"Good morning Alice, who are those flowers from?" Yuuki asked as I rolled over.
"Honestly I have no clue, but whoever they are know my favourites" I smile at her
"Are they from Kain?" she asked her eyes growing wide
"Not likely" I mumble as I climb out of bed and stroll over to the pile of washing.
"Really why? I thought you guys were happy" she said as she quickly scampers around the room adding more laundry to the pile.
"No not at the moment we're not. Is that it?" I asked gesturing towards the now humungous pile.
"Really why not? And yeah I think so"
"I'll explain later" I mumble as I change into the white dress (with a white turtle neck long sleeve shirt underneath) Yuuki had bought me as a present.
I know I said I hate skirts and dresses but everyone changes in their own way.
She smiled at me as she watches me pull my hair back.
"You know I am brilliant with clothing choices am I not?" she says smugly
"Yes Yuuki you are brilliant I really love this dress" I say as I shove my slippers on with it. I'm only going to be doing laundry all day so suitable footwear was needed.
"I bet you and Kain would be happy if he saw you in that, how many times have you worn it now?"
"This would be the first"
"Really? And you're going to hide out in the Laundromat in it where no guys will see it" she says utterly astonished
"Indeed I will be" I say simply as I pick up the pile and my iPod and leave the room.
To my pleasure it seemed that I was the only one who planned to waste their Saturday doing laundry so I was alone. I placed my headphones in and hit shuffle then began to load up the washing machines, the pile took six of them! I sat on top a dryer and waited for them to finish. I began to sing along with whatever song was playing, not really paying attention to the outside world. Right now it was just me and my laundry, me and my music. Pretty soon I had closed the door and the blinds so that no one could see in. I turned my iPod up as loud as I could handle and began to dance around like the total fool I am.
I was dancing around to Party Rock Anthem when I was nearly caught. One of the day class boys walked in; lucky for me I was watching the door so I stopped as soon as I saw it open a crack. He smiled awkwardly at me, I smiled back. He left not long after, so I returned to what I was doing. I began dancing around to Love Song by Sarah Bereilles, but then I saw flash backs from last night and me making a total fool of myself in front f Zero all because of that sugar high. But that just couldn't kill my mood today, so it was no surprise that I was caught red handed dancing like a loon on loon tablets in loon city by Zero. He rolled his eyes at me, as I removed my headphones and looked sheepishly down at my feet as a blush spread across my face.
"Seriously Alice why are you so crazy?" he asked as he loaded one of my now empty washing machines whilst I loaded a dryer.
"Because you drive me crazy" I reply
"What how is that even possible?"
"I don't know but this place is about to blow" I say
I giggled at the dumb founded expression he now wore.
"Why are you quoting song lyrics in your sentences Alice?" he asked as he sat on one of the machines.
"You of all people should know I do things differently and if you didn't you're a bad best friend" I say cheekily
He rolls his eyes.
"Chuck me the iPod" he says holding out his right hand
I toss it to him; he takes the headphones out and begins to scroll through my songs. Then after a few minutes he looks up at me doubtfully.
"You've heard of Bliss N Eso and Hilltop Hoods?" he asks eyes wide
"Of course they're my favourites" I say
"You an Aussie hip hop fan, never would have picked it" he says as he continues to scroll through the songs
"Same to you I picked you as a more My Chemical Romance or Green Day or something like that" I say as I replace the now dry load with another wet load.
He smiles to himself then sits the iPod down as still standing sounded from its speakers and comes to stand next to me. He looks at me as if he is studying me for a science project.
"What?" I ask blushing slightly
"How are you coping Alice?" he asks
"I'm good today much better then I was before" I say looking down.
I didn't really feel like having this conversation right now, not when I finally had made it to a happy mood.
"Tell me the truth Alice" he says firmly.
"That is the truth" I say
"Have you spoken to Kain today?" he asks
I shake my head. I had been putting it off, and these whole ten loads of washing seemed to be doing it perfectly for me until now.
"No not yet, I've been pretty busy" I mumble looking at my feet.
"You should go and talk to him about last night it's probably better if you do Alice" he says
"But I can't just ditch out on my washing Zero" I argue
"Look its nearly done you go and I'll take it up to your dorm ok, so go or do I have to carry you over there" he says threateningly
I shake my head and obediently head for the door
"Good girl Alice I'll see you soon" he says as he shuts the door behind me.
