Sometimes She Just Wants to be Loved

Chapter 20

Sakura's POV

"W-what?" I couldn't of hear him right, he did not just say that Ino is alive, that's impossible. Looking up into his eyes I can tell he's trying to figure out how to say it, but I'm not sure I want to hear it.

"Ino's alive, she lied, and she faked her death." He gathers me closer into his arms and holds me tight; it feels like he's scared I'll run away when he explains. "She used a very old jutsu, one that's been passed down through her family for a long time. It's only supposed to be used in the most dire situations. But I guess she decided to use it to get back as you."

I take in a deep breath and try and hold back the fresh wave of tears threatening to come out. I try to pull away from him, this can't be right; she would never do something like this.

"Sakura, please let me explain more." He says, but I push his arms off me and stumble off the bed, he follows me, pleading with me to listen to him, but I can't. How can he lie to me like this, how can he make up so obviously false just to try and make me feel better. I trusted him, and now I don't know what to think, but what he's saying isn't right. It's an outright lie and I don't think I can look at him anymore.

I go into my room and he catches the door before I can slam it in his face, I can feel the tears flowing down my face but I don't try and wipe them away. "Don't say that she's alive when she's not Kakashi! Don't you dare sit there and tell me this wasn't all my fault because it was. If Ino had that jutsu you were talking about she would have told me back when we were together. Now tell me how the hell you can lie to me like that when I'm so vulnerable? How Kakashi?" I break down onto my floor and Kakashi crouches down next to me and tries to rub my back but I jerk away from him and he backs off.

"I'm not lying to you Sakura, I'm telling the truth. Ask the Hokage if you don't believe me, I'm pretty sure she's figured it out by now too. Ino gave herself away at the funeral and in our living room last night. I just didn't put the facts together until a few minutes ago. Sakura you have to believe me, I would never lie to you, not ever." I want to smack him as he looks right into my eyes; he's still lying to me right now. I turn my face away from him and stare at the carpet.

I hear him sigh, "Sakura, don't you think Katsumi has been acting weird lately? Don't you think it was odd that she knew you had taught Ino to make that poison?" Now that he mentions it I do think she has been acting different since Genma's wedding, and how did she know about the poison? But that doesn't matter; I'm not going to give into Kakashi's lies.

"I'm not lying to you Sakura, I'm really now. I think what happened was that Ino wanted to get back at you, and she knew what she was going to do all along. She never loved Katsumi, that girl was just another pawn in her sick chess game. She married Katsumi to make you jealous and to hurt you, but when that wasn't enough, she decided to go through with the rest of her plan. She preformed the jutsu and swapped bodies with Katsumi, I'm not sure how she explained this to her wife, but she did it. Then she made the poison just like you taught her how and gave it to Katsumi who was still in her body. Then she made it seem like a suicide, she tricked everyone."

What if he's telling the truth, as weird as it sounds everything he said sounds sort of right. I don't want to believe him, but I know I should because I love him and he loves me. But what do I know, I could make a mistake and he could be lying, I don't want to believe that Ino would do that. My mind feels like its going ten thousand thoughts per second and I just need some time to myself.

"Kakashi, just please, just let me think. I'm trying to understand, I'm trying to get this all through my head, but I don't know what to think right now. Just close the door on your way out and I'll come out when I'm ready to." I don't look at him, but I can feel him getting closer after I finish talking. He kneels and my view of the carpet is now obscured by his legs. He puts a finger under my chin and lifts my face to look at him. "I love you Sakura, more then anything else in the world, even if you don't believe me I'll still love you." Then he kisses me, and I can feel it in that kiss, I can feel the love and the tenderness. But then he breaks and goes to the door, "I'll be waiting whenever you're ready, but right now I have to go talk to Tsunade, please come find me when you decided whatever you decide.

I nod my head, but I'm not sure if he sees, I hear the door close and I sigh. What am I supposed to believe?

Kakashi's POV

It hurts to know she'd not sure whether or not to believe me, I don't want to admit it, but it does. I know that she'll have to realize I was telling the truth sooner or later and she'll tell me she was wrong, but I just wish she believed me now.

I'll give her the space she asked for and right as I'm closing the door I see her nod her head yes to my request. I feel a little better knowing she's going to find my when she's ready. But not I need to go find Tsunade; I need to see if she's figured it out yet. I'll bet she has though, that whose thing at the funeral gave Ino away, a shy girl like Katsumi never would have behaved that way, even after being struck by such grief.

I hope Sakura understands how much I love her and that nothing can make me stop loving her, even if she doesn't believe me I'll still love her, I'll still trust her. I just have to remember that she has every reason not to believe me, in her dreams she's been terrified of this for a long time, and not that it's seemingly happened how could she not just believe it?

I walk into the Hokage tower and straight up to Tsunade's office. I knock and she calls for me to enter. She's sitting behind her desk with her head in her hands. "So Hatake, the question on my mind is, are you here to talk to me about you and Sakura, or have you figured out what Ino really did?" I sit in the seat across from her sensing this is going to be a long conversation.

