A/N: I have finally updated!!! Here's another wonderful chapter for all of my adoring fans. It seems that I have finally got some inspiration...Can't let him go!!
Here's the chapter for you:
Patrick was arrested and taken to the holding cells below.
Hilde wrapped Relena in a towel and was going to take her home.
I was not going to follow her home. I wanted to kick Patrick's ass!
Relena stopped in front of me before she left. Tears were streaming down her face.
"He works for Matthew," she whispered, "He's one of the one's who..."
"Shh..." I soothed her, "I will take care of it."
Notes:
/bbbb/ is changes in POV.
iii is thoughts.
"iii" is telepathic communication or written notes.
(Scene change) is change in setting.
Flashback...you get the idea.
Main story is in Relena's POV unless otherwise noted.
It was going so good, too.
I thought that Matt had finally left me alone. That he finally got some sense knocked into that empty head of his. But, as it turns out, I could not be anymore wrong.
I should tell them everything. But they will hate me.
Why didn't I go to my brother, you ask? I was ashamed and scared; I still am. I do not know what they will think of me when they found out that I am a machine. I do not think that they will believe that I am really me and not just another copy. I am scared that they will turn me away.
There was a knock at my door. I turned away from the window towards the sound.
"Relena?" a voice called, "are you in there?"
It was Heero…
"Not now," I thought, "make him go away."
He knocked again. It was beginning to get annoying.
"I know you are in there," he continued. I stayed silent.
"Leave me alone, Heero," I answered, "I am tired, and I wish to go to sleep."
"I want you to come downstairs," he said, "you haven't been out of your room for two days."
"Is that a problem?" I asked with sarcasm in my voice.
No answer.
"Relena…"he started.
"Leave me alone!" I cried. I picked up a vase and threw it.
"Just leave me alone!" I screamed again. The vase shattered and pieces flew everywhere.
I started crying. The door remained shut and more footsteps echoed throughout the hall.
"What's going on?" another voice asked Heero. Milliardo.
"I don't know," he answered.
"Is she alright?" someone else asked, Noin.
"Just leave me alone!" I sobbed.
"We only want to help you, Relena!" Noin cried.
I threw another vase at the door.
"Get away from me!" I screeched.
I started throwing objects all over the room. Chairs flew. Books were torn. Lamps broke windows.
The door opened as Heero kicked it. Both he and Milliardo ran to me.
"Stop Relena!" Milliardo cried.
Heero grabbed me. I struggled against his grip. He only tightened the embrace.
"Let me go!" I sobbed, "Please let me go!"
I fell to the ground, in his embrace. I sobbed against his shoulder.
"Leave us," Heero commanded. Noin and Zechs left the room.
"What's wrong, Rel?" he asked.
I shook my head. I stopped crying but was still shaking.
"It hurts…It hurts…," I repeated over and over, reliving memories of my past.
"What are you talking about?" he asked.
It has been a few days since I started seeing a psychiatrist. My brother felt that it was necessary since all the help was frightened after my outburst.
The doctor's name was Cassandra Martin. She was said to be a specialist in her field, specializing in the human psyche. Of course that won't be of much help to me, since I am not human. How she is going to handle that, I wonder…
…Here I am, sitting in the same room. I have not said a word to her. I just answered her questions with the occasional nod or I was silent.
"How am I supposed to help you, Relena, if you do not tell me what's wrong?" Dr. Martin asks. I raised my head and laughed.
"How can you help someone who isn't even human anymore?" I shot back, "you say to be a specialist, yet you do not understand the mind of one who is not human."
Her eyes widened.
"What do you mean, Relena?" she asked, "You mean you're not human?"
"Yes," I replied, "I am not human."
She gasped. She scribbled some notes on her clipboard.
"You mustn't tell anyone!" I cried, "They would hate me if they found out. And the people; what will they say?"
/Author POV/
Everyone stood outside the doctor's office. Waiting…Waiting….and waiting some more.
"I wish we knew what was going on," Milliardo wondered aloud.
"I'm sure everything is just fine," Duo commented, trying to make everything seem okay.
But it wasn't. Everything was not okay.