I walk slowly over to the moon dorms, trying to figure out what I was going to say before I got there. What do I do if we have broken up? What if we haven't and I've been falling for Zero? Oh dear Zeus, Hades or Poseidon helps me now...
I reach the moon dorm, and knock lightly on the door. A very groggy looking Rima Touya opens the door for me, she smiles a tiny, barely there smile and nods for me to come in. I follow her obediently then I notice that the lounge area isn't empty and that she wasn't alone for there on the couch was a very worried looking Senri Shiki. I smile kindly at him, he nods.
"He's in the library" Rima says quietly as she takes her place next to Senri on the couch.
"Thanks" I mutter as I head up the stairs and towards the library.
When I walk into the library I expected to hear and see no body, well at least not until I got further into the shelves. But as I entered I was greeted with the friendly face of Ichijou Takuma and a very disgruntled Kaname Kuran. They both looked up at me when I walked past; Takuma pointed me in the direction of Kain. I felt my stomach flip and twist uncomfortably as the fiery haired vampire came into view. He nearly jumped out of his skin when I cleared my throat to get his attention.
"Alice" he said in that stupid dead tone of his.
"Kain can we talk please?" I ask looking at my feet.
"There's nothing to talk about Alice" he says returning to reading the book in his hands.
"Yes there is! There's plenty to talk about!" I say my voice rising in volume
"Ok, ok come on" he says as he drags me out of the library.
Takuma and Kaname wave at me, I smile slightly at them. He leads me all the way to his room, the grip on my wrist rather stronger then he usually uses. He burst in the door and tells Hanabusa to get out. He does as he is told and shuts the door behind him, he obviously didn't want to get on his cousins bad side today. He turned to face me, an annoyed look displayed on the delicate features of his face. I cower back from his fiery glare.
"What do you want to talk to me about, or are you just wasting my time?" he spat at me
"I'm not wasting your time I just wanted to know what the hell happened last night. I mean you burst out the door quicker than you burst in."
"There's nothing to explain or for you to know. I came, I yelled, you yelled, I walked out, you slammed the door and I went out with Ruka, pretty simple thing to get" he said passively
"You went out with Ruka?" I asked my eyes beginning to brim with unshed tears. I felt that same familiar feeling in my heart as it was cleanly cracked from the side, not yet broke but oh so close.
"Yes I went out with Ruka, because she is much more fun than you and I love her" he says
"What do you mean you love her? I thought you were over her?" I blubber
"Well no I never really stopped, you can't just loving someone Alice, and it's too hard to do. So I hid my feelings for her underneath those I thought I had for you. Listen these past few months have been great and all but well, Ruka is Ruka and there's just nothing you can do about It." he says as he opens the door for me to take my leave.
I swallow the lump in my throat, as the realisation of his words slowly sunk in. He never liked me; he never wanted to be with me at all. The tears began to spill I couldn't hold them back.
"So you're breaking up with me?" I mumble
"Correction, I broke up with you last night this is just me re-enacting the split." he says
I nod my head and walk out tears still flowing down my cheeks, like a river down a mountain side. When I hear the door close, I turn to look back at it. I have the urge to burst back through the door and hold him in my arms forever. But what's broken is broken and something's you just can't fix. Like my now totally shattered heart. I run away, from this place, from him, from the memories of those past few months when I was actually happy. I run straight back to my dorm and grab a back pack. I can't stay here anymore; I can't be at this school anymore. I begin to shove any clothing that I own into the bag. Realising that all my stuff is still down at the Laundromat with Zero. I can't face HIM now either, sorry Yuuki, I think to myself as I chuck a couple of her skirts and hoodies into my bag.
I zip it up and wrench the door open. To find Zero outside the door, with his fit posed to knock. It takes him around 1.5 seconds to register the situation. The bag, the tears and the determined look on my face. Without me even realising it his arm is wrapped around my waist dragging me backwards into the room. He quickly places the basket of the now clean clothes on the floor and pulls me into a tight hug. I tried to struggle free but his grip on tightens
"No you don't Alice" he says as he gently grabs both my wrists and places them at my sides.
I sigh in defeat. Knowing full well this was HIS battle not mine, he wins again.
"Alice what happened?" he asks
"We broke up" I mumble not really wanting to repeat all that Kain had said to me.
"Alice what did he say?" he asks clearly trying to understand why I was reacting this way.
"He told me that last night he went out with Ruka and that you can never really stop loving someone. That he hid his feelings for her under the ones he thought he had for me. Then he said that the past few months had been great and all but Ruka is Ruka and there's nothing that I can do about it" I say crying into his chest.
