A/n: I soo do not own gravitation, even though I wish they did. It such an awesome story :) . This is not my first fic, but my first gravi fic. Nee XD. Btw I very so much adore Gravitation .whee!Hope this story works out.

Warning:…. This chapter… lots of dialogue…and confusement… and Ryuichi 0o tee hee! … No I'm serious Lots of talk… and Ryuichi… XD lol

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"Shuichii!" a familiar squealy voice shocked Shuichi off his chair.

"Sa..Sakuma-san!" Shuichi said while getting up from the floor. He looked over at his past idol, or still is. No matter what Shuichi thought, Nittle Grasper is the best band he ever knew. And he still thought Ryuichi Sakuma as the best singer he ever knew. Dang he grew up listening to him. Even at 35, Shuichi silently thought Ryuichi looked very good. Still.

" Hi Shu-chan na no da!" Ryuichi said cheerily. Well still the same old Ryuichi, Shuichi always thought how a 35 year old guy could get away with that and still be loved. "Sorry Kuma and I couldn't see you earlier on or anything. We'd been busy. So where were you?" he asked.

Shuichi smiled, "Yeah very. Pretty hectic actually. Now I know how all our managers felt managing us."

Ryuichi nodded, "Umm hmmm I wouldn't ever think of managing." He thought. "But Shu-chan makes a good manager." He smiled widely at Shuichi. The pink haired man couldn't help but feel happy around Ryuichi. He had that vibe. There was once and only where Ryuichi was mean and stunned Shuichi to shock. But that was only once and never did Ryuichi become so sinister towards Shuichi. The Nittle Grasper singer could make anyone smile with his over perkiness.

Shuichi sighed, yeah, that's what he needed.

"Mmmm Ryu-chan's feeling bad vibes from Shu-chan" Ryuichi said looking at Shuichi.

Shuichi chuckled, "Not to worry Sakuma-san, I'm all good."

Liar. With Yuki around. And being in Japan for long. What is good?

The both of them were in NG-studious, Shuichi had to come in to do some last minute checking before his band calls its wrap in Japan. But what was Ryuichi doing. Shuichi thought.

"No one is around to see Shu-chan. So why don't Shu-chan go out with Kuma and me. It's stuffy up in here." He grinned, "So lets go out. What do you say Shu-chan?"

Huh? What? Ryuichi Sakuma asking me out? Have I died?

"That's cool Sakuma-."

"Ryuichi." The older man said, "We've known each other long enough Shu-chan." Ryuichi said still smiling, "Call me Ryuichi."

Oh my god.

I have died yet again. And gone to heaven. My idol told me to call him by his name.

"Oh.. oh ok Ry…Ryuichi." Shuichi stuttered a bit unfamiliar with saying it that way to the person himself.

Ryuichi jumped and glomped Shuichi, "Much better! Come on Shu-chan! Lets go to the theme park? DISNEYLAND! What do you say?"

Shuichi looked over at Ryuichi, "Theme park? Wha.. why? Thats somewhere downtown Tokyo…. Disneyland"

Ryuichi grabbed his hand and dragged him away from his work, "Because….Shu-chan…" he looked over and Shuichi, " You can't sparkle enough working boringly there. Ain't fun."

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"WHEEE Shu-chan! This is fun." Ryuichi said slurping on his ice cream. Shuichi laughed at his idols cheeriness.

Kuma was perched on Shuichi's head according to Ryuichi he said that Shuichi needed Kuma to cheer him up.

Earlier on Ryuichi told Shuichi that he did not have the sparkle anymore. Shuichi did not know what he meant… but then again not many people could understand Ryuichi. But Ryuichi was a genius. Shuichi knew that what ever Ryuichi did, it was just plain genius.

They spent 3 hours in the theme park having fun. They tried all the rides and for the time Shuichi actually forgot all his worries.

Shining glow, Riku, Yumi, the wedding and most importantly Yuki…

All those flew out for the last 3 hours he had his idol beside him. Ryuichi looked like he didn't care about the world. What was he single? Still? Whoever had Ryuichi would be in a pretty fun mess. He laughed.

"I see Shu-chan's having fun?" Ryuichi asked him as they stopped at the theme park bay.

Bay…. Shuichi looked up at the side port of the sea. He had been here with Yuki… yeah he had been here. It was here where Yuki ran away from him and left for New York thinking about Kitazawa. It was here where Shuichi felt his heart broke because Yuki left him.

