Chapter 14: A Deal

The almost full moon sparkled in the night sky. Its bright light highlighted the path as I walked down to the lake. Sirius hadn't been in any of his usual places, the only one left was the lake. Lily was right, I need to make sure he understood that I loved him and wanted him as bad as he wanted me.

Looking down the hill I spotted Sirius. He was dressed in summer clothing; he must be freezing. I walked down the hill and stopped a few feet behind him; I could hear his teeth chattering. Pulling my coat off, I lay it over his shoulders and sit down beside him.

He looked up surprised, and his eyes brightened slightly. He was happy to see me at least.

"Why are you out here without a jacket? You could freeze."

He shrugged. "I wasn't thinking."

"I think we are both guilty of that lately." I leaned closer to him, our shoulders gently pressing against one another.

"Do you love me?" he asked.

I couldn't help but feel hurt by his question. Why would he think anything but that I do love him? "Yes," I said. Leaning closer, I kissed him. There was no other way that I knew that could explain it. Words were failing both of us, and I needed him to understand.

He pulled back from the kiss. "Then why won't you take things further?"

I took and a deep breath and pulled him against me. He snuggled his head into my chest as I wrapped my arms around his body. I kissed the top of his head, his scent calming me. "I want to. Please believe me when I say that I really want to through you down every minute of every day and have my way with you. You have pushed my self-control to the limit, which is why today I walked away from you."

He didn't say anything.

I tried to take Lily's advice. Explain to him that I was scared. Another deep breath of his scent, and another kiss—this time to the back of his neck—and I said, "I'm scared that in the future, whether it be ten years or fifty years, that one day you could change your mind and decide that you don't love me anymore and that you don't want to be with me anymore."

Sirius sat up and frowned. "No, never. I would never want anyone but you."

"I know that it is what you want now."

He shook his head and cupped my face. "Now and forever."

I smiled. "I know you believe that now. I don't doubt your love for me."

"Make me yours completely. Let's complete the bond and you don't have to worry. Mark me as yours for everyone to see and you won't have to worry."

I almost laughed. He didn't understand it. I pulled his lips to mine again. I could feel the desperation, love and desire. My body and soul craved him, as much he wanted me. But he needed to understand. "When we complete the bond, things don't work as you expect them too."

He frowned.

"I have multiple possible mates in the world, but once I pick one mate that is it. Forever and ever, I can't love anyone else."

"And I want to be that one."

"Let me finish." I kissed his cheek.

"Sorry," he mumbled.

"But since you are a normal wizard, you're not a werewolf, you can love more than one person. Normal people fall out of love all the time. Marriages end and those people find someone new to love. That could happen to you. In one month, one year, ten years. You might stop loving me. And if you did, if we created this bond, and you changed your mind, I don't think I could survive."

Sirius's eyes were shining with realisation. He understood my fear, I could see it. He nuzzled his face into my neck and wrapped his arms around me. He pulled himself into my lap and squeezed me. "I love you."

"I love you too."

"No," he said. He looked me in the eyes, tears falling down his cheeks.

I reached up to wipe them away.

"I will love you forever. I will never change my mind. If I have to, I will find a way to make sure I can't fall out of love with you. There has to be a spell or a ritual that will bind my heart to yours forever."

God, I loved him. I grabbed his face and pulled his lips to mine. He meant every single word and I loved him even more.

"In five weeks, it will be Valentine's day." He took a deep breath. "Our first Valentine's day. And I know it sounds extremely corny, but if I am still telling you that I love you, completely, will you then agree to complete the bond with me."

How could I deny him? He had poured his heart out to be. I loved him too much to deny him any longer. So, I nodded. "Yes." I kissed him. "Valentine's Day is the deadline."

He smiled. "It's a deal."

I returned his smile and pulled his lips back to mine again. Moving one hand into his hair, I gripped his long locks and pulled him closer. Our teeth mashed together, and our tongues danced. My other hand wrapped around his waist and pulled him closer.

His hands gripped my hair, and he rocked against me.

I moaned into his mouth. I need him. I brought my lips down his neck, and sucked hard, leaving a clear mark on him.

Our hips rocked together, the friction felt amazing against my hardening member. I rolled us over so he was below me. My jacket was the only thing separating us from the stones below us. I rocked against him with my force.

He allowed moans and gasps to escape his lips. Him groaning my name only drew more desire from me. He wrapped his legs around my waist and brought my lips away from his throat to his lips. Opening his mouth for me, I tasted every inch.

My thrust against him grew faster and harder; both of us were so close to our climax's. He looked me in the eye and cupped my cheeks. He smiled and moaned. "Fuck." His breathing was erratic and his face flushed. "Just like this. I can imagine you being inside of me. Your cock filling me. Fucking me."

I pushed harder. His words were bringing me close.

"God, I can't wait for you to make me yours."

"Mine." My words came out as a growl.

"Yes, yours! ARRH! REMUS!" He moaned out my name and brought me to my own end.

I lay on top of him panting, wanting more of him. But the sticky mess would quickly dry and make me uncomfortable, as it would for him too. I pulled my wand from my pocket and cleaned us both up, before kissing him again.

He looked up at me with a dazed smiled. "You normally aren't one for making me cum outside." He nibbled my lip. "Anyone could have caught us."

I kissed him and ran my tongue along his bottom lip. "The closer to the full moon it gets, the horny I become. My restraint is at an all-time low."

He smirked. "That's good to know."

"Let's go back to the common room. We can warm each other up even more if we are wrapped in a blanket."

He nodded and kissed me again. "Great idea."

Somehow, I managed to pull away from him and lead him back to the common room. My jacket wrapped around me, and he snuggled against my side, as we walked. A few students gave us a few looks; no doubt our hair and faces gave away what we had been up too, but I was too happy to care.

Once in our room, we showered together, before climbing into my bed. The curtains were drawn and a privacy spell around us, we were left in peace. But Sirius was more exhausted then he thought, and quickly, he fell asleep in my arms.

I watched him sleep for a while, before closing my own eyes and allowing sleep to take me as well.