So here is chapter 20, I struggled with this one a little so I apologise now if it's rubbish! Let me know what you think :)

Saturday morning and the Messer family were doing their monthly shop; their last one before Lindsay was due to have the baby. Lindsay was now on maternity leave and Danny wasn't due into work till later that afternoon. Lucy was walking alongside the trolley holding Lindsay's hand after declaring she was to big now to sit in the seat, placing bear in there instead while Danny pushed it up the dairy aisle

"Mummy, do we have to buy Joshy food now when we go shopping?" Lucy asked using the nickname she had already given her brother.

"Not yet sweetie, Josh won't eat anything till he is at least 4 months old, for now he will just have milk"

"Just milk?"

"Yea, babies don't have teeth like we have, so when they are really little all they have is milk"

"That's boring" Lucy said, she spotted a bottle of chocolate milk on the shelf "Can Joshy have this milk?" she asked pointing at it.

"No he will have special baby milk, how about we leave Daddy to carry on shopping and I'll take you to the baby aisle, we can get the milk together" Lindsay suggested

"Yeah, I want to help choose Joshy's food" Lucy replied

Lindsay smiled knowing there wouldn't be much choosing as she and Danny planned to use the same baby milk they had for Lucy. "We will catch you up in a bit Danny" Lindsay kissed him on the cheek.

"Alright, I'll be around here somewhere" Danny replied, he watched Lucy and Lindsay walk off then carried on pushing the trolley down the aisle. He picked up a pack of 4 strawberry moose yogurts that he knew were Lucy's favourite and placed them in the trolley. He also picked up some raspberry flavoured yogurts for him and Lindsay. Getting to the end of the aisle he turned into the next one, the cereal aisle. He went over grabbing a large box of coco pops for him and Lucy then went over grabbing Lindsay's cereal.

Back down the baby aisle Lindsay and Lucy hadn't quite reached the milk yet, getting distracted by the pacifiers and bibs that were on show. "Mummy, can we get Joshy this pacifier?" Lucy asked holding out a pink dummy with silver stars on.

"Lucy, that's a girls one, what about this one?" she said holding out one to show Lucy.

Lucy took it from her hand looking at it; she noticed there were words on it, she recognised one of the words straight away "that says Daddy" then concentrating on the second word, she sounded it out in her head "boy, it says 'Daddy's boy"

Lindsay smiled "Your right Luce, well done, so shall we get it?"

"Yes, let's get it, Daddy will like that" Lucy smiled then turned to the bibs picking up one with a picture of a tiger on with a speech bubble that said 'roar!' "I think Daddy would like this too" she held it out to Lindsay.

Lindsay smiled when she saw it "I think your right Luce, We will have to get both of these"

Lucy smiled "I like shopping for Joshy"

"I'm glad, right, let's go get Josh some milk" taking Lucy's hand again she walked with her to the end of the baby aisle where the formula milk was stored.

Danny was now trying to decide which chocolate biscuits to get for Lucy's lunch box, the one shaped like animals or the ones with caramel in the middle. He finally decided on the animal shaped ones placing them in the trolley when he heard someone call his name. He turned around, looking shocked when he spotted the person "Rikki?"

"Yea it's me" She said walking over to him.

"What are you doing back here? Have you moved back?"

"No, I'm just visiting, it's Ruben's 16th birthday tomorrow so I've come to visit his grave, lay some flowers, chat to him a little"

"Wow, 16 already?"

"Yea its gone fast" she noticed Lucy's bear sitting in the trolley "Who's your friend?"

"Oh, that's bear, he's Lucy's" He smiled.

"You're not still babysitting neighbours kids are you?" She asked smiling

"Oh no… no Lucy is..."

He was interrupted by Lucy running up to him "We got the milk" she leant over placing it in the trolley, then looked up at Rikki.

"She's yours, isn't she" Rikki said knowing straight away from Lucy's looks.

"yeah, yeah she is" he replied picking Lucy up.

"So you called her Lucy, hopefully not after the Lucy that shot Ruben" She asked him.

"Ooh no, she's named after one of Lindsay's friends who died, I completely forgot it was also the same name as the woman who did that" he said not quite able to bring himself to say the words.

"Things with you and Lindsay worked out then?"

"Yea they did, we got married 5 years ago, then this little one came along" he kissed Lucy's cheek, which made her giggle.

"I'm glad things worked out for you Danny"

"There you are, I've told you before Lucy not to run off like that" Lindsay said approaching the trolley, she noticed Rikki "Oh, hey" she smiled placing the pacifier and bib in the trolley.

"Hey Lindsay" She noticed Lindsay's swollen stomach "Danny never said you were expecting baby number two"

"That's my baby brother" Lucy smiled proudly from Danny's arms "he's called Joshy"

"Joshua" Danny corrected her "Yea he's due next month"

"Congratulations" Rikki replied.

"So what's been happening with you?" Danny asked.

"Not much really, got a job working in a small café, been seeing a few blokes but can't bring myself to settle down with them, I know kids would be one of the next steps and I'm still not ready for that yet, don't think I will ever be to be honest"

"That's understandable" Lindsay said sympathetically

"Look I better be off, I need to grab some flowers, head over to the cemetery, then make my way back home. It was lovely to bump into you both and lovely meeting you Lucy"

"Yea you too, tell Ruben I said hello" Danny replied

"I will do" She smiled then walked off with her basket.

Danny placed Lucy back on the floor, then turned to Lindsay "Can you believe it, Ruben would have been 16 this week" he rubbed his hands over his face "I've not even really thought about him since having Lucy and getting married"

"Would you like to go visit him Danny?" Lindsay asked, rubbing his arm with her hand.

"I don't think so, it sounds awful but he is in the past. When it all happened I was very shaken up, I mean I still am in some respects, you know how I feel about Luce getting a bike. I need to start letting that go; what happened to Ruben isn't going to happen to Lucy. I think if I go and visit him it'll just bring all the fears back again an I'll never let her learn to ride a bike"

"That's okay Danny, you don't have to. I just wanted to give you the option" she stood on her tiptoes and gave him a kiss on the cheek.

"Thanks" he replied wrapping his arm around her shoulders; then turned to Lucy "Right, shall we go see what Ice lollies they have?"