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Chapter.13

June 6th,

Richmond, Virginia

Andrea felt her pulse quicken. The only thing she could hear was her own heartbeat thrumming in her head. It was all black in every direction. She felt numb, cold, and on the verge of breaking. Then something to her right made her scream. Bloody like the last time she'd seen him, Andrew was looking her in the eyes almost pleading. "Why did you do it, Andy? Why?"

"No!" She screamed and felt herself falling. She woke up, her eyes meeting the floor of her hotel room. She could feel her throat tighten as she fought to breathe. She gasped and choked as she sat up. Her stomach turned at the memory that kept coming back. "Andrew…" She moaned with tears streaming down her face. Alone in the dark room, the feeling she always kept locked away in the depths of her mind was finally coming out making her feel almost insane. "I didn't do it…I didn't…" She pulled her knees to her chest. At 3:54 a.m. Andy Carson cried her eyes out. She didn't sleep the rest of the night even though RAW was that day.

***Arena***

She felt like utter crap and she looked like it too. Andy's eyes felt sore from crying last night and her chest more hallowed than before. No one had approached her yet and she was thankful for that. In the middle of trying to gather her thoughts, she heard someone walk into the Divas locker room. In walked Barbie Blank. Just my luck, Andy thought as she wiped her eyes.

"Oh uh…Sorry." Barbie started to walk out but Andy shook her head. "Um…I know we aren't on good terms but I heard someone sniffling. Guess it was you…?"

Andy nodded. "Yeah. Sorry, I just had a bad night." Andy stood and stretched. Her limbs cracked at the movement making popping noises. She pulled her arms over her head and watched warily as Barbie continued to stare at her. Andy was in her wrestling attire:" cut off long sleeve, black shorts, black knee high socks, gloves and her boots. What was Barbie starring at? "Did you need anything? We aren't on the best of terms remember and it isn't nice to stare." She said through a yawn.

Barbie shook her head as if coming out of a thought. "Oh yeah sorry…Um, nice tattoo." Andy froze. She'd forgotten about the symbol on her right hip. The symbol, a sun with no center and black ink, was for her brother. She got it when she was 18 and it was just below her waist line so she thought no one would notice. Unless she stretched like she did a minute ago.

"Thanks…I have one more if you wanna see." She meant for it to be joking but when she saw Barbie's face she could tell she thought she was serious. "I'm kidding. I'm not going to strip for you or anything. It's on my ankle smart one." Barbie finally let out a sigh and small smile.

"Look, I don't want us to be enemies or anything like that. I got jealous because you seemed closer to Randy then anyone here; I didn't mean for your ribs to break or for you to even get hurt. I didn't know I put so much force into that spear and when John came out to help you, it made me even more jealous. I was, and still kinda am, use to being the youngest Diva and having the Superstars around me. I'm sorry." Andy gaped. She didn't anticipate an apology and felt a shock run through her.

She blinked. "Oh um…Thanks. I'm sorry for pulling all those stunts before. I know I was being cocky but I didn't get how serious this all was until a few weeks ago. Um…I hafta go. Sorry Barbie." She moved around the blonde Diva before she the new set of tears could show. Why was she so emotional all of a sudden? The hallow feeling in her chest felt like it was growing and spreading throughout her body. She stopped when she made it to the big flat screen where Divas and Superstars crowded. She stuck to the back on a bench and just in time to hear 'Big Andy' win Tough Enough. Great, she thought, another Andy. She felt someone hovering over her but didn't acknowledge them.

"Hello? Anyone home?" She looked up to meet the face of none other than Mike Mizanin. Andy rolled her eyes.

"What do you want Miz?" She turned away from him and pulled her knees to her chest, resting her arm on them.

"Oh nothing…" She looked up at him as he towered over her. She cocked and eyebrow. "What can't I be a little nice to my enemy's lover?" She had a disgusted look on her face.

"Mike, if you have an ounce of smart in you then you'd leave." She heard him scoff but he didn't move. "Your funeral." She muttered. There was a cough of someone clearing their throat behind Miz. He turned with a smirk on his face but it vanished when he met the glare of John Cena. "Told you." Andy said listening into the screen as R-Truth came out to the arena in a confederate uniform. "That Jackass is gonna get wiped by my mom." She said with a small smile as she remembered who was in the audience. "I'd leave if I were you." She didn't look at Miz or John but the younger male did so. John sat next to her with a sigh, championship in his lap.