Heero knew this. He knew something was wrong. Something terrible happened to his Relena. "My Relena?" he thought, "since when?"
"I'm going to kill whoever made her like this," he growled.
"Calm down, Heero, buddy," Duo said.
Trowa was silent as usual. Quatre was praying that Relena was fine. Not even Wufei, who usually made comments about women being doctors, was talking. They were all hoping…hoping that their friend was fine.
/Heero POV/
The door opened and the doctor came out. I wasn't even sure if a female was qualified to handle Relena.
"What did you find out?" Zechs asked.
"Relena is reliving a portion of her past," Dr. Martin explained, "she is reliving the part when she was killed and brought back to life."
"What do you mean?" I asked, with fear in my voice. I already knew that she was an android, but I did not want Zechs finding out that I knew before he did.
"Relena was changed," she continued, "she is not "normal" anymore. She says she is not human anymore."
"What do you mean "not human?" How can that be?" Quatre asked.
"She says she is an android," the doctor explained, "She says that Oz made her into an android for their purposes."
Everyone gasped.
"What do you mean?" Duo asked, "What else did she say?"
"Whether she will tell you or not will be for her to decide," Dr. Martin said firmly, "I wouldn't push her for anything else than what she has said today."
We all nodded.
"Can I see her?" I asked. She nodded. I went into the room.
Relena's POV
I sat in the room as the doctor left and talked to my brother. I just stared and stared at the wall.
"She says she is an android," I heard.
Gasps were heard throughout the room.
"See," I thought, "I shouldn't have said anything. They hate me now."
I started to cry again. I screamed in anguish as the thought of my transformation entered my mind again. Memories flooded my mind…the doctors…the instruments…his laugh…
…"Don't worry, Ms. Relena," one doctor said, "You will still be the same. We are just going to make you better."…
…"Stop…" I begged, "please stop…you're hurting me…"
The door opened again, and Heero entered. He had a sad look in his eyes.
I glared at him.
"Just get it over with," I whispered.
He didn't move. He just stood there.
"Kill me already!" I cried, "Hurry up already!"
He shook his head.
I picked up a book. A/N: she seems to love throwing things I threw it at him.
"Kill me now!" I commanded, "I order you to!"
"Why?" he asked. I froze.
That word…
I glared at him.
"Why?" I growled, "What do you mean why? How can you ask that?"
"Why would you want me to kill you, Rel?" he continued, "How can you ever ask me to do such a thing?"
"Remeber," I sneered, "I am not human. I am a good-for-nothing android. A machine, an object that is meant to be used by others. Who would want me to be Vice Foreign Minister when I am not even pure…When I am not even real?"
"I do," he answered. Tears burned in my eyelids but I blinked to keep them inside.
"You?" I asked, "You and who else? Who else wants me to stay VFM of the ESUN? Who wants a stupid machine to keep peace between Earth and the colonies when she doesn't understand what they want? How can a machine understand the needs of the people?"
"We all do," someone else replied. I turned and saw my brother.
"Too bad," I growled, "I don't wish to be VFM anymore. I wish to be me, but I can't, can I? I cannot even be normal anymore. I cannot even go back to the way I was; how can I?"
"Does it matter?" Heero asked, "Does it matter if you're real or not? We still love you for who you are, not what you are…I…still love you."
Those words…"I still love you," is running through my head. This has got to be a dream. Could Heero have just…said that? The words…that I have wanted to hear all my life…he just said that?
"You're lying!" I cried, "How can you love me? They…they forced me to kill, forced me to hurt people. If I didn't listen, I was beaten; I was raped! 'All in the name of peace,' they said. How could they do this to me? I tried to make the world a better place for everyone, and this is what I get."
"It wasn't your fault," my brother said. The other guys came in. They all looked sad.
I started crying again. Heero came up to me and hugged me.
"You don't know how it feels," I sobbed, "how it feels having your body torn apart. They tore me apart, and every time I was close to going to heaven, they pulled me back. Over and over again…It hurt…so much!"
