What If, Something Changes?
Disclaimer: Hunter x Hunter belongs to the great Yoshihiro Togashi-sensei
NOTE: BAD ENGLISH, DON'T MIND THEM, BUT FOR SURE YOU WOULD UNDERSTAND IT. :D
Summary: Kurapika is being haunted by his Guilt. Only half of years Gon,Killua with Leorio had a reunion, however their Blonde friend didn't show Kuroro Lucifer set on track hunting down the Chain-Assassin. While Hisoka actually stalks him over the Shadows. Each parties are on hard search for the missing Kuruta, who knows even the Hunter Society was also looking for him.R&R!
~~Note: This contain a slight of ORANGE. Any pairings[?] You'll Find out when you read, so i tell you-Start now!
And this story had start to pop on my mind is May 23 2012, Is if ever someone around here resembles my fic, well, for me i'm the first xP
PLEASE REVIEW THE CHAP 13 even this chap is out I want you guys to review the chap 13! QAQ
I UPDATED SO FAST FOOOR i may not be able to update the next, i mean, it might take veeery long days for me be able to update the next chapie;..SO IN ADVANCE! HERE IS THE CHAPIE 14!
Note: This chapie has bit SPOILERS FOR THE UPCOMING MOVIE! cuz i'm done reading the one-shot manga of Kurapika's past! -although, i saw it in a chinese translate =_="|| i just based from what i understand ON its pictures! 8D tehe!
E-N-J-O-Y and Please Review! Don't Forget! :D
CHAPTER 14
Guilt & Regret for Atonement
It's been long since then...The day i lost everything i love.
Why do you have the regret?
Why do you want to suffer?
What was the guilt are you hiding for?
Why did you oath to avenge your clan?
Was it because...You were the one who's at fault.
"I didn't mean to. If only i wasn't foolish that time...Maybe, I would have still be with them."
It's your fault and you know it.
"If only i didn't say such things..."
It's your fault and it's not really Kuroro's fault...You were to blame from first place.
"Yes, it's my fault...I was a fool, a stupid brat..."
Yes, The Massacre behind the Kuruta was all my fault.
The past of Kurapika. . . Inside the Lukuso province, in the Kuruta tribe.
"Why!" Said the little Kurapika, slamming his hand's on the Kuruta Chief's table. "Why i can't go outside to see the World?! Tell me!" The little Kurapika was complaining to their Head Chief. Or say-his grandfather. Little Kurapika was angry without the scarlet eyes on, he kept bickering to his own-to their Head Chief.
"That's because it's dangerous and we are not allowed to get involved on outside people-Not with this village!" The head chief said to the screaming Kurapika.
"Oh why? Dangerous? Are you alright?! Is it really bad if i want to go outside, i could handle myself! I'm smart-Talented...I'm good with fighting skills...I could protect myself my dear Chief!" Kurapika exclaimed. Yes, he is such of a brat, he is a spoiled one and feels perfect.
"Kurapika! You are going to dis-obey our tribe rules!? Stop. Or if you don't want to get in prison of confinement!"
The chief exclaimed back.
"Am sick of this place! I want to see the world! i'm sick of seeing every-each-of-same people's face's and this place appearance! It's always the same...I want to see something new, like the outside world!" Little Kurapika was really so stubborn and out of respect. The chief sighed and turned away his back to Kurapika.
"Hey, im not yet done!" Kurapika pointed his index finger to the chief. He kept bickering.
"Whatever you say, i would not let you go outside, its a crime to our tribe...Do you really want to disobey our Kuruta rules and oath? Plus, human's outside is dangerous...we can't trust them, We are not allowed to interact the outside world...Don't you see my point? We are not normal one's...!" the Chief Hardly explained the so stubborn stone blonde boy.
"guuhhh!" Kurapika gritting his teeth in defeat. "That's it! If you don't want me to go outside-if you wont give me a permission..I'm going out by force!"
"What?! And why are you telling me that, of course i would send someone to guard you!" The chief said with a bit small chuckle from his words.
"That's alright. I know you guys couldn't catch me." Little Kurapika believes that he is strong enough and fast enough. The chief just sighed again and said. "Listen Kurapika. This is for your own good. Stay here, don't dare to go the outside world or you'll regret everything..." He calmly told the ragging tiny Kurapika.
Kurapika gripped his fist and stomped in a child way. "I'm sick of this place! If only i can, I don;t want to see you guys faces anymore...Especially yours! hmp!"
Tiny Kurapika runned away, he was so angry that he was saying such of things.
