Chapter Fourteen

Jacob

I flung myself back unto my bed, peering at the off white colored paint of my ceiling. I was exhausted. Had what just happened really happened. Had I just fought with both Bella and Nessie, had I revealed to her what I just found out myself. I hadn't realized that I had felt forgotten, not until I had said it. That part both scared and shocked me. But the feeling had started when Aidin had forced his way into the picture. I now understood why I didn't like him. I didn't like him because Nessie liked him. He was relatable to her in a way that I'd never be. I didn't like that, or the feeling that I had no control over it. He seemed to be everywhere she was. Her home, then school today. I was torn between anger and pure jealously when I saw them walk into math class together. I had to will myself to stop the trembling, to stop the change. She, on the other hand was so ignorant of the fact that I felt this way it almost hurt. Screw that, it did hurt. She spoke to me as if nothing was wrong. I had replied, not sure of were I got the strength or the control. I couldn't even look at her, afraid that I'd snap. Not at her of course. I could never do that even if I tried. She was the reason I lived. The reason I breathed.

But it would be different for her. Vampires didn't imprint and I was more than sure that my blood didn't sing to her. More like croaked. I didn't even move when he took his seat, and of course because God hated me, it had to be right next to me. Then he had the nerve to say hi to me as if we were long terms friends. We had barely even spoken the day before and here was Mr. goody-two shoes, being all friendly. Was the fact that vampires and werewolves mortal enemies void all of a sudden. Though we technically weren't even that, shape-shifters were what we were called. But who cared, we weren't friends. I didn't like him. But I had a conscience, sometimes. I wanted to be rude, but I spoke anyways only to hide my jealously which at that moment I had no idea what it was. It sure didn't feel like the jealousy that I had had for Edward when I had fancied myself in love with Bella. I still didn't find it funny that I had imprinted on the her daughter though, which would always be slightly awkward between Bella and I. But I don't think I would have wanted it to be anyone but Renesmee.

I gave him a short 'hi' back. That was the most I could muster. I saw her glance back at me, her eyes sad. That by itself almost made me get down on my knees to beg for forgiveness just for causing her any type of discomfort, but the pain in the pit of my stomach dismissed the idea. Even though I had promised on my life to never hurt Nessie, almost to Edwards extreme. What Nessie wants, Nessie gets. But not quite. I stared blankly at the words on the paper, comprehending nothing. Nothing stayed, only the vision of Nessie's bright face walking into the class, her hair, a honey-golden veil behind her. And for a moment, when she was alone in the door way, everything slowed. Her smile was bright, and her eyes gleamed. And my heart stopped, skipped a beat, maybe even flipped. Then he filled the picture behind her and that was when the picture crashed to pieces. He had crushed it under his feet as he entered. I looked away and didn't look at her, the very person, who made my day. And now, suddenly the clouds had rolled in and there was no sun to be found.

She rested her head on the desk, and I wasn't sure if she stared at Quil or out the window. Most likely the window, because her eyes didn't follow Quil when he moved. I felt a depressing aura from her and once again, my chest burned. She stayed like that for a while, hair streaming into the face. I had to stop myself from pulling one curl into my finger tips. I groaned and turned back to the same words that I had been reading for the last fifteen minutes. She sat up quickly and my eyes flicked to her, she was turned around but she wasn't looking at me. I looked over to the other hybrid, and read his lips. "Are you okay?" I spun back to Nessie, she looked fine, until her hand flew up and caressed her cheek. Her eyes caught mine briefly and in them, I saw a mount of tears. She was crying. How had I not noticed, but the bloodsucking half breed had. It was because I wasn't paying attention. He was taking my job from me. Though it was more like I was handing it to him. She turned away quickly and I tried to reach forward to touch her, but I was frozen. Just seeing her wet, chocolate brown eyes had hurt me more than any amount of broken bones by newborn vampires. I didn't know what to do, what to say, to her or to my self.