I didn't know what happened. Everyone seemed to be fine with the fact that I was an android. My brother said that they still loved me, whether I was human or not. It just seems so weird, you know, like I'm being taken for granted. I feel as if once I let my guard down, the world will com tumbling down, and it will be my fault…
…I am home, again. I still have my sessions with Dr. Martin, just not as emotional as the other day. My brother and Heero have been training me, after they examined me to find out my abilities, in the use of my android abilities and to perfect them.
I still haven't revealed myself to the people. My brother says the time will come soon. He also said that everything will be revealed when I wish it to happen. I don't know. I just don't feel ready. What if they hate me? I wouldn't know what to do…
…"G'morning, Lena," Duo called as I entered the kitchen. Of course, it sounded like, "Goosh-mornin', Leenah," because he had his mouth full, as always. I smiled. I took a seat next to Hilde and Catherine.
"How are you feeling, Ms. Relena?" Dorothy asked. Everyone turned to me with concern in their eyes.
"I'm feeling alright," I nodded. Everyone continued eating. Wufei snorted in disgust at Duo's pile of plates.
I did not eat a lot. Hilde noticed this.
"Why aren't you eating?" she asked. Sally looked at me, doctor that she is.
"I don't have to eat a lot," I replied, "I am an android after all."
"I would hate not eating a lot," Duo mumbled between mouthfuls.
"You would hate not eating period, Maxwell," Wufei snorted.
I smiled. They are such a weird group.
Milliardo turned on the television. The morning news was on.
…"This just in!" the newscaster replied, "Relena Peacecraft is alive and well!"…
I gasped. "How…" I stuttered.
…"Our sources say that she is indeed alive and is currently with her brother on Earth," the man continued, "here is an eyewitness."
"Thank you, sir," the other person said, "Relena was under the guise of Alexa Martin, new member of the Preventers."…
…"How the hell...!" I cried, as I pointed at the screen.
…"We have just received another source," the newscaster continued, "Sue, who is our next witness?"
"Thanks, Phil," the lady with the short brown hair replied, "here I am with a doctor named Mark Patterson. Mark, please tell us what you know."
"Relena Peacecraft is not a human," the doctor explained.
"How do you know this, sir?" she asked.
"How, because I was forced to make her into what she is," he continued, "I was forced by Oz to make her into an android. She was an assassin. I'm sure the name is familiar to you: Huntress."
"You mean to tell me that Vice Foreign Minister Dorlain is Huntress?" Sue asked.
He nodded…
"But…how?" I cried. I growled. I stood up to leave.
"And where do you think you are going?" my brother asked.
"To kill a certain doctor," I replied in a monotone voice.
"That's what Oz wants you to do," Quatre replied, "you mustn't leave. I'm sure you will be arrested on the spot."
"Not if I don't get caught," I shot back.
…"Here is a picture of Relena Peacecraft now." A picture was shown of me.
"If anyone has any information please inform the police immediately."…
Trowa, silent as he is, turned off the tv.
"I thought I destroyed all their files," I thought.
"I must leave anyway," I pleaded with my brother, "the police are sure to be on their way now."
"Why didn't you say that you were Huntress?" my brother asked.
"Does it matter?" I cried, "I have to go!" I turned to leave.
"You killed all those people?" he continued. I faced him.
"I was forced to!" I cried. I turned and kept running. No one made a move to stop me.
"Great!" I thought, "just great. I'm a fugitive now!"
I made it to the hangar. Another gundam was built for me, since my last one was destroyed. I entered it and turned it on through the console.
"Welcome back, Ms. Relena," the A.I. system responded. I sat in the chair and strapped myself in.
"I need to get out of here," I answered. The cockpit closed.
"New name for gundam is…" the A.I. system started.
"Sailorstar," I finished. A/N: I know…it's stupid…
The hangar opened on its own. I turned my view and saw Heero.
"What are you doing?" I asked.
"Be careful, Relena," he replied, "Because I will find you."
I nodded. I piloted the gundam out of the hangar and into space.
/Heero P.O.V./
I watched as Relena left in her gundam. I turned and went back into the kitchen.
"How could you do that to her?" I yelled at Zechs. He turned and faced me.