"I figured out what Ino really did, but I guess I wouldn't be opposed to talking about me and Sakura right now, though I was planning to have that talk while the both of us were present." Tsunade nods and looks up at me, I can see she's trying to figure out just how much I already know. I let my face stay neutral and relaxed, and with my mask on it's almost impossible for her to read my expression.

"Then you know we're going to have to capture her and give her punishment. She took another person life, and used a forbidden jutsu without good cause. She's in serious trouble Kakashi, and I know she won't be easy to catch. I'm trying to figure out who to put on the team right now, any suggestions?" I know she already knows who I'm going to suggest, I'm also pretty sure she's sent for them to.

"I want Genma, Anko, Kurenia, Gai, and maybe Gai's team, they never really were close to Ino or her team." She nods.

"They're already on there way here, you're going to lead the mission to get her." I want to protest because I know it'll hurt Sakura, but I'm sick of Ino always hurting her. I want Ino as far away from Sakura as possible.

"I will, but I want to be resent at her hearing, I want to be able to suggest punishments, I want to be able to stand up for Sakura and explain things the right way when Ino tries to lie." The Hokage nods and I sit back in my chair to wait for my team.

"So Kakashi, of all the girls in Konoha you have to pick my apprentice and your ex-student to fall in love with? I swear you are the weirdest guy I've ever meet." She shakes her head and I look directly into her eyes.

"Sakura moved in with me after her and Ino broke up, she wasn't happy in there old apartment. Then we were spending so much time together, we know all of each other's storied, we've learned all of each others secret, its so nice being with Sakura. We were friends, then we became best friends, and now we're together, and I hope it last forever."

Sakura's POV

A nice walk, that'll help clear my mind I decide. I walk out of the house and down the street, I'm not really paying attention to where I'm going, I just let my feet lead me where they take me.

I bet Kakashi's telling the truth, the more I think about it, the more I believe him, there's still doubt, but not as much as when he first told me. I don't think Kakashi would lie to me, and I know he loves me so what would be the point. And why would he lie about that if he wasn't one hundred percent sure he could prove it and if it was true. There's no use in lying about something you can't prove in some way or another.

Kakashi knows what he's talking about, he's experienced so much, he's seen the people he loved more then anyone else in the world die around him. He's seen his whole team die right before his eyes, and he's seen both of his parents die by their own hand, why would he ever lie about someone who's dead being alive? I know Kakashi wouldn't lie about this, so he must be telling the truth, but somehow I'm still having trouble believing him.

I stop as I realize where my feet have taken me, the memorial stone. I trace the names I've seen Kakashi trace so many times, and I think of the things he told me about them. About how he and Obito used to have such a big rivalry over everything, even Rin. How Obito used to call him a midget and would always tell him to leave the missions to the big boys. I remember the look on Kakashi's face when he told me about them, when he told me how they died, I remember the pain that was so clearly etched into his being.

"How can you do it, how can you stay with him after you killed her? You should leave and save him the trouble of killing himself when you decide you need a newer model." I hear a snide voice say from behind me, I turn around and I'm staring at Katsumi, who could possibly be Ino, if Kakashi is telling the truth,

"What do you want from me? I think you've humiliated me enough for one day Katsumi." I tell her, not willing to back down until I find out the truth.

"You always were a bit slow on the uptake weren't you Sakura, you should have listened to your new little boy toy back home, he was right. And that seen between you two was truly touching; it almost made me feel bad about how much I was hurting you both. Almost." She laughs and takes another step closer to me. "Sakura, you were all that bright were you. This body isn't going to last me too much longer, it already wants to reject me. But I will not let you live while I pass away peacefully, oh no, you don't deserve to live." She reaches out and smacks me hard across the face, I know I should fight back, but I won't. I did this to her, I hurt her so bad it drove her insane.

"I'm going to kill you Sakura, then I'm going to find Kakashi Hatake and I'm going to kill him to. You two will not get away with humiliating me. I should have known back then that you weren't worth everything that we would go through, I should have known not to fall in love with you. You were always so selfish, your work, your team, you apprenticeship, you life, it was all yours, but you never truly shared it with me. I guess I wasn't good enough for it!" A shard kick to the ribs punctuates her statement and I think I feel one of them crack.

Kakashi's POV

I look around at the masked faces of my friends and explain the game plan. "First we need to find Sakura, and then we need to take her somewhere safe. Who ever finds her takes her to my places and stays there with her. Then we go after Ino, you all know Katsumi's description, you won't be able to sense her chakra so you'll need to rely on sight for this one." I nod to them to signal that I'm done and they're dismissed. They all set off in different directions and I go off in mine. I send a nin-kin with each of them just so I know when they find something. I check my house first, but find that she's not there, where else would she go?

Pakkun looks up at me and stops me, "They've both been found, team members waiting to be told what to do. They're both at the memorial stone and it looks like Ino's beating on Sakura with the intent to kill."

So this chapter was a little difficult to write, but I hope you like it!!! Please review.

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P.S. another big thanks to my beta =] you should really go read her story Lover's guilt if you want to read a good fan fic =] .net/s/5767293/1/Lovers_guilt