I am so happy every one liked Chapter 19. Lots of things happened THE SEAL IS BACK AND READY TO ATTACK. Lol being a father that is. Hahah. So Kyle's first injury with the gang.

And I know every one wants Alex to come back and so do I. So we shall see she may come back this chapter. But no promises.

I may just make this all about Sean and Kyle. But who knows. Lol.

Kyle winced as Nikita pressed the bandages over his wounds. Nikita had given him some pain killers that put him to sleep for the next 24 hours.

He whispered his thanks, standing to grab his shirt. He heard a knock on the door, he turned to see who it was. His heart stopped when Sean walked in. They stood there for a moment just taking the other in. Sean was surprised at how ripped this kid was, he looked down as he handed him a shirt. " Thanks" he said watching Sean like a hawk.

He did not blame his father at all. He was proud that he had defended his family with with so much honor. " Listen, I am so sorry..I" Kyle cut him off, by holding out his hand for Sean to take.

When the Ex navy SEAL did Kyle spoke. " Hi, my name is Kyle. Its nice to meet you...?" he offered giving Sean the chance to introduce himself. " Lieutenant commander Sean Mason Pierce. But you can just call me Sean." He said looking at the boy. Kyle was taking in everything about his father.

They had the same jaw, and eyes. The rest he knew he looked like his mother. But she had said that it was a special thing that he had his fathers eyes. Kyle and Sean were frozen in their hand shake.

Kyle noticed the his wedding ring. It was the most ornate thing he had ever seen. He could see the words eternal love written around it in Russian. He swallowed thickly and let go of his fathers hand.

Sean was looking at him with awe and disbelief, the more he watched him the more he saw himself as a kid. " So how did you meet Nikita" Sean said finally breaking the silence. " Division wanted me for my hacking skills and I refused so they came after me. Nikita intercepted them and well it just kinda went from there. How bout you?" Kyle said sitting down next to the SEAL.

" Uh well at first I was trying to kill Nikita. But uh I fell in love with someone and she got me to see sense. She passed away though. She was my wife." He said, Sean had no idea why he was telling this boy all of these things. Kyle nodded and said, " Alex, right." Sean snapped his head up and tried to read him. They spent hours talking.

For some reason Sean felt a deep connection with him and wanted to know everything about him. And the boy wanted the same.
It had been a month since the accident with Sean.

The two were like brothers, Nikita decided she wanted answers on who Kyle was. Why he did not have parents, and why they would just leave him in this life. Nikita was with Birkhoff she heard Kyle's laugh and shook her head.

" Birkhoff, run the blood sample I got from Kyle." The tech gave her a look that said really. " Yes I want to know who Kyle is because I am starting to wonder if thats his real name." Nikita said sitting down next to her old friend. " Nikki, I want to try something okay. But this is crazy. I am going to run Sean's blood also." Nikita snapped her head up to look at Birkhoff's face.

" You see it too don't you?" She said. He nodded, the computer beeped and spit out numbers and information. Sean and Kyle ran out wanting to see who could shoot better. Michael ran after them yelling at Sean to wait up, Owen was already in the car.

Nikita laughed and shook her head, walking up stairs to get some work done.
Birkhoff rubbed his eyes, leaning back in his chair. The analysis was taking a long time.

Finally the computer beeped, his eyes darted back and forth reading the numbers. He dropped his glass of scotch. It crashed to the floor, sending Nikita running into the room. " What happened are you okay?" She asked.

Birkhoff stared at the screen, he had double and triple checked the screen. This was not possible, not possible at all. " Nikki, Sean is Kyle's biological father." He said slowly. Nikita stared at him the door behind them opened but they did not move. She suddenly did the math, and fell to her knees.

Michael was at her side instantly, the rest of the family followed. " Nikita, are you okay, are you hurt." he asked his eyes glued to her face. She grabbed Michael's arm, he understood and helped her up. She clung to him as she turned to face the rest of the group.

She saw Sean with a look of worry on his face, Owen stood next to her, his hands out as if to catch her should she fall. When she saw Kyle she saw the similarities, the eyes. His jaw, but the rest of his face. It was impossible, she pointed at him slowly, she could only whisper one thing. " Alex" Kyle visibly paled and dropped what he was holding.