"Oh Alice" he says as he hugs me tighter.
We stay like that for what feels like forever. Then he slowly releases me, but he still has a hold of my hand.
"You know what you need. You need some chocolate, some ice-cream, a movie and a very big sugar high. Come on I know just the place" he says as he leads me out of the room.
"I don't think that will work but if you're paying" I mumble
He snorts "there's my Alice" he says more to himself.
At his words to tiny fragments of my heart pieced back together. There's my Alice, I wonder what he means by that...
"Actually Zero I really don't feel like going out in public. I'm not in the mood cant we just hide out and watch movies please?" I plead
He stops and considers my request. Then he slowly nods
"Sure ok. So here's the plan I run to town grab some chocolate and what not and you go pick the movies. Ok we'll meet back at my dorm in half an hour ok?" he says watching me
"Yes ok sounds great" I say
"Oh and Alice, don't even bother thinking about trying to run away when I'm not around. I will hunt you down" he says menacingly
I heave a heavy sigh
"Ok fine I won't" I say
"I'll be back" he says as he turns to sprint out of the gates.
I roll my eyes and head back into the main building. I walk towards the headmaster's chambers, May as well try there for movies first. I knock timidly on the door of his office and was greeted by a high pitched come in.
I walk in shyly, with my head down.
"Ahh Alice what can I do for you?" he asks
"I was wondering if you had any DVDs that I may borrow for the afternoon please sir" I say looking up at him.
He smiles widely at me. And leads me over to a door he opens it and gestures for me to enter.
"Take your pick" he says kindly.
I smile at him in thanks and enter the room. My mouth opened in awe at his massive collection. Where do I start?
In the end I only pick 5 of the millions of choices. I nod and mutter thanks to the headmaster before hurrying in the direction of the boys dorms. I rush through the corridors until I reach Zero's room and to my surprise he was already back.
"What took you so long?" he asks me
"Have you seen the headmasters DVD collection? Its massive" I say as I place the DVDs down on the TV cabinet.
"Yeah I have, half of them are mine." he says knowingly
I roll my eyes. Of course they are.
"So what did you pick?" he asks
"Well I didn't know what you liked so I kind of got a range" I say
"You know the choices weren't supposed to please me they were supposed to please you" he says
"Oh that's ok cause I didn't really go for anything you might remotely enjoy" I reply
He smirks, stands up and begins to fiddle with the cables.
"Ok ready to go which one first Alice?" he asks
"Um... Madagascar I think" I mutter.
"Of course YOU would pick Madagascar." he says
"It's a very quotable movie I couldn't help it, I also got ice age three as well" I reply teasingly
He rolls his eyes, pops the DVD in the DVD player and comes to sit or rather lay beside me on his bed. He reaches over and grabs the block of chocolate he had bought me. Yummo Carmelo my favourite!
"My favourite Zero how'd you know?" I say lightly
"A hunch" he says as he snaps a row off for himself.
That's what we spent our afternoon doing. Watching movies, eating chocolate and mending my now clumsily repaired heart. Not once did Yuuki or the outside world cross our minds. It was around 8 o'clock when Yuuki burst in the door, and totally busted Zero and I quoting and acting like buck from ice age. She looked completely dumbfounded.
Me and Zero on the other hand, had eaten so much sugar that we were so madly hit with a sugar high all we could do was laugh at the seemingly odd situation she had walked herself into. When I had finally calmed down enough to breathe let alone speak I climbed off the bed a little clumsily too I might add. I walked over to her and pulled her into a tight hug.
"I love you Yuuki you are my best friend, besides that donk over there" I say pointing in the direction of the still hysterical Zero.
She smiles.
"Aww I love you too Alice but um what exactly are you two doing couped up in this room together?" she asks suddenly suspicious
"Well you see Yuuki, Kain dumped Alice this morning well technically last night but anyway she was upset so we hid out in here watching movies and eating anything sugary" Zero explains as he comes to join us in the doorway.
"Oh Alice why didn't you tell me before?" she says pulling me into another hug
"Because I wasn't even sure what had happened. Zero forced me to go talk to him this morning" I say
"Of course he did. But wait if you broke up last night who bought you the gerberas?" she asks her curiosity getting the better of her.
"That's a good question" I say eyeing the now very guilty looking Zero Kiryu.
Yuuki!" a voice called from the corridor. As the figure came into view Yuuki beamed.
"Kaname!" she greeted happily.