Then because of determination Shuichi got him back, looking non-stop for him. He ran the whole of Japan looked for him and last found him in the states. That was how strong Shuichi felt for Yuki.

Hey Yuki…. Did you even TRY looking for me when I left you?

"Shu-chan?" Ryuichi called him again, "Something bothering you again." He said sniffingly.

"What? Ryuichi! Don't be sad. I'm happy! See! Kuma says I'm happy too!" Shuichi said quickly when he saw Ryuichi got sad because he thought Shuichi was not having fun. "I'm having fun." He smiled taking Kuma down from his head and hugged the pink plushie, "More fun than I ever had in like 5 years?" he said truthfully.

"5 years? Wow! Who CAN NOT have fun for as long as 5 years? No way. I'd be squirming and kicking with Kumagoro for fun! What did you do for 5 years if you did not have fun?" Ryuichi said jumping up in front of Shuichi.

Shuichi raised his purple eyes to look at him, "5 years is a long time I know. But I had enough of problems to go through. Took me some years to get my life in tact." He sighed," see Ryuichi, I had some problems…this was way back. And I left Japan."

Shuichi couldn't believe he's telling this to his idol… His idol! But he felt like he could tell Ryuichi this. He did not know what but he felt like telling him. After 3 hours of fun with the idol, it felt like Shuichi wanted to tell him something that he never told anyone about his life after leaving Japan.

"It took me sometime to get my normal life back. After um I left Japan, I did not really take care of myself. And I hurt a few important people and She….. Since that day I tried to get everything in my life back in line. Leaving Whatever I had in Japan." Shuichi hugged Kuma even tighter now leaning on the railing at the bay, "Then what could I do? All I could do was sing. How could I cope in America without singing?" He looked at the sky, "Then I met Seiji, he came across my lyrics one day when I was in a Café. I was writing a few stuff…. He got hold of it accidentally and started hunting me down. Together with Yumi they caught me. For a while I was a songwriter. I did not know I could still write meaningful words. But other people liked my work. Then I came across Ayumi, Akeno and Rei. They reminded me SO much of Bad Luck. I offered to manage them."

He laughed, "But honestly I didn't think they'd do so well even though I did my best. But they did. I was too busy bothering about my band and everything else around me. So I did not have time to have fun… Besides I was not entitled to have fun. That's what I thought."

He shrugged. Shuichi thought after he left Japan he did not have any happiness left. Then he nearly died and hurt his family. Because of all that he did really bother much with his own life, he'd rather bother about other people aside himself. He was not happy at all.

Yuki stole all his happiness and love away.

Shuichi looked at Ryuichi who was leaning against the bay railing looking at the sea. He gasped did he bore Ryuichi with his ramblings? Why didn't he say anything? Shuichi panicked.

"Uh uh so Ryuichi we should uh go ba-," he started to say and walk away.

But Ryuichi said something that made him stop in his tracks.

"You really shouldn't do that to yourself Shu-chan" the singer said turning his head to look at Shuichi who was stuck to where he was standing, "Sure you can write now. But you are not the same anymore. You say that but you're very much unhappy." He tilted his head to the side, "Where was the famous Bad Luck singer that everyone fell in love with?"

He walked up to Shuichi who was clutching Kuma tightly. Ryuichi descended his face really close with Shuichi who could smell his cotton candy breath.

Oh my god. What is happening? Shuichi kick yourself… is Ryuichi going to-,

"Shuichi…" Ryuichi said very near to his face.

"Y…ye..yes?" Shuichi squeaked. This was way beyond weird for Shuichi, Ryuichi was flirting…? Was that the word? Flirting with him, Shuichi Shindou?

Even if it had been a long time since he had his little fan boy worshipping stunts to Ryuichi he still felt like a fan boy. And was going to die soon if Ryuichi didn't pull back.

"Do you… want Cotton candy or Pop corn?" the crazy 35 year old singer asked happily making Shuichi faint backwards.

Ryuichi grinned and took Kumagaroo from Shuichi.

"Uh… I will take a cotton candy then…" Shuichi said getting up from the floor. And for a minute there he thought he could have died and gone to heaven if Ryuichi kissed him. But Ryuichi had Tatsuha. Eh? Are they together? Shuichi thought, they sure looked close on the dinner night.

And he, Shuichi Shindou has a girlfriend. He blinked, Shit he forgot he had one. Even though he felt right being with Yumi…. He felt like he stepped over trodden grounds that would make the earth shake because of one fall. He did not know why but he did not feel right.

