Chapter 14- Memories
Edward's Point of View
I sent everyone else back, I needed to speak to Bella alone when she woke up.
I sat there watching all I missed when I left, how she cried on the forest floor, how Sam Uley the dog had found her, how she was lifeless for weeks, I was with her as she slashed her wrists and collapsed from the blood, I was with her as she jumped off the cliff and went plummeting to death, I was with her when she 'saw' me as the darkness slowly crept up on her and when Jacob saved her, I was with her when she rode the motorcycles trying to just 'see' me again, I was with her as she climbed the mountain planning her suicide, I was with her as she spoke to Laurent, with when he taunted her about me leaving, I was with her as he bit into her neck, I was with her during her transformation and with her for the years after, when she found out Charlie had died and when her heart shattered even more the first time she saw me again with Louise.
I was and always will be a monster, I am a cruel creative deserves to burn in hell for what I did I treated her like a toy, I crushed her heart and now just expected a simple 'sorry' would make her forgive me, I was so stupid, I deserve all of the pain seeing these memories are causing me and so much more.
Bella's Point of View
I lay there in a heap completely unaware of what was happening outside off my trances, all I knew was I kept reliving my worst memories, first I saw my 18th birthday the pained face on all of the Cullen's, the sorrow in Edwards and the heartbreak and shame in Esme's, I felt my shield collapse I saw my last moments with Edward the goodbyes the running through the forest trying to find him though already knowing that it would be impossible, falling to the floor in a lifeless lump, a soulless body wishing for death, being carried back to Charlie's him thinking I wouldn't survive just knowing something bad happened to me.
I relived all of my suicide attempts, relived all the miserably failed attempts at that, the hiking up the mountain, the conversation with Laurent and the change, the fire burning through by body, coursing my veins and killing my heart and soul on its way, waking up as a vampire and seeing no one, try suicide again but the whole time knowing it was impossible for me to die, then finally the most painful the first time I saw Edward again his hands holding Louise's, his crooked smile making my dead heart skip a beat.
I started to fade slowly out the memories only to be faced with more pain of what will come after the fight with Edward, my failed attempt of revenge.