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Ezra slammed the bathroom door shut and walked over to the sink. He leaned onto it with his hands, his head hanging down, shaking it in anger and disappointment. Then he looked up at himself in the mirror and he let out a big sigh. He was so sick and tired of it all. He just wanted things to get back to how they used to be. Though, would that be the right thing? Because Aria was obviously not benefitting from their old relationship as she always put his needs before her own. But at least she trusted him back then, that wasn't the case anymore now.

He absolutely hated what had happened these last few months. He felt so guilty about being so stubborn and about not realizing sooner that he was holding her back. Not to mention that the accident could have all been avoided, if it hadn't been for his childish behavior. Ezra glared at himself in the mirror, angry at himself for what he had done. He loved this girl, he never meant to hurt her in any way, but yet he had, repeatedly. He wasn't just mad at himself though, he was also mad at her parents for trying to drive them apart for years, which had put a huge strain on their relationship. Not to mention the fact that they had tried to brainwash her after the accident. And then he got upset at himself again, thinking that it was his fault that they actually could have gotten away with it. If he hadn't bumped into her that day at the bookstore, they would have because there was no one else in her life to save her from their plan….Because of him… It was all his fault, everything.

Maybe if he hadn't listened to her that last time when she told him she really didn't want anything to do with her parents anymore, then maybe they would have still been in her life. Then maybe they would have eventually accepted him…or maybe not. But then at least they wouldn't have been driven to this kind of insanity. She had broken off all contact with them right after Mike had died, so basically they had lost both their children at the same time, which has got to drive a parent crazy. Crazy enough to do something stupid like try and brainwash your own child when presented with the opportunity. It wasn't right what they did, not at all, but Ezra understood how they could have been driven to do something like that.

Aria didn't trust him anymore, but could he blame her for that? It wasn't because she didn't love him, it was because she had gone through so much lately. How could she trust anyone for that matter? If your own family is willing to lie to you like that, then how can you expect other people to be honest with you? How can you believe that they're telling the truth? But then again, he wasn't just anyone. He frowned as he thought about the fact that she couldn't even remember what she had told him back then, what did that mean? Was everything okay with her? He cursed at himself for yelling at her and telling her to leave. What if something happened to her… he would never forgive himself for that.

He started thinking back to when they had gotten out of the hospital, he had been so happy that they were back together. Everything was back to the way things were, her memory newly restored as they reminisced about certain things. Everything was looking up for them. He had even left work early one day and had gone to the jewelry store to buy her a present. He wanted to buy her something to tell her how much he loved her. He wanted her to know that he never wanted to lose her again and that she meant everything to him. Before he knew it, he walked out with an engagement ring. He was going to propose to her that night, after he had made them a nice romantic dinner. But when he got home that afternoon, he noticed she had packed her things, so she obviously didn't feel the same way. It had broken his heart, but he had kept a brave face for her. Sure, he had wanted to persuade her to stay and propose right there and then, but she would have probably turned him down and that thought was unbearable.

As he thought about losing her forever… he felt himself getting sick. He'd rather die, than have to live without her. Although he might have just lost her, by throwing her out like that. How could he have been so stupid! Filled with all the anger, hurt, sadness and guilt that he felt at that moment, he snapped and he punched the mirror in front of him with his fist because he couldn't look at himself anymore. The mirror shattered, glass flying everywhere. Blood stained glass was lying in the sink now and the blood was dripping off his hand into the sink and onto the floor. He looked down at his hand and noticed there were pieces of glass sticking out of his knuckles and the bottom part of his fingers. He winced as he picked out one big piece, it hurt like hell. He started picking out the rest of the pieces, wincing each time, and then throwing the shards into the sink. He couldn't get them all out because some of them were too tiny to remove by hand. He turned on the faucet, rinsed off the blood and then wrapped a towel around his hand to absorb the new blood. He put on some sweatpants and a t-shirt and then took a cab to the hospital.

Ezra went into the emergency room, checked in and waited in the waiting area until someone came to get him. A nurse gave him a local anesthetic and then started removing all the pieces and splinters of glass. Afterwards she cleaned up the wounds and stitched them up. After putting disinfectant on the wounds, she bandaged up his hand and he was good to go. When he was on his way out of the hospital, Ezra almost bumped into Ella. They were both surprised to see each other there and they awkwardly said hello to each other. Ella noticed his bandage and asked, "What happened?" Ezra held up his hand and said, "Oh this! I punched a mirror." Ella raised her eyebrows in surprise and asked, "Are you okay?" Ezra scoffed and replied, "Physically, yeah. Emotionally, not so much." Ella frowned and asked, "Is everything okay with you and Aria?" Ezra raised an eyebrow and replied sardonically, "Why? Do you feel an opportunity arising?"

