Chapter Thirteen
It was time for the most nerve-wrecking period of the day – Lunch. I wasn't sure if I would make it out alive or not.
"You okay?" James asked me, putting a hand on my shoulder. I nodded slowly, staring at the tables that were filling up quickly and tightly gripping my lunch box. Penny had made James and me both lunches, which I was extremely thankful for.
"C'mon, there's Meagyn and Alex. Let sit down," He pulled on my arm, but I was frozen with fear. Within the past three hours, I realized that I was super claustrophobic. You know, staying inside all day for three fourths of my life.
"S?" The sound of James' voice snapped me back into reality.
"Yeah, sorry. Just spaced out for a second," I followed him to the table and sat down. Meagyn glanced up from her food and looked back down.
"Hey, guys," Alex said.
"Hi," I said quietly, opening my lunch box and pulling out a peanut butter and grape jelly sandwich on white. When Nick and Luke came over, Luke sat on the other side of Meagyn and Nick sat on my right.
He glanced at James, and I think I was the only one who noticed the quick flash of something in his eyes... jealousy, maybe?
Oh, God, please don't tell me that Nick has a crush on me too! I couldn't stand all these... emotions. It was literally driving me insane. If I got another chance to witness those crazy emotions, I would probably go on a majiquel killing rampage.
Outside after school, Meagyn came up to me.
"So, Sam," she said, smiling unnaturally. Okay, something was up. "Are you buying or renting?"
"Excuse me?" I asked, completely confused. What in all of burning hell was she talking about?
"Your house. Are you buying or renting it?" she explained.
"Oh, um, well..." God, why did she have to ask such a difficult question? "My parents can't afford a house right now, and, you see, my dad and James' dad are really good friends, so… my family is kind of renting to stay with James and his family."
"Oh, cool," she muttered, as if she thought just the opposite. Well, I wouldn't blame her. If my crush had a girlfriend and he was already living with her, I'd hate her too. So I really didn't take it personally.
I stopped walking and turned to face Meagyn. Just spit it out, Serena. "Meagyn, I know you like James. And I'm sorry that I'm... dating him, but I can't control his emotions and make him like you back. But if I could, trust me, I would. I can't take all this lovey-dovey crap much longer."
"Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, wait." Meagyn held up her hands, gesturing me to stop. "How do you know I like James?"
My eyes widened and I froze with fear. Should I tell Meagyn everything? Did I trust her like I trusted James?
The answer? Even though Meagyn had made it clear she didn't like me, I did trust her. I don't know why, but something in me, something I didn't know was there, told me I could, and I trusted myself. Sighing, I grabbed her arm and pulled her behind a nearby tree.
"I'll tell you about me," I said, trying to not scream at the top of my lungs. "But you have to swear to God that you won't say a word to anyone. That includes your parents, siblings, cousins... I'm dead serious when I say you can't repeat anything to anyone without my permission. Okay?"
She looked kind of scared, but she gathered herself, looked me in the eye, and nodded.
So I took a deep breath, straightened my back, and told her everything.