I felt stupid because I had done this to myself. I had made a fool out of my own actions. And I was acting like some kid who was throwing a tantrum because his mother had spilt the candy bar into two pieces and had given the other piece away to his worst enemy when I clearly wanted the entire thing. It was then I realized the extent of my jealously and how retarded it was. Nessie loved me. She would never put me a side. Not even for a way too good-looking hybrid whom she had more in common with than herself. Technically they were perfect for each other. And it sucked because she was only perfect for me. She could choose who ever she wanted. I, on the other hand, would be stuck loving her in anyway I could.

I tried to talk myself into the foolish idea of sharing her. Geez, I was starting to sound like Bella. My mind kept wondering back to the fact that he had known she was crying and I hadn't a clue. He'd known her for all of two days, and already could read her like a book. I, who had known her all her life, who knew her better than she knew herself sometimes, couldn't pick up on something so simple, especially when I was pretty sure I had been the cause. But as of recently that notion that I knew her so well was spinning down the drain. Because to me even if she was the same person, same bottle of joy and happiness since birth, she seemed so much different. I used to be able to read her mind without having to touch her, now every action was a mind boggling mystery. I'd definitely had to commend Edward for lasting this long without being able to read his wife's mind. To put it simply, it felt like Nessie was slowly slipping away, with every passing day and I wasn't ready for that. I never would be.

My thoughts came to a sudden halt when she spun gracefully to me. She then gave me a smile I hadn't seen in a long time. It was one of those 'I-forgive-you-and-everything-is-okay-even-if -you really-didn't-do anything' smiles. I didn't know what that meant. I racked my brain all through lunch and my next two periods, coming up with nothing. Why had her mood changed so quickly. Was this some strange vampire mood swing, instead of normal PMS. I still didn't understand when I had gotten home. It was my turn to run patrol with Jared and one of the younger wolves. It took about two hours to run the perimeter a couple of times because we had tightened our security with the new so-called vegetarians around.

So far, nothing had been out of the ordinary. But then again they hadn't really been here long enough to cause any trouble. And I wished for a moment that Aidin would slip up just to give me a reason to rip off his head. I gave a wolfy grin as I raced back to La Push. I was about to past the Cullens house when I turned towards it instinctively. I shifted back into my human form before I jogged across the open lawn. I had stopped knocking a long time ago, besides the door was never locked. Who would ever want to rob a coven like the Cullens. I would have actually liked to see that though. I pushed open the door and walked to den area, maybe now I could ask Nessie about what she had meant by that smile. Both Edward and Bella sat at the piano. He was showing her how to play her lullaby.

"Hey Cullen family." I heard Rosalie snarl from the couch, Emmett's large arms wrapped around her shoulder, remote in his other hand.

"When will you ever get the idea that you're not wanted here, mutt?" I laughed. I had actually come to enjoy our little intrusions. And deep down I believed she did too. Then again maybe not.

"And when will you ever grow a brain," I replied. Edward chuckled out of the corner of my eyes. Rosalie rolled her eyes back to the television.

"Be nice!" Esme flooded into the room, a vase full of freshly cut flowers in her pale, cold hands. I didn't even want to know where she got flowers this time of year, even with spring right around the corner. I rolled on the balls of my heel, hands shoved into the front pockets of a pair of khaki board shorts. I looked around. A couple of people where missing; Alice, Jasper, I figured Carlisle was still at the hospital, and most importantly, Nessie. I couldn't even smell her near by. I felt anxious for a second. I couldn't remember the last time Nessie had been on her own. Had she even returned from school. What if something had happened?

"Calm down Jake," Edward spoke, his hands still streaming over the clear keys of his gift, the one he had so vigorously thanked his wife for. I slumped into a chair, when Alice blurred into the room.

"Where is he," she scanned the room till her eyes settled on me. "You have the worst timing. I was just about to see if we'd have another thunder storm soon, when you showed up and interrupted me." I shrugged my broad shoulders.

"Sorry Alice," she waved me off. The door bell rang and she skipped to open it.

"Aidin," I heard from the foyer. I growled. Really, could we be left in peace.

Edward chuckled from where he was. Both Alice and Aidin entered the room.

"Hello," Just seeing his face made me want to slam my fist into it.

"Hello Aidin," Of course Bella would like him. She was just that type of person, or vampire.