" No sweetheart thats Kyle." Michael said his worry increasing ten fold. Kyle started to back up. But Nikita was so confused and angry and scared...Just who was this boy? Nikita let go of Michael and slowly walked over to Kyle who was still backing up. Kyle was breathing erratically now he took another step back but crashed into Sean.

Who tensed as Kyle looked at him, confused Kyle looked back at Nikita and was met with the barrel of a gun. He swallowed in fear, he should have known this was going to happen. He held his hands up and did not take his eyes off her. She was pinning him with a look of black rage. Hurt, betrayal. " Who are you?" she asked with venom.

SEAN M. PIERCE POV

Kyle was shaking with fear. He wished Nathan or Ryan would run through the door and help him. But that was not happing, he knew that she knew who he was. In a flash he grabbed the gun and tackled her to the floor.

She did every thing she could to get out of his grasp. But Kyle just wrapped his arms around her and pulled her close to him. He sent Michael a pleading look. Silently begging him to wait a minute before doing anything.

Nikita finally stopped thrashing, she stopped clawing at his face and arms. She fell into him, drinking in his scent. He smelled like her. He rocked her back and forth, " You know who I am" he whispered. She latched on to him, " What's you'r name?'...Your real name?" She asked looking at him. Kyle took a deep breath, and looked right at Sean.

" My name is Sean Michael Pierce. After my father Lieutenant Commander Sean Mason Pierce. And after my mothers adopted father, my grandfather. Michael." He said his brown brown eyes holding every one else's. Sean was staring at him with agony and happiness. Yet it was Birkhoff who spoke. " You told me your mother taught you how to dance, and how to fight. Thats only possible if." He trailed off. Kyle let go of Nikita, and helped her up.

He took a step back and closed his eyes. " Yes, she did. Alexandra Udiov is alive." He said. Nikita collapsed to the ground.

NIKITA POV.
This is not possible, this is just a dream. If Alex was alive she would have come back to me. She would not have left me, she would not have let me bury her. She...16 years. And Kyle, she has a son. Who found me, who came into my life knowing she was alive. This can not be true. I want proof. No I NEED proof. Proof that my baby girl is alive. Proof that the girl I called my daughter, was alive.

Nikita was pulled from her thoughts by Michael. He was calling her name, " Nikita? Kyle just left. He said he would be back with answers. Nikita please baby talk to me." Michael begged. Nikita looked at him and smiled.

It did not reach her eyes. But it was enough. " Our baby girl is alive Michael. She is alive" Nikita whispered. It was finally hitting her, that Alex was truly alive. Michael looked back at her tears falling from his eyes as it hit him too.

He pulled Nikita to him and they started to cry. Tears of joy.

SEAN MICHAEL PIERCE POV
He got out of his car just out side his house. The front door opened and Max came running out. Kyle turned to hug him. Max was crying, he held the boy with all he had. It had been almost 6 months since he had seen Kyle. " I am so sorry, I am so sorry.

It was an accident I am so sorry Max!" Kyle said as he took in the familiarity of the man who raised him. " No its okay, its okay. Son you did all you could and Nikita is a very smart woman." He said running his hand over the back of Kyle's head as he held him tighter. Suddenly a voice called his name. " Sean?"

He pulled back and saw his mother standing at the door. She was already crying, Kyle sobbed as he ran to his mother. She met him half way and held him as he collapsed to the ground. She cradled him in her lap, as he sobbed.

" I am sorry I am sorry. Oh god mom I am so so sorry. Mom I met him. I met dad. And Nikita and Michael and Nerd. And Owen. And god I love them all so much. I am so sorry. Please forgive me." He begged his sobs racking his body. Alex shook her head. " No Sean please forgive me for keeping you from them. Its okay Sean I've got you. Thank you, for giving me the opportunity to see my family again. To be with your father and our family. If they still want me."

She added softly. Kyle looked up at her, " You have no idea how much they want you back. How much they have missed you. How much they love you. How much I love you mamma I...just..I" he stuttered over his words to over come with emotion. Alex held him close, " I know baby I know. Mamma's here shhh. shhhh I know. " She cooed. They sat in the yard until he calmed down.

He was resting his head on her shoulder. His arms still wrapped around her. She stroked his hair humming her lullaby as he drifted off to sleep.