Ella was visibly taken aback by his arrogance, but she felt like she deserved it. She looked guilty and didn't answer him. Ezra felt guilty about his comment and said, "I'm sorry, I … I shouldn't have said that. I've been going through a lot lately, I didn't mean to take it out on you." Ella replied, "It's okay, I think I kind of deserved that one." She pointed over to the cafeteria and continued, "Do you want to get a coffee and talk about it?" Ezra didn't really know what to do here, but after a bit he just nodded and they headed over to the cafeteria. They bought their drinks, went to sit at a table and then just sat there for a while in awkward silence.

Ella broke it by asking, "So…how have you two been?" Ezra shrugged and replied, "I don't know about Aria, but I've had better times." Ella looked confused and asked, "What do you mean you don't know about Aria?" Ezra explained, "About a week after we left the hospital, she left me. She moved to Manhattan for a job and she didn't want me to come with her." Ella looked surprised and asked, "So you haven't seen or spoken to her since then?" Ezra sighed and replied, "Not exactly. I saw her today actually, for the first time since then, at my brother's funeral." Ella felt bad for him and said, "Oh Ezra, I'm so sorry to hear that." Ezra nodded and just thanked her.

After a few moments of silence, Ella asked, "Did you two get a chance to talk at all?" Ezra replied, "More like fight…and then make-up… and then fight again." Ella asked, "What about? If you don't mind me asking?" Ezra said matter-of-factly, "She blames me for what happened." Ella sounded shocked when she asked, "She said that!" Ezra explained, "Not in those exact words, but it was implied. She's mad at me for coming between you guys and her. She blames me for allowing her to break all contact." Ella looked guilty as she said, "I'm sorry… I never wanted any of this to happen. I just wanted my daughter back… I just wish we would have done it in a different way. If we would have just accepted you, your relationship, then none of this would be happening."

Ezra shrugged and said, "Well, we've all done things we're not proud off." Ella nodded and replied, "True, but I've done a lot of things I'm not proud off. And in the process I hurt my daughter, I hurt you and I hurt your relationship…. I'm sorry that she blames you, she should know it's not your fault. Why would she even expect you to stand up for us after what we tried to do back then?" Ezra said, "I'm guessing it's because she doesn't know about it." Ella looked confused and asked, "What do you mean she doesn't know?" Ezra replied matter-of-factly, "I never told her." Ella looked surprised as she heard that, "What! Why didn't you tell her? I always assumed she broke off contact because of that." Ezra explained, "I didn't tell her because it would have broken her heart. I knew that she would resent you for it and I didn't want her to feel that way. As for why she did break off contact, I have no idea why, she never told me."

Ella offered up a solution, "Maybe you should tell her now, it might save your relationship?" Ezra shook his head and said, "No, as far as I'm concerned, she'll never know about it." Ella frowned and asked, "Even if it means losing her forever if you don't?" Ezra nodded and said, "Yes." Ella didn't really understand that, "But you do want her back, don't you?" Ezra shrugged and explained, "I don't know… I'm at a loss here. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know what's right. Right for her, right for me, right for us. Everything in my entire being tells me that I'm no good for her… but I can't live without her. I know that I should let her go, but I can't. Does that make me a selfish person?"

Ella shook her head and replied, "No it doesn't, it just means you're in love. If you're willing to sacrifice your own happiness and your relationship, just so she could be happy… then you're not selfish at all. I have no idea why you believe you're no good for her, but from what I can tell, I don't think that's true at all." Ezra gave her a faint smile and said, "Thank you, that actually means a lot coming from you. But… I don't think it's in her best interest for us to get back together. She should move forward with her life, do great things with it. She shouldn't be tied down to me, constantly giving up opportunities to be with me. And to be honest, I don't even know if we could get back to how we were."

Ella said, "Well, maybe that's a good thing? Maybe you shouldn't try and go back to how you were, but maybe you should move forward together and become a new you? I don't think you should give up on your relationship just yet…not until you've tried everything." Ezra shook his head sadly and said, "I don't see how we could move forward together and try again, if she doesn't trust me." Ella sighed and said, "Please don't hold that against her. The reason why she doesn't trust you is not because of you, it's because of me and Byron. She probably doesn't trust anyone right now, but I'm one hundred percent positive that you're the only one that could help her with that."

Ezra asked, "So what do I do then?" Ella replied matter-of-factly, "It's pretty simple: you move to Manhattan and you fight for her. If you're really serious about doing this, then I will help you any way that I can. I have a friend at Manhattan College, maybe he can pull some strings and get you a job there…"

Thank god he didn't have glass in his hair, am I right! lol
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