Mickie's P.O.V

I had managed to pick myself up off the bed and make my way to the bathroom, much to Evans disagreement, he told me I should stay in bed, call in sick for the house show today. But I couldn't, I wouldn't. Randy had already hurt me in more ways possible, I did not want him to hurt me by making me stay away from my job either. I hated the fact that everything was going so well, up until Sam came, I hate the fact that he chose her, I hate the fact that no matter how much I want him to be with me, he never will… I hate the fact that… he said he wants nothing to do with me anymore… I hate the fact that, no matter what… I love Randy Orton. With all my heart, and that wont just go away..

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"Mickie.. You don't have to come tonight" a voice said from the lounge "Please, if youre not comfortable to perform in Legacy tonight, because of that Jackass, stay"

It was Ted that pleaded that case. I walked over to him and sighed.

"I have to come Teddy… not just for the fans.." I breathed in heavily before speaking again "But for myself.. I have to be there, I want to prove that I can survive without Randy Orton, I want to prove im going to be o-" I couldn't finish that sentence, because truth is, I knew I wouldn't be ok. I just knew it. Nothing could change how I feel right now. Not even the fans.

I felt Teds arms wrap around me as I buried my head into the crook of his neck and cried. I hate living like this, I hate the fact that every time I so much as even hear Randy's name, it brings back all the pain he has caused me over these couple of months. I sometimes wish I had never even associated with Randy, that I never even looked his way once. But I knew that if I didn't, I wouldn't have found Cody and Ted, and they were two people I couldn't live without.

"Micks?" Ted whispered in my ear. I heard the shower in the bathroom turn off, indicating that Evan had finished his shower. "Please don't do something to make a point. Stay, take care of yourself. Don't make yourself suffer by seeing him. Don't become what you are not Mickie.. Please"

"Im already someone im not Ted" I answered truthfully "Im never like this.. Im not… im usually happy, I loved life, I loved everything about it. But now, I don't. I cant stand the pain that I feel, and I cant stand seeing Randy living happy with Sam. It makes me hurt so bad Ted, I don't know if I can handle it any longer. I want to be able to be myself again, I want to be me… but I wont be, not for a long time. Not while im still in Legacy, not while I still see Randy everyday"

"What are you saying Micks?" he pleaded, lifting my head up so he could look into my eyes.

"I need to get out of here Ted, I need a new start. I need everything to just go away. I need everything to just stop, and I need to forget about everything and everyone for a while" I looked up at Ted and sighed "Im asking for my release Ted…"

"YOURE WHAT?" I heard Evan yell, he came running from our room, only dressed in sweat pants. "You cant ask for your release Mickie. Please don't"

I couldn't help but feel the tears prick my eyes once again as I looked into the pleading eyes of both Evan and Ted. I gave them a soft smile, indicating that I was really going to do this.

"Its not forever you two" I said, resting my head on Evans shoulder as he sat beside me. Ted grabbed a hold of my hand and looked directly at me.

"Mickie, if you go.. Nothing will be the same. Please don't run away from your problems. I am here, we are here every step of the way Mickie. We will fight this with you. You cant leave, not now"

I couldn't help but feel my heart sink as more tears welled up in my eyes, I don't want to leave, but I know, in order to move on from Randy. I have to. I have to leave, I have to become me again, and I know asking for my release is a start.

"Will you ever come back?" Evan whispered in my ear and I felt his grip tighten around me…

"Yeah, you cant keep me away from this place" I attempted a joke, but let out a sad, slow sigh "In time Evan, I will. When im ready…"

"What are you going to tell Cody? And Melina? You cant leave Micks.. Please" Ted said, squeezing his hand around mine. I used my thumbs to rub the top of his hand and I gave him another soft and reassuring smile.

"I will tell them Ted…" I looked up and saw he had tears in his eyes "Its whats best for me right now. Its what I need to do in order to figure out what I want to do about this whole situation. Its what I need to do Ted. So please, please don't hold me back from that… Please.. Both of you"

Truth is, I had been thinking about my release since I first found out about Randy and Sam. I just never expected to actually doing it. I love this business so much, its going to hurt so much for me to leave it for now. But I have to! If I had enough strength, and enough mental power, I would stay. I would fight this and pretend everything is ok, and eventually it will be. But I don't have the energy, I don't have the mental strength to carry on anymore. I have none of that. I really don't.

I know I will be back. I truly do know it. I don't know what is going to happen with my spot in Legacy, but I do know, not facing Randy every day, not facing the pain that arises in my chest every time I see him… it will fell kind of good. I know this is what I need to do. I know this is what I want to do… Its what I will do…

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"Micks.. Please don't" Cody pleaded as he cupped his hands on my face so he could look me in the eyes "Don't let him get to you Mickie. Please"

"That's the thing Cody" I sighed, grabbing a hold of his hands and moving them away form my face "He already has gotten to me.. So much. To the point where I fell inlove with him. He's made me feel things I never felt before Cody.. Weather it be Love or pain… I cant stay around him any longer Cody. Im not as strong mentally and emotionally .Cody.. Im not the same person I was when I first met you all." I sighed as I replayed the memories of the times where it was us, hanging out.. When we first met.. How everything had been a rollercoaster ride from then on….

