Chapter 14: Suicide Mission

We all stared at the figure appearing before us.

"Please, don't shot." The man slowly walked towards us with his hands in the air surrendering. I stood there silent. It was Milton.

"Stop there, don't move! Who are you?" Rick questioned taking three steps forward aiming his gun to him.

"Milton." I informed the group.

Dean glanced back and forth between Milton and I befuddled.

"The Governor…"

"You're with The Governor?" Glenn interrupted Milton, hastily grabbing him by the shirt pushing him against a tree holding him down.

"Glenn!" I ran over to him.

"I'll kill you!" Glenn roared.

"The Governor… he's still in Woodbury destroying everything." Milton froze in Glenn's grip. "He will be coming after all of us if we don't leave now."

"We?" Glenn questioned putting more pressure on Milton.

"Glenn." Rick got close trying to get Glenn to let him go.

"He and his people are the reason why we're in this mess. Maggie is dead because of him!" Glenn put his gun to Milton's head.

"It wasn't me and the survivors, it was The Governor. He made his top men do it. I wanted out but couldn't leave. Lana offered me to come with her."

I looked to the floor shaking my head slightly, wanting all of this to be over.

"You didn't have anything to do with it? You were innocent? Looking for a way out?" Glenn furiously countered. "Well so was our group. Maggie was innocent, looking for a way out!"

*Boom* the sound of the gun shot echoed throughout the woods.

I stood there staring at the ground never giving it a second look as Milton's body slid down the tree and onto the ground. Silence hit everyone hard as we were silently figuring out our next move. A walker appeared out of the woods. Rick went over and stabbed it in the head. The shuffling of more walkers were upon us. Glenn suddenly started walking back into the woods.

"Glenn!" Rick yelled out running after him.

"Stay with Carl. Keep them safe." Dean grabbed Ricks shoulder looking at the walkers heading towards us. "I'll go after him." Dean then disappeared into the dark woods. Rick started stabbing walkers that appeared out of the woods saving his ammo for when he really needed it. I saw Daryl slowly getting out of the car with a knife in hand trying to back up Rick. Carl stood by the car with his gun ready to shoot if it became too crowded with walkers.

"I gotta go help them." I loaded my gun.

"Dean is handling it." Rick grabbed my hand that was holding on to the gun.

"Glenn more than likely is heading back to Woodbury. I know Woodbury better than they do."

Ricks face said stay but his hand let go of mine. I stared into his eyes for another second before I turned my back to Rick running after Glenn and Dean.

I ran through the woods trying to catch up with them. I fell to the ground tripping over a rock; my jeans ripped making me scrap my knee on the hard dirt floor. I slowly got up sucking in the stinging pain. I heard a loud moan; I turned around and was face to face with a walker.

"Fuck!" I stabbed it in the head with my knife and kept running.

I got to the gates and stood there in distress. The gate was wide open, walkers roamed free on the streets of Woodbury. With the anxiety building up I wanted to turn around and run away but my feet slowly started walking in, determined to not leave without Dean and Glenn. I walked through the gate and a walker took notice. It started pacing toward me. I stabbed it in the face and started running through walkers.

*Boom, Boom, Boom* Walkers started falling around me. I looked around trying to figure out where the gun shots came from.

"Lana!" Dean yelled out appearing from behind a building. I ran to Dean as he covered me from the walkers that were near.

"Where's Glenn?" I panted.

"I lost him." Dean grabbed my hand and ran into the building closing the door shut. We quickly looked around to see if we were in the clear. Nothing.

I leaned my back to the wall taking a breather, cold and tired as hell.

"What are you doing here?"

"I'm here for cardio, what does it look like. I'm here to help!" I looked into Dean's eyes. Everything I do seem to exasperate him.

"You should have stayed with Rick, it's too…"

"Dangerous?" I cut him off. "Dean, I'm capable of so much. Do you not have faith in me?"

"Damn it Lana! I didn't want you here!"

