Everyone was silent after this, and I didn't know if it was reflecting on what I said, or if they regretted to get to know me. I thought that it was more of the second one. Who would want to be around an emotional wreck? No one would really.
I got up, and Edward followed me with his eyes as I did. He almost seemed reluctant to let me go. It must be an illusion that he would want me. No one would. They wouldn't know what to do with me in the first place.
I walked up the stairs, and I felt someone follow me. I turned back to see that it was Edward. I just kept walking. I couldn't believe that he was following me at all. I thought that he would be disgusted by what happened by me. It was my fault in the first place.
After I walked down the hallway and entered her room. My stuff was easily found. He then chose to speak. "What are you doing?"
"I'm leaving," I replied.
"Why," he questioned.
"Because no one wants to be around me," I whispered. I was hoping that he wouldn't hear it, but he must have.
"Why wouldn't we want to be around you," he asked. He seemed confused.
"Because all of this was my fault, and I shouldn't have started being around you in the first place," I explained as I picked up the rest of my stuff. He stopped me from zipping up the bag.
"It wasn't your fault, Bella," he stated. I just shook my head. "It wasn't your fault at all, so don't you start believing that it is because it's not."
"It was to my fault," I cried. "If I hadn't chosen that stupid class and have been a teacher's pet, my family would be still alive, but they aren't because of me. I should have died instead of them. They were innocent, and I tried to run away from my problems. Look where that led me. My family died because of me. How am I supposed to live my life when they weren't able to live a life at all? It was all because of me!"
"It was not because of you, Isabella," he repeated. "It was because of that teacher who thought he could be with an innocent, beautiful girl. It was never you who did it! Your mom protected you from that lunatic for the last moments of her life because of love. She died to protect her daughter from the evil that tried to take you in the first place. It was never your fault!"
"I shouldn't be alive right now," I whimpered. "I should have been the one to be taken from this life instead of them. They were innocent in this. It was all my fault."
"It was not your fault," he said as he started shaking my shoulders. "Why are you thinking all this stuff in the first place? You're parents died because of an asshole teacher who decided to try and prey on the most beautiful girl ever. You had nothing to do with your family's death because you were the victim. You shouldn't have gone through any of that. You shouldn't have been the person to do any of that stuff at all."
"Why are you saying this," I questioned. "Why are you trying to contradict what I am saying? Why do you even want to be around me at all? I'm a magnet for danger, and you are insisting to be around me. Why Edward? I cannot bear if I see anyone else killed because of me. I can't see you killed because of me."
"I won't get killed," he disagreed. "I am trying to get it in your head that none of this is your fault at all. It wasn't, and I want you to start thinking all of this negative stuff. You have to stop. Do it for your family, Bella. Do it for your father and your brother, Emmett. He's broken by seeing you this way, and you're just letting it all in as your fault when it isn't. You have to stop thinking negative for them and for me."
"You never explained why you wanted to be around me," I whispered. I was curious as to why he wanted me to be around me. He was the only one to follow me also. I wonder if he stopped them from trying in the first place. That thought sparked my curiosity even more.
"I want to be around you because I like you, Bella," he explained. "Not just like you as a friend, but I like you, Bella." He kissed me then. It was a spark, and it was an electrifying experience. We were kissing passionately, and we fell on Alice's bed, still kissing. It was truly the first real happy thing that has happened to me since my family had died. Not even seeing Emmett for the first time in years could top this. This kiss was amazing. Edward seemed to be trying to show me all the love and devotion in this one kiss, and I tried the same thing back.
It seemed like time had stopped and it was just us two. It was the most perfect kiss. And it had to be ruined by someone ripping Edward off of me.