"She killed…" was all he said.
I grabbed him by his collar.
"How could you be so stupid?" I asked while holding him against the wall.
All the guys rushed up and tried to pull me off of him.
"Let him go, Heero," Duo said.
"We shouldn't be fighting at all!" Quatre cried.
"Get off of me!" I cried. They back off when I glared at them.
"We all have killed!" I yelled at him, "how can you be offended by her killing when we all have killed? It wasn't even her fault!"
I dropped him. He looked at the ground.
"I'm going after her," I announced, "When you decide to stop acting like this, maybe we'll come back."
I turned around and left. I ran to the hangar and got into my gundam. I quickly turned it on and took off into space.
"I have to follow her gundam," I thought. It was a good thing that I put a tracer in her gundam the day the scientists finished building it.
"Relena," I prayed, "don't do anything rash." A/N: kind of A.U. for Heero, huh?
Of course, me being who I am, I knew where the man who did this to me was at. I was programmed with that knowledge, as well as the knowledge of the whereabouts of all the Oz bases on Earth and the Colonies.
"He's located on Colony X32619," I said, "plotting course now." It was then I noticed that another gundam was flying beside me.
"Who is that?" I thought. Heero's face came on the screen.
"Heero," I gasped in surprise.
"Did you think that I was going to let you go alone?" he asked. I stared at him.
"Why?" I asked, "You heard my brother. He hates me because I killed people. I…"
"We all know that wasn't your fault," Heero cut in, "besides, your brother acts like he hasn't killed anyone before. He used to work for Oz, remember. We all have killed. It's nothing new."
"But…" I started.
"No buts," he interrupted, "now, where is the creep who did this to you?"
He knew…that I knew.
"On Colony X32619," I replied.
"Understood," he responded, "let's stop this once and for all."
"Mission accepted," we both said at the same time.
I laughed. He did, too.
We arrived at the colony not too long ago. We are in a hotel now. Heero decided that we should stop and rest before completing our mission. I was awake while he slept. I didn't need much sleep to function.
"I should leave," I thought as I gathered some supplies. I was about to leave. I made it to the door.
"Relena?" I heard. I turned and saw Heero, sitting up in the bed.
"Yes?" I replied. I walked to the bed and sat next to him.
"Stay here," he said, knowing what I was planning on doing.
I nodded. I turned to him and smiled.
It was then that I did something…out of my usual character…
I kissed him. He looked surprised but soon kissed me back.
We continued kissing. His arms wrapped around me. My hands went up around his neck.
"Sorry, Heero," I thought, pressing a pressure point in his neck, making him unconscious. His arms slid off my back. I lowered him onto the bed.
Quickly, I gathered my things and left. I took one last look at the room, at my Heero.
Please forgive me.
It's my problem. No more people will be hurt because of me. No more running.
I ran…ran back to where my adventure began.
I stood outside the base.
"Here I am," I said to myself, "looks like they rebuilt it. Oh, well. I have more fun destroying it this time." My thoughts wandered back to the day I left…
Flashback
…"Don't let her escape!" the guards cried. I quickly shot them and ran. I ran into a room where I was quickly surrounded.
"You're not getting away, Peacecraft," one soldier announced. They all drew their weapons, ready to fire.
"How can you kill something you made?" I said, "You can try but you won't succeed." I proceeded in killing all of them. After they were all dead, I stood there, covered in their blood. I licked the blood off my hands.
Yummy.
That was when I heard the clapping. I turned and saw Matthew Barton, staring at me.
"Wow," he said in awe, "You did well, my Relena."
Yours?.
I growled at him.
"You are perfect," he continued, "You are a cold-blooded killer. And you are all mine." He took out a control and pushed it.
My body moved on its own…to him. I couldn't stop myself.
"My lovely Relena," he whispered in my ear when I was standing in front of him. He touched my face, a touch I so despised.
"You think that you can control me?" I asked. He nodded his head. He tried to kiss me.
I pulled out a knife from my pocket and swiped at him.
He howled in pain and clutched his right hand. Blood splattered across my face from the hand that fell on the floor.
