LAST CHAP:

He looks at me seriously. "I love you more than ANYTHING, Miles. Y-Your my best friend...my everything. A...And I really am so so so sorry." He says, looking at me.

I look at him. His eyes, begging me to forgive him. My face draws closer to his as i say softly, "Your forgivin," and then, our lips meet.

The next day, I call to make an doctor's appointment. I havn't seen Dr. Freed in...10 years. I'll bet she'll be surprised to see us again.

I get an apointmet for 2:00 that afternoon. since Lily and Oliver already know, they agree to watch the kids.

Faith has Chemo the next day...we are gunna tell them (the kids, and the rest of the family) this afternoon. I swore Lily and Oliver to secrecy about what happened with Jake. I told them he apologized. They acted a bit...cold towards him, but...they will get over it.

We park outside the building, and get out. He laces his fingers through mine as we approch the door. We go to the receptionist, and check in. About five minutes later, I'm called.

Jake and I walk in together. We are lead to the ultrasound room.

I lay on the bed table examining table thing, and a minute later Dr. Freed comes in.

"Miley, Jake, this is a...suprise!" She says.

"Yea...It was for us to." I say.

"I was so certaint you were unable to get pregnant again...how are the kids, by the way?" She asks

My smile wavers a bit. "They are...good. Sophie, Karlee, Audree, Kellie and Derek are great." I say. "But..Faith got diagnosed with Leukemia, three weeks ago." I say.

"Oh my god...I'm so sorry. How is she doing?" She asks, genuinly concerned.

"Okay I guess...tomorrow will be her second week of Chemo" Jake says.

"Oh...well, I am very sorry, and i hope everything works out. Would you like to get started?" She asks

"Thank you...and yes, please." I say.

I lift my shirt up revealing my stomach, and she rubs the cold, blue gel on to my stomach, sending chills through my body. Then she takes the instrument thing, and begins rubbing it around, looking at the screen.

A few minutes later, "Well...you are pregnant Miley. Do you...know when it was concieved?" She asks.

"March 20." I say automatically. The day that the baby was concieved...and Faith diagnosed with Leukemia.

"So the due date should be around December 20...good christmas present. your about three weeks along." She says. Then she goes serious as she wipes the rest of the gel off. "Miley, Jake...you should know...t-this delivery could be fatal to you, Miley. Because of your past I HIGHLY reccoment a C-section...it would be less fatal to both you, and the baby." She says.

"Okay. Okay...I'll have a C-section...but what if there is no time?" I ask.

"Well...as soon as there is a fist sign of you going in to labor, you call me, and get here. Even if it is false...better safe then sorry." She says.

Later, we all go to Jenny house, and in to Faith's room. "Mommy! Daddy! Look what Katie helped me with!" Faith exclaims, holding up her arm, showing us the colorful friendship braclet.

"Wow. Thats very pretty sweetie." I say, as Jake and I sit on chairs on either side of her bed.

Everyone else...including Mikayla and Kayla...was here already. Karlee comes to me, and Kellie goes to Jake. I pull her on my lap.

I look at Jake. "Everyone...Jake and I have something to say." I say. I play with Karlee's brown curls as I talk. "I our family is going to have a new member, in about nine months." I say.

They all stare. "Your having ANOTHER kid?" Jackson asks. "Wow." He says. "Dont you have a few already?"

"You are having a baby, Mommy?" Faith asks.

I look at her. "Yes honey, I'm having a baby." I say.

All is silent. Then..."Where do babies come from?" Karlee asks.

"I know!" Emily ans Sophie say together..Health class.

"THEY COME FROM THE STORK!" Jake yelps.

Emily and Sophie look at him strangley. They both are about to open their mouths, but I silence Sophie with a look, and Lily silences Emily.

I look at My dad and Jake's parents who still havn't spoken.

"Daddy?" I ask softly.

"I...I'm happy for you guys. I really am...but...wont it be a bit...hard?" He asks.

Jake's parnets nod. I look at my dad. "Yea...it will. But when has my life ever been easy?"

Yet again on saturday, the chemo destroys Faith.

Jake and I stay the night with her, the kids stay at my dad's house.

We pull up in front of the house, and get out, and walk up to the door. I open it...I had lived there. I mean, I am his daughter...he wont care.

We walk in. There is a woman sitting at the table. "Who are you?" I ask.

"Umm...you just walked in to my home...I should be asking you the same thing." She says.

I look at her. "DADDY"!" I call.

The lady's eyes widen. "Your Miley." She says.

"Yea...DAAAAAAAADDDDDDDDDDDDDY!" I screm. I hear footsteps.