ALEX POV

He barley stirred when Max came and picked him up. Alex followed as her brother carried her son into the house. As soon as he was in bed Alex felt her brothers arms holding her close. She cried softly as he held her.

She was going to see her family again. She was going to see how much pain she had put them through. How much pain she put Nikita and Sean through. She hated herself for leaving them like that. It really hit her about 10 years after she left. Max held her and she held him back. She knew he was scared.

Just like she was. The last time he saw his father he had shot him and almost killed Owen and caused Nikita to take a seriously deep blow to her mental wall. She went to sleep and let her own fears creep into her mind.

Alex had never been so nervous in her life. She had never been so glad to have her small family with her either. Kyle had her right hand in his and Max had her left hand in his. Kyle knew his mother and uncle were nervous as hell to see the rest of their family. But he had faith in the bond he built with his father and Nikita and Michael and Owen.

His mother was shaking by the time Nikita's car pulled up. Kyle looked at Max, he was sweating. Kyle took his mothers other hand and got down on his knees in front of her. " They love you. Remember that, Nikita is going to be hurt. But she missed you. And they are going to want to know what happened. And you owe them the whole truth. Both of you." He said looking at his uncle.

Their was a knock on the door. Kyle made to get it but Alex held on to him. " I got it guys." Nathan said walking from the other room. " Thanks Nate" Kyle said to his uncle. When the door opened Alex gripped her son to her and pulled her brother closer. Kyle stepped out from his mothers side and got in front of her. " Max you might want to get behind Mom" he said remembering the story he heard of the man who impersonated Michael's son.

Max nodded and stood behind his sister. They held hands still and Alex wrapped her arms around Kyle protectively. Nathan came back in with a few people in tow. She swallowed thickly, hiding her face on Kyle's shoulder.

Her heart was beating a thousand miles a minute. She felt Max stiffen when Michael stepped out. She brought her head up when she smelled Nikita's perfume. She was standing there holding on to Michael. Who was supporting most of her weight.

Nikita choked when she saw her head come up. She barely recognized her. A long scar ran from the top of her eye to her cheek. She stood behind Kyle with a arm around him.

Nikita could see from where she stood how differently she held her self. She took in her hand that rested on Kyle's chest. Deep scars criss crossed over the back of it and they looked to go up her arm. Nikita finally had the courage to look her in the eye. She met Alex's eyes.

They were not the same, they were not as bright. They held so much pain. So much suffering, she swallowed her anger as she realized that Alex had suffered just as much as she had. She stumbled forward.

She needed to feel her. To touch her. To make sure she was not dreaming. Kyle moved out of her way and Alex stood there her hands clenched into fists at her side. " Alex?" She rasped.

The younger woman seemed to break at her voice she choked on a sob as she nodded. " Nikita" she said there was so much pain in her voice. Her voice, oh God her voice. Nikita launched her self at Alex who caught her and they broke out sobbing. Nikita was angry, and hurt. She was happy and sad.

She whispered. " Your alive." Alex nodded against her. And said. " Nikita I am so sorry. I hope you never forgive me because I know I never have and never will. God I am so sorry." She sobbed.

Kyle gripped his uncle, it un nerved him to see his mother in so much pain and so upset.

" I...I...I ...I BURIED YOU . I SOBBED OVER YOUR DEAD BODY. I SAW YOU IN A CASKET. YOU WERE DEAD NO PULSE. GOD DAMNIT I NEVER STOPPED LOVING OR MISSING YOU FOR 16 FREAKING YEARS. DAMN YOU ALEX!" She yelled.

Her body wracking sobs were turning into tears simply streaming down her face. Alex hated her self for what she had done. She looked at the pain in Nikita's eyes and Wished she was in China getting tortured again. Any thing was better than this.

" Alex, oh god Alex. I missed you baby girl. Don't ever do that to me again." she said with so much desperation. Alex clung to her, like a child to their mother. Nikita rocked her back and forth as she sobbed. She let go of all the anger and guilt she had kept locked up over the last 16 years.

The room was empty now, they stayed like that wrapped up in each others arms sobbing for hours. They had finally moved to the guest bed room. Nikita had no intention of letting Alex go and Alex had no intention of letting go. Alex felt sleep creep up on her, and she was afraid to let it over come her. When it did she was faced with some of her darkest nightmares.

