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Chapter Fourteen: Control

Mary walked into the crime lab and headed straight for Calleigh's office. Her heart was pounding, and she was nervous. She didn't know what Calleigh wanted, but she knew the leak was going to be discussed. Deep down Mary felt relieved, she'd rather face Calleigh than Horatio. Before entering into the office, she knocked on the door and waited for Calleigh to welcome her into the room. Calleigh looked up at the door and motioned for Mary to come in:

"Good morning Calleigh, how are you this morning?" Mary sat down.

"Fine and you?"

"Could be better." Mary wished the small talk would last for a little bit longer, wishful thinking was her only option.

Calleigh took a deep breath,"Mary I think we both know why I called you in here. The case about Horatio's son was leaked to the media and you were implicated as the leaker by a fellow CSI."

Mary sat silent, Calleigh continued,"I just want to know why you did it? We all know the danger that this sort of betrayal causes for families, but when it's personal, we tend to be more cautious. We don't talk to the media and we handle these matters as a team." Calleigh's tone was stern, as she looked Mary right in the eye.

Mary, sensing Calleigh was waiting for a reply, cleared her throat to begin,"I don't have a more reasonable explanation other than it had to be done. I figured if I leaked the story than Horatio would find his son faster. I'm-"

"Don't say your sorry, please do not say your sorry because your not. Now I understand that you might have thought your intentions were good, but I don't think you thought fully about the implications it would have on Kyle. Often when kidnapping cases, that are intended to be private, are made public it doesn't end well for the person or persons kidnapped. Did you honestly think that leaking Kyle's disappearance would bring about some form of good?" Calleigh interrupted Mary.

"I thought if I leaked the story,leads would come in and Kyle would be found."

"Mary, no matter what you thought would happen,it was not your place to do what you did. This whole time we have been protecting Kyle by handling the case secretly, something Horatio wanted. By you making the story public, the media and everyone else have been hounding Horatio, asking him very private questions about Kyle and worst of all throwing his son's possible fate in his face. Is that what you wanted? What about Kyle and his safety, the kidnapper will find out about the leak, if he already hasn't, and Kyle would have to pay the price for your ignorance. You thought without weighing the consequences and your bad lapse of judgment, could have dire consequences on the case." Calleigh was angry.

"Calleigh it was never my intention-"

"Don't tell me what was or was not your intentions, they don't matter right now. What matters is a sixteen year child, who may or may not be found alive." Calleigh raised her voice.

"Calleigh, I never intended to hurt anybody, nor did I intend to put the case in jeopardy.I was thinking about Horatio more than anything, more than the consequences, more than the case, even more than the media attention this would bring. Like I said to Eric, Horatio thinks this is the hardest part now, he thinks that it can't get harder than this moment, but it does," Mary began to cry,"It gets harder to bear, it gets harder to handle, it gets harder to face the truth. Days will turn into weeks and weeks will turn into months and sooner or later those months turn into years. Years, not knowing where your son is. Years not knowing if he's alive or dead. I live this horror, everyday, and it never gets easier." Mary was sobbing uncontrollably.

Calleigh just looked at her stunned. Mary continued,"His name is Jason, and he was 6. He was taken from the school yard, right from under the teachers nose, and it has been 10 years. I don't know if he's alive or dead, I don't know if he's happy or sad, I don't know if he's brushed his teeth in the morning or if he's getting straight A's in school. I don't know anything and that is what hurts the most. Not knowing where your child is, is one of the worst feelings in the world. Horatio can't live with that sort of pain, because I can barley live with it and it's been ten years. No matter how strong you think you are, when your child is in danger, you slowly begin to lose that mentality that you cannot be conquered or you cannot show emotion."

Once Mary was done Calleigh sat back in her seat speechless,"Mary I know this must be a tough time for you, having to go through all those emotions all over. Sometimes as CSI'S we have to remove ourselves from many cases because they become personal. I know for me it never gets easy walking into a crime scene or having to handle cases that hit close to home, but I remove myself and my emotions so that I can give the victims the justice they deserve. This case is personal on a whole lot of levels, not only does it involve a very close friend of mine, but it involves and innocent child who has to suffer for his fathers triumphs. There were many times I have thought about taking the reigns and just going all out to find Kyle, but than I know that it would not be in the best interest of Kyle to do so. Horatio, has been working the best he can to find his son, but I have noticed that this case is chipping away at his exterior and interior. I guess what I'm trying to say, in a roundabout way, is this wasn't your call to make no matter what your personal views were. We remove ourselves from cases because we end up making judgment calls on a personal and not professional level. Mary, your under arrest for evidence tampering, I'm not doing this because I disagree with what you've done. I'm doing this because it's the law." Calleigh motioned for the two guards who were standing outside her office to come inside. They helped Mary up and escorted her out the office.

Once Mary was gone, Calleigh wiped the fallen tears from her eyes. Deep down she knew that what Mary did was best for the case.

Back at the warehouse

The moment Robert decided not to call Horatio, Kyle sat up screaming. "Stop the pain," Kyle screamed grabbing at himself,"Make it stop dad, make it stop." Kyle's outburst immediately woke Gwen, who thought Kellings was harassing Kyle again. Once Gwen realized what the issue was, she tried to calm Kyle down:

"Kyle, honey open your eyes and look at me."

Kyle continued to scream,"Dad make it stop, dad make it stop!!!!"

"Make what stop!!!" Gwen yelled, trying to get Kyle to open his eyes

"Make the burning stop, make the pain go away. Dad I can't take the pain, it hurts too much."

"Kyle you have to tell me where it hurts, you have to tell me so that I can help you."

Kyle's eyes were still closed, it seemed he was still sleeping,"Dad!!!!" Kyle laid back down on Gwen's lap and was fell silent.

Gwen looked over at Kellings, who was staring back at her. After about a few moments of eye contact, Kellings got up from the table and walked out the warehouse door.

He was heading to call Horatio.

In Horatio's office

Horatio gathered himself together and thought about the things he can do that didn't involve Kyle's case. Horatio, looked over old case files, he cleaned his desk, and even considered going out and getting the hummer washed. But no matter how hard he tried to avoid thinking about Kyle, the reminder of Kyle was everywhere in his office. Pictures of Kyle and his accomplishments, lined Horatio's window ceil and desk. The paper Kyle wrote about his father, for a school project, was framed and hung on the wall behind Horatio's desk. No matter where Horatio turned, the image of Kyle was in his face. Trying not to get emotional, Horatio picked the framed essay off the wall, and read the beginning:

"Let me tell you about me father, Lt. Horatio Caine. He is the Lt. of the Miami Dade Crime Lab, and he spends his dad protecting the citizens of Miami."

Horatio skipped to the part he enjoyed the most:

"One day I hope to be like my father. I hope to be kind and loyal and trustworthy. I hope to save lives and know that I've put my life on the line so that another person can live. I am so happy and lucky to have a father like my dad and I hope I can make him proud, because he makes me proud to be his son."

Horatio held the frame in his hands and stared at the picture that accompanied the essay, he thought back to everything that has happened, and the words Yelina said to him when he told her about Kyle:

"You'll make a wonderful father Horatio."

Horatio tried to believe the words, he tried to be everything a great father was.Heading over to his phone, Horatio was going to call Yeilna, he knew she was waiting for his call, he needed to speak to her. But before Horatio could pick up the phone, the telephone rang:

"Hello"

"Horatio I see you decided to cheat. Leaking the story Horatio, was not apart of the deal."

Hope you enjoyed this chapter :)