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Thank goodness we would be hoping on another hovercraft first thing in the morning. I was getting really tired of wearing jeans that were too big and a t shirt that smelled like moth balls. There was a tentative knock on my door just before I was about to take my large, and in-charge, jeans off and crawl into bed.
"It's open" I called out setting my hair brush down in the bathroom. I was surprised to see Finn standing in the middle of my room with his hands in the pocket of his pants. "Hey" stilling my hands that I as running thru my hair.
"Hey, I, um, just haven't had a chance to talk to you today, besides this morning for a short time." I could tell he was nervous. He kept shifting his weight from foot to foot and his head was ducked even though he was making eye contact.
"Sure, have a seat…or stand, which ever you are more comfortable." I sat on the end of my bed. I hated that I was now extremely nervous in front of him. This wasn't us. This wasn't how it suppose to be. "About earlier, I just want to say I am sorry about saying you treat me like a child, you are obviously just trying to do your job. You are really good at your job, and I appreciate your hard work and dedication." He shifted where he stood thinking in his head, because I can read minds now, whether he should come sit by me or stay where he was. Thankfully he came and sat on the bed next to me.
"I need to confess some-things." I tried not to gasp or act a fool at hearing his words. "Originally, I wasn't suppose to be the Captain of the Guard for this detail. There was another Captain assigned this tour, but when I heard you had agreed to be a part of this project, I just knew I had to be on this detail, at the very least, even though I didn't want to settle for anything less than the Captain. At first Gale wouldn't let me join because there was already enough volunteers, and Tulia, the assigned Captain was more than qualified for the just, just like me. I was so pissed, I ended up going to a local bar to drink away what felt like failure to me. Lucky for me Tulia was there too already wasted bragging about how he was going to fuck the Little Mockingjay senseless." Ugh, pig. I wanted to punch his pig face. "See, Tulia isn't very well liked so I got some of the other Guards there agree to testify with me in-front of Gale what Tulia was claiming. Needless to say I was appointed the new Captain of the Guard for this Tour and Tulia got demoted and walked around HQ with a killer shiner on his face." He wore a self satisfied grin on his face. "I took this job with the full intention of being your friend and protector. But the moment I saw you standing on the train platform in Twelve, I knew that might be harder said than done. I was expecting a twelve year old girl, instead I got a bright and beautiful woman." My heart rate just increased to a million miles an hour. "I thought I could do it, I thought I could stay by your side all day and keep things purely professional, but you had to make that about the most impossible thing ever." Oh dear, this was getting heavy. "I watched you sweat and toil with that beautiful smile still on your face, you listened and cared, and every day I had to remind myself how off limits you are, but I'd wake up and you'd be the first person I thought about and the first person I wanted to see, and to hear." He moved closer to me. "you're smart little mouth made it harder for me not want to just pull you into a dark corner and kiss you senseless, but that was a line I was too scared to cross." He said was, he just said was! I tried to keep my face neutral, but I wanted to smile that stupid kinda smile. "When you had that nightmare a few nights ago you asked me to stay with you, and half of me was over the moon, but the other half was yelling at me to just turn around and leave, but I couldn't do that to you, so I stayed. I didn't sleep at all that night, here I was sharing a bed with one of the most beautiful woman I know and I couldn't touch her, or kiss her, or even hold her like I so desperately wanted. I knew that if I didn't pull away, I'd end up demoted like Tulia and with a busted nut or two." He laughed about it but I knew Gale just as well as he did, he wasn't joking. There was a paused and I opened my mouth to say something but he stopped me. "but I can't do it anymore. I can't swallow my growing feelings and pretend they aren't there." He took my face in his hands and brought my face close to his. "and if I'm right, you're having a hard time doing the same" His words were soft as he glanced down at my lips when I licked them. I nodded in agreement. He chuckled before kissing me. It was a soft kiss at first, like two people testing the waters, but soon when I opened my mouth his tongue began to danced against my own. Boldly I crawled into his lap, his hands skillfully wondered over my body, finding a home on the curve of my ass or tangled in my hair.
"I can't give you anything more than private moments like this together." He said panting after breaking our kiss. "If anyone was to report this to your uncle…"
"I know…we'll be careful, I promise to be careful." I agreed. He smiled broadly at me before shifting us swiftly so that I was on my back and he was kneeling over me.
We made out for a while longer, before I insisted we stop unless he was ready to rip my clothes off and just do it, which he unfortunately said he wasn't willing to risk going that far with me just yet. Even after I took my pants off in front of him showing off my lovely granny panties, oh well. He did cop a feel as I shifted to get comfortable, fucking tease. I wanted him to stay with me that night, but he said it would be too dangerous considering if anyone came looking for him, they'd knock on his door and not mine. So he stayed with me until I fell asleep. He sat on the edge of the bed stroking my hair or caressing my arm.
