Chapter 14

Veronica was playing with her food when she felt Wallace's eyes on her, ever since she had showed up on his doorstep and asked him if she could stay with him. He had tried to ask questions about what happened, just like his mother but she told them it was nothing.

"Shouldn't you eat the food instead of playing with it?" he asked her, worried. This morning she had eaten nothing, she just sat and played with her cereals, not even eating.

"I'm not really hungry."

"Veronica, I know you don't want to talk about whatever happened between you and your father, but I think you should talk to someone."

"It's not that bad, it's just a small thing, nothing too important. We're going to solve whatever problem we might have." She told him with a smile as she started to eat a little, just to get him off her back.

Veronica dropped her bag near on the couch and went into her room to change and grab Logan's letters, the ones she still hadn't read. She sat on the couch and opened one, this letter was dated from the second week after Lilly's burial and one week after her status as a social outcast had been made it official.

"This is so hard, hating you should be easy since you've chosen to side with your father and thus chose him over us, but I can't seem to hate you. Damn I've been trying it for two weeks and so far I haven't been succesful because I still love you. I think that once you've fallen in love with a Mars you can't fall out of love afterwards. It seems like I'm stuck on you no matter what I do.'

Veronica smiled and put the letter back in its envelop, she grabbed another one and smiled as she realized this one was written after he had smatched her lights at the dog's beach.

'I've had the shitiest day ever! I think it's today thatt I've realized that you don't care about me like you used to. In fact, I think you hate me but then I can't really blame you for that, I've been looking for your hatred for quite some time now. Unfortunately for me now that you do hate me, I only want one thing, go back in time and change the way things happened between us. I would make myself tell you about my feelings and get you to go out with me, because I know things would have been different between us, if it had been the case.

Every day I wish I could have amnesia just to forget about the hell I've been putting you through, how could, how can I do that to the girl I love? I don't know how I can carry on living knowing everyday I'm hurting you more and more, every time I see my face in a mirror I want to throw up because of what I'm doing

I've realized two important things today, I love a girl who will never love me back because I've been such an ass to her and that every time I see you smile or laugh, I can't help but fall in love with you. Someday I'll explain myself and I hope you won't slam your door at my face, I promise to do it even if it's the last thing I do.'

Veronica finished reading the letter as her father walked into their apartment, he looked at her before putting his briefcase on the bar and grabbing the mail.

"I didn't think you would be home."

"This is my house last time I checked, unless you're throwing me out."

"I'm not and you know it as well as I do."

"Really? Because yesterday I didn't feel like I was welcomed." she told him, meeting his eyes for the first time.

"Veronica you know as well as I do that I'll never ask you to leave. I don't like your boyfriend but..."

"You've made it pretty clear." she said interupting him.

"Yes, I don't like guy, after all he has done tto you but you can't honestly blame me. What kind of father would I be if I didn't try to stop you from dating a guy like Logan Echolls? Even if he had been nice to you after Lilly's death I would still have refused to see my little girl date a guy like Logan Echolls, this kid is trouble."

"You don't know him like I do, this is just an image he gives to the outside world, if you knew the real Logan you wouldn't think that."

"I don't know if I want to get to know him." he told her honestly, Veronica nodded and looked down at her lap. The situation was getting worst and worst, she did not want to get into another argument with her father, but he had to understand that she was not going to break up with Logan just to make him happy.

"It's up to you, but I'm not breaking up with him anytime soon. We're in love and we'll stay together for as long as we can."