"What's wrong?" Was the first thing out of his mouth. Andy didn't respond and let off a small smile as Alex Riley went out after Miz's rant. John left quickly as his music queued and strapped his belt to his waist. Andy tried to center her mind on her boyfriend but couldn't stay focused. It wasn't until someone touched her shoulder that she finally came out of her thoughts.

"Oh, hey." She looked up at the one person she hadn't seen in months. Her mother stood beside her smiling with the utter most pride. Andy stood and smiled down at her mother. She had inherited her father's height but her mother's features. "How've you been?" She asked hugging the elderly woman.

Smiling her mother responded, "Happy now that I can see you. My god Andrea is it so terrible to pick up a phone a call? I hafta get tickets, which were almost sold out, and backstage passes and go through security just to see my daughter! You would think I was going to see Michael Jackson personally!" Andy smiled as her mother went on. Marlene Cleo Carson-Alvarez was about 5' 6" with chestnut colored hair and matching ember eyes that Andy inherited.

"Are they here?" Andy said after a moment referring to her sister and father. Her mother shook her head. "Figures a-," her mother cut her off.

"But John-Wayne is here." Andy's eyes almost bugged out of her head. Her cousin, John-Wayne Jr. was here? She hadn't seen him in over two years. "He's actually trying to get autographs at the moment." Marlene pointed to where a guy in a black t-shirt and jeans was talking to Rey Mysterio. She moved away from her mother and ran to the man she missed.

"What-ah! Andy!" John-Wayne, better called Junior or June, exclaimed as Andy jumped onto his back almost throwing him to the ground. Rey laughed at the family exchange. "Damn it Oscar why didn't you tell me she was right behind me?" The shorter man shrugged still smiling.

"I can't believe you're here!" Andy exclaimed as her older cousin hugged her and spun her as Jay and Adam did. "I haven't seen you since…Well since you up and decided to go enter the military and was sent to Iraq. Do you know how much me and Sarah missed you, June?" She babbled after he put her down.

"Oh shut up. Listen to your boyfriend," he drug out the word, "right now." He pointed to the flat screen and the cousins watched.

"A lot has happened so let me catch you all up to speed and give you a quick recap." John Cena said in the ring. "Mr. McMahon is out of patience, Miz is out of excuses, A-Ry well he's out for vengeance, Steve Austin is almost out of bear and R-Truth is outta his mind." He went on and Andy smiled slightly.

"You can really pick 'em, Andrea." Jr. said as John kept on. "Seems…down to earth-ish and funny." Andy swatted the older boy's arm. "What'd I say?" She rolled her eyes. Her mom and Oscar excused themselves and Andy led Jr. around the group of Superstars and to a secluded spot.

"I demand an explanation as to why you haven't answered my letters." She said as they sat on a bench.

"And I demand to know why are you dating Cena? And where the hell are Jay and Adam?" Andy gritted her teeth. "Never mind I know Adam retired. He called me the day I got back." Andy ruffled her cousin's cropped hair.

"When did you get back anyway?" She said tugging her shirt down slightly.

Jr. thought. "About a month ago; now why are you dating Cena and when did this happen?" Andy rolled her eyes.

"Couple months ago and I don't know why. I like him…A lot but I don't know." She sighed and twirled a lock of her hair.

Jr. rolled his eyes. "So…When do you go on?" He couldn't wait to see him cousin live in action. Andy shrugged.

"I'm not doing a match until the Divas. Beth got injured doing something earlier so I'm filling in with Barbie. Then I have something with Punk." She recited with a yawn. Jr. put an arm over his cousin and they sat there for a while.

Their peaceful silence was broken when footsteps were heard to their right. Andy didn't move as she closed her eyes but Jr. moved slightly. "What?" She opened her eyes and looked at a terrified Jr. She looked over to see John watching them. "You face guns and missiles everyday but you're afraid of one man?" She sighed, got up, and walked over to John. He didn't have a pleasant look. Jr. followed behind her still somewhat scared. "What?"

John's eyes still sent glares at Jr. "Who is he?" Oh great, Andy thought.

"My cousin John-Wayne Jr. Or more known as June." John still didn't lighten up. "He is my cousin not some guy I just met, John. What do you think I'm cheating on you or something?" His expression gave her the answer. "Oh great, just fucking great. Jr, go find my mom please. She's probably with Oscar or something." Her cousin left with a nod and went off down a hallway. Andy turned to John. "You think I'm cheating on you?" She squinted up at the man she loved. "What, do you not have any faith in me?" He didn't answer in any way. "I can't believe you." She whispered and started to stalk off. No one was around except for them two. John turned quickly and grabbed her wrist. "Let me go." She growled.

