke fast trying to get Alyssa out of trouble. I shook my head.
"Emmett you can't do that, what if you wanted to kid nap her?" Alyssa don't you ever answer the door again." I walked over to her in a panic.
"You think I would kid nap her?" He sounded disgusted. I sighed wishing I used different words.
"Not you Emmett but what if someone else she knew knocked on the door and took her/" I tried not to sound harsh with him.
"Your right it was stupid of me, I didn't think of that." I turned to face him, he lookeddiscouraged.
"No It's ok, She should feel safe with you." I know I did every time he was around even if he hated me.
We had an awkward breakfast, well Em and I did, Alyssa talked forever not feeling the uneasiness. Emmett watched her in awe as she spoke about all of the different animals she loved, and why she wanted to be a vet when she grew up. I watched him, looking for any sing that he didn't hate me as much as I thought he did, or for a sing that he wasn't as disgusted with me as he said. Don't get me wrong he had every right to feel the way he did but I could still hope he would forgive me for my many mistakes.
"You guys about ready?" Emmett asked knocking on my bedroom door where I was finishing Alyssa's hair.
"Yeah, where ready." I helped Alyssa off the counter of my restroom. She ran to Emmett hugging his leg.
"Where really going to the Zoo Em?" We both looked at each other smiling, Alyssa's eyes where wide with excitement, her smile was just as bright.
"Yes we are and where going to have a blast too." Em patted her back, Alyssa pulled back from him.
"What's a blast Em?" She asked truly curious. "Can I have one too?" She started to pout her lip. He chuckled mostly to himself.
"A blast means where going to have fun. And yes you will have a blast." Alyssa perked back up clapping her hands together bouncing up and down. Emmett laughed shacking his head opening the door for us.
"What's so funny?" I asked walking out holding Alyssa's hand.
"She just reminds me so much of Alice, it's weird but cute too." Emmett's eyes where distant as he spoke, like he was living in a different time. Before I could say anything Alyssa joined the conversation.
"I look like Alice Em? Oooo She is pretty, that means I'm pretty huh mommy?" Alyssa walked down the stairs waiting for a reply.
"Yeah Lyssie you look like Alice, you're the prettiest girl ever." Emmett said for me. I looked at him with curious eyes.
"Lyssie?" I asked wondering where he came up with that.
"Yeah, I call her that. It's just a nickname I started to call her. You know how you call her Lyssa? It just makes me feel closer to her with out getting to close, I'll stop if you want me to." I didn't know what to say to that. I got a gut wrenching feeling when he said it. I felt so bad about the whole situation, but I had to be strong for Alyssa's sake. Emmett has his own life out in Florida. It wouldn't be fair to him either to ask him to become a part of her life after all this time. I needed to protect them both from me. I did this, I'm to blame, Id rather have to suffer inside, everyday feeling like my heart is slowly ripping part rather then to have Alyssa crying not understanding why her daddy wont stay or Emmett having to love her from so far away. I could see how much he is already hurting, I don't want give him another reason to be more miserable.
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