"Wait Kurapika! Hold on! Come back here! We are not yet done!" the chief called out, but Kurapika played a dead-ear and said, "I dont hear you!"
128 people make up my brethren, and this abundant and beautiful forest is our blessing.
Seeing the childish Kurapika walking away with each step of stomping hard. His villagers were watching and talking about him.
"Oh my, what happen..." said a kuruta girl. next to her is another kuruta girl. The 2nd kuruta girl replied her friend.
"I think, Kurapika was scold by the Head Chief." she concluded, which makes her Kuruta friend boy on their left side join the conversation. He said, "Nope, they are arguing about going outside..."
The two kuruta girl gasp in surprise. "Going out the village you mean!?" They both look at each-other and continued. "But, that's against the law..."
The guy nodded in agreement and raised his pointy finger, "Well that is the point, and Kurapika doesn't agree with that...He said he wants to see the outside world...He want's to explore..."
With that the three kuruta go back to their work, of helping the whole villages with many many things.
It was the only world I had ever known.
Meanwhile...Our Little Kurapika kept walking in woods...He is muttering of how he could get out of this village without being caught. He had to admit that-the security was strong. "tch, that Old-man..." He cursed.
Not until he heard a voice called his name.
"Kurapika!"
He looked back, "Ah! Pyro!"
The next scene was on a side of river. Kurapika was throwing pebbles. While His friend kuruta, Pyro was sitting on a rock. Pyro started to spoke.
"Hey Kurapika."
"Hm?" Kurapika stopped throwing pebbles on the water. "What is it?"
"is it true that you want to go outside the village?"
"Hell yes am!"
That surprised Pyro, and continued to ask. "But why? Aren't you happy just being with all of us...You know, this always peacful and living harmony of our holy Kuruta tribe?" Kurapika then started to close his eyes, he was thinking but immediately answered.
"Well it's not like that...It's just, it is getting boring here..." tiny Kurapika put his both hand's in his waist. "Pyro, don;t you get tired of seeing each same people, each same places everyday? Don;t you think it's tiring to see every single SAME things?"
Pyro had thought with a "hmm..." then looked up to his friend. "Well, not really,...Wait, so your point is...You are tired of seeing us same faces everyday-and same places everyday?"
"yup! that is my point!"
"oh then, why would you want to go outside?"
"Dont you see?! I want to explore things! I want to see NEW things! " Kurapika happily raised up his both hands on the sky. "I want to travel the whole world! I want to meet new people too! Plus...!"
Kurapika jumped to grab Pyro's hands to stand up. "There are so many things outside there-that werent inside here!" Pyro could only blink. But Kurapika continued. "Say, Dont you want to come with me? Don't you want to travel with me to the outside world? It would be fun! I assure you!"
Kurapika said with a big smile. Pyro could only smile back, but suddenly his face goes down, and said, "But, from what i heard, it's dangerous for us Kuruta's to get involved on outside people..." Pyro does let go of Kurapika's hands. "They say that, people outside are carving for our scarlet eyes..."
Kurapika put a grumpy face and shouted to Pyro like a big brother, "Come on! Not even you Pyro! Geez, what's with everyone!" Kurapika stomped away and throws another pebble from the river. "Every of you are being fraidy cat to the outside world like you can't fight...Then what is the point of having martial arts bokken lessons' if your not going to use it as self defense if ever someone go outside to the SOOOOO said dangerous!"
Pyro did go back to his sitting place and said, "Speaking of lessons...you didn't attend the class earlier...Itski-sensei is mad about it...It's the 5th time you skipped class except for the bokken lesson."
"Oh come on Pyro!" Kurapika rolled his eyes, he was still irritated, "I'm too smart to attend the classes...Our classmate there will just get dump by me~ That's why in order not to put them low..I'm skipping class...Plus i already know a lot of it...! There;s no need for me to attend...!"
"Then why are you attending the bokken class?"
"Well, it's fun sparring with someone! Although...they are all weak..." Kurapika trailed off, the pebble on his hands was out of stock, so he leaned down to get more pebbles to throw.
"Say Kurapika..."
"hm..?"
"Are you also tried seeing my face everyday?"
Kurapika was shock he immediately throw away the pebbles on his hands and hugs Pyro. "Silly! How could i get tried of your face! It's not like that you dummy!"
Pyro felt honored, though the idea of leaving the village was worrying him. "Thanks Kurapika...But..How about your parents? Wont you miss them if ever you have gone-allowed to go outside the tribe?"
Kurapika then let go of Hugging Pyro, he once again think. And answered. "Of course i do, but, Time is passing by...Later we know we are already an adult, and i dont want to waste any single time of it." he concluded.
