I do not own Saiyuki. Please Review and let me know if you have enjoyed this story so far. Thank You. Shuei refers to Sanzo by the name Kouryuu.
Sanzo's View.
Shuei's View.
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"I want two shots of Crystal Virgin." I told the bartender and I ordered other alcoholic drinks. Bearcat Special, Dolt Bolt, Buzzard's Breath, Sex On The Beach, White Russian, A Goodnight Kiss, A Mid summer night dream, and several other odd named alcoholic drinks.
My mind finally feels fuzzy, ditzy, and empty.
I can tell that Kouryuu is very drunk and I know for a fact that is completely wasted. The funny thing is that Kouryuu has better balance than other people who are drunk and he tends to be clingy, emotional, and completely defend less. His eyes dilated, cheeks and across the bridge of his nose a dusty color pink. Kouryuu smiled at me and then giggled like a child.
"Let's get out there and dance." Kouryuu stated and he grabbed my hand to pull me up. I decided to go with the flow and followed him. Kouryuu looked at the other people dancing and then pulled me closer. He pressed himself against me and started to dance like the other people. The other people were doing a very dirty dance and Kouryuu was mimicking it. His hips grinding mine, hands on my shoulders, and he placed my hands close to his bottom. At one point my hand slipped and Kouryuu giggled. I'm blessed, but cursed. Kouryuu is a wonderful and beautiful person no matter his moods, but he can never be mine for I dare not risk my vauled friendship with him. Kouryuu my angel in my otherwise dark world and the one who saves me without knowing.
I closed my eyes and wished that Kouryuu was not drunk out of his mind. After this song I will take Kouryuu back to his apartment and then go home to get drunk. Kouryuu has not idea as to how he affects me and I will not let him know for I value our friendship greatly. I felt Kouryuu's breath on my neck and I let out a soft sigh. Really no idea and the song is almost at an end. I opened my eyes and the song ended. Kouryuu giggled and pulled away slightly.
"That was fun, Shuei." He told me innocently while looking breathless and beautiful as always like an angel. I nodded to Kouryuu and guided him out from the dance floor. Then out of the strip bar and into my car. I did not even have a shot of alcoholic and Kouryuu was rambling on about everything, but I was focused on driving. Then finally arrived at Hazy Apartments parking lot and I turned off the door then took out the key.
Kouryuu managed to get onto my lap and hugged me. I was blushing and I had to clear my thoughts. Kouryuu is tempting, but I have to be strong. I managed to get him off my lap and by a stroke of good luck managed to get him to his apartment door. I figured that the brat is here and I knocked on the door. Right away the door was opened and I handed Kouryuu over to the brat. I walked away and I did not glance back.
I'm going to get myself drunk when I get home and try to forget about how Kouryuu affects me when he clings to me. I feel ashamed of myself when I have dirty thoughts about Kouryuu whenever he clings to me and dancing so sensually. I know my feelings will not be returned and I felt tears run down my cheeks. I hate it when it rains and yet I love it at the same time. I will not ever take advance of Kouryuu and that is why I do not drink alcohol whenever Kouryuu is around because I fear that my control will slip.
Kouryuu does not know how I feel about him and I will not tell him for I do not want to lose him. Plus he is a very dear, precious, and irreplaceable friend of mine. There is no sense in ruing such a beautiful thing. Yet at times like these when I'm so close, but yet so far I can not stop the tears and I'm grateful for the rain to cover them up. I want the rain to clear up and once again I can bury this emotion. The same thing happens everytime it rains and I have mix feelings on it. I love yet hate the rain and I believe that fact will not change. I was finally home and I went to grab myself a bottle of wine.
"Kouryuu has no idea how beautiful he is to everyone," I whispered to myself "And how much he means to them."
I poured myself a glass of wine and then gulped it down. Kouryuu still blames himself and there is not a damn thing that I can do to change his stubborn mind about it. I sighed to myself and poured myself another glass of wine. I lost track of time and I passed out quietly.
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