"Well to fuckin' bad Dean, I'm here. Please, let's continue to argue this out with a bunch of walkers roaming outside the door and Glenn missing because this argument is just so damn important!"

Dean grabbed my shoulder and pulled me into his arms. I was dumbfounded as he tightly had his arms wrapped around me in a hug.

"You're so stupid." He gently leaned his lips on my forehead for a slow kiss.

"What?" I looked up to him curiously.

"Lana." He sighed closing his eyes. "I'm hard on you because I don't want you to get hurt." I silently looked down to his chest. "You, Hunter and Sam are all I care about. We already lost Hunter… I'm sorry but I can't lose one more person. I can't lose you."

Dean cupped my face with his right hand; I looked into his green eyes with tears running down my cheeks. He leaned in for a kiss. So gentle and soft, made me forget about everything outside the door for a moment. My heart broke in two, how could I be so blind to not see what Dean felt. Wallowing in my own prison my lips moved with Deans.

I pulled away from the kiss leaning my forehead on Deans, sniffling, trying hard to not blabber like a baby.

"I'm so sorry." I whispered.

"I just want you to know, that when I picture myself happy, it's with you." Dean cupped both his hands on my cheek looking into my eyes. "I love you."

Those three words pierced into me like a bullet as I wept into his hands. His lips gently and slowly kissed mine again, calming me down. My hands finally responded as I held on to the back of his neck with one hand and the other touching his warm cheek. His lips had all the magic in the world, made me believe there was still a glimmer of hope still left.

*Boom, Boom, Boom*

Dean released his lips from mine as we listened to the gun shots from outside. Dean looked out the window and saw Glenn in a building across from us shooting at the walkers on the street.

"Walkers are going to start trapping Glenn in if we don't do something now." Dean grabbed his gun and stared reloading. He grabbed my gun and gave me his handing over more bullets to go with it. I stood there freezing. He then took off his jacket and put it over me to keep me warm.

"We go out guns blazing." He seized one last opportunity, Dean put out his right hand asking for mine. I laid my hand on top of his palm as he kissed the top of my hand holding on tight. Giving out the longest blink of my life I somewhat knew it was suicide stepping out the door.

We took in a deep breath as he opened the door. There had to be more than fifty walkers roaming the streets within our vision. We started shooting trying to make our way to Glenn with Deans fingers still interlocked with mine.

"Glenn!" Dean called out.

I saw Glenn focusing his attention to us. He got out of the building he was in and started fighting off walkers making his way towards us. Dean's hand let go of mine pushing and shooting walkers that quickly drew in. I shot a walker two inches away from me and was about to shot another but ran out of bullets. A walker close to biting my face went down with a bullet through the skull. Glenn's perfect aim saved my life. I looked over to Dean and noticed he was in trouble. Glenn started covering for him as I reloaded and started shooting.

"There are too many! Run back into the building." Glenn ordered as we got Dean away from the walkers.

We started running back to the building Glenn was in. A small crowd of walkers quickly spilt Dean and I apart as they were coming after me. Dean charged through the small crowd penetrating bullets into their skulls, fighting and pushing his way through. One inch away from being bitten Dean pushed me with everything he had towards Glenn getting me out of the crowd as he was now trapped in.

"Dean!" I cried out as Glenn and I were shooting to get Dean out of harms way.

"Fuck!" Dean groaned as he managed to get out of the crowd.

We then ran into the building shutting the door but failed. A walker got to close and its head blocked the door from closing. Dean opened the door quickly and slammed it again busting open the walkers head splattering all over the door and floor. Dean quickly locked the door and leaned his right shoulder to the wall with his left hand holding on to his shoulder. I paced around the room shaking.

"We're trapped." Glenn stated.

I looked over to Dean as he started coughing. Still leaning on the wall with his head down.

"Dean." I walked towards him getting a better look at him. Glenn flashed his flash light at him revealing blood on Dean's left hand that was holding on to his shoulder.

I moved his left hand and stood there panic stricken. "Dean..."