NCIS:
TIRED OF LOVING HER FROM THE SIDELINES...
DISCLAIMER:
NCIS and characters do not belong to me.
SUMMARY:
Abby and McGee have a night together, a few days later she is telling him about someone knew. Tired of loving her from the sidelines he leaves...
That was eleven years ago.
CHAPTER 14: TAKING WILL TO SEE ABBY...
TIM'S P.O.V.
SARAH'S HOUSE...
I walked into the kitchen and saw that Sarah, Charlie and Will were eating. Seeing me Will got a hopeful look on his face and I could tell they had just started to eat.
Ziva and Tony had picked Adam up not too long before I showed up, probably with Ziva driving, because they had beat me here.
"Can I go see mom now?" Will asked.
"Finish your lunch first." I told him.
I was still after three weeks getting used to the idea I was a father. I may have missed a few of the best years of Will's life, but I wouldn't miss anymore.
Years ago I had been a leader of a Boy Scout Troop.
"Slow down, Will. Tim there's some food on the stove it you're hungry." Sarah said and it was then that my stomach growled.
I got some food and sat down to eat, when I started to eat Will had just finished and sat waiting to go.
I took my time eating, because I was trying to figure out what to tell Will, before we went left to go see Abby.
Finally after a few minutes I finished eating and Will jumped up from the table.
I followed him and we climbed into my car that I had gotten just a couple of weeks before.
"Will, I need to tell you something. Before you go in to see your mom," I told him.
"Mom still doesn't remember me? I thought you had a plan." Will asked.
"I did, I took her photo albums. There is a good chance she still might not know who you are." I told him.
"What if she doesn't? What if mom never remembers me?" Will said and looked at me, a look I had seen on Abby's face a few times.
I didn't know what to say and the rest of the ride to the hospital was quiet. I heard Gibbs talking to her.
After a few minutes we reached the outside of Abby's room.
THE HOSPITAL...
"Tim, how many times do I have to tell you no lurk...?" Abby began as I stepped into the room and she noticed Will behind me.
"Mom," Will yelled as he ran over to the bed.
"I'll see you later, Abs." Gibbs said giving Abby a kiss on the cheek and leaving.
Abby looked from me to him and then back at me.
She didn't seem to know what to say to Will, but I knew she could see what I had been seeing.
The fact that Will looked like both of us and she looked a little surprised.
"Why?" Abby asked and I knew what the question was about.
"Because I thought it might help if you saw him." I said and then we both looked at him, Will was crying.
"Don't cry, Will." Abby told him.
"Then remember me." Will pleaded and pulling the chair over to the bed he climbed up on the bed, the sat there beside her.
What Abby did seemed almost automatic, as she pulled him into her arms and hugged him. Will had been on one side and I stood on the other.
Abby looked at me over the top of Will's head there were tears in her eyes.
"I want to remember." She mouthed.
"I know, Abs." I said and without thinking about it, I took her hand and gave it a squeeze.
When we heard a click and saw a flash, Abby and I looked at the door. Will did not move.
"First full family photo and it looks like Will might be here a while. I don't think trying to get him to move is an option." Tony said walking into the room, a smile on his face.
"What are...?" Abby began and I smiled.
"Abs, he's asleep. Ever since the night you were in that accident he hasn't been sleeping well," I said.
"Tim, I never wanted this." Abby told me and I looked at her confused.
"What?" I asked and feared the answer.
"I never wanted to get married or have kids." Abby said.
"I know, Abby. We can't change what has already happened though." I said.
"I know he looks just like you do when you sleep." Abby said looking at Will and then you looking at me.
"He's got a lot of you in him to. Don't tell me you started teaching him your famous threat." I joked and Abby looked at me sadly.
"I don't think I would, but I don't know. I can't remember and I want to so much, it feels like a part of me is missing some really good parts of my life." Abby said.
"Yeah, like the night that..." Tony began, but shut up when Gibbs slapped him on the back of the head as he walked in the room.
"Watch what you say." Gibbs told Tony.
"He..." Ziva stopped when she saw Abby, Will and I.
"Where's Adam?" I asked.
"Ducky said he would watch him for a little while. Do you remember anything new, Abby?" Ziva asked.
"I wish everyone would quit asking me that. No, I can't and the next person who asks that question...someone else in this room can answer." Abby said getting frustrated and then let out a yawn.
A little while longer Abby was still yawning, but kept fighting saying she wasn't tired. Only when her eyes began to drift shut did Gibbs, Tony and Ziva leave.
"I never thought I wanted this...a family with, Tim. But I hope this isn't a dream." Abby whispered with her eyes closed.
I tried to move Will, but Tony was right it wasn't an option. Finally I gave up and sat in the hospital chair to watch the two of them asleep.
'I never thought I wanted this...A family with Tim. But I hope this isn't a dream.'
That is what Abby said with her eyes closed and I don't think that she knew what she had said or maybe she did.
I would have to ask her later and I felt my eyes beginning to drift shut.
In the last two weeks Will wasn't the only one who hadn't gotten any sleep, because the fear Abby might not wake up.
"McGee, we can share the same bed." I thought I was dreaming.
I opened my eyes and Abby was looking at me with a smile.
"Abby..." I started. "Come on, Tim. I think there's enough room for the three of us." Abby said.
"Abby, how do you think that would look to our son?" I asked.
"If you haven't noticed, Tim, he knows we're both his parents. From what you told me he's smart." Abby told me.
"Yes, but if I get in that bed and he wakes up, Abby, he'll hope for you and me to be together again and hope that we'll all live under the same roof." I told her.
"Would that be such a bad thing?" Abby asked.
"Abby, you've said before that, 'You don't want to get married nor have kids.' I don't want Will to get hurt. I know you don't want to..." I began.
"Tim, I said I never wanted either of those things. Will, is proof that has changed. I could have decided the day he was born...that I still didn't want those things and given him up for adoption..." Abby began.
"I was told, 'The day Will was born, you stopped being mad at me for leaving and just wished I would come home.' I was so mad that you hadn't..." I began.
"I guess it was a selfish choice not to tell you about, Will...you must hate me." Abby said with another yawn.
"Abby, I was really angry at you for keeping Will a secret from me. I could never hate you for that long though. Like I said before, I wanted you to come out of the coma not for me, but for our son. I thought at first it was just for Will..." I began.
"I know that you sleeping in that chair is not going to make you comfortable and I know what you're thinking...that was eleven years ago. Also there are two other reasons one is our son is here in the room and two..." Abby began, but then smiled.
"Abby..." I warned.
"I was going to say that we're in a hospital, but I don't think that would have stopped us. I know being in my lab wouldn't have stopped us..." Abby said smiling.
"Abby, what if our son wakes up and hears you," I asked as she yawned again.
"I know you're tired and I think that Will is not the only one who has not really gotten any sleep in the last couple of weeks." Abby said still trying to convince me.
"I'm not going to get into bed with y..." I started, but Abby started to laugh.
"Timmy, I've lost count of how many times that's happened. I just wish I could remember the most special time." She said as Will curled up closer to her and she looked at him, then to me.
"You will remember, I promise." I told her and she lost the fight closing her eyes, this time she didn't wake up.