"Bella, I'm……." everyone turned to look at us and Edward shut his mouth. He wasn't going to speak in front of everyone.
"Can we go…..?" I put a finger on his lips to shush him and took his hand and led him to my dressing room trailer.
I walked over to my chair and Edward sat down on the couch in front of me. I looked at him the entire time.
"Ok, what do you want to say……?" Edward started to speak after I said that, but I cut him off.
"No, I know what you're going to say. You want the whole story. Well I'll tell you. We went to a ball and I noticed he was different from when I knew him 4 years ago. We danced and then a song came on and I immediately thought of you. I tried to get you out of my mind, but I couldn't. Then I realized wasn't in love with him. I was falling for you…..and….and….." I was in hysterics trying to make him forgive me.
Edward stood up and walked over to me. I thought he was going to yell at me, but when he hugged me I looked at him confused.
"I'm sorry. I acted like an ass and hurt you. I should have let you go and be with him instead of fight with you. I'm sorry for calling you a….."
"A bitch." I said for him. He smiled and then he looked seriously at me.
"I was jealous because I couldn't be with you. I was mad because you didn't love me, and I told you I didn't love you anymore….but I really do love you. I have been falling for you when you first walked into the dance studio for our first practice." He concluded. I looked back at him and searched his eyes to see if he was lying.
"I want things to be right between us." I whispered. Silence followed my words and I just stared at the wall, trying to think. Edward didn't disturb me, but he stayed.
"I……I……forgive you." I said absentmindedly. His whole face lit up like a kid on Christmas.
"I have some conditions if you want us to be together." He nodded and I continued.
"I want us to start over and take it slow. I just ended a very serious relationship and I need some time. Could we be friends and then go from there?"
Edward was debating inside; I could see him struggling to find words.
"Well I guess that's going to be the best offer you're going to give me….and I accept. Plus I probably need some space from my old relationship. I don't want you to think that I'm dating you because I'm trying to get over Bella." I nodded furiously.
"Yes, that's why I want us to be friends." Another silence followed the words.
"Best friends." Corrected Edward. I felt giddy inside.
"Best friends." I agreed.
I was in the common area at the hotel, the next day, lounging on the couch. I didn't want to be in my room right now.
2 people down, 3 more to go. Alice and Edward forgave me, but they still didn't know the whole truth. Now I only had to talk to Rosalie and Jasper. Emmett was another story.
Something about him was off. It was ever since he told me about his sister he was a bit angry and sad.
I pushed that out of my mind, trying to focus on the paper in front of me. I had to write a new song by tomorrow.
There was nothing interesting to write about. Well there is, but nothing I want to mention.
Then something came into my head.
People say I'm the life of the party
because I tell a joke or two
although I might be laughing loud and hearty
Deep inside I'm blue
I wrote it down quickly so I wouldn't forget it and I stared at the words. The tune would be really nice and simple, a sound from Motown.
How do they relate to anything going on right now, was the question. I couldn't think of anything at that moment so I continued writing anything that popped into my mind.
So take a good look at my face
you'll see my smile looks out of place
if you look closer, it's easy to trace
the tracks of my tears...
My eyebrows furrowed at this verse. I'm not sad at all.
"Bella?" My head snapped up and I saw Jacob standing with a wide grin.
"How are you Bella? You look much better than you did yesterday while dancing the tango." He joked. I threw my pencil at him and he chuckled catching it perfectly between his pointer and middle fingers.
"Dammit." I muttered.
"What's the matter? Someone got up on the wrong side of the bed this morning?" taunted Jacob. I sneered at him and focus back on the lyrics.
"Aww….come on Bella, you know that I'm joking……." I tried ignoring him, but then sighed.
"Sorry, I'm just a bit moody after everything that has happened." Jacob nodded in understanding. I sighed again; he doesn't know all of it.
"If you need to tell someone something to make you feel better, then just come talk to me…..I'm open." He repeated his offer. He reached over and snatched my lyrics off my lap.
"..Hey!" I squealed and tried to reach for it, but Jacob caught both of my hands in his big one, holding then in place so I wouldn't move.
"The tracks of my tears…..hmmm….interesting topic. So are you having such a hard relationship?" I bit Jacob's hand and he yelp. I took that moment to yank the paper out of his hand and held it tightly to my chest.
"I'm not in a relationship, and no this is not about me…." Then I added quietly.
"I don't know who it is about, it just popped into my head." Jacob had a thoughtful look on his face.
"I think I know who the song is about, but I'll let you work your little mind." He got up and left leaving me stunned.
How could he know more about something that I thought of? THINK BELLA THINK!
Nothing.
DARN!
I need you, need you
I added to the paper.
"Oh, and I forgot to ask, did you start reading the book I gave you." I felt my cheeks heat up in embarrassment as I shook my head.