Dad appears. "Miley!" He says.

"Dad. W...Whats going on? Am I missing something here?" I ask.

"Um...baby...we have to talk. T...This is Kylee...my girlfriend." He says.

My eyes widen. "G...G...GIRLFRIEND!" I yell.

"Yes...girlfriend." He says. "We've been dating for the past six months." He says.

"SIX MONTHS! AND I'M JUST NOW HEARING ABOUT THIS!" I scream.

"Miley...I'm sorry...I was going to tell you...but then everything with Faith and..." He starts.

"You still should have told me!" I scream.

"Miley, calm down." Jake says.

"Dont you tell me to calm down...you didn't just find out that your dad has had a girlfriend of six months that your just now finding out about!" I yell.

"Miley...I'm sorry." Dad starts.

"Oh! And not to mention, MY KIDS, where around her. I have a right to know who is going to be around MY kids!" I say.

"Jake kne..." Dad starts.

I turn on Jake. "YOU KNEW?!"I scream at him. "YOU KNEW AND YOU DIDN'T TELL ME! HE'S MY DAD! IF THEY GET MARRIED IT IS MY MOM THATS BEING..Replaced. Packed away, as if she never existed." I say.

"Miley, i felt he should tell you..." Jake starts.

"KIDS! COME ON, WE ARE GOING HOME!" I yell, walking to the stairs. Jake grabs my arm. I pull it away. "DONT TOUCH ME!" I yell. I start going up the stairs. "KARLEE AUDREE DEREK KELLIE AND SOPHIE LETS GO!" I cal. A minute later, they appear. "Come on." I repeat.

"Mom...whats wrong?" Sophie asks.

"Nothing...just come on" I say. They look at each other, then all go back in to the rooms to get their stuff. I go downstairs. Jackson is here. He doesn't seem the least bit suprised. "Oh. Thats nice Dad. Real nice. You have the hear to tell Jackson, but you can't tell me." I say.

"I was afraid you'd overreact." Dad says.

"If you had told me, not kept me hidden in the shodows, then MAYBE I WOULDN'T BE ACTING LIKE THIS. I want you to be happy Dad...I do. But when you totally shut me out of whats going on...thats what pisses me off...and breaks my heart." I say.

"Miles...you are overreacting." JAckson says.

"EASY FOR YOU TO SAY! HE TOLD YOU!" I yell. I stand there for a minute, looking at the picture of Mom on the table. I walk to it, and pick it up. "Mom."I whisper. "Mo-o-o-o-o-om." I sob out. Jake comes over, and wraps his arms around me.

"Miley it's okay. It's okay." Jake whispers.

"No..it isn't Jake. She'll never know them..and they will never know her. She was my mom. I dont know how i did it with out her all these years. If she were here...everything would be different. And now I'll never know what life could have been like..if she had been there all those times. I miss her...I dont know why this is hitting me now...but god I miss her." I cry.

"Mommy? Whats wrong?" Says my sons voice from the stairs.

"Derek...you guys go wait outside okay?" Jake says.

They nod and silently file out.

"She'll never know...what her grand children look like...what has happened to me...to Jackson. How sucsessful Hannah is...was...is...I was a teenage girl with out her...And now...all this." I say. Jake holds me, rubbing my back softly. "And now...now I'm having ANOTHER kid that she'll never know...never hold...never even speak to. Everytime i get pregnant...this hits me. I just...kep it in all those other times. But know with all this..." I say.

"Miley...I miss her too." Jackson says. "My kids will never know her eather. But it's been over twenty years, Miles. I know the pain will always be there...it will for me too...but you need to remember...she wanted you to be happy. She wanted us to move on...even Dad." Jackson says.

My cell phone rings. I pull it out...its Katie, so i put it on speaker. "Hello," I ask.

"M...Miley...its Katie." She says.

"I...Is something wrong with Faith?" I ask.

"No...Miley where are you right now?" She asks.

"My dad's house...why?" I ask.

"B...Because some one came in, demandig that she wanted Faith taken off treatment and discharged. She said she was you...but...her sccent...it was stronger..."

"LUANN!" I scream. "It's my cousin...Luann. Just...Get her away from Faith. Now. I dont want her near her." I say.

"KARRIE...CALL SECURITY. Have them go to Faith Ryans' froom/...get that women thats in there OUT...but keep her here." KAtie yells.

"We will be right there..." I say. I hang up. "I'm SICK OF THIS! What the hell is wrong with her? Hasn't she had enogh of trying to hurt me?!" I say angrily.

"Mom...I thought we had to go!" Sophie says from outside.

