Part 14
'Did You Ever Stop?' she asked softly
I merely shook my head, unable to look into her eyes.
However, she gently put one hand underneath my chin and lifted my head up so that I was looking into her eyes.
'I'll always love you, no matter what, you know that, don't you?' she said, brushing away the tears that were falling freely down my cheeks with her thumb. 'Please tell me what's been going on, sweetheart. I promise that we'll get through this, get you the help you need, yeah?
I moved my eyes back to the floor again. I hated that I had become such a burden on her. She was probably better off without me. I mean, what was I to her, really? A student, that's all, nothing special. I wasn't anything special to anybody. I probably never would be. Lets face it, I was a mess. A total failure. A life fuelled from addiction. A life based on lies. No one knew the true me. They knew the old me, the me that I pretend to be, but I lost her a long time ago, too long ago to ever recover her. She was long gone. So, in a sense, was I. Or at least, I wished I was. But I had failed at that too. To weak to even manage to do something that it was obvious everyone craved me to do. I didn't belong here. Not any more.
However, my musings were cut short by Sian starting to talk again.
'Look at me, India.' she said gently. 'One day you are going to be happy again. It can only get better. And I promise that I will stay by your side the whole time, baby. After all., we're family now'
'Really?' I questioned
'Of course we are' she replied
I felt myself smiling slightly through the tears. Perhaps, just perhaps, there was a reason to stay here after all.
~ Fin ~
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well, I've not updated for ages. But here we are. The final chapter :D ….but its not quite the end...there is an epilogue coming soon (ish. Knowing me, probably in about 3 years time ;) )
But thank you all for staying with me through this story. Your all amazing :) ~ A x