Chapter 13

Buffy called Willow a couple days later and told her that they were going to the bronze that Friday night. And they were going without the guys. "It's a girl's night out." Buffy had told her. So that Friday night Buffy picked up Willow and they headed out while Spike and Oz had a movie marathon.

"So Buff spill why didn't you want Spike around?" Willow asked, "You two aren't fighting are you?" Buffy smiled at Willow.

"No we're not fighting I just realized how much I miss you and how I thought we needed a girls night out." Buffy said as she ordered hers and Willows drinks.

"Ok...I've missed you too Buffy. But you and Spike are honestly ok?" Willow said as Buffy handed her a coke and drank her Smirnoff.

"Yes we're better then fine. It's like life just got ten times better. Did I tell you that I found the promise ring he gave me senior year?" Buffy asked as they sat down.

"No. Where was it?" Willow asked.

"In the closet. Top shelf. I think I put it there a long time ago and forgot." Willow smiled.

"Yea probably." Buffy laughed and looked out at the dance floor. Buffy put her drink down.

"Come on Willow lets go show those guys how to dance." Buffy asked as she dragged Willow out to the dance floor. They danced for a 6 songs before Buffy told Willow that she was going to go get another drink. Buffy walked off the floor and walked over to the bar.

"Buffy." Someone said as they tapped her shoulder. Buffy turned around and suddenly wished she hadn't.

"Angel. What do you want?" Buffy said with anger in her voice.

"Here miss." The bartender said as he handed Buffy her drink.

"Thanks." She said as she handed him a 20.

"I want to talk to you." Angel said as he followed Buffy.

"Didn't Spike and I tell you to leave me alone after the last god damn thing you did?" Buffy said as she whirled around. "Yes and I'm sorry I did that...I didn't..." Angel said before Buffy interrupted him.

"Shut up. You abused me for 8 months of our relationship. I almost gave myself to you. I told you my every secret. I loved you so much more then you'll ever know and you threw that away on my birthday. Do you remember that Angel? Do you remember throwing me on that table and then picking me up and throwing me in to the wall?" Buffy said as she set her drink down and got in Angel's face.

"Yes." Angel said as he looked at the floor. He was so ashamed of himself and his past actions to Buffy that he couldn't even look her in the face.

"Angel...all I'm trying to say is that I don't want you in my life." Buffy said, "But what do you want?" Buffy said as she started to rub the side of her head. She was starting to get an extremely bad headache.

"He's not going to be able to save you." Angel said. Buffy looked at him like a deer in headlights.

"What? Who?" Buffy said.

"Spike, He isn't going to able to save you." Angel said as he looked at her.

"What are you talking about?" Buffy said. Angel smiled.

"I had a dream Buffy. You know how my dreams tend to come true right?" Buffy nodded. "Well I had a dream that you died, but Spike couldn't save you. He just couldn't." Angel said as he kissed Buffy's cheek and smiled. "But you were fine. No pain. Good Bye Buffy." Angel said as he looked at Buffy one last time and left.

Buffy couldn't move after that. 'I'm going to die...what the fuck...no that's not fucking right...Angel is fucking lying...yea that's it...it's just a lie.' Buffy told her self as she drank another Smirnoff. Willow came up behind Buffy just as she finished it. "Buffy are you ok?" Willow asked as she looked at Buffy. She looked pale...kind of like she had just seen a ghost or something. "Buffy?" Willow asked again. Buffy looked at her.

"Huh?" She asked.

"You ok?" Willow asked.

"Not really...you want to go?" Buffy asked. Willow nodded and they grabbed their stuff and left.

Buffy dropped off Willow. After much reassurance to Willow, that she would be fine drove her self home. She didn't make a sound when she came in, but Spike was sleeping on the couch and he heard her.

"Buffy." Spike said as he got up and walked over to her. Buffy looked at him. He wasn't wearing a shirt so she could see his six pack that made her melt into pudding at his feet. She looked him up and down before making direct eye contact with him. Spike watched her look him up and down knowing that she was probably just being her own crazy self. He touched her shoulder and she grabbed him and kissed him roughly. Spike was a little confused but soon forgot everything when Buffy started grabbing at his belt buckle. "Buffy." Spike said when the broke apart, "What's going on?" Spike asked as he took her face in his hands.

"I want you tonight Spike." Buffy said, "I want you to make love to me like it's the last time you'll ever get to do it." She said as she smiled. Spike smiled and nodded. Then he kissed her slowly. Then the kiss started to get rougher and more aggressive and he realized her wanted her just as bad as she wanted him. He picked her up and pressed her against the wall. She had on a short black leather skirt that showed off quiet a bit of leg, which Spike liked a lot, and a tank top that tied up the middle. It kind of looked like something the singer of evanescence would wear. Buffy started biting his neck when he stopped kissing her, which earned her a moan from Spike. Then she decided to be a bit daring again. She reached down and grabbed him. Spike's eyes shot up.

"You haven't done that in a long time." He said as he looked at her amazed.

"I know." Buffy said as she started moving her hand.

"God I love you." Spike said as he started messing with her chest. "Stupid top." Spike said as he looked at it. Buffy smiled.

"Come on." Buffy said as she slid down and led him to their room.

"Wow." Buffy said three hours later.

"Yea...wow." Spike said as he pulled her to him.

"So what was that all about pet?" Spike asked her as he looked into her eyes.

Buffy looked right back at him and said. "Because in all the times that we've had sex we've never made love...or whatever it is. And I wanted to experience that at least once. And I wanted to experience that with you." Buffy said.

Spike leaned down and kissed her. "I'm glad you said something...because I didn't know if you wanted that sort of thing."

Buffy sat up and looked at him. "Spike I want to give myself to you completely. I want you to know my body and soul. And I want to you know yours. That's if you'll let me." Buffy said as she looked down. Spike tilted her chin up.

"You already do Buffy...my body and soul is you. You're everything to me and, then some. You're all I bloody think about. Dream about. You're in my gut...my throat... I'm drowning in you, Summers; I'm drowning in you." Buffy looked at him and kissed him.

"I love you William Giles. And I will love you till the day I die." Buffy said as she looked in to his eyes.

"And I love you Buffy Summers. And I will love you till the day I die."