Disclaimer: I do not own Sons of Anarchy it is owned by FX, Kurt Sutter and everyone else that would kick my ass legally if I didn't put this in here. I only own Taru, her horse and just about every other random that pops up in the story. This has come from the depths of my sick, insane, twisted, depraved mind and my madness fuel's it to keep going. Yet again do not own SoA if I did I wouldn't have made Jax a little whiner baby, seriously is he in or out? Anywho... yes, only own my characters, most of the plot line except for the plots that were obviously taken from the series.

lederra: Thank you for your input! I got the idea from when Tig, Clay and Opie were at Oswald's getting the papers over the imminent domain thing. It popped into my mind when I was watching him with the horse. She not pregnant, not yet anyway.

HaylsValo: Yeah, I'm torn in tow about that. Same reason I have brought up the whole Oswald kiss escapade.

DragonBby: Ah! Lots to write in response =D I know what you mean, I was like WTF when that happened, then saw the tat on his chest and went Ohhhh... sneaky little Aryan white trash mother fuckers. I figured I needed to bring him in sooner or later, Angel and Jade will come in towards the end too and they'll have a much bigger roll later on down the track (fourth story mostly). I just figured she be like =Groan= where the hell is Happy so he can tattoo me so I don't have to listen to this. I know, me too, Lyla I'm not keen on but she's not like Ima and the others, Ima I could seriously knock the fuck out. Just wait until Taru meets Fiona... that's going to be a shit barrel and a half. Not the next story but the one after will be following the fourteen months the boys are inside so Taru and Chibs will get some serious alone time as well as her strengthening her relationships with everyone else. Yeah, when Juice first got dragged in I was like WTF? I don't see the club having a problem with him being half colour, the Grim Bastards are coloured boys and then it's like... oh shit, someones going to wind up dead because of this. I don't want Juice to go, he's like the comic relief for the group but with everything that's happened I think Clay might thinks Piney and off him behind the clubs back like how he and Tig fucked up and killed Donna. I do agree full heartedly Epicness is on the way. Hopefully FX decide to keep the show running for a long time yet.

Heaven Tonight – H.I.M

Trying to find the heart you hide
Trying to find the heart you hide in vain
Oh in vain
And you're my haven in life
And you're my haven in death, Baby
Life and Death my Darling

Bearer of Bad News

=Tig's P.O.V=

"What the hell is Oswald doing here?" I nodded towards the man sitting in the waiting room, he looked anxious.

Gemma shrugged lightly narrowing her eyes. "Elliot?"

Oswald looked up and stood slowly. "I didn't think the hospital would have rung you"

Wouldn't ring us? What the hell does he mean? "What do you mean wouldn't ring us?" I asked as I stood next to Gemma.

"Taru," He said slowly. "She collapsed," His eyes moved over both of us. "I would have thought Chibs would have come with you"

"That's why we're here," I stated. "Where's Taru?"

"Probably sleeping off whatever drugs they gave her," He stated nodding down the hall. "The nurses won't give me any information since I'm not family"

I smirked slightly before Gemma nodded towards the desk, a silent request to go and see what the hell had happened to the Finn. I turned and headed towards the desk, Gemma in tow. "What room's Taru Mäki in?"

The nurse looked up before giving me a once over. "Family only"

"We're the only family that girl has" Gemma stated hotly, she didn't want to have to deal with this bitch on top of what had happened to Chibs and what had apparently happened to his old lady.

"I'm sorry but it's family only" She stated more forcefully.

"Look beautiful I only want to see her and tell her what's happened to her old man, she'll kill all of us if I don't tell her"

"Miss Mäki does not need stress right now"

"Can you at least tell us what happened to her then?"

The nurse narrowed her eyes at Gemma before deciding there would be no harm in telling us as she looked to her charts. "She had a mild cardiac infarction," She gave us a once over and sighed softly. "Her heart stopped briefly" She explained.

I glanced to Gemma out the side of my eyes. "What do you mean it stopped?"

She sighed softly. "Miss Mäki is still undergoing tests to determine what happened; I can't allow you to see her"

Gemma straightened up and glared at the woman. "Look here," He snapped hotly. "Taru's man just got brought in, if he dies and we didn't get to tell her because of you, you'll have her to deal with instead of with me, now where is her damn room"

A look of fear entered the nurse's eyes. Just what has Finland done this time? The nurse looked to her charts before finally conceding. "Room twenty six, down the hall to the right," She explained. "I would advise against causing her any stress if she's awake since we don't know what set her off"

Gemma gave me a nod before I made my way up the hallway as she moved back over to Oswald to tell him what was happening.

I glanced through the glass panel on the door; Taru was sitting up in the bed, TV remote in her hand as she idly flicked through channels. "Meds must have been watered down Finland, nurse said you might still be asleep" I stated as I entered and pushed the door shut.

The Finn grinned softly and shrugged "Fast metabolism?" She offered before frowning lightly. "Where's Filip?"

I shifted slightly before taking a seat on the edge of the bed. She's going to hate me for being the bearer of bad news. "He's here" I really didn't want to tell her what had happened.

