(EPOV)

When Bella and I entered the cafeteria together I realised that I had to choose between Lauren and my family again, like I do everyday. I hated what this did to me. I looked in between to the tables trying to make my decision. Thankfully Bella left to sit with my family and where ever she goes, I go.

Lauren was having a party this Saturday. It's all she talks about to me, so by now I know pretty much everything that's going to happen, whose coming and al that jazz. She actually is just inviting anyone who looks about our age so there will be more people there.

I've decided that at that party is where I will tell Bella I like her- love her. No, love her will scare her away. Like her it is. It will be perfect. I tell her at a party, already set out to look good and its Laurens so if all turns out well, I can break up with her right then and there. Well that's mean to break up with her at her own party but she bounces back fast. And besides she deserves to be embarrassed in front of the people she hurts all the time. It will work out fine.

At least that is what I have to tell myself. Enough beating around the bush and finally get it over with.

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Saturday night- party day

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(BPOV)

"Bella, c'mon. Please." Edward begged. Why in hell would I want to go to a party with him and all of Lauran's bitch friends that don't even like her and all her random guy friends that she probably doesn't even no and just invited to bring up the numbers.

"Why do you want me to go? You know it's not my kind of thing. Heck! It's not your kind of thing." I moaned as I threw my arms around like a mad woman. Edward had a bemused look on his face which was making me feel even more vulnerable.

Edward had me cornered in my own room. He kept gaining closer to me with a mischievous glint in his eyes. I had seen that look many times before and it always lead to me loosing something. I backed further into the corner, but held firm.

"What are you going to do?" I couldn't help but ask. He looked away to the side and was nodding his head slowly, looking as though he was trying to hold back tears.

"I can't believe you have pushed me to this level Bella." Edward mumbled sadly, like his throat closed up from crying. Then he did something I would never have expected. He slid over to me on his knees and placed his hands in front of his chest as though praying. His eyes were pleading and he had a really, really cute pout on his face. He was just faking the sadness thing.

I could feel a smile come on my face and my form melting at the sight of him.

"Bella please, please, please come with me. I know that we aren't the party type people but that is exactly why we should go. Plus I will be lonely if I go by myself." He pleaded his eyes boring in my own.

"What about Lauran? She's the girlfriend, not me. Isn't it her who should keep you not lonely?" I asked in a flat voice.

"Bella, this is Lauran we are talking about. Do you honestly think that she will stay with me the whole night?" I knew he was right about that, but I wasn't some rebound girl even though I wouldn't really mind.

"Yeah, she will probably be high half way through and throwing herself on any guy that walks past." I muttered under my breath. I really hoped he hadn't heard that. But my luck ran out on me. Edward looked away from me and shook his head slowly.

Oh no, oh no. Crap, I better not have just ruined our friendship. Apologize.

But you're not sorry. You said the truth. And Edward even told you that he doesn't care for her that much so it shouldn't have hurt him.

But he is shaking his head, that's a bad sign. I have to make things right with Edward. I love him to much to lose him that way.

The internal argument in my brain continued as I started breathing heavily. My eyes darted around everywhere, but always returning to Edwards still shaking head. I would rather have him with Lauren than not having him at all.

"You're probably right. It is Lauran we are talking about. I always new..." My heavy breathing stopped and I looked at Edward in shock. He agrees with me on Lauren all the way.

He looked slightly pained and I wanted to comfort him. He looked like he needed to talk to someone. I knelt down in front of him. I was short enough that as he was looking down if I just leaned in a bit he would be looking straight at me. That's what I did.

"Go on..." he just continued staring. It worried me; he needed to know he could talk to me about this. "Talk to me" I whispered fiercely, yet soft at the same time. I pleaded with him through my eyes.

"It's just that...I know Lauran is like that and I still let myself get close to her... You know for a while she actually was nicer to people and she seemed to be so different with me. But I knew and still know that deep down she hasn't changed a bit...and I know for a fact I don't love her, like her at all." My heart started beating faster when the last part was mentioned. He doesn't care for her at all.

His eyes flicked back up to mine. "And remember there is also this...other girl... I like a lot." My heart kept beating erratically. He was going to tell me who the mystery girl was, that may or may not be me.

"Who is it?" My voice sounded choked and breathless.

He paused and closed his eyes looking as though having an internal battle about whether to tell me or not. I desperately wanted to know the answer. I was hanging on end and it was killing me. The longer he took the more I felt as though I was drowning in ice cold water. His eyes opened and he looked determined. He leaned his head and touched his forehead to mine.

I held my breath in anticipation.

"You" he whispered in a slightly husky voice.

Did I just him right? 'You' his voice echoed through my brain. I couldn't move and my eyes were wide. Edward looked panicked. He started ranting like I knew he did when he was nervous. I was just in shock that he really did just say that.

"I mean, I really like you Bella. I always have, right from the minute I saw you all those years ago at the park." My heart skipped a beat. So he really has liked me that long.

"But if...you don't feel the same..." No! How can he think I don't like him?

"Then..." His eyes dropped from mine to the floor. He tried again to speak.