"Not until you let me explain." His voice was hard.

She scoffed. "Explain what? You think I'm unfaithful, that's it." She didn't notice until now how close their bodies were. Instead of giving her a verbal answer he simply pulled her closer and brought their lips together. Andy tried not to love the warm feeling of his body but couldn't. He kissed her like he never had before and she relished in the feeling.

"Sorry. I get jealous easily." She smiled under his lips and nodded. They parted and Andy excused herself as her match with the Bellas was up next. She met with Barbie a few minutes before they went out.

Barbie gave her a tight smile. "Feeling better? I saw your cousin, he seems nice." Oh hell no, Andy thought returning the smile.

"Yeah and he is." Kelly's theme came and the two walked out in synch. Andy waved to both sides of the ramp crowd as Kelly did the same. They both went up different sides of the ring. A commercial came quickly leaving the two Divas to stand in the ring. There was an awkward silence between the two and the crowd. "Thanks for apologizing." Andy said quickly. Barbie only nodded. The commercial was mercifully short and soon the twin torments came out. Michael Cole announced the Covert Affairs report and Andy couldn't wait for the show to start up again. The match ensued with Brie and Barbie going at it. Soon losing the upper hand, Barbie tagged in Andy and she fought the Diva Champion. With a glam slam, Andy had Brie pinned and Kelly's theme played. Andy felt more tired than anything and wasn't up for celebrating. The twins left the ring arguing the whole way up. Kelly grabbed Andy's hand and lifted it above their heads.

"Nice win." Barbie muttered and Andy smiled. The two hurried out of the ring and up the ramp touching fans hands the whole way up. Once backstage Andy almost collapsed from exhaustion; Barbie caught her before she completely fell. "Whoa, hey you okay?" Andy nodded slowly feeling her head spin. "Come on." The blonde led the younger Diva to a bench and grabbed a water bottle from the snack table. "Drink." She ordered thrusting thr bottle into Andy's hand. Andy obeyed and felt the cold drink trickled down her throat. She felt a little better but didn't want to do her skit with Punk. "You hafta get up, Andy. Come on you can't let the fans down." Was Barbie really giving her a pep talk? What universe was she in?

"I know." She managed standing up refusing Barbie's attempt to help. She gave herself a once over as CM Punk's theme came and he walked out with Mason Ryan. "Uh thanks, Barbie." She said through her teeth and stood at the entrance waiting.

"For those of you keeping score at home, last week I defeated Rey Mysterio." The Nexus leader announced. "Bringing the grand total of times I've defeated Rey Mysterio to, I don't know six hundred?" He went on as he continued to sit on the floor. "To prove that the power of my new Nexus is unyielding, which is why I make this announcement." He stood. "Something has been bothering me these past few weeks. The Nexus still seems to be incomplete. The faith that brings us together is missing something; something energetic and new and….female." Andy rolled her eyes. "I know you are backstage, I don't particularly like you but, Andy Carson if you would come out here." A few seconds past, then two minutes and nothing. "Oh come on Andy, don't make the crowd wait." Andy cracked her neck quickly and then Forsaken blasted. Andy felt a shiver pass through her but ignored it. She held a mic in her right hand and her music ended.

"You called, Punk?" She smiled as she almost matched the height of CM Punk. "You demanded I be out here now what do you want?" Punk smiled.

"Andy Carson, known for getting your ribs broken by Kelly Kelly spearing you, also with John Cena." She nodded. "Also for that fire you had in you when you apprenticed Randy Orton." She gritted her teeth.

"Get to the point Punk I don't have all day." She crossed her arms.

"I am offering this only to you once. Nexus needs another member," The crowd 'what'. "How would you like to be that member?" Andy let out a sigh with a smile.

"How about I get back to you on that, after you face Rey Mysterio?" With that Rey Mysterio's music played and Andy walked backstage. She gave the shorter man a smile before returning to her bench a few feet from the entrance. She sat and closed her eyes only listening to the rivals' battle it out. She fixed her half shirt and rested her head on the stone wall behind her; Andy wished she had her IPod with her at the moment. The match was halfway over when Andy got up, grabbed the mic she was handed and walked out into the ring. Her music did not play but she crossed her arms with a smirk. Fans saw her and they cheered; Punk looked in her direction giving Rey the time he needed to start beating the Nexus leader. The two battled for dominance but Andy knew who the winner would be. Rey of course won and Andy smiled. She shook hands with Mysterio as he walked up the ramp and backstage. Punk looked like he was going to start crying and wining like a little baby. "Now do you want my answer?" She said and it echoed throughout the arena. The crowd 'what' and Punk was handed a mic after Mysterio's music ended. "CM Punk, defeated by Rey Mysterio the 619 master, I pity you which I why I accept your offer. On one condition of course." She smiled. "Mason Ryan stops being at your side 24/7 like a puppy and you start manning up. Got it?"