"I was wondering if Renesmee was here. I just came by to check up on her." He voiced. Is that what he was calling it now. I rolled my eyes.

"She's not here right now, but if you want to wait on her your more than welcome too." Bella offered. I frown at her. Did she have to be so nice to him. She'd never done that for me and I didn't care if I was her best friend.

"I'd liked that." He took the other seat that sat across from me. What was up with this dude. Weren't there never any other seats that weren't near me. Maybe a few miles away.

"Is there anything I can get for you," Esme turned from her flowers where she placed on the desk that held the computer.

"No thank you," Aidin shook his head. I just wanted to snap it off so bad. I grinned to myself again.

"So how was your first day of school." Bella finally stood from the piano bench and walk over the couch and plopped down beside Emmett, Edwards soft playing in the background.

"It was good. I'm just a little worried about Nessie, though."

"Why?," Both Bella and I questioned. Bella sat forward. The music had stopped. I too was on the edge of the seat. Did he know something that I didn't. Probably, smug little half breed.

His eyes flicked to me for a second, than down to the floor.

"She was crying in class today. I just came by to make sure she was okay."

"Crying," Bella shot to her feet. "What happened?" Edward was by her side this time. I had a huge feeling that things were about to get complicated. After he was done explain what had gone down in math, everyone's eyes snapped to me.

"Jacob," my name ripped up Bella's throat.

"What?" I asked. Her eyes were squinted and her body stiffened.

"Don't what me, Jake? What did you do to her?" she growled.

" ME! I didn't so any thing," I voiced. It was true. I hadn't done anything. I jumped up just in time as a glass picture frame crashed into the wall behind me.

"Bella," I stated. "Calm down." But she was already in a half crouch.

"What happened?" She barked. She did every thing but calm down. Edward had her by her elbows, pulling her back. She was letting him, because when she decided on something there was no moving her. Alice, with Jasper right behind her flooded into the room.

"What happened." Alice's voice were like a bell chorus.

"I don't know," I admitted. She stepped forward again. That was when I heard the front door open.

"What is going on," Nessie stood in the doorway. Well at least she was fine, but I wasn't too sure about me. I could never fight Bella, though she never seem to have a problem with trying to kill me.

"WHAT DID YOU DO TO HER!" Bella yelled again.

"I didn't do anything," I had snapped back. Really if I had done something, would someone please tell me so that I could be accused properly. Then Edward answered to his daughters mental question. That snapped Bella out of her death trance, and I breathed again. As tiny as she seemed to me, Bella was scary as ever. Really, who had given the over protective mother super powers. She could now break my jaw if she wanted too. I almost laughed about the last time she had tried and broke her fragile human hand instead. I was just glad I was a friend and not a foe, but at that moment I wasn't sure where I stood. She rushed to Nessie, asking if she was okay. Nessie looked as confused as I was.

"Yes I'm fine," She answered. "What is going on? What has Jacob done." I groaned again, rolling my eyes to the ceiling.

"Not you too, I haven't done anything." Well I was pretty sure I hadn't done anything. But I was becoming less sure of myself as the minutes pressed on. Had I done something. I shook my head. I shouldn't be questioning my myself.

I sat up off my bed. I had fallen asleep. The room was black, the only light seeping from under my door from the hall light. I stretched my cramp muscles as I stood. As empty as my stomach was, I wasn't hungry. A first in my life. I yawned again and dropped myself in front of my desk, that's when I heard a knock on my window. It opened and Quil jumped into my room. Embry was next and then Seth and Leah. I groan. When you really wanted to be alone, that's when they wanted to come around. I glanced at Embrys grinning face.

"Heard you almost got your ass kicked. Again!"

"What happened?" Leah threw her self across my bed, her legs dangling in the air. I leaned back in my chair on the two back legs. I hoped I wouldn't break it. Wouldn't be the first time though.

"Nothing happened." I answered casually.

"Bullshit, I just came from there. Renesmee's been fluttering around all night." Seth announced. I shrugged keeping my gaze on the ceiling. Nosey wolves.

"Aidin was there too," Quil leaned on the edge of my desk next to me.