"Then-" He was cut off from even trying to continue because I had lifted his face to my own and pressed my lips to his. Something I had wanted to do for a long time now.

My first kiss. I admit I was worried about whether I would know what to do or not, but it came naturally. Luckily I didn't freak out and bite him or something.

His arms wrapped around my waist and held me close against his chest. I ran both my hands up his chest and then wrapped them around his neck, keeping him close to me. There was so much warmth, a universe of warmth. I never wanted this moment to end. It felt right, like I could feel our souls fluttering against each other. I knew it right here and now was where I was supposed to be.

When he pulled away he looked at me in happy surprise.

"I know exactly how you feel. You were my secret too." I whispered. He smiled and brought his forehead back to my own. After a while of a peaceful silence with just us looking into each others eyes, I finally remembered the glitch in the fairy tale. Lauren.

"What about Lauren?" I asked breaking out of the silence. Edward pulled away from me and stood up, looked away thinking. He ran a hand through his hair and then turned back to me with a crooked grin that made my heart flip.

"We're going partying." His voice was playful and seductive. Damn I am already sucked in.

With a groan I said, "Let me get ready"

And with a triumphant smile he left the room. Now what do you wear to a party/break up scene like this? I needed Alice.

I managed to find a nice enough out fit on my own. I wanted to look at least a little bit nice for the party, so I made an effort with the little time I had to get ready. I hurriedly pulled out different items of clothes from draws and hangers. I mainly just looked for the things that still had price tags on them- the clothes Alice got me that I haven't worn.

I pulled out the plaits that I had made in my hair earlier, and was happy to find my hair soft and wavy. Today was definitely my day, my hair never curls but it did today.

My out fit was simple and yet nice, offcourse It wouldn't compare to the other girls at the party but I was pleased I had done this off on my own.

I ran down the stairs as fast as I could, but of course being me, tripped. I waited for the impact of the floor but it never came. I was being held up by Edwards's arms that were holding me awkwardly. His arms were under my shoulders and bent so that his hands were holding my face. How the heck did he catch me like this? Oh well.

But what I was keenly aware of was how close his face was to mine. I could feel my eyes glaze over as I stared into his eyes. He stared back as well.

After a while of just staring I finally came to my senses. Oh my gosh, we just had a moment. (You know the one where you just stare at someone and the world stops spinning and you feel like you're the only ones on the planet. Well that's how it is supposed to be.)

I shyly looked away a tad embarrassed. I felt my cheeks slowly redden.

"We better get going." I looked back up to meet Edwards eyes, but I never really got a good look at them as his lips crashed onto my own, with so much passion and longing that I was slightly taken aback. But I returned the kiss with the same passion.

Afterwards he silently led me to the car and opened the door for me. I was still slightly dazed as I got in the car.

As Edward was pulling out of the driveway, too fast as always I finally woke from my dream state and turned in my seat to watch Edward.

"So are you going to break up with her?" I asked. He didn't actually say he was going to the party for that reason, but it was Edward were talking about here, not jerk of the year that just kissing someone would mean nothing.

"Of course, now that I finally have what I have wanted for ages I am not letting anything get in the way of myself and it."

I started to blush again. "You know I always hated her. She's a stupid, up herself, skanky hoe that uses everybody like a tissue." I said matter-of-factly. Then added more to myself than anyone, "Dumb slut", thinking of the crap she has given me.

To my surprise Edward started laughing.

"What is so funny?" He managed to slow his laughter and began to answer.

"Its funny hearing you talk like that. You usually never swear or insult people."

"Ha-ha. I just hate her a lot and you knew that. I'm not a violent person but there are times when I felt like hitting her into last week."

"I know what you mean, believe me. Mike is an idiot." I smiled at the memories of Mike doing the over protective boyfriend thing around Edward. It was really funny sometimes. But then again I did say that I was going to come clean about everything. I'll do it after the party, I promise.

I kept silent just thinking over everything. A car that was on the lane opposite us was blasting music and I recognised the song playing. Avril Lavigne s Girlfriend, it has been playing a lot lately and pretty much everyone knew it. I began laughing as I listened to the lyrics. So much the same as how I'm feeling right now. I leaned over to turn the radio on and find the station that the guy was on. As I found it the lights went green and we began moving again.

"What are you laughing at?" Edward asked turning, confused.

I had never actually sung in front of anyone since I was little but I was going to do it now even if it sounded bad.

"Hey! Hey! You! You!
I don't like your girlfriend!
No way! No way!
I think you need a new one
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I could be your girlfriend"

We were nearing Laurens Street and could already hear the loud music playing. We ended up having to park on a different street as there were so many cars parked along the street. This was probably the loudest forks has ever been.

Edward came around and opened my door for me and took my hand, leading the way to Laurens house. I took a deep breath. I had a feeling something big was going to happen.

Okay, this one is done!

I expect a tone of reviews cause the moment you have all been waiting for is here!

I will try to update very soon cause I know you all want to know how this will turn out.

But review! Sorry took longer than expected. I wasn't allowed on the computer this morning cause my room is a mess and still is! i'll put what she is wearing on profile soon!