Yeah sure. Shuichi guffawed to himself he didn't feel right the day he found out Yuki was Yumi's fiancée. Yumi…. Where was she? It had already been a week. She didn't even call. Maybe she called Yuki. But like he'd know…

Yeah sure. Shuichi guffawed to himself he didn't feel right the day he found out Yuki was Riku's fiancée. Riku…. Where was she? It had already been a week. She didn't even call. Maybe she called Yuki. But like he'd know…

He looked back at the bay where he once stood with Yuki.

Damn it Yuki. You had to make it hard for me…

"Shu-chan!" Shuichi could hear the perky but very randomly weird singer call his name, " Lets go get your cotton candy ne?" He grabbed Shuichi and dragged him away from the bay.

Shuichi smiled happily and nodded. Ryuichi was a good person to talk to he might have even forgotten what he said. Shuichi again forgot all his problems after Ryuichi passed him a pink cotton candy which Ryuichi said looked exactly like Shuichi's hair.

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"What do you mean Ryuichi is gone? Where did he go?" Noriko asked Tohma after she found out Ryuichi was not in NG-studios.

Tohma sighed, "I don't know Noriko. I already ordered the guards to search the whole building."

"But Tohma, its not likely he'd just trod off to leave! He usually leaves a note!" Noriko said starting to worry. She always worries about Ryuichi. Tohma nodded, true no matter how genki and crazy Ryuichi was he would at least leave a note.

"Hey Seguchi-san!" Seiji said trodding into Tohma's office, " Is it me or are the guards running around a lot today?"

The blonde man nodded, " Apparently we lost our vocalist."

"Really? Good. Cause we lost our manager." Akeno said walking in casually into Tohma's office.

Noriko and Seiji in unison said, " What!"

Tohma rubbed his forehead, " Ah alright then, at least we know the both of them are together. Because its unlikely that they'd go missing the same time. Plus, I think Ryuichi wanted to spend time with him."

Akeno, Noriko and Seiji looked at Tohma with puzzled looks on their faces. Tohma just shrugged, " I don't know why. Don't ask me. Its not everyday I know what my vocalist wants to do."

Noriko smirked, " Yeah but you still find out anyway."

Tohma smiled, " Actually yes I do." And right on cue his phone rang. He picked it up answered it for a while. Then put it down, " And the both of them are safe at Tokyo Disneyland" he announced making Noriko breathed in relief and Seiji nodded.

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"Shu-chan had fun today didn't he? Na no da!" Ryuichi said perching Kuma on his shoulders. " Huh? Huh did you? Did you Shu-chan?"

Shuichi laughed as they passed through the exit gates of the theme park, " Yes Ryuichi I had a blast today." Who wouldn't? With his own favourite idol at that. " Lets get back, people might get worried since we didn't call or anything. And it's already" he check hid watch, " Shit! 5 pm? They seriously be worried."

Ryuichi nodded, " But wait. Did Shu-chan really have fun today?" he asked again. Shuichi has to admit he looked cute wit Kuma perched on his shoulder.

He grinned, " YES Ryuichi. I had awesome fun today."

"In that case is your mind cleared?" Ryuichi asked his brown eyes fixed on Shuichi who blinked in puzzlement.

"I think so."

Ryuichi smiled now his eyes dancing, " Then…. Write a good song, a song without any problems or obstacles just like how you felt just now. Carefree and fun. Think properly."

"Wh..What? Ryu-,"

" Ryu-chan and Kuma loves your lyrics Shu-chan. But some of them, your were holding back something. Like there is a lot in your mind. And you tend to write with an one track mind. Just feel free to write. Ryu would love to hear a good happy song from you soon." Ryuichi said hugging Kuma now.

Shuichi didn't get what Ryuichi meant, " Ryu..Ryuichi i-,"

" Sparkle Shu-chan! That way you wont get confused and sad so much." Ryuichi smiled.

Shuichi didn't know but he felt like Ryuichi was trying to make him feel better. Mentally and physically. But…. Did Ryuichi know he had a lot of problems going on now?

Ryu-chan and Kuma loves your lyrics Shu-chan. But some of them, your holding back something. Like there is a lot in your mind. And you tend to write with a one track mind.

My songs? Ryuichi did you notice how half heartedly I wrote my songs? How unhappy I was?

Then again Ryuichi was a music genius, it wouldn't be surprising if he noticed anything wrong with his music. Shuichi looked back at the smiling Ryuichi.

