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When Jace felt around in the bed Clary wasn't there. He wasn't really concerned 'cause although it didn't happen much that she wasn't there when he woke up, it had happened before. Just to be sure he hadn't just fallen asleep in his own bed for some stupid reason the night before he opened his eyes just the slightest bit. Nope, he really was in Clary's room. Than it hit him, she probably felt awkward about what had happened the night before between them. He got up and started looking around the house, hoping to find Clary somewhere. When he came downstairs he saw the note on the fridge and assuming she went to do some grocery shopping he started to read it.

Dear Jace,

Jace,

Herondale

Jonathan

You must be laughing at me now, for being so stupid. Damn, if I wasn't so sad about you leaving I'd be laughing to. You did a great job, I'm your newest conquest. At least I managed to keep you for a few years. You were the best friend I ever had, I'll miss having you around to talk to when I need it. At least there's one thing we can both agree on: I'm stupid for falling for you. I knew you never looked at your flings after you had them and although I knew that I didn't care about the consequences, I just wanted you. So I got you, and now I lost you. I love you and I'll always will. Sebastian was probably right, I'm not good enough for you.

I can't stand being around you now, I'll just burst in to tears. So please make sure that you're gone when I come back from my morning run. Like that you don't have to tell me what I already know and you don't have to go through the awkward stage of sort of breaking up with me, although we never had something. (I wish we had though, like that there would be something I could fix) Anyways, I'm trying to make it easier for you and me.

I love you,

Yours sincerely

Kind regards

Damn I don't even know how to stop this

Just

Clary

Fray

Clarissa

What was she doing? Was she shutting him out?

No, she can't be. I love her she can't leave me. I need her. I…I…I… I want her so bad! I need to find her and tell her that it wasn't like that to me, that I love her way too much to just let her go. But how do I tell her? And how am I going to find her? She can be anywhere right now! Maybe I should just wait for her here and surprise her when she comes back. How could she ever think I only wanted her for sex? She should have known how much I really love her, how much I need her. How can I ever live without her smile, her hair, her eyes… O god her eyes. Don't think about her eyes Jace, don't do it you'll be shattered. But he hadn't realised he already was. He hadn't realised the tight grip Clarissa Morgenstern/Fray –whatever- had on his heart. The tears had already start spilling out of his eyes and he could bearly breath. The sobs raged through his body and he sank to the floor.

That was the same position Jocelyn and Luke found him in about an hour later. 'Jace, Jace! Are you alright?', Luke asked. But Jace couldn't hear anything, all he could think about was how I couldn't handle losing Clary, she was his whole world.

'Jace!', now it was Jocelyn calling his name and although he hadn't heart Luke now he looked up at her. But only because he had thought it was his Clary calling him. No, not his Clary anymore.

'Jace, what's wrong honey?'

Jace couldn't answer because the sobs where still taking over his body. He felt Luke trying to pull him up and when Jocelyn came helping him they managed to get him up te stairs and in his bed.

'Jace, I really need you to tell me what's wrong? What made you so upset?'

'Cl… Cl… A… Ry…,' he managed to say between sobs.

'Clary, what did she do honey?'

'N… N… No… Thing. It's… all… my… fault.'

'Hush hush, first calm down and than tell me what has happened and what is your fault.'

It took Jace another fifteen minutes to calm down but after that he managed to tell everything from the beginning to Luke and Jocelyn.

'We were out clubbing yesterday and after singing karaoke some guy started talking to Clary. I decided to stay away from it because they seemed to have a nice time and I'm not Clary's boyfriend so I can't tell her who to go out with. But of course I kept looking at them to make sure he didn't do anything wrong. Then he kissed her and I got really jealous so I started nearing them. But I saw Clary pushed him away so I just wanted to get her and ask her to dance with me. But then Sebastian – that's the guy I was talking about – forced her to kiss him again so I beat him up. We decided to come back home and go to sleep early. But when we came in Clary's room she started undressing herself in front of me and I couldn't help myself. I had been so jealous in the club and now she was there, looking beautifull and fucking undressing herself in front of me. So I stood up from her bed and started kissing her.' Jace didn't know how much he could tell in front of Jocelyn and Luke, but Jocelyn had already guessed.

'And then you had sex with her.'

Jace just nodded.

'Tell me more, that's not why you're so upset, I hope.'

'No, I… don't regret that, not really. I just regret what happened because of it. After I woke up I noticed Clary wasn't in bed with me anymore so I got up to look for her. And then I found this note.' He showed the note she had left for him and while Jocelyn and Luke were reading it the tears started to spill again. Jocelyn looked up from the note and opened her mout to say something. And that's when they heart the door downstairs. Clary had come home.

Oh oh, what's gonna happen now? Would you guys like for me to let them end up together or are you into the tragic stuff and would you like for them to have missed their chance and never be together? Anywaaay, I'll try to update this story before I leave for camp 'cause otherwise it will take more than a month before you get the next update. Please review to let me know you like it, what you think will happen and how you'd like it to end!

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