AN- Not Mine- Again let me thank everyone for their words of encouragement and their alerts. My hubby thinks I am crazy with how excited I get every time I look at my phone (I have a Blackberry so I get my email alerts immediately).
Real Quick- I just wanted to clarify a question I received: Embry is only with Jake all the time to make sure he is abiding by the elders conditions. When he walked away from Jake he basically gave up on him.
BPOV
The rest of the week went pretty smoothly. There were a few exceptions with girls who tried to insinuate themselves between me and Quil and of course Quil and Paul had their hands full with the boys who thought they had a chance with me. I still do not understand what is so special about me. Jacob sat with us at lunch but he rarely said anything and spent the whole hour looking out the window. I really wanted him to retain his power and I talked to Quil, Paul and Sam about how to push him to realize what he did was wrong. On Monday, two weeks into Jacob's thirty day probation and the beginning of my second week of school I finally came up with a plan.
Quil and I were sitting in class when the teacher announced we had a new student named Carlie. A beautiful copper haired girl entered the room. Jacob was stunned. He had imprinted. The teacher sat Carlie between me and Embry and it was then and there I came up with my plan. I excused myself and ran to the bathroom to call Sam and explained my plan to him. Sam was hesitant but all for it. Twenty minutes later Jacob was called to the office to meet with Sam. Carlie was so nice. I invited her to sit with us at lunch and after filling in Embry and Quil I put my plan into action. Jacob came back from the office and looked pained. I ended up with Carlie in all my classes so I introduced her to Paul and filled him in. After morning classes I grabbed Carlie's hand and pulled her to the lunchroom. We grabbed our food and headed towards the table only to see Jacob smile so I detoured and headed to a table down from our regular table. Quil and Embry followed me and when sitting I made sure Embry sat next to Carlie. Jacob was livid and looked to be in pain. Paul just smirked. Carlie asked why we were not sitting with Paul and I said that Jacob is a jerk and that he is my ex best friend. I knew Jacob could hear everything. Paul just winked at me knowing what was going on. It really got worse when Carlie commented on the hotness factor that my brother had. Paul started laughing and Jacob looked like he was going the vomit. Embry then asked Carlie if she wanted to come to the beach after school and I added an invitation to dinner after the beach. As long as I kept Carlie with me Jacob could not even to attempt to break the alpha command that Sam had given him to stay away from Carlie.
After school we walked to the parking lot to see Jacob standing at his car with Embry right next to Paul's car. Jacob looked like he wanted to say something but I grabbed Carlie's hand and pulled her into Paul's car so she would sit next to Embry. I glanced in the mirror as we drove away to see Jacob fall to his knees in pain. I felt guilty then as I knew the pain he was going through.
The next few days were filled with school during the day and Carlie, Quil, Embry Paul and mr hanging at our house everyday after school. Carlie's parents were so nice and they seemed so happy for her to have found such good friends. Carlie was quickly filling the hole left by Jacob. I really had found a new best friend. By the following Monday, Sam, Quil, Paul, Embry and I had been summoned by the elders. We slowly walked over to the building again I was so nervous. Upon entering Old Quil came over and gave me a hug whispering in my ear "granddaughter you are very special and very smart." As we entered the meeting room I saw Jacob on his knees crying. We sat down in our usual places as Old Quil called the meeting to order.
Old Quil/Bella/Sam/Jacob
"Jacob has asked for this meeting. So we shall let him speak and explain why."
"I can't take it anymore. I now understand what I did to Bella and Quil. Please I am asking PLEASE release the alpha command and let me talk to my imprint. I am begging I can not take the pain any longer." By this time Jacob was in hysterics and laying in a fetal position on the floor. I stood up. If he wanted the command reversed than I had questions that needed to be answered.
"Can I please ask Jacob some questions concerning his realization and his request to reverse the alpha command?"
"Of course granddaughter. Please go ahead" I turned to Jacob who had sat up on his knees. Tears were still running down his face.
"Jacob I understand that you feel the pain from not being in contact with your imprint. Do you understand now what you have put Quil and me through?"