"Touch me like that again and I will do worse," I threatened. I grabbed the control and broke it, shattering it into pieces.
I turned and left…
…I entered the base. It seemed too easy…like he was expecting me, a trap of some sorts.
It was too good to be true as the floor gave way beneath me and I fell. I landed in a room, one with a whole bunch of guards.
"Brava, Relena!" a voice announced. I turned, and there he was…Matthew Barton.
"Still alive I see," I growled, "I guess being one-handed didn't stop you." He glared at me.
"Did you think that I would let you get away with that?" he asked.
"You're still asking yourself that?" I shot back, "Why do you think that you let me get away with it? Because you couldn't stop me, you made me so 'perfect' that I accomplished all my tasks with ease."
He walked up to me and slapped me so hard that it echoed throughout the room. I turned back and glared at him.
"You belong to me, Relena," he whispered in my ear. It was then that I realized that he slapped me with his right hand…the one that I cut up that day.
"How…did…" I stuttered. He laughed maniacally.
"I was reborn," he explained, "You could say that I am just like you now. The only thing was that it was voluntary for me and I was asleep throughout the whole thing."
Two guards grabbed me and tied me up.
"You…" I growled. I struggled against the bonds, only to find my strength useless.
"That is a new present for you, my sweet," he said, "Those can hold you for a long time."
I glared at him. His face move closer to mine. I spit in his face. He punched me in the gut.
I groaned in pain and fell to the floor.
"How does it feel to feel pain, even after all these years?" he asked. The soldiers pulled me up to face him again.
"I will control you, Relena," he promised, "It only takes me a while to tame a new plaything."
"You will never control me!" I cried, "I cannot be controlled."
"Want to make a wager on that?" he asked. He held up a little box. I froze, realizing that he had another control.
"I could have used this any old time," he said, "But I decided to let you run free for a while. You know, give you a sense of security. Well, how does it feel, to be played like an instrument…like a robot used for the purpose of serving me."
Those being his last words, he left the room. The guards took me to a cell. It was dark so I couldn't see anything.
"We must keep the princess comfortable," one soldier said as he threw in a blanket for me. I hissed at him.
They left me, alone in the dark. I started to cry again.
"I hope Heero is okay," I thought, "I don't want to hurt him."
/Heero P.O.V./
I woke up a few hours later. All I could remember was Relena kissing me. Then I blacked out. I rubbed my neck, where I felt sore.
"I can't believe she did that," I thought. I surveyed the room, realizing she took our supplies. I picked up my phone and dialed a number.
"Zechs," I answered when he pick up, "She's gone again. She left sometime last night."
"Well, she's here now," I heard him say.
"What do you mean she's there?" I cried.
"Exactly what I said," he said, "except she wants you to come back."
I hung up the phone.
I quickly got out of the hotel and to where my gundam was at. That was when I realized that Relena's gundam was still there. I jumped into the cockpit.
"Starlight," I called, "head back to Earth." The gundam turned on and left. I followed sometime after.
"Something's not right," I thought, "not right at all."
It wasn't long after putting me in a cell that I was summoned again. I was brought before Matthew and could only watch as he held up the control.
I was released from my bonds. This was my chance, so I charged at him. He pushed a button. I suddenly stopped.
"Please don't make me do this," I begged, "Not again."
"Why should I?" he asked, "Why should I do the dirty work when I have the Vice Foreign Minister here to do it for me?" He smiled a devilish smile.
"Come to me, Relena," he commanded. My body did as it was told, while I struggled to regain control.
"Give me a kiss," he commanded. I watched helplessly as my arms reached up around his neck, and I tiptoed to give him a kiss.
"I have a mission for you," he started. He pressed another button.
"Yes, Master," I responded.
Why can't I stop myself?
"I need you to go to Earth and kill Milliardo Peacecraft and the other Gundam Pilots," he explained.
"As you wish, Mr. Barton," I replied in monotone.
My body turned and left, for the mission, with me screaming inside my head.
Please stop! I don't want to do this!
A.N.: Here's the chapter. I know it isn't much but the two stories are officially merged. Hopefully, I will update soon. Until next time.