Warning: This chapter is RATED M for explicit material (they have sex).

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The full moon was shining so bright above them they didn't need flashlights to make their way down to the dock.

Kili sat first, dangling his legs over the edge. His toes skimmed the water. The night was still warm, and the cool water felt nice on his feet.

Fili sat down next to him, and he pulled out his notepad and pen, and wrote;

Thank you, for everything.

I don't mean just this weekend. I was in a dark place, but you pulled me out of it.

I never want to go back there again.

"I know. And you wont. I'll always be there for you, Fili." Kili said, taking his hand.

Fili moved in closer, his eyes glinting in the bright moonlight. It was so bright Fili could read his lips easily.

Kili smiled.

"Can I kiss you?" He asked

Fili's smile broadened, and he nodded.

Kili leaned in and pressed his lips against Fili's.

Fili hesitated for just a moment, but then he leaned into him, kissing him back.

Kili pulled away for a moment to pull his shirt off, and then he started to tug on Fili's.

Fili stopped his hands, shaking his head.

"Hey, it's okay." Kili said, whatever Fili was hiding underneath his shirt, he could handle. He knew it.

"Trust me." he said

Fili paused and the he nodded his head, and pulled his black shirt up over his head to reveal a dark scar that went across his chest and down to his stomach. There were also two dark long scars on each wrist, accompanied by dozens of smaller ones.

Kili's heart sank as he realized that their meeting on the bridge wasn't Fili's first attempt. This was what he had been hiding earlier; he didn't want them to know about the scars on his wrists.

Fili shook his head, covering the scars by crossing his arms across his chest. He cast his eyes down, looking at the dark wood of the dock instead of Kili.

"It's okay, Fili. I think you're beautiful." Kili said, he took Fili's chin and gently lifted it up until their eyes met.

"You are beautiful." he said.

Kili then took Fili's left arm, and kissed every scar on his wrist, then he moved to the right arm.

"You are beautiful." he repeated.

Fili's eyes were shining bright in the darkness, and he reached up to touch Kili's hair, then his face, then his collarbone. He kissed Kili gently on the side on his face, and then on the lips again.

Kili then slowly stood up, pulling Fili with him. He unbuttoned his pants and pulled them down, kicking them off. Fili's hands touched his torso, his stomach, his back. Taking him in, in the moonlight.

Fili reached and removed his pants too. They stood there naked in the moonlight, just taking each other in. Even in the darkness, Kili could count every single one of Fili's ribs.

He pulled Fili in close, hands brushing lightly over his chest, his stomach, and his back. Kili felt him shaking and took Fili's hands in his.

Kili took a step towards the water, he gave Fili's hand a squeeze.

"Ready?" he asked

Fili nodded and together they jumped into the cool water.

They circled each other in the water, naked bodies fitting perfectly together. Kili tenderly kissed Fili's neck, and he felt Fili's hands as they ran up and down his back. Kili slowly propelled them backwards until he could feel the smooth shore rocks brush up against his legs.

"Do you want to?" Kili asked, not sure if he would be able to control himself any longer.

Fili nodded his head

"Are you sure?"

Fili nodded his head again, and then kissed him gently on the lips. They moved closer to the shore until they were halfway out of the water on the soft lake sand and then Fili flipped over, his bare back shining in the moonlight. Kili entered him slowly, enjoying the warmth as he rocked back and forth with the motion of the waves. Fili's skin felt cool and soft in his hands; he reached down slowly and massaged Fili until he felt him tremble with desire. When Kili came, he cried out into the night and their voiced entangled with each other as they were enraptured with warm pleasure.

They drifted back out to the dock, staring at the stars, enjoying each other's tight embrace. Kili's chest was full of love and passion as he stared at the man floating next to him. Fili's eyes glittered in the moonlight, and he reached and tucked a stray strand of hair from Kili's face.

"I love you" Fili said, his voice a soft whisper in the darkness.

Kili smiled and put his forehead against Fili's, kissing him on the nose and then on the mouth. He pulled away and whispered in his ear, even though he knew he couldn't hear it but he knew he could feel it.

"I love you too."

Fili tightened his embrace around Kili, and Kili knew that this was the happiest moment in his entire life so far.

They floated in the water until the cold drove them out. Kili pulled Fili gently up onto the dock and wrapped him in the blankets he had brought down from the cabin. They laid back and looked up at the stars glittering bright in the mountain sky.

With Fili's warm body next to him, and the stars glistening down on him, Kili fell asleep.

It was the perfect end to a perfect day.

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