Sparkle Shuichi.

Yeah. Shuichi finally smiled back at Ryuichi. He needed to clear his mind and be happy. For the past few years of his life he never once 'sparkeled'. It was because of Yuki and all the pain he inflicted on other people without knowing it. So he didn't feel right or happy. And now with Yumi. Did he feel any better.

No he didn't. Did he love Yumi? Not yet.

Did he love Yuki?

Yes… he still did.

Could it be any clearer?

" RYUIICHIIIIIII!"

A loud voice screeched out Ryuichi name. A familiar raven haired boy came running towards both of them.

" Tatsuha you idiot." Someone grabbed Tatsuha by the collar before he got a chance into banging into Ryuichi flattening him to the ground.

" Eiri. Let me go you bastard." Tatsuha said trying to get away from Yuki's grasp.

" What? And squash the little singer freak? Tohma will kill you." The handsome blonde said letting go off Tatsuha. " We came here because Noriko called up to ask us to pick these two children up. She didn't think it was necessary for Tohma to come down."

His golden eyes went up to look at Shuichi and Ryuichi. Then it slowly glided to look at only Shuichi. " Come on. Lets go. It was actually wasting my time being here."

" Why did you even come?" Shuichi asked annoyed with him, it was true why did he even bother to come if picking them up was going to be such a pain. That's what he didn't like about Yuki. Always make it like Shuichi was a pain.

Yuki narrowed his eyes at Shuichi, " Forced too."

" You could've said no. It was that easy. I didn't mind being picked up. But if your're going to be so dick headed about just picking us up might as well I take a bu-,"

Shuichi was busy talking he didn't notice Yuki going up to him and grabbing his arm hard, " Hey. Listen brat. I ditched work and I came all the way here to pick you up to go back to where you fled off with the other freaky singer be grateful for that at least."

"EIRI DON'T CALL HIM THAT!" Tatsuha shouted at Eiri. Tatsuha was now beside Ryuichi hugging him like he was protecting him.

"Hi Tatsuha." The older man said smiling at Tatsuha who was hugging him. Tatsuha felt like he could've melted there.

"You ok Ryuichi?" He asked like he was familiar with Ryuichi already. " Did the big bad ol' Shuichi hurt you?"

Shuichi sweat dropped, " But he's the one that dragged me out…" He told Tatsuha who ignored him.

" Come on get in the car. I don't have all day. You two freaks too. Come on." Yuki said annoyed with all of them. Shuichi couldn't help but chuckle. " What?" he asked going to his car opening the door to the drivers seat.

"It's actually funny. But you and Tohma let Tatsuha near Ryuichi?" Shuichi asked. Yuki shrugged non-coherently. " I don't care about the singer. Tohma didn't let. But Tatsuha found his way around and sadly got the weird singer…and they always have lunch…ew… Then again I don't care. I'd prefer it when Tatsuha couldn't reach Sakuma-san… now all he does is talk about him. Pointless to me really."

Shuichi sighed, " Always an inconsiderate unthoughtful bastard aren't you Yuki?" he said coolly. Yuki put on his sunglasses then turned to look at Shuichi.

"Aren't I always?" Yuki asked back.

Maybe it was because of the free stress, fun time, cotton candy day he had that day but Shuichi smiled at Yuki genuinely. Even Yuki was taken aback by that smile, " You know your own personality so well it doesn't phase you if someone says bad stuff about you."

The older blond man wanted to smile at him as well but he turned his face away from Shuichi saying, " Idiot." But Shuichi just smiled. He felt somehow Yuki knew that fact about himself too..

"Okayy guys we're going!" Tatsuha's voice was heard a distance from them.

" Eh Tatsuha-kun… shouldn't we be-," Ryuichi started.

"Nope. Its not nessary… my brother in law is busy to have band practice anyways." He said smiling mischeviouly. Surprisingly while Shuichi was watching Ryuichi smiled back to.

Lucky Tatsuha.

"Okay then… BYE YUKi-san! Bye SHUICHI! Hope you had a good time with me today. Ok? Remember what I said." Ryuichi said when he tturned to wave back to Shuichi and Yuki.

"Huh? What do you mean by hope you had a good time with me? And what did you say to him? Ryuichi are-," Tatsuha started gabbering.

Ryuichi cut him off by saying, "Tatsuha. You talk too much." he said a little sternly then grinned. They walked off arguing a little but hand in hand. Somehow Shuichi found that a very sweet sight. Very. At least one of someone's happiness got fulfilled.