She thrashed in her sleep. Her demons clawing at her. They had waited until she was weak, and they were claiming her. Their claws went right to her soul, the pain was unbearable. She felt someone shaking her. In her nightmare she saw her tormentors from China, she felt the knife slash across her face. She could taste the blood in her mouth, she could see it clouding her vision.

The chains bit into her wrists she could hear her own screams as she felt the pain of the whip slashing down on her back. She choked on the scalding water being forced down her throat and the boot that forced it back up as it broke her ribs. She could feel the hot branding iron as it touched her skin, the pull of the knife down her arms.

The chain that smashed against her head. The drugs that caused so much pain, the endless hours and nights and days and months of torture. She finally shot out of bed. She could sense someone to the right of her. Her body was still in a fiery pain. It was unlike any thing she had felt.

She fell to the ground thrashing as she tried to get up. She moved her head back and forth as she tried to regain her vision. The eye with her scar was dark she could not see out of it. The figure took a step to her and she attacked. When she tried to bend her fingers they would not bend.

Pain racked her body and she scrambled off the person, clutching at her head and hands. Suddenly a pair of arms wrapped around her. They lifted her up and carried her to another room.

She heard a voice say. " Alex, this is gonna feel really cold okay" That voice. It was so familiar. So kind so worried. It was a voice she had not heard in 16 years. She whimpered when her body felt the shock of the cold.

She gripped the owner of the voice. " Its okay baby girl I am right here." Shock swept through Alex making her turn her head to the source of the voice . " Nikita?" she whispered. Nikita was holding her up in the bath tub. The water was cooling off her burning skin. She wished she could see the woman she called her mother.

But her sight was still were tears in Nikita's eyes as she held Alex's head to her chest. Never before had she been so happy to see the recognition in Alex's eyes.

" ALEX? Alex?" and new voice called. Max came running in, he stopped short at the door. He slid to his knees next to Nikita, he knew what he had to do. What Alex truly needed to calm down. " Alex can you see?" he asked slowly.

Alex clutched to Nikita and shook her head no. Nikita gasped, Max took off his shoes and socks. He told Nikita to hold her up for a moment. When she did he slipped onto the bath. " Max that water is freezing!" she said shocked. He motioned for he to put Alex back down and he held her in the water. " I am used to it" he said softly his hand running over Alex's arm.

She hissed in pain and Max held her tighter. " Can you please tell me what the hell is going on. This is really starting to scare me." Nikita said running her hands through her hair. Max shook his head, it was not his story to tell. " Tell her brother. Please. Its okay. We owe her that. Tell her everything that I told you." Max pressed his lips to her forehead.

"okay, okay" he nodded. He opened his mouth to speak when Alex thrashed in his grip. " Shit" he muttered. He sat up and took off his shirt. " What the hell are you doing!" Nikita yelled as he tore off Alex's shirt as well. He ignored her. There was a gasp as Nikita saw the tops of Alex's shoulders and her neck.

Her tank top prevented her from seeing the rest of the scars. " Alex?" she whispered. Her hand was covering her mouth as she took in the girl.

Alex slipped into unconsciousness as Max held her close to him. " she needs to feel the heat coming from my body. This has not happened in a while. I bet she got overwhelmed...look Nikita right now she is trying to come back to reality. Her mind is trying to separate her nightmare from reality." Max said to Nikita. " What happened to her?" she asked quietly.

Max sighed and told her the story. He paused at the point just before she got taken to China. He lifted his sister up, Nikita could tell by the way he walked to her room and got her clothes. That this had happened many times before. For some reason Nikita gave them a moment while he helped Alex change.

It was a strange thing, she could see how much Max loved his sister. But the way Alex clung to him. The Alex Nikita remembered never did any thing like that. Max reappeared and beckoned her into the room. He climbed in bed behind Alex holding her to him still. " Any way, Kyle had just been born. He was a few months old. Alex had been out on mission and the guy who ran the chinese embassy got killed. It was friendly fire. But the other men did not want to believe that and wanted someone to blame."