I woke up the next morning before my usual wake-up call coated in sweat and feeling my heart in my throat. Finn knocked on my door, just like he use too, this time when he opened the door I quickly rushed out of bed to wrap him in my arms and cover him in kisses.
"Hey, now." He caught me after quickly shutting the door behind him. He returned my kiss and added a quick ass grab. "get dressed and get down stairs we are leaving within the hour." He kissed me one last time before exiting my room with a huge grin on his face.
"So judging by Captain's changed attitude, you and him kissed and made up?" Daniel asked in a whisper while we were on the hovercraft. "No wait maybe you shouldn't tell me, I don't want any part of this if there is something going on." I pinched his side playfully, but he was right, I didn't want him knowing either the less people that knew the better.
When we arrived at District Eight later that day we were driven straight to our hotel rooms from the hoverpad. Only Finn and Marks chatted during the car ride. Daniel and I sat in a comfortable silence observing the district as it passed by our car windows. Everyone seemed to be wearing bright colors and most of the women had short pixie hair cuts. There wasn't a large reception like we were use to, but I had heard Finn say something about them not knowing our official arrival time and that was why we had arrived practically unseen. I liked it this way, actually. It gave me a chance to see the district in its natural state.
We were ushered into our hotel rooms, they weren't the large penthouse like we use too, instead they were separate rooms, with of course a door in each room leading to one other room.
"Blass thank goodness you are safe!" I wasted no time embracing my stylist once I spotted him in my room. He was hanging a garment bag on a hook hanging on my bathroom door.
"Please, like anyone could keep me from getting to my favorite district! How are your darling, I see no bullet holes thankfully, that would totally ruin my next look for you." His eyes gave me a once over.
"I am well, anxious to get back into the swing of things." I said before Blass talked on about how he was going to slowly 'unwrap' me, as he put it, like a precious present.
"I am going to sex up your image the closer we get to the Capitol. It'll be epic, darling, just pure epic." He gushed. Effie of course wasn't fully on board with the idea of me dressing like 'sex on legs', again, as Blass put it, but she did comment that at least I had the body and face for it. Apparently I need to work on my smoldering though, so I can make a grand entrance with a smolder on my face. Yeah, I laughed.
"Alright, enough chit chat." Effie said. "Let's get you all ready to meet the Mayor. He's our youngest Mayor in Panem history you know." She was so proud of herself for knowing that. "thirty-two and the mayor of a district is a mighty fine accomplishment."
Blass placed me in a white lace dress that hit about two inches above my knees, it hugged me like a second skin and the neck line cut into a sharp and deep V showing an ample amount of cleavage. If this was progressive sexy then god help me for when we get to the Capitol. Blass teased my hair to give it some volume before fishtail braiding my hair to the side. I wore simple diamond studded earrings and a necklace that had a matching solitaire diamond resting on my collar bones.
"You have gone all out, Blass. I feel like I am about to meet the President of Panem, or maybe some queen of some sort." I was amazed at how amazing I looked. I had never worn red lipstick before and it was making my lips so damn kissable! I was having a hard time not kissing my reflection, they looked so good. Finn is going to love this.
"Mayor Burnette is a very elegant man. He is from a very wealthy family, it is said everything he does is in opulence." Blass ran a hand over the sides of my dress before pulling on the hem to straighten it. "Remember to check your hem when you stand, don't want the world to see your cookie jar." He said with a wink.
"Cookie jar?" I laughed
"Yeah, you know cookie jar, because boys like to eat from the cookie jar." I was in stitches from laughing so hard.
"Oh, Blass the things you say keep my blood pumping." I said as he retouched up some make up I had wiped off from laughing so hard. A knock helped us silence our giggles.
"Ready?" Finn opened the door. His eyes bulged at the sight of me.
"Finn, do you like cookies?" I asked. Blass couldn't help himself. He collapsed to the floor in a fit of laughter.
"Is he okay?" Finn was genuinely concerned.
"Of course." I was having a hard time not joining Blass on the floor laughing. "Shall we?" I grabbed the clutch from my dresser and approached Finn. "Thank you Blass, see you tomorrow." I left him on my floor gasping for air. He waved me off light heartedly.
"Your tits, are distracting." Finn spoke softly to me, through his teeth, as we walked down the hotel hall. "I might have to murder some people tonight, starting with Blass for putting you in that dress, and what the heck is with that cookie question? Who doesn't like cookies they are the best when they warm gooey and soft. Everyone knows that." He sounded irritated, but I still couldn't help but laugh some more.