"God. They're both freaks." Yuki said getting in the car slamming the door. Shuichi slid in the passengers seat. "Yeah. Well I think it's damn sweet."

"Sweet? Excuse me? That's like a what? 35 years old guy with my only tturned 21 brother. Sick." Yuki said harshly turning on the engine of his car pressing the accelerator to move on.

"Age doesn't matter." Shuichi said. He then suddenly chuckled, " You can't help who you fall in love with."

Hiro said that to him the first time Shuichi fell for someone. Fell for Yuki. Shuichi could've laughed if the outcome of those words didn't end up with his heart breaking into a million pieces.

"IS that right?" Yuki asked in a mocking tone.

Shuichi sighed, he knew Yuki did not take those words to heed, because if he did he would've known how it was hard for Shuichi to fall in love with him, to get Yuki to fall in love with him, how hard it was to get Yuki to stay with him.

How hard it was to get on with life after he left Yuki.

"I don't think you would understand anyways. I'm just saying that you can't say people loving each other disgusting just by judging on age, looks or whatever you can come up with." Shuichi said a little ticked off.

Yuki did not answer to that statement. What was he implying now? Yuki tried his best to push all the raging thoughts running into his head. For the better part of the journey back to NG building they were both quiet. Yuki concentrating on the road and Shuichi looking out at the passing view as Yuki drove on.

Both of them thinking hard, very hard. Maybe about When the building entrance came into view Yuki stopped the car.

"Your stop." Yuki said.

Shuichi nodded and slid out of the car. Thinking, wow this is getting better nothing happened in the car, except for his thoughts running around the world.

But before he completely got out of the car Yuki grabbed Shuichi's hand startling him.

" Yuki?" he asked puzzled with that gesture.

Yuki still had his hand clasped onto Shuichi's, he didn't look at Shuichi yet. His eyes were focused on their joined hands.

Shuichi was confused with this, and wanted to pull his hand back, but he too, didn't. He felt something when Yuki held his hand, maybe he too, knew that Yuki had no idea what he just did.

"Shuichii!", a loud voice came from behind Shuichi.

And like electricity jolted through the both of them, their hands parted. Shuichi abruptly turned to see Yumi jump and glomp him tight.

" Shuichi! Where did you go! I was worried!" she said, " I was looking all over for you with the band and Seiji…. Who freaked out more." Her face was full of worry. Her right hand went up to Shuichi's cheek and she caressed it for a while.

In the car Yuki's jaw tightened, he was annoyed, way annoyed with himself, he wasn't suppose to feel that way but he was slightly agitated with Yumi, not that he didn't like her, but he didn't like the way she pampered Shuichi. Also, he was angry at himself for grabbing his hand on impulse. He just felt like he needed to do it.

" Uh well, I was Ryuichi… kidnapped really" Shuichi said smiling slightly, " Don't worry I am fine Yumi." He said kissing her lips quick.

Yumi seemed satisfied with that and smiled back, " The bands in the building, if you want we can watch them practice. We have like a few more days, to put the album compilation together. Then we're done."

Shuichi nodded, " Yeah… done…."

" Well since I brought the needed one, I'm off." Yuki said, making his presence known to them. At that time Yumi just noticed him and smiled weakly.

" Alright. Thank you Yuki-san. See you." She said. Yuki didn't give her any greeting of any sort and just drove off, leaving a trail of smoke behind.

" Wow, he is soo not friendly. I don't know how your cousin can fall for him and get married." Yumi said shaking her head.

Looking at the trail of smoke Yuki left Shuichi gave a small smile and shrugged, " Ha ha really… no clue… There's just something about him…"

" Riku is such a nice girl….Yeah but if you think about Yuki-san isn't such a nice perso-…" Yumi trailed off suddenly.

When she saw the lost thoughtful look on Shuichi's face when the car left.

Shuichi….Why….

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A/n: OMG People I am SOOO Sorry for not updating for like AGES! I just moved to Canada, settled down, now in college which has more workload that I usually have! Its crazy! And I know I haven't updated for months. And I usually update fast. But now I cant update so fast because of the time, which I don't usually have much because of schoolwork but I will try. I hope you like this chapter I had it done a few weeks ago but I was too busy to put it up. Hopefully you all like it! And Yeah I still like reviews hehe so don't be shy and review to make me happy okies guys!