He paused as he remembered the night Alex was taken. " They came to our house one night and took her." He clenched his jaw. Nikita was gripping the side of her chair. " She was gone for a long time.." Nikita cut him off. " How long was she gone?" Max swallowed thickly and whispered " Two years." Nikita gasped and choked on a sob.

They had to leave the room, for Nikita's sobs were getting louder. She felt her heart breaking as Max did as Alex had asked and told her every thing. He told her about all the nights she woke up screaming, and in pain.

He told her about how many nights she had not known where she was and had attacked Max. He showed her the scar on his arm. He told her about the day she finally broke down.

She had woken up begging and screaming, he had held her rocking her back and forth. He could see it in her eyes, the pain and the horror. He asked her to tell him what happened to her. To tell him everything that she felt.

When Nikita heard what Alex said she felt her whole body scream in pain.

" I feel so much pain, Max. It hurts. They hurt me. They broke me over and over. They killed me. They took my humanity. And left me with pain. I don't want to sleep. Thats when they come. They take me in my sleep Max. Don't make me sleep please." She had said. They heard Alex walk in and Max asked if she was okay. She nodded to him and kissed his cheek in thanks.

He said nothing as he left the room. The memories of the past 10 years were like a knife to Max's heart.

Nikita was still crying as Alex walked closer. She sat down in the opposite chair. " Alex tell what they did to you. Please I need to know." Nikita begged from her chair. Alex nodded and told her about the two years she spent in Hell.

She was crying by the time she finished, she wanted to comfort Nikita but this was who she was. She felt like Nikita deserved to know how broken she was before she welcomed her back into her life.

Nikita slid to her knee's in front of Alex. She took Alex's hands and met her eyes. She was still sobbing, they both were. She had to see them, she needed to know how badly it had scared her. " Show me." She choked out.

Alex nodded, this was who she was. She led Nikita back to her room and stripped off her long sleeve shirt. Leaving her in a bra. Her body was covered in scars. They ran every where. Nikita cried harder as she took Alex's hands and saw the deep scars that covered them. And the scars on her wrists.

She collapsed to the ground when she saw the long deep scars on her back. They ran across each other. Alex knelt down beside her, she had kept her tears at bay until Nikita traced the scars on her back.

She broke down in her arms at the gentle touch. A touch that her brother could not give. A touch that Sean could not give. Or her son. It was a touch only Nikita could give.

She felt Nikita trace over the scars on her shoulders and arms. She felt Nikita pick her up and lay her on her bed before sliding in next to her. She continued to brush her fingers over Alex's skin.

It was in no way sexual, but it gave Alex the comfort she had needed from the moment she came back from China. She shivered when Nikita's fingers traced the scar on her eye. She thanked Nikita after what seamed like hours when she handed her a tank top so Alex could still feel her skin.

She felt fear over come her again as sleep tried to creep up on her. " Shhh, baby girl relax. Look at me." Nikita softly demanded. Alex turned her pale blue eyes on Nikita. Tears were still slipping down her cheeks, she took Alex's face in her hands and said. " Alex, you need to sleep. Go to sleep sweetheart" Alex shook her head.

Nikita did not understand. She would never sleep again, if it was up to her. She whispered. " Nikita, I have not slept for more than an hour in the last 15 years. I am afraid to." If it was possible for Nikita's heart to break any more, it did.

" Oh Alex" she breathed out and pulled Alex impossibly close. She rocked the girl and hummed her lullaby. She promised that she would not let the demons claim her. Alex fell asleep.

And for the first time in 15 long years, she slept with out a nightmare. Not a single thing tormented her. She opened her eyes one during the night to see Nikita looking down at her softly telling her it was okay.

She leaned her head back down on Nikita's chest. The rhythmic sound of her heart beat made Alex feel safer than she had in 16 years. She closed her eyes again and slept. Her hand intertwining with Nikita's .

Well I brought Alex back. ( HELL YES) I know I said I might not. But I was like meh why not. I missed her too.

So yeah Alex is a freaking train wreck. This chapter centered around Nalex. Salex is gonna be really soon.

But there is so much unresolved emotional ish between Nikita and Alex.

So ya'll are going to really see a lot of what happened over the years with Alex as Kyle grew up. Any ways as always review.

Oh P.S the Sean Kyle bond will also be explored in the next chapter. Peace people

Izzy