"And?" I tried to sound as nonchalant as I could. It shouldn't bother me that he had stayed after I left. He didn't need to study, I did. But that feeling never gave up when it came to him. The feeling of hate. Even after Nessie had explained how important I was to her, which I had always known. I talked myself into thinking it was just a moment of doubt. And jealously, my stupid conscience reminded me. I let the chair fall forward again and rose.

"You guys are going to get me into trouble if my dad's finds you'll are up here."

"Billy's fine, now what happened." Quil crossed his arms across his chest. I sighed. I understood that they wouldn't leave until I told them, and there was no use lying. They'd find out anyways. I sat on the edge of my bed and continued to them what had happened.

Renesmee

I was glad that everything had returned to normal between me and Jacob at both home and at school even though it had never really been normal there. But he finally got use to seeing me in class and everything was fine. Even Aidin had voiced his happiness that everything seemed normal again. He had apologized profusely about that time, he hadn't meant to start anything. But that was weeks ago and we became even closer. I saw him just like I saw everyone else, Jacob always the exception. Bri had blended in seemly with my supernatural friends and Kim was just happy that she had another person there that wasn't anything but human just like her. I was happy too. Even more so because spring break was right around the corner and the weather was warming up rather quickly thanks to global warming, not that was a good thing. It was exciting because at lunch I sat next to Bri, across from Kim and we were discussing what to do for spring break. I had suggested Cancun. Like my parents were really going to let me go, but it was still fun to hope. But as Kim laughed, she stated that I was the only one who had enough money to go.

"Not a problem, I could pay for everyone. It won't be fun to go by myself."

They just giggled and suggested that we keep the trip to a local area. I smiled, anything was fine with me.

"There's a large lake in south Washington, close to California's border. A bunch of kids go there for spring break all the time." Jared suggested from Kim's side. A lake, huh. It sounded like it could be fun, and it was local, enough. Kim beamed and punched Jared playfully.

"Why didn't you say anything early, we've been planning this for weeks," He only smiled and scratched to back of his head.

"I actually over heard a couple of kids talking about it earlier in AP Spanish."

"Whatever," Kim turned back to us. "Sounds like it could be fun. We could look into it." We nodded.

"You know what this means, right," Briann added, eyes simmering with anticipation.

"Shopping?" I asked timidly.

"Shopping!" She confirmed. She had started a part-time job three weeks ago at a restaurant in town. Kim and I often went up there just to keep her company and make sure she was never bored, we brought the boys along sometimes when they promised they would behave. They never did.

But one thing didn't change. And that was how Jacob made me feel. When he was close, I was always aware of him, and it would become hard to concentrate. And when he wasn't near, I wanted him to be. Even at night, I found myself thinking about him more and in different ways than before. I tried to keep my thought away from him, everything I did seemed to revolve around him. Everything was better when he was there. And as happy as Aidin made me, even Ryan, they never could compare to Jacob. My Jacob. That was what he was to me. I wondered what I was to him. Was I his Nessie? It was questions like these that began to keep me up at night, and as much as I knew my father could read my thoughts, he never once mentioned any of them to me. He had simply stated 'When your ready, you'll come talk to us about whatever's was on your mind.' That in itself made me happy. I felt that I had finally grown up in every sense of the word. I was no longer a child despite my second birthday coming up at the end of the year.

But before it was time to relax, we had a series of dreadful test called midterms. I didn't mind studying because I learned something new every time. Though I wasn't like my dad who had a century of books and music behind him, but I did have a brain that could calculate anything faster than any computer and would never forget. So with midterms in one week we had set up random study groups mostly at Sam's house as that had been dubbed the werewolf head quarters, although Bri would never know. I kind of felt bad hiding my secret from her as she was one of my best friends, but I got over that real quick, considering that I'd really have to kill her if I told her. So after school we gathered at the head quarters, ordered a dozen pizzas as every werewolf would need a large pizza for themselves. I'd share with Kim and Bri of course, because as much as I loved pizza, I could still only eat so much. We all seat in a large circle on the floor, Seth, Jacob, Quil , Embry, Jared, Kim, me and then Briann. Those with the same classes seating next to each other.

