Ok, so this is probably the longest song chap in history lol!
Post Catch 22; Kates been comming to Sawyer every night now, using him, and its breaking his heart.
Song: Love Me For A Reason - Boyzone
Girl when you hold me
How you control me
You bend and you fold me
Any way you please
Sawyer could have predicted how his evening would happen even better than Desmond could have, well obviously he couldn't foretell any other invasions or monster attacks, but he could foretell the only thing that mattered, he knew what would happen, what she would do, what Kate would do. She would come in and burn his lips with her fiery kisses, but far worse she would burn his heart with her tears.
It must be easy for you
To love the things that you do
But just a pastime for you
I could never be
After he had finished his dinner he lazily wandered back towards his tent, not bothering to pick up a magazine or book as he would have before… he knew that there was something much more important to come. As if on que Kate then entered his shelter, padding slowly across the short distance from the entrance to his makeshift bed where he lay. She quickly sat beside him and pulled him up to face her, crushing her lips against his. Sawyer returned the kiss upon reflex; whenever she touched him she controlled him, owned him. But the terrible thing was she didn't want to own him, she just wanted someone to love her, someone to use. Sawyer was that someone.
And I never know girl
If I should stay or go
Cos the games that you play
Are driving me away...
How foolish he had been to ever suspect that she could love him, it had always been him the Doc, the hero, every woman's damn fantasy. He had believed, that night in the cages she loved him, but it was only because she thought he would be dead by morning… he nearly had been killed, at first he was happy, but now it made no difference, he'd be better off dead.
Don't love me for fun girl
Let me be the one girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love
Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love
She had made quick work of removing his shirt and her own, now carrying her kisses down his chest as Sawyer had to bite his lip from moaning out her name. He couldn't speak, she would leave if he did… but it wasn't like she would leave two seconds after she had finished anyway, and she'd be back the next day she was that Jackass and the other together. Sawyer almost laughed at the way it was almost Jack breaking his heart, Kate was here loving him even though she didn't love him, all because that Jackass couldn't see what a beautiful, astounding woman Kate was.
Kisses and caresses
Are only minor tests, babe
Of love turned to stresses
Between a woman and a man
So if love everlasting
Isn't what you're asking
I'll have to pass, girl
I'm proud to take a stand
He had to stop it before she shattered him completely, he was so close to giving up, each kiss she gave without love pushed him that little bit more over the edge to death. She brought her lips up to his own now and he felt his cheeks damped as their lips clashed, but this time it wasn't Kate's tears causing it, it was his own.
He roughly pushed her away blinking back anymore tears, he looked up to see her confused teary expression and uttered out what he needed to say, made the stand he needed to make.
"I can't to this Kate" He said hoarsely.
I can't continue guessing
Because it's only messing
With my pride, and my mind
So write down this time to time
"I can't let you do this to me" He said, his voice defeated, broken like Kate had never heard it before.
"But you said…" She whispered eventually.
"I know what I said Kate" He almost snapped but his sadness blocking him from doing so "But I can't… I can't let you do this to me anymore… yer breaking my heart girl" He whispered.
Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love
Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love
Kate returned this with only silence, so Sawyer closed his eyes and cleared his throat, he should really get all this out while he had started.
"I know you… I know you don't love me Kate… and you know I love you… maybe if you just kept away, maybe I could cope, but with ya here everyday, kissing me and it meaning nothing… all the time your probably thinking of that Jackass… it breaks my heart" He said his voice wobbling when he mentioned her thinking of Jack… he had tried to avoid that part, only when he told her now had he admitted it to himself.
I'm just a little old-fashioned
It takes more than a physical attraction
My initial reaction is
Honey give me a love
Not a fascimile of
"I never think of him James" Kate said staring deeply into his eyes her reflection mirroring in his tears just like his did in hers "Its you, only you… I love you"
Sawyer was startled for a moment, he wanted to believe it, more than anything else in the world but he couldn't… it was a lie, it had to be "No Kate. Don't do this, don't say that just to make me…"
"Don't you dare Sawyer" Kate said "Don't you dare push me aside now I've… I've told you"
"Why then Kate?" He asked desperately "Why come in here every night letting me think you were only here cause he didn't want you? Why let me think you loved him?"
"Because it was easier" She said "Easier than telling you how I feel… everyone I've ever loved has end up hurt or dead… I didn't want that to happen to you too"
After a moment of silence Sawyer finally spoke.
"Ya know what Freckles?" He said softly "I'm willing to take that risk"
"I love you James" She replied as he hugged her close "I really do"
Don't love me for fun girl
Let me be the one girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love
Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love
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