"Nope." Jacob laughed, but I saw his eyes were a bit dark.
"Its fine, but you should start reading it; it is really good, especially on a certain page." And he left again.
Since you left me if you see me with somebody else
Seeming like I'm having fun
Although she may be cute
She's just a substitute
Because you're the only one I want
Having Jacob keep pressing me about the book was a bit strange. It's like there is something in there that he wanted me to see. But I don't have any time to sit and read.
I continued writing.
So take a good look at my face
you'll see my smile looks out of place
if you look closer, it's easy to trace
the tracks of my tears...
I need you, need you
Outside I'm masquerading
Inside my hope is fading
Just a clown oh yeah
Since you put me down
My smile is my makeup
I wear since my break up with you..
So take a good look at my face
you'll see my smile looks out of place
if you look closer, it's easy to trace
the tracks of my tears
The song is about someone normally loves to party and usually starts them all. The person lost someone who was important to them and they are trying to get over it, but they can't. So now at parties he/she pretend to have fun. They can't stop thinking about this person and no one can replace them. Which leads us to the chorus…..where they silently cry.
Even though the words are about a break up, the true story is that in general loosing someone is hard. Boyfriends, aunts, or even siblings are hard to get over.
I got up and walked up the stairs to my room. Once in my room I closed the door and set my notebook down on the counter in the kitchen. I walked to the bathroom. I had to shower because Edward was going to take me out somewhere. He promised that we would be going as friends.
I stepped into the shower, after I stripped, and turned the knob to really hot water. I immediately relaxed when the water hit my body.
I stood like that for a couple minutes letting thoughts flow freely through my mind. My thoughts were mostly about the song that I wrote….and the summary I thought of……
I jumped and fell into the tub. I caught myself before I could hurt myself. I made sure that my broken hand was alright and stood up again.
The song was about Emmett. It's like I can feel what he is feeling right now. How could that be?
I washed my hair quickly and got out of the shower. I dressed in casually, like Edward said, I wore black jeans and a strapless shirt. On top of the shirt I put on a black jean jacket. Well it was casual enough. Make-up time…..oh joy……
There was a knock on my door right when I finished my make-up. I walked over and opened it and smiled immediately when I saw Edward.
"It has been too long." He whispered, and I knew he was saying that playfully.
"Well, it has only been." I looked at the watch on my hand and counted the hours.
"…….12 hours since I last saw you?" I told him. It was more in the form of a question.
"Well 12 hours is a long time." I smirked at his pout. He looked so cute! CUTE! Bella, he is drop dead gorgeous!
"Let's go best friend." I hinted and I saw Edward's smile fade a little.
"Best friends, right." He muttered under his breath. He took my hand and I felt something I hadn't felt in 4 years. An electric shock that ran through his hand to mine. We both pulled back at the same time staring at each other in wonder.
"Wow……" he was speechless……he wasn't the only one.
"We don't want to be late." He stuttered and walked ahead and I followed. I looked at my hand thinking if that ever happened with Edward Cullen at the ball.
No, nothing had ever happen with him.
I looked up and saw we were outside standing in front of a Volvo…..a silver Volvo. I laughed freely.
"I haven't seen a Volvo since 4 years ago!" Edward chuckled.
"I rented it. I have to have something that reminds me of home." He opened the passenger seat and I got in, thanking him.
Once he got into the driver's seat I turned to him.
"Can you please tell me where we are going?" I pleaded. He shook his head.
"Nope, it's a surprise." He glared at him.
"Don't you know that I hate surprises?" I asked Edward.
"Yep, I guessed. I wanted to see how much it would annoy you." He smiled. I looked at his smile and lifted my hand to touch his lips.
I traced the outside of his bottom lip. The way his lips were shaped looked so familiar.
Edward was staring at me intently. I gasped and took my hand away quickly, blushing like a tomato.
"Sorry…." He shrugged and began to drive. Out of the corner of my eyes I saw him lift his own hand and put in to his lips. He took it off his lips and looked at it.
I smiled smugly to myself.
That move was good…..real good…..!
Ok, so I realized that I was going on vacation next week, so I will not be updating twice this weekend, but next weekend I should.
Explanations.....
There is are reasons why I had Bella write the song. One reason that I can tell you is that I have to have Bella do something with her job. I can't forget that she is a singer!
Jacob is going to be a really important character in the story.
The reason I have Bella reading really gothic books (it was in chapter 8.) It will be explained later in the story, when it is the time to explain it. And Jacob pressing he to read the book he gave her is important too...
End of Explanations.....
Yeah, I do a lot of foreshadowing in this story.
YAY! Bella and Edward are not together....but are trying to be friends......
Next chapter- The "date"
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-Never forget Emmett- signing off-
~Jonako