Punk was quick to reply. "It's sad you feel that way, Carson." His theme played and he raised his right hand along with Mason. Andy copied and they shared a quiet moment as the crowd booed. She walked backstage and the two men followed suit. Phil stopped her. "You are serious about Mason, aren't you?" She smiled.

"Of course I am. No need in you being a little wuss puss when you're supposed to be setting an example." She gave a childish wave and walked off towards the Divas locker room. She grabbed her stuff quickly, not stopping to change but only put on a sweatshirt. She didn't care about the stares she got, she just wanted to go back to her hotel room. She waited in the hall next to the one John and Alex Riley were doing their bit in. She pulled her bag tighter on her shoulder and when John walked off in her direction gave a small smile.

"You're already leaving?" He gave her a hug and she nodded. "Please tell me what's wrong." She looked at her feet.

"Just had a bad night last night." She said and pecked him on the lips. "I'll see you later." He smiled and she felt blood rush to her cheeks and walked off waving. Jr. met her at the arena entrance and she was happy there was no one around.

"You know that your mom wants you home with her right?" He said putting an arm over her shoulders.

"Yeah but my sister and dad. They'd hate her for bringing me back since I was the one who left." Jr. nodded and they headed for his car. Andy had ridden with Oscar to RAW but had no way to get back. Halfway to her cousin's car Andy felt her pockets for her room key and cell phone. "Shit. I forgot my phone and keys. I'll be right back."

"Let me take your bag." Jr. took the duffel bag from her and she sprinted back into the Richmond arena. She made her way to the Superstar entrance were a body guard stood. His name was Beck and he let her go without a second thought. She continued to run down hallways and passed superstars who told her to slow down. She did a bit but continued to the Divas locker room. She felt out of breathe as she heard Kofi Kingston start down the ramp. The fireworks hurt her ears but she searched the locker room for her things. She bent down to look under one of the benches in the locker room and found her phone and key. The black slider phone buzzed as the red keys lit up. She reached for it, putting the key in her pocket, and it was a text from John. It read: Meet me in the Superstar locker room plz. ~John. She smiled and made her way to the other locker room. She did in a matter of minutes and sent Jr. a text saying she'd be a couple of minutes. He sent back for her to hurry. She rolled her eyes and walked into the locker room.

"John?" She called when she heard a noise from around the corner. She walked in the direction of the noise. She gasped at what her eyes came to. Her heartbeat quickened and she felt the blood in her body working overtime. Her eyes blurred with tears. "J-john." She covered her moth with her hand at the sight of the man she loved and Barbie Blank kissing. Tears streamed down her face leaving trails. John broke away and pushed Barbie back. "How could you?" She felt her body shake.

"Andy, it's not what it look like." Like she hadn't heard that before. "Andrea please-," she screamed and he stopped. Her body reacted quicker than she could and her hand came into contact with her face with a deafening smack.

"Don't you dare call me that again! You sick fuck, how could you!" She felt like tearing both of them apart. "I loved you damnit! I'd never cheat on you! I loved you!" She screamed and slapped him again. Barbie tried to sneak away but Andy caught her and slapped her as well. The blonde simply stared. "You have Randy! Isn't that enough?" She stormed out still crying and her pace quickened as she heard John behind her. She went into overdrive and was now sprinting at top speed. Being on a track team in high school helped as she quickly made it out of the arena, as far from John as she could. Jr. was already parked in the front waiting for her with the car still on. Andy knew John still had another match and hoped he lost and lost the championship with it. She hoped he and Barbie would never speak to her again. She wished Randy wouldn't have brought up her not having kids. She wished she'd never met John, that she never became Randy's apprentice or even signed up for WWE. She wished she had died instead of Andrew. She got into Jr.'s Toyota pickup and slammed the door. "C-can I stay at your p-p-place?" She stammered.

"Of course. What happened back there?" Jr. said starting to drive off and took hold of Andy's hand. She simply shook her head not wanting to say anything….

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