To say that Mayor Derek Burnette was handsome was putting it lightly. Sandy blond hair, deep blue eyes, chiseled jaw line, tall and muscularly lean. He was every girls dream, well maybe except mine, but I was totally okay with admitting he was panty melting good looking. Although, Finn wasn't. Daniel was good natured about it all, he took the 'I-am-going-to-see-the-humor-in-all-this' route, but Finn, I could feel the irritation radiating off him.
"So, Little." Derek, he preferred me to call him by his first name, sense we would be best of friends now, spoke while spearing a leaf of lettuce from his plate. "how are you enjoying your journey?"
"It has been a really great adventure, I am learning a lot, and I have had the best of company." My eyes shifted to Daniel who smiled at me, but the coyly they shifted farther over to Finn, he was scowling as he ate his salad, but I tapped the toe of his shoe with mine to reassure him I really meant him.
"Ah, do I sense a budding romance?" Derek teased. Finn stiffened. "How appropriate that the President's nephew would fall in love with the Mockingjay's only daughter." Now he was just mocking us.
"Little is a really lovely lady and any one would be more than lucky to receive the gift of her heart, but our relationship has and will continue to be purely platonic. I respect her enough to only expect a friendship from her." Daniel said in my defense, always such the diplomat.
"Oh, I am sure of that." Derek said looking at me and winking. Now things were just awkward.
"So, Derek what can we expect from the people tomorrow as we venture out into the looms and weavers factory?" I asked trying to relieve some of the tension in the room.
"We in District Eight pride ourselves in how warm and inviting we are. You will not find an personal adversary anywhere near the factories." He beamed.
"How…relieving," I continued to make small talk with Derek during the meal. Everyone else at the table stayed silent. Thankfully it was just five of us this evening, sense Derek is single and has no children of his own. Thankfully, after dinner Daniel asked about their schools and orphanages and the type of funding they receive.
"Thank god that's over, if I had to watch that fucker stare at your chest one more time I was going to lose it." Finn seethed. We just had bid Marks and Daniel good night moments ago and he had opened my hotel room door for me.
"Relax now, it's over. I'll make sure my titties stay concealed from his meddling eyes." It was nice knowing Finn cared how people looked at me. I wrapped my arms around his waist. "can I convince you to stay with me tonight. You could leave the door that separates our room open that way you could hear if anyone was looking for you." I was stooping so low now that I pouted my lips and batted my eye lashes at him, and I may have pressed my heaving chest firmly against him. He groaned.
"How can I saw no to a face like this." He kissed my pouting lips. "oh yeah like this, no." he dead panned. Damn. I pushed him away with a huff and an eye roll. "I'm sorry, that was mean. Of course I'll stay with you, but why don't you sleep in my room. They'll expect me to answer the door right away and if someone knocks you can just roll under the bed or something." He chuckled at that last part. I was so happy he said yes that the last part of the sentence didn't even phase me.
"Thank you!" I pecked his lips. I had to rub some of the red I left behind off with my thumb. "Let me get ready and I'll be right over." I had never gotten ready for bed so fast in my life. "I'm warning you I am a bed hog." I said crawling into the bed with him. He was already in bed scanning through something on his pocket tablet. He smiled but didn't look up from his screen. No sir, I thought. I straddled him taking the device out of his hands and placing it by the bed side table. "Finn, I am going to kiss you know." I warned. I kissed him tenderly burying my hands in his hair. His hands resting on my hips was such a turn on to me, god it had been too long sense I had been laid. I was aching for him. I deepened the kiss to let him know I was wanting to progress this kissing to more than just kissing. Sitting in his lap I could feel his growing erection, my inner sex goddess took over and I began to rock my hips on his hardness. I wanted even more so to have him devour my body with his.
"Little" he broke our kiss. I realized then how hard he was squeezing my hips. "I don't think we should…not yet at least." A part of me deflated at his words, but definitely not the part of me that wanted to have sex with him. I didn't respond at first, I was too busy trying not to take his rejection personal, and I was trying to calm down my rapidly beating heart before I spoke. "it's not you" he read my mind. "I mean you can literally feel how much I want to but, one I don't have protection, and two I want to take this slow considering what's at stack here." It was weird hearing this from a guy, shouldn't I be the one to be putting the brakes on our pending love fest because I 'wanted to take it slow'?
"Okay, you're right sorry." I climbed off his lap and nestled next to him, my head resting on his shoulder and my legs enter-twined with his. I could do this, this was real nice, I pushed the thought of sex with Finn out of my head by telling myself that cuddling with him was enough. "but the minute you have protection and or are ready to take that step with me, just rip my clothes off, I'll know what you mean."
"Dually noted." He chuckled kissing my forehead. I laid in his arms that night sleeping in a peace I had never experienced before. It felt like I was wrapped in a blanket of security. I closed my eyes feeling safe for the first time in an extremely long time.