She nodded lightly. "Does everyone know I'm here?"

I cleared my throat unsure of how to tell her. "We didn't know you were here until we were already here" I took a quick glance at her face to see a growing confusion behind her eyes.

"Already here? What happened while my heart was fucking around with me?"

"There was an explosion at the garage," I looked up finally meeting her eyes, her heart was breaking, she knew exactly what was coming next. "Chibs got caught in the blast"

"What?" She winced slightly before pushing the covers away and stood quickly.

I reached out grabbing her arm as she gripped the side table before slowing sitting back down. "He's in surgery Taru, there's no point in you getting all worked up" The machines around us screaming that the wires had been yanked away from her skin.

"Do not tell me what to do Alex, you're not my god damn mother" She spat before standing and grabbing her clothing.

Why the hell did she have to use my real name? I sighed softly watching her for a moment. "Taru!" She stalled looking towards me, jeans in hand. "Rest, relax, he's in good hands"

She shook her head. "I don't give a shit," She stated placing a hand to her chest as her breathing laboured. "I need to be there, not here"

I tugged her back onto the bed and watched as the walls she threw up to mask the emotions she held slowly crumbled leaving her with tears running down her face. "It'll be alright Taru, Chibs' is fuckin' invincible"

"I can't lose him Tig, I already lost Niko and Kai, both in the same fucking day, I can't lose Filip too" She murmured softly whisking the tears away.

"Is everything alright in here?"

We both looked up to the nurse. "Does it look alright?" Taru snarled coldly. "Get the fuck out before I break your god damn nose too"

I looked to her with wide eyes before laughing. "You broke someone's nose?" I managed to bite out between laughs.

"When they try several times to put a fucking needle in your arm and can't even get it right on the forth try you lose patience's very quickly," She stated watching the nurse through narrowed eyes as she turned off the machine. "I suppose I should be grateful she's not pressing charges against me" She gave a light grin before sliding back onto the bed properly.

I looked up to the nurse as she stopped the by the bed. "Do me a favour beautiful and find out how Filip Telford is?"

She nodded silently leaving quickly not risking outstaying her welcome and ending up with a broken nose.

"Do you know who did it?"

I nodded. "Zobelle"

"What're you going to do?"

"We're going to do what we do best"

She looked up. "Retaliate?"

I nodded. "Don't do something stupid Finland, leave it to us"

She looked up before chuckling softly. "If I was ten years younger and wasn't in hospital I would have been out those doors the minute you told me that cocky, mount whitey son of a bitch did it"

I watched for a minute, trying to determine if it was the truth. Knowing her she would have been out those door. She's got an insane streak in her. She'll kill Zobelle if she sees him. "Just promise you'll leave the retaliation to us, Chibs is gonna need you when he wakes up"

She sighed softly and nodded. "But you promise me you put a god damn bullet between that Äpärä eyes"

"That I can do"

She nodded before rubbing at her eyes. "Is shit always this bad?"

I glanced at her and shrugged lightly. "Not all the time, you just found the club at the wrong time"

She looked to me before nodding and shifting to lie back on the bed. "Go, get back to the boys and kick the shit out of that Aryan Kusipää"

I nodded before standing. "He'll be fine Taru, Chibs is invincible"

She looked up and smiled weakly before nodding. "I'll talk to you later Tig"

"Alright," I leant over giving her a quick hug. "If you hear anything give us a call"

She nodded. "Do me a favour and bring me some fucking clothing from home or at the very least some clothing of mine that's strewn across the floor of Filip's bedroom, something to read would be appreciated too"

I grinned softly and nodded. "Alright"

"Take care of Buster for me too," She handed me a set of keys. "House keys are on there same with my car keys, take my beauty home and park her under the car port," I took the keys and flipped through them. "Make sure Buster's got plenty of food and water, fed every morning and night"

"Anything else?"

"Yeah, you drink my liquor you replace it my liquor," She stated with a soft grin. "And just make sure you keep the gate next to the garage locked, I don't want Buster getting out"

I nodded sliding the keys into my pocket. "I'll be back later"

Taru nodded lightly curling up on the bed, her eyes focused on the wall as she sighed deeply. It's going to kill her if he doesn't make it.

Alright, I so I guess I kinda need to explain what happened to Taru, well her heart stopped and since Chibs is in hospital takes a quick guess at what happened, she collapsed at the same time the car exploded. Shit like this does happen, its like the whole thing of twins being able to sense what's happening to the other, same thing can happen between couples and since Taru and Chibs are getting closer and their bond is getting stronger I figured something like this was probably a good idea.

Ugh... you know what really pisses me off? Mould, fucking mould. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR it's all over my leather horse gears, all my saddles, bridles, lunging gear, reins, even my fucking leather straps on my covers! Now I have to attempt to clean it all off and condition my leather gear again. Most annoying thing is just about all my gear is leather, five bridles, four are leather one is synthetic, two saddles, both leather, lunging roller and side reins, all leather. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR fucking mould. Guess its my fault for packing it all away after Dante died but still! GRRRRRRRRRRRR =sighs= ok enough of my rant on mould, time to use google to figure out how to get rid of the bitch.