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Searching For What We Lost

Chapter 14 -

"Brooke…" Lucas began, though he truly did not know what to say. No words he could say would possibly be able to make things any better. They both knew what was happening. It was inevitable. The doctors had warned them that Alex only had a few hours left once his condition was diagnosed. And those hours were up.

Just minutes before, the two had been sitting in chairs next to the hospital bed. And then the machines started beeping. Doctors and nurses rushed in and sent Brooke and Lucas outside to wait. It all happened so fast it wasn't comprehendible.

"Don't." Brooke managed to stutter out through her sobs. She shook her head, letting out a heavy breath.

Lucas sat still, emotionless. He didn't know what to do, or what to feel. The whole situation was too surreal for emotion.

Confirming their worst fears, the doctor came out into the hallway with a straight face that held no emotion.

"Mr. and Mrs. Scott." He began politely. How were you supposed to tell a couple that their young son was no longer living? "I'm sorry to have to tell you this-"

"No." Brooke cried and buried her face into Lucas's chest. He held her close, gently stroking her hair, not letting the doctor's words process through his head. He didn't want to hear anymore, he had heard enough.

"No. This can't be happening."Brooke mumbled into his shirt, tugging at it with her hands. She felt sick, almost as if she was dying. The feeling that she was experiencing was killing her. She cried harder, wanting it all to end.

The doctor looked on sadly. "Your son's heart stopped working. We tried everything we could with the time we were given; his heart was just too weak. The time of death was seven thirty-six A.M…" He continued on but at that point both, Lucas and Brooke, had tuned him out.

Just hours ago their little boy was alive. Just hours ago they were waiting in the E.R., awaiting news on what the hell was happening to their son. Just hours ago they were finding out that their son didn't have much time left.

And yet no discussions with doctors, or even just small talks between themselves, would ever prepare them for the feeling they experienced when the doctor told them everything was over.

Because it felt like the world was crashing down on them. Crushing them, leaving no air to breathe.

Nothing would ever be the same.

"I'm pregnant." She repeated with a strained voice.

"Brooke, that's…" Lucas was confused; Brooke seemed so upset, disappointed, even angry about this revelation. Before Alex had passed away, they'd been talking about maybe trying for another child. And after the incident, it was just never brought up again. Lucas guessed that was the problem. Alex was still there then, and after everything happened, things changed. This just happened unexpectedly, and Lucas really didn't see it as such a bad thing. Brooke, however, did.

"It's not good, Lucas."

He ignored her reply. "Are you sure?"

"I took a test…and went to the doctor."

Lucas nodded, letting the words sink in. "This is good, Brooke." He said slowly. "This baby…it's a good thing."

"A good thing?" Brooke replied incredulously. "How is this good, Lucas? This is not good. I can't be pregnant."

"I don't understand. Why not?"

"I cannot believe you're even asking me that." She told him before walking towards her car. "I'll meet you back at home."

Lucas watched as she walked off, leaving him standing there by himself by the grave. He didn't get it. Things were going so well for them. Why couldn't they just stay happy for once?

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He had stayed at the cemetery for another twenty minutes, called Nathan and Haley and informed them that Brooke was okay, and then headed back home. By the time he arrived, she had passed out on the couch, the t.v. playing on mute.

He sighed as he sat down, watching her toss and turn in her sleep. He would wait until she woke up, but when she did, that's when they'd talk. They needed to talk about what was happening. And even if Brooke would refuse to do so, Lucas would keep persisting. If they didn't talk, they'd lose all the progress they'd made. And he didn't want that to happen.

"Mhhm." Brooke mumbled before opening her eyes. When Lucas came into focus, she closed them again.

"Brooke…" Lucas spoke.

"Not now, Luke." She waved him off. But he wasn't having it.

"Yes, now, Brooke." He said sternly. "Brooke, we need to talk."

"We have nothing to talk about, Lucas."

"Oh, please." Lucas sighed frustrated and got up from his seat. "Will you just once in your life grow up and become an adult?"

She sat up and stared at him shock. "Don't talk to me like that."

"Well maybe if you acted a little mature, I wouldn't have to. I mean seriously, Brooke. You're not the only one dealing here. I thought we went over this a few months ago."

"Don't bring that up." She mumbled quickly and suddenly her features softened. "I can't deal with that right now—I can't think about it."

"Brooke, that's what this is about, isn't it?" He asked softly, taking a seat next to her.

"I don't know what you're talking about."

"Babe, tell me what you're feeling. I'm here to listen…okay? You know that."

Brooke nodded slowly. "It's just not fair…to him."

"Alex?"

She blinked a few times to try and hide her tears before nodding with a frown. "Yes. It's just not right that we'll be moving on, starting a new chapter in our lives, when he should be with us."

"I know." He pulled her closer in his arms. "Oh, Brooke, I know. But, we're still…we're still alive. And we still have to live our lives the way we would've if he was still here with us. Alex will always be in our hearts, Brooke. He knows that. He knows that you and I love him so much and we'll never ever forget about him."

"It's just hard." She broke down into tears in his arms. All Lucas could do was kiss her forehead and hug her tighter. "I want to have this baby, Lucas." She spoke into his chest. And those words left him in relief. She wanted the baby. "But…" She started again. "I'm scared, Luke. I'm scared that something will happen like what happened to Alex."

"Me too." Lucas told her. "But just because it happened once doesn't mean it will happen again. And we can't spend our whole lives worrying about stuff like that..and we'll get this one tested for HCM right away. We won't wait."

"Okay." She mumbled. "I love you."

He closed his eyes and felt content with her in his arms. "I love you, too."

They'd be moving on with their lives, but Alex would always stay with them.

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A/N – I know this was short! Sorry!

So this story is comin' to an end; there's only gonna be like 2 chapters left.

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(Also, check out chapter 3 of "Straight From the Heart"!)

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--Melissa