I sat next the Bri, going over our English vocabulary words. I wouldn't mention to her that I had already memorized them in class when we had gone over them the first time. There were more than two hundred words that we needed to know and their meanings. Some were easy and others a little bit more difficult. I was helping her go over the ones that she already knew.

" Emasculate," Easy, I thought.

" To castrate or weaken," she announced. Everyone grimaced.

"Ow, that one hurt me," Embry shook his head. Briann and Kim giggled, I on the other found nothing funny about it. I moved on to the next word, placing the pervious card to the back of the stack.

" Imprint," I read, and I turned over the card immediately. I wanted to see that definition. The room drew silent and Bri looked around, there eyes planted on her.

"What? Is something on my face," she rubbed her nose.

"There's nothing," Kim assured her but no one looked away.

Pressed-shaped in or special mark, I read. It still didn't say anything about werewolves, not that I had really expected it too. To the human world, werewolves, even shape-shifters were nothing more than myths and legends. They'd never believe that they were real, much less vampires. I sighed and looked at Bri.

"Pressed-shaped in or a special mark."

"Is she right, Jacob, Quil," Embry nudged Quil in his side with his elbow.

"Shut up Embry," Jacob said throwing his pencil at his friend. This only sent Embry into a rolling fit of laughter.

It was about nine o/clock and the sun was just leaving the sky, slipping beyond the horizon. I just dropped Bri off at home and I was pulling into my drive way, when my phone rang.

"Hello," It was Bri.

"Nessie, I forgot my notebook at Sam's house, could you get someone to bring it to school tomorrow." I told her that I would before I hung up. I got out of the car and trucked it across the lawn.

"Hello," I set my bag down in the foyer before entering the living area, where Alice, Rosalie and my mother, only because she had no choice, watched the E channel.

"Hey Renesmee," My mother beamed. "How was the study group" I fell into her lap.

"It was great. Oh and I think we found somewhere to go for spring break," I gleamed down at her. Her face curled up. She didn't like the sound of spring break, because all she could picture were girls dressing in there skimpy bathing suits, dancing on some bar top in Daytona beach. I had seen the commercial. I promised her that I'd never do that, not like Jacob would allow me. This made her feel better about it though, that he was even going. But not before she had suggested that we add a pool in the backyard if it was water we craved. I had only laughed and kissed her forehead.

"Somewhere close I hope." She asked. I knew she would.

I shrugged. "Don't know, where checking it out first before we decide on anything." I looked around. None of the guys were home, and I could hear Grandma Esme working away in her little garden behind the house.

"Where's dad?" I asked.

"Somewhere up north, hunting." My lips formed an O as I slipped from her lap.

"Aunt Alice, Kim, Bri and I want to go shopping next week for a swimsuit, and I was wondering if you'd come along and be our personal shopping expert." Alice's pixie like face lit up like the fourth of July.

"I'm so glad your nothing like your mother, and can really appreciate a good wardrobe." She sang, her little face glowing. I smiled and turned to Rosalie. It had been so long since I had chilled with her.

"Auntie Rose, you can come too." She only nodded, but I could tell she was just as happy as Alice.

"Would it be to much to fly to Paris to shop. I'm so tried of Washington. Maybe we could drive down to California on a cloudy day."

"Paris is way to far," My mother voiced, and my black haired aunt rolled her eyes.

"Of course it would be for you but fine I'll just order something."

"Well I don't really care. I'm just ready for mid-terms to be over." I sighed.

Just then the glass door swung open and my two uncles and dad came in, Emmett's thunderous laughter filling the entire room.

"Hey Nessie," As always, my dad kissed my forehead, then bent to kiss my mother.

"What was so funny," My mom asked, her eyes drifting between the three brothers. Emmett fell into another fit of laughter.

"Nothing!" Jasper answered before he moved to stand behind Alice's left shoulder.

Rosalie stood and took Emmett's hand and led him from the room.

"Good night," Emmett grinned, disappearing around the corner. My father and Jasper chuckled softly to themselves. It was good to see uncle Jasper in such a good mood for a change. Things were getting easier for him.

"For once I wish I could read minds." Alice fumed, before she left the room, Jasper on her heels. I was left with my parents.