Pyro rubbing his head said, "um, so does that mean, you want to be independent already?"
"Yep! That's right! and don't worry, i'll protect you outside if ever we got out of this place!" Kurapika smiled again. Then Pyro smiled back, that's all he could do...Indeed, Kurapika might be such of a brat, but he is a very nice and loyal friend.
Pyro then nodded to him. "Sure, i'll go with you!"
In his surprises. "R-really?! Y-you will?!"
Pyro nodded with a smile. "Yep. we are bestfriends after all...And friends should be always together!"
Kurapika then squeels in happiness, he jumped with his JOY. "yay! thanks Pyro! Now i will try to talk to the chief once again for permission!"
"e-eh!?"
"bye there!" Tiny Kurapika ran off to go back on the Chief Head office.
"Wait Kurapika! Wait for me!"
But, so fast, Kurapika vanish.
Pyro could only rub his head and sit back to the rock. "Geez, he always so full of himself..." A sighed. And Pyro decided to follow Kurapika. "I guess, i can't just sit here...Kurapika wait for me! Heeey!"
That is, until a year ago.
When I met Shilah.
Kurapika was now walking after doing amazing skills by jumping tree to tree like a darn ninja. He was really high praised too much BY only himself. When he heard Pyro from the ground of tree. "Kurapika!"
"oh-Pyro!"
Little Kurapika jumped down and just saw Pyro inhale exhale. He commented. "Your so weak as ever on running Pyro..." he said deadpan, without caring if his friend would have hurt.
"s-sorry..." Pyro was so tired chasing Kurapika. But then, they suddenly heard a sound coming behind a bush.
"W-what's that?!" Pyro had panick a bit.
"shhhss!" Kurapika covered his mouth, "There's someone else here..."
They both look over behind the bush and saw a woman who looks terrbily tired and hungry.
"Ah! A human from outside?!-" Pyro hardly forgot to cover his thoughts inside his mind. "Shhss! now you woke her up!" Kurapika was having the facepalm. Pyro and Kurapika look with eachother and with a nod in agreement. They approached the woman...
Kurapika asked. " Are you okay?"
The woman hardly spoke back... She said, "Wah… Tur…"
Kurapika blinked in surprise, he was lost, "What - ? What did she say?"
Pyro could only put his finger on his cheeks with an idea to reply his friend. "I don't know! She's speaking a language from The Outside!"
But then, the woman spoke straight a bit once again, though her voice was husky. "Water, do you understand? I'm so thirsty I'm gonna die."
Kurapika then replied back in question. "You want to drink something?"
Pyro cant help but to panick, and shakes Kurapika with a stare of wait a moment, Pyro said to the woman,"I'll go get some water from the river!"
And so then...
" Ahh ~! Thank you! I've feel completely rejuvenated!"
Kurapika, Pyro was in sitting position. Facing the stranger or so they called an outside.
"i'm Shilah...and...It's not much but… I should give you something as thanks. Here, take this."
Kurapika couldn't understand of what Shilah was trying to say, Her language from their language was soooo way different. Kurapika ask his kuruta friend who was beside him. "What the… Is she giving it to us?"
Same side as Pyro, doesn;'t know either but, said he, "But if we take it, then everyone will know we spoke to an Outsider!"
While on shilah's side, she was also having trouble. It's hard to communicate with different language, neither of them doesnt understand of assurance to each of their words. But she continued to speak to the both children.
"Now, now, you don't have to hold back you know~! I have no idea what they're saying."
Kurapika and Pyro blinked with their eyes in a funny stupid way. Yes, they dont understand what she trying to say.
Shilah notice that but still, hoping that they will understand her. "um...Hey, I'd like you to tell me where I can find water. Ri-ver! Where the water flows like "zaaaah"!"
Another blink from the two.
"ugh… Could it be, you two are actually just stupid?"
This time, Kurapika sat up,
"Kurapika? [Pyro]
"Just wait here." Kurapika ran off, "I'LL GO GET MY DAD'S DICTIONARY!"
"EH!? If we're found out, we'll be thrown in the dungeon!"
But, it was too late. "HEY KURAPIKA!"
"ehh...?" Shilah rubbing her head, and Pyro was left alone with her.
Pyro tried to sign Shilah of the -wait-a-minute-...
Shilah just nodded, from whatever she understands. Pyro and Shilah waited for Kurapika.
After that, Shilah, Pyro and I became very good friends...We always meet up with her on woods, and there, she kept telling us stories from the outside world. And about the hunter exam.