"Yes, Bella and I am so sorry. I thought that the pain was psychological caused by the constant reminders of the legends. Please forgive me."
"Jacob, your imprint has become my best friend. She has filled the hole that you created. How can I trust you to not try to rape her as you did me? How can I trust that you will not hurt my best friend?" Jacob broke down again and started keening loudly.
"Bella, I am so so sorry. I would not have went through with it. I was not in my right mind. I now realize the transgressions that I put forth and again PLEASE forgive me. I could never hurt my imprint. I love her with everything I have."
"Jacob, you said that about me three weeks ago and you do realize that she has a choice right? I hate to tell you this but she is quite close to Embry. Are you going to force her to drop us as her friends because you are to afraid of what we may say?" Jacob looked horrified. He had not thought that she would not want him that way. He had noticed that she spent a lot of time with Embry but it never dawned on him that she would only want his as a friend. Jacob laid on the floor chanting.
"What have I done? What have I done? I almost destroyed my best friends happiness. I almost raped my best friend. My imprint will hate me. What have I done? WHAT HAVE I DONE?"
"Granddaughter can I please interrupt? I believe that I have a decision that will be beneficial for everyone."
"Yes Grandfather please give us your decision."
"Jacob Black I will have Sam reverse the command but there will be conditions. One: You cannot be with your imprint alone. You will be in the company of one of your wolf brothers at all times. Two: You cannot physically touch your imprint until you have proven your trustworthiness. Three: You cannot mention Bella or any of your pack brothers in a negative way. Do you agree to abide by these conditions?"
"Yes sir but may I say something to your grandchildren and the pack members?"
"Of course Jacob."
"Bella, and my brothers I know that I have commited many crimes against you. I know that it will be a long time until I earn it but please allow me to try to earn your forgiveness."
"Jacob, it will take a long time of sucking up but of the pack agrees then I agree." Jacob looked so relieved.
"Thank you Bella."
"Sam can you please change the command now?"
"Of course sir. Jacob Black from this moment on the alpha command against your imprint is reversed and a new one is in place. One: You will NEVER be alone with your imprint Two: you CANNOT PHYSICALLY TOUCH your imprint Three: You CANNOT TALK NEGATIVELY AGAINST THE PACK OR BELLA SWAN."
You could instantly see the relief in Jacob's face as he quickly ran out the door. We said our thank you's and went back to our house. I had just served dinner when there was a knock at the door. Paul opened the door and there stood Jacob looking miserable. Paul motioned him in. He shuffled along and then crashed on the sofa while we gathered round.
"Jacob what is wrong now?" I had to ask. I mean this is just ridiculous.
"I went to Carlie's house just to introduce myself properly and she slammed the door in my face." I started to giggle. I couldn't help it.
"Jacob, you have ignored her for a week and she is my best friend so she knows the hole you left my heart because she filled it up. She knows you were a jerk and then you just show up at her door. C'mon I thought you were smarter than that. We shall start the get Carlie to be Jacob's friend crusade tomorrow at school."
"Really Bella, You will help me." That face always gets me. I can tell when my best friend needs help.
"Yes, you goof, I will. Now let's go eat." Quil and Paul looked at me with love and pride shining in their eyes. I had no doubt that Jacob would go back to being the Jacob I knew before the whole mess started.
PPOV
When I opened the door and saw a broken Jacob I was shocked. I mean we had just made his day and I think he got off pretty easy. I let him come in and sit down before Bella asked him what was wrong. I love my new little sister. She is so pure and forgiving. When she offered to help Jacob with Carlie, Quil and I looked at each other and then at her with such love and pride. She truly is an angel.
QPOV
When Paul opened the door and I saw Jacob I bristled. I did not want Bella upset and lately all he did was upset her. Not only did Jacob interrupt our dinner but he looked like he wanted sympathy. Well I had none for him. When I heard Bella ask him what was wrong and he said what happened I almost laughed out loud. I mean c'mon he deserved it. He caused so much bullshit for Bella and now he feels her pain. The way she told him off but agreed to help him become Carlie's friend stunned me. Even with all the crap he pulled she would still help Jacob. That's when I knew. My girlfriend was an angel.