"Youre really doing this?" the Latina replied as she looked me up and down. I sent a small nod to Melina, I then felt her arms wrap around me, and the pain in my chest was unbelievable. I never knew it would have so much of an impact on me, just to leave. I sighed as I looked at Melina and Cody…

"I-I have to go and talk to Mr. McMahon" I whispered as I released myself from Melinas embrace and made my way out of the locker room door to find the chairman of the boards office.

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"Youre sure you want to do this?" Mr. McMahon sighed as he had just finished hearing what Mickie had stated "You are one of our top Divas Mickie James, and I cant loose you…"

"Im sorry Sir.." I said, as I attempted to meet his gaze "I want to move on… I cant stay here and be in Legacy and pretend everything is alright sir, because truth is.. Its not…"

"I understand sweetie" he smiled at me, before returning to sitting behind his desk "What are we going to do about the whole Legacy stable?"

"I cant continue with that , especially if I am leaving in 1 week…" I saw him sigh before I continued "But sir… can I ask you something?"

"Anything Mickie.. Anything"

"Please… when im ready… can I come back, please, let me come back" I said, as a tear rolled down my cheek "I don't know what I would do without Wrestling, it is practically my life Sir"

"Mickie, you know your job is always here when you want it" he said before coming over to me and pulling me into a hug "There is nothing I can do to change your mind?"

I shook my head and pulled away "Thankyou for everything Mr. McMahon.. But I promise you this… I will be back"

"I have no doubt in my mind" he said before adding "You will need to come by an sign your release papers, but other than that… you will need to think about getting out of Legacy tomorrow on the Live RAW.."

"I know sir" I softly smiled before turning to head out the door "Thankyou for every opportunity you have given me" and with that.. I left as I felt fresh tears fall from my eyes.

It was then I bumped into the person I had no intention of seeing tonight, unless it was a scene or match… It was the man who told me he wanted nothing to do with me…

I felt myself falling back, until I felt a hand on the small of my back. I opened my eyes to find I was looking into Randy's, and it was as if time just froze..

Randy then looked away and placed me upright before staring at me.

My emotions were now hard to control as the man that I am inlove with, is standing right in front of me…

"Watch where youre going!" He growled before moving away from me.. I sighed and hurried along the hallway before stopping outside Legacy's locker room… I had to tell them it was all set, and I will be released next week.

I know I made the right decision, and in time I will be back! I know I will!

Randy's P.O.V

I was in my locker room, wiping tears from my eyes as I remembered everything I had put Mickie through. She doesn't deserve to be treated like that, not at all. I am always going to love her, no matter what. But Sam, Sam is my first love.. She may have done me wrong…. But I love her… Or, I think I do…

I despise the fact that she is carrying my brothers baby.. that's what makes me sick and upset at the same time. But I will never be able to get over Sam. You cant get over your first love.

But why do I feel Mickie is my first real love. I know she will never do anything to intentionally hurt me. She is perfect for me, and I love her with all my heart. There is no denying that. But I have to move away from her. Continue to be an asshole to you so the pain can stop. It may not stop in my heart, but I would do anything to make her stop hurting… Yet, I cant give her what she wants, and that's me… just because im with Sam… I love Sam… I do love her… I do…

But honestly, that's the thing.. Do I love her as much as I love Mickie?

My thoughts were interrupted when I heard my locker room door bang open, to reveal a very pissed off trio of men. Evan, Cody and Ted, stood at my locker room, shoooting death looks at me!

"YOU ASSHOLE!" Evan yelled, as he grabbed me and pushed me up against the wall. For a little man, when he is on an adrenaline rush, he is strong. He was pulled back by Cody though and Ted came up to me.

"You got what you want!" He stated "You will have nothing to do with Mickie anymore.. And she definatly wont look at you anymore… not after tomorrow…"

"What the hell are you talking about?" I yelled as I pushed Ted away from her

"She asked for her release today you Jackass!" Ted yelled. "She is leaving Randy!"

"W-What about Legacy" I muttered.

'Legacy? Really, that is what you are thinking about?" Cody shouted "Mickie is leaving because of You" He pointed a finger at me. "She wants to get away from everything and everyone, especially you! I hope youre satisfied. You officially ruined someones life who wholeheartedly cared for you, someone who would never intentionally hurt you!" and with that all three of them walked away.

I ruined her life. I ruined everything with her…

She's leaving.. She's getting released…

Well, I hope you like it. Sorry that im not updating daily or whatnot, I started back at school this week, and I have been super busy! But please keep reading. Please review too. I love to know what you all think and it honestly brightens my day!

So review! Please, and tell me what you think. Oh, and I would like to apologize for the excessive amount of the word 'Fuck' in the last chapter. I just felt like that was the right word to describe how angry or upset each character was feeling.

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