"Change in plans...call Lily and Oliver to come get you guys...I have to go and punch Luann in her fat nose." I say.

"Oh you are not going any where near Luann...You dont want to wind up in Jail, do you?" Jake asks. "You stay here...I'll go." He says, and runs out before I can say anything. I run after him. "HEY! YOU COME BACK HERE..." I say, but stop as my stomach turns. I put my hands over my mouth, and run back n to the house and in to the bathroom, droping in front of the toilet. I feel someone pull my hair back, and start rubbing my back softly. when I stop, i turn and see my Dad. "Thanks." I mumble, and go to the sink.

I wash my hands and face, and rinse my mouth out.

I walk in to the hall way. My dad is waiting there. "Miley...we need to talk" He pleads.

"Fine." I mumble.

I follow him in to my old room...which the kids now use when they sleep over. We sit on one of the beds.

"I'm sorry...I'm sorry I didn't tell you about Kylee. It was stupid...and wrong. And I'm very very sorry." HE says.

I look at him. "Do you love her?" I ask.

"Yes I do...very very much." He says. "But she can't replace your mom. Miles. I could never forget yout mom. I see her everyday...in you. And I loved your mama...so so much. You need to remember that, Honey."

"I...I know..but...It was so..wierd...seeing her there. Sometimes it is hard to believe you remember her all the time." I say.

"But I do...always go back to that...I do love your mom...I always will." He says. "Please forgive me, Miley." He says.

I hug him. "I forgive you Daddy."

"MOM! DEREK IS BEING OBNOXIOUS!"

I look at him. "Duty calls." I say.We get up and go downstairs.

"Tell Derek to stop being obnoxious!" Sophie exclaims.

"Derek, stop being obnoxious." I say.

"But Sophie is being annoying." Derek complains.

"Sophie stop being annoying." I say.

"I wasnt bveing annoying! He was the one who kept pulling my hair." Sophie says.

"Hold on." say, as my cell phone rings. "Hello..."

"Hey baby...everything is okay...they arrested Luann for impersonation. Faith is good...she is sleeping now. I'm comming to get you guys now." Jake says. "Did you work things out with your dad?"

"Yea...I worked things out with my dad...STOP PULLING HER HAIR DEREK!" I yell at him, as he continues doing it.

"Oh boy...I'll be there soon." he says.

"Okay. I say. "Love you."

"I love you too...see you soon." He says, and we hang up.

"STOP PULLING MY HAIR!" Sopie screams.

"Derek Jacob Ryan...how many times do I have to tell you to stop?" I ask. "Go up stairs, and stay there till your dad gets here..." I am cut off as Jake walks in.

"Oh well! Guess I cant!" Derek says.

"you right...when we get home you can." I say.

"Haha!" Sophie says.

"Whats going on?" Jake asks.

"Derek is being an obnoxious idiot" Sophie says.

"Sophia...watch the language." I warn. "Derek kept pulling Sophie's hair, even after i told him to stoip. So he is punished." I say.

Derrek storms past us, and outside.

My phine rings...AGAIN! "Hello?" I ask.

"Hello, Mrs. Ryan. This is Jonothan Kemble."

"Oh...hey John. Whats up?" I ask. Jake looks alarmed. He was a director I had worked with for a movie, and Jake did movies with.

"Well...I can't get through to Jake...I was wondering if he had talked to you about him doing the movie in Italy for yet?"

"W-What Movie in Italy?" I ask.

"Oh...guess he didn't..ooops! Gotta go! Bye."

"John..." The line goes dead. I slowly close my phone, and put in my pocket. "Well we should go now." I say. "Lets go and get the kids home. Bye Daddy..Jackson...Kylee." I say.

"OR! Maybe we could go to the zoo!" Jake suggests.

"No...Lets go." I say.

As soon as the kids are upstairs I round on him. "When were you planning on telling me?" I snarl.

"Miley...I just found out two days ago..." He starts. "I was going to talk to you about it. Now can we talk about this rationally, PLEASE?" He asks.

"Fine." I say.

"Good." He smiles. He takes my hand, and pulls me in to the living room. We sit on the couch, him on one end, me on the other. I face him. "It's a Zombie High Reunion Movie." He says. "They want me out there next month, and it would take about a year." He says.

"A year? But...you woyuld miss the whole pregnancy..and the birth. I..I'd be alone." I say. "But...You wanna do it, don't you?" I ask.

"I...part of me does." He admits. "But then, part of me doesn't."

"Well...which part is stronger?" I ask.

"Both are equal." He admits.

"You really want to do this, don't you?" I ask softly. I see him nod a fraction of an inch.

"Well...then we will have to make this work..."

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