BPOV
After we finished a dinner, in which conversation was minimal with Jacob looking so bad, everyone cleared out. Quil and Paul were doing dishes after Quil told me to relax since I cooked. I took a drink and went out in the garden and sank onto my favorite chair, which I claimed as mine the day I moved in and discovered the sanctuary that Paul called the backyard. What Paul called a backyard I called a paradise. There were beautiful flowers and blooming bushes everywhere. Even on a rainy day it is beautiful and calming to sit out here. One day I will have my wedding out here. Wait wedding. Who am I kidding? Quil will eventually find someone better and I will be alone living with my brother and his wife and kids. I am sure that Paul will never make me leave. I mean he does really feel and acts like a real sibling. I could hear snippets of conversation from the kitchen. My men are such good friends. I am so lucky. I should just relax and let my mind relax a little. Between the chair and the fading twilight I fell into a deep sleep.
I was woken by the warm arms of my WILF lifting me and then sitting on my chair with me in his lap. I was in the zone between sleep and wake barely registering the people and conversations around me. My slumber was comfortable and safe. Quil made this possible. I registered Paul getting up and heard the back door when my dream started. I could feel Quil running his fingers up and down my arms, across my neck and stomach. I started getting moist. The light touches were driving me crazy. I wanted more. I moaned and wiggled in Quil's lap causing his to hiss. I could feel his erection which just spurned me on. I wanted Quil more than I wanted anyone ever. Quil started placing open mouth kisses on my face while running his fingers along my waistband under my shirt. He slowly dipped his finger into my pants and by this time I was wide awake. I quickly turned straddling Quil grabbing his neck and pulling him his lips to mine. I ran my hands under his shirt and up his chest stopping to pinch his nipples. I grinded into his hard cock and felt it twitch causing me to grow even wetter. Quil grabbed my hands and stopped all movement. He pulled back and just sat there. I immediately jumped off him and ran into the house. I knew that he didn't want me. I wasn't good enough for him and I knew it. I was in my bedroom in my cuddle space crying when I heard a soft knock.
"Bella, baby, Can I come in?" He sounds so depressed. I guess I can still be his friend. I mean I love him so much that if he is happier with someone else that I will let him go.
"Sure Quil, the door is open." Quil slowly opened the door and came in. He kneeled down and gathered me in his arms sinking into my cuddle space. He grabbed my blanket and my wolf. He placed the wolf in my arms before covering us both with the blanket.
"Bella, why did you run?"
"Quil, I just can't handle it. When you rejected me I just freaked. I understand though. You can do so much better than me." Quil's breathing picked up and he held me tighter.
"Oh Baby, I was not rejecting you. It's just that you are so special to me and I want our first time to be special. I want you to know all of me. I want everything and forever with you. I want my ring on your finger and I want you swollen with our child. I want our own house with a garden sanctuary just for you." By this time we had both started crying. I couldn't believe he felt this way. I'm plain and boring and OK looking I guess.
"Bella, I love you more than my own life and I would never intentionally hurt you. Please say you forgive me."
"Listen my WILF, there is nothing to forgive. Nothing at all. It was my entire fault and my insecurities from being rejected so many times." Quil looked puzzled. He took a deep breathe and asked.
"Bella, baby, what does WILF mean?" I started giggling and gathered my courage.
"Well Quil, it means WolfI'dLiketoFuck." I could feel the blood rushing to my cheeks.
"What was that Bella?" Quil was blushing almost as bad as I was.
"Umm, Wolf I'd Like to Fuck." All of a sudden I heard a loud laugh from down the hall and then Paul yell, "now I've heard everything. Just not here and remember Quil she is my little sister and I will make you run patrols all day every day if you try anything with her."
Quil just started kissing me and when we finally had to stop to catch a breathe he tucked me into his chest and I fell into a dreamless sleep only to feel him kiss my hair and whisper "I love you my angel".