"Are you ready to head back to the cottage." My dad asked, glancing at us. The two most important people to him.

"Yes," My mom stood. I nodded and did the same. After a hectic day in gym and a full stomach, I was pretty tried. We told Esme good night, Carlisle was working late before we raced toward the woods. It was then I remembered Bri's call. I pulled my phone for my pocket just as I darted through the river. I was heading to take a shower anyways.

I dialed the Blacks number and waited as it rung. I had slowed slightly, my parents doing the same beside me, hand in hand.

"Hello," I heard. It was Billy.

"Hey Billy, is Jacob there?"

"Sorry, Nessie, oh wait he's just getting in." He pulled the phone away from his mouth and called for Jacob. I heard a deeper, more mellow voice on the line.

"Nessie, is something wrong,"

"Why do you always assume that something happened every time I call you." I chuckled softly. Last time he had almost broken his neck coming down the stairs when Rachel had called him, she made the mistake and put the words 'important' and 'Nessie' in the same sentence. It did make me happy, despite the fact that he was almost hurt.

"Fine, what is it?" I grinned.

"Bri called and said that she left her notebook at Sam's place, can you run by there in the morning and get it for me?"

"Yeah,"

"Thanks Jake,"

"Anything for you," My smile widen and burst of… something shot through out my body.

"Good night,"

"Good night, Nessie." I hung up the phone then glanced over at my parents, who had smiles plastered from ear to ear, well my dad did, my mom not so much but she did seem amused.

I combed through my wet hair not more than an hour later. The shower was great and much needed. I heard a knock at my door and turned to see my mother peeking in.

"Do you want some help?" I nodded. She had my brush and was pulling it through me hair before I could finish the motion.

"You seem really happy these days,"

"Yep," I gave my brightest smile.

"Your having fun at school?"

"Yes, I know almost everyone," It was true. After the first week of school, when people began to notice that just because I looked a certain way didn't mean that I acted a certain way, they began to stop me in class and the hallway. Mostly guys. For some reason this never made Jacob very happy, but Embry and Quil always found it funny. Everyone was so nice, everyone but Ashley. She was the only one I had a feeling didn't care to much for me. Mom parted my hair into two section, down the middle.

"You have always been able to have everyone fall in love with you," She braided down one side of my head. I stared into the mirror of my vanity back at her. My mother had always been to the most beautiful person to me, the first voice I recognized, the first face I saw, even if my father had delivered me. She was the first thing I had wanted to see, and had only opened my eyes when I felt I was in her arms. I could understand why my father loved her so much, because I loved her the same. I also understood why she loved him just as much.

"When did you first love daddy," I hadn't planned on asking her, it had simply slipped out and caught her by surprise, not really sure if it was possible to surprise a vampire.

"Um… well I think I loved him from the moment I laid eyes on him. But at the time I was too distracted by that fact I thought he hated me to understand. I know I loved him the moment I found out that he was different. As much as I should have rejected the very idea, it only made me love him more. The fact that he could kill me at any moment just made it worst. I always felt bad that I was putting your father through so much pain. How much pain, well I didn't understand until I was changed and experienced the thirst for myself." She moved onto the other side of my head.

"Why do want to know?" her brow raised as she looked at my reflection.

"I don't know. You just seem so happy all the time when your with daddy, I just wanted to know what it would feels like to fall in love."

"You will someday," she growl lowly. She didn't seem too happy about it.

"All done." she stated stepping away. I stared back at myself.

"Thanks mom."

"Your welcome, now time for bed." She sometimes still treated my like a child and sometimes I missed it. I slipped into the bed and she sat beside me, and pulled the sheet to my chest.

"When did you want to be a parent?" She laughed, surprised again.

"When I found out I was pregnant with you. I hadn't even thought about it until then, not seriously at least. But were doing okay, right?" She asked.

"I give you a ten for effort," I giggled. "No, you're the best parents I could ever wish for. I love you and daddy so much."

"We love you too." She pecked my forehead. "Now get some rest." She switched off my light and closed the door behind her.

Love was a wonderful thing, I thought. I only hoped that one day I'd feel that way about some one, someone who would love me the same in return.

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