She awoke.

That was the first time I have gotten a good night sleep...since...well I can't really remember.

She remembered last night.

"Trowa, I don't know what I am doing" - She broke the kiss after what seemed like a long time. His hands were on her face, and his breath smelled like raspberries.

"I am not exactly an expert with this either Relena" - He couldn't stop looking at her face, as if to remind himself that this was actually happening.

Then suddenly, she thought of something very important.

"Oh...no" - Her face looked so alarmed Trowa immediately asked - "what's wrong?"

"My brother" - She walked away from his embrace, and paced as she continued - "if he finds out, this won't be good, not for you, or Heero, or me, we need to keep this quiet"

Trowa nodded.

"I do not think Zechs will be a problem however, I intend to have a talk with him"

"What?!" - Relena quickly turned to look at him - "do you have a death wish?! No, Trowa, let me talk to him"

"Together, then" - He was amused by her concern, and it made him happier than she knew.

"Alright" - Relena continued - "but...this will not be easy and, well we need to figure what this is before we tell him, my brother does not appreciate dubious arguments"

"What I feel for you is no dubious argument, Relena" - He looked at her then, and his gaze was frightening, intense, and Relena had never seen it before, not even during battle.

"I...I see" - She managed to say, then he had meant it, whatever odd relationship configuration he was talking about.

"I didn't mean it that way, I am sorry if it was hurtful, I just meant, Heero and I...and you and I, it's, it's not easy to believe whatever we have is genuine, my brother knows how I feel about Heero" - She added.

"And he will know how I feel for you. I doubt he hasn't noticed" - Trowa smiled and walked closer.

Relena was paralyzed then. Not because she didn't want him to get closer, but because his intensity, however quiet, scared her to no end, and not necessarily in a bad way.

"May I kiss you?" - He asked her, with that voice of his, tender and impossible to resist. At least, somehow, it had become impossible to resist.

"If you do, what will happen next?" - She was completely serious

"What do you want to happen next?" - He asked, he extended his arm to touch her cheek.

"Can you just, stay?" - Relena's head turned towards the bed - "just, sleep with me, nothing else"

"I can't promise I won't do anything else, if I stay" - Trowa said - "I will let you sleep"

Relena reached for his arm.

"Just one kiss" - She said, her face red.

Trowa smiled, and happily obliged.

He had left right after.

She didn't know what was worse, how much she missed him or the fact that she had almost said yes to him staying, no matter the consequences.

This never happened with Heero...with Heero it was...

She snapped out of it. Heero was gone, and whatever had happened to him and wherever he was, she was sure it was for a good reason.

There was a talk she needed to have with her brother, and Trowa had said 7 am sharp, and she was almost late.

She quickly showered and dressed. She was out her door and saw Trowa waiting there for her.

She smiled at him and she took his hand.

They walked together until they reached Milliardo Peacecraft's door.

Relena knocked twice.

Heero Yuy had failed this mission.

His room was on the second floor, not as high as he would have preferred, so he had managed to get on the roof, like only he could, without being seen.

It was a little after 4 am.

And then his mind wandered...

The first time he kissed her, she had been angry.

"It took you long enough Heero Yuy!" - She had replied - "I love you as well, if it wasn't already obvious"

He hadn't asked for her permission then, he simply took her.

After, he had felt the guiltiest he had ever felt. She claimed she didn't.

'I don't deserve her...' - He thought - 'But I don't know any other way to live'

That was it. Relena was his life. He couldn't live if she wasn't safe, if she wasn't happy, even if it wasn't with him.

But his stupid instincts were selfish, and his need was eternally in charge of him when they were both alone.

He couldn't dial it back. He couldn't balance it out.

He hated that.

It was in one of those nights, after the war, when their relationship was in full swing, that he told her.

"I love you" - He had sad, simply.

They were in bed, after, and she was sleeping.

He never found out if she had heard it.

But it was better this way.

He left before first light.

And every day after that, he had hated himself for not trying harder.

But there was no way for him to do it, he didn't know how. And she deserved someone who could.

But, another part of him always wondered, if he was just too selfish to try.

The sun was rising then, he could see it now on top of the ocean.

He couldn't go back. He had failed. And that only meant one thing.

He had to end it.

At that same moment, he received a call on his pocket communicator. Heero answered.

"Heero! You need to come home" - It was Quatre.

"This line is compromised" - Heero replied

"It doesn't matter Heero, please, come home and make up with Ms Relena" - Quatre was sad, Heero suspected this was his doing too.

"She's better off Quatre" - He said, tired of this same song and dance.

"I saw them Heero, I saw Trowa and Relena, hand in hand" - Quatre's voice was soft

Heero hung up then.

He proceeded to clean up his room of all incriminating data and left two hours later.

Duo had failed him.

_Angst, Gundam, and Harry._

AN: Lots of flashbacks this Chapter, but I think they are important to the plot . For those of you who don't know, I changed the rating to M, as the story is going in a way that might need it. Enjoy :)

Reviews welcome.

By Silenci0.

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