Shilah was actually planning to take the exam, but like she had said, she was having a training but end up being lost in woods..Which we found her.
Everyday, we are reading the book-she gave us...
The book tells everything about the world that we didnt knew.
Kinds of monsters, creatures, animals... kind of places..and kinds of adventure was explain inside the book.
And the book title was "DINO HUNTER"
Shilah then left after 3 weeks. She still need to take exam and which caused me to have more interest to go out, to be free from this so called prison. which i was only thinking that time-since i was a child.
I then decided to give a gut going to the outside world, i once again, go to the chief's office for permission.
"Fine."
"R-really?! I could go outside now? Yehey!"
"Dont 'yehey' yet!"
"eh?!"
"There is a condition.'
Kurapika put a grumpy face and crossed his arms on his chest, "What condition is it then?"
"You must take the exam of our tribe ritual...In order to prove that you are capable to live the outside world."
"Sure i'll take that test!"
Many things have happen, i was able to past all of it with my partner Pyro. However...
"what!? Why?! Why i cant go outside? I thought we made a deal about this!"
"Kurapika. There is a dangerous troupe roaring the outside world...It would be pretty dangerous for you to go out -outside this time. And that troupe are bandits...They might caught you and sell you."
His chief said, Kurapika was having a veeery short tempered self. And said, "So? What is the name of that troupe anyway?"
"It's called GeneiRyodan...A troupe who bears the Spider tattoo..."
"...Genei..Ryodan...?" This time, Kurapika was caught from the curious situation.
"ehh...w-what's with this feeling...?"
He felt a very uneasy felt heart after hearing the name of the S.A. Bandit troupe spider. The Genei Ryodan.
"Kurapika?"
"y-yes?"
"I'll promise, you could go outside after we have confirmed that the GeneiRyodan was no longer on the range of our village...Ok?" The chief smiled. Kurapika then nodded with agreement.
"Ok fine, i got it!" He then run off to Pyro.
"Hey Kurapika! I'm going to classes this time!"
Pyro told Kurapika who was reading a book. "Oh? well...am skipping..."
"again? don;t you want to have one last class with me before we leave the village?" [Pyro]
"nope." Kurapika then hided his book from his under shirt. "But i'll wait for you on the gate, you could go to the classes by yourself...I'll be waiting for you don't worry." Kurapika smiled.
And Pyro gave a nod. He run off, While Kurapika turning away his back to go on the gate, But then, Pyro called him out once again.
"Hey Kurapika!"
The blonde head turned back, to see his friend-Was waving to him. [if you know this pose on manga...forgot the chapie]
"See you later!" Pyro said with a smile, and waving his hands...
Kurapika was frozed, "not again...w-whats with this weird feeling...?"
Watching his friend Pyro waving to him, it make him feel like, it would be the last time he could see him waving. Kurapika only stared to Pyro who keeps waving with that ONE last smile. Kurapika tried to smile back with a wave too.
"Yeah see you later, Pyro!"
"Kurapika, Till later then ok!"
"Yeah. ..." Kurapika turned his back again, "Yes...Later...we'll meet after the class."
But, it may have been a mistake for him to turn back. For. it was the last time he could see his best friend and his whole clan...smiling with their eyes...
If i didn't said such of things...It wouldn't have happen. If i didn't hope of it, it would have not happen. I actually wish for a thing that i didn't notice.
Do you remember those words Kurapika?
"Yes, the word that i said, and i curse myself to say it."
Yes you should feel guilty about it..Kurapika.
"Right, i wished something that i shouldn't have done."
Do you remember the part you said of
.
.
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"It would be good if i dont see you and this place anymore!"
And so then, the Kuruta massacred was occured. From the guilt he had, Kurapika blaming his self at fault. If only he didnt say the magic words...This would'nt have happen.
That's why
In order to atone for my sins
The guilt he has
He oath to avenge them and collect their eyes balls.
Right
In order To suffer like they did.
This is, My Atonement...And that is, Revenge.
TBC~~!
OK that was LONG, and IM PRETTY SURE that you have finally understand of why Kurapika is a guilt-ridden-type. And why he was doing revenge even though he doesnt need too. it is because of the guilt he had, the self-blaming...Well, i know you do know what im trying to say, anyway...This is only my idea from Kurapika;s past-although some part's of it was on the manga TEHE XDD
LIKE ALWAYS-Please review so that i could continue XD
Thank for reading its To Be Continued dont worry...Im just waiting for atleast 4reviews XD
Coz im a moody author e.e"