Zero glared reproachfully at the pureblood, as I hid slightly behind him.
"Yuuki I've been looking for you everywhere. Kiryu, Alice" he says nodding at Zero and me.
"Oh really? What's wrong?" she says turning to face him fully.
"Can we go somewhere private it's something important and something I can only tell you" he says grabbing her wrist.
"Sure see you guys soon" she says waving at us.
"Zero you bought me the gerberas didn't you?" I ask
"Yes I did is that a problem?" he asks as he slowly removes his eyes from the fading figures of Yuuki and Kaname.
"No not really" I say passively. When the little voices in my head were screaming YES, YES IT IS!
"Ok good, I wonder what was so important" he mumbles mainly to himself
"Me too" I say as I close the door and walk over to his bed.
He comes to sit beside me.
"Alice?"
"Hmm"
"Last night what were you going to tell me before our order arrived?"
I gulp, so maybe he hadn't forgotten about that.
"Well I err... How do I put this?" I say awkwardly
"You don't have to tell me if you don't want to"
"No I do its just kind of weird for me to say and I'm scared it will ruin our friendship if I do"
"What your some kind of vampire? Or are you in love with Yuuki?" he says jokingly
"Yeah no none of the above. Its more, it, let's just say it has something to do with dream I had about you when I was in a coma" I say
"What dream...?" he says
I watch him as his mind registers and searches for the answer to that question, I mentally count down 5, 4, 3, 2, 1, click.
"Oh that dream"
"Yes THAT dream"
"How does it have anything to do with that? It's been months almost a year"
"Well you remember that night when Finn found me?"
"How could I forget?"
"Well the only reason he found me was because I was lying near the fountain singing."
"What has this got to do with anything?" he asks confused
"I was singing a song that felt exactly right for what I had done that day well technically it was my mind but still"
"What song?"
"Thinking of you by Katy Perry ever heard it?" I ask
"No can't say I listen to Katy Perry in my spare time"
"Ok I'll have to get you to listen to it sometime"
"How about you just sing it now, I've heard you sing you're really good" he says
I blush, me singing that song in front of him, in his room with no music. Gods save me now.
"Oh come on Alice please"
"Fine just don't laugh, just shut up and listen ok. And I'm not singing the entire song either only the chorus"
"Ok I swear to just listen and do naught else."
"Ok good." I mumble as I take a deep breath before starting,
Cause when I'm with him
I'm thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night?
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes.
"Do you get it?" I ask
He sits there for a while just staring at me in awe.
"Zero!"
"Ah what yeah?"
"Do you get it?"
"Can you say it again; please I was distracted by how good you are"
"Fine, but I'm not singing it."
"Ok"
"Cause when I'm with him, I'm thinking of you"
"Cause when... I'm thinking of you..." a slight frown crosses his face as his concentration kicks in.
His eyes grow wide and I know now he understands.
"So you get it?"
"Do you mean that when you were with Kain you were thinking of me?"
"Kind of yeah"
"So what did your mind do to you?"
"Oh well that's awkward you see umm the first time he kissed me, when he pulled back I kind of saw... Saw... I kind of saw you" I blush looking anywhere but his lavender eyes.
"Ok so this is what you were going to tell me last night?" he asks
"Yeah something along those lines"
"Alice why are you blushing?"
"Because it's embarrassing"
"No it's not something is only embarrassing if you make it embarrassing"
"Right"
"It's true anyway"
"Yes anyway its late I should be going, I'll see you tomorrow goodnight Zero" I say as I get up off the bed and walk over to the door.
"Hang on I'll walk you over" he says as he jumps up and grabs a hoodie
"You don't have to" I say
"Its fine I need to see Yuuki anyway"
"Oh ok come on then" I say
We walk in silence until we reach my room.
"Yuuki isn't here" I say absently to him.
"Seems that way" he says
"So I guess I'll see you tomorrow then" I say
"Are you going to be alright? I mean you're not going to try to run away again are you?" he asks eyeing me suspiciously
"No I wont I promise"
"Ok good"
"Hey Zero before you go"
"What is it?" he asks
"Why did you buy the flowers?"
"I don't know I figured they would cheer you up" he shrugs
"Oh ok night"
"Good night Alice"
"Wait Zero"
He sighs
"Yes"
"Thank you for today" I say as I throw my arms around him
He hugs me back
"No problem just tell Yuuki when she gets back that I need to see her first thing in the morning please"
"No worries will do"
"Goodnight Alice"
"Night Zero"