Author's Note: Bleh! I've been busy with school, but Im back!~ I'll try to post more I also have some more cotton candy crack stories in mind too, so look out for those xD
-Stay awesome Gotham,
Summermangos~ c:
Josephine's POV
It's blindingly white, where am I? From the distance I see something playing on the side of a wall, and a person sitting in a ball next to it, their head turned to the side, refusing the walls peremptory calls towards it. I approach it with caution... that's me?! I look over to the wall, and see my memories speed through and the time and day rapidly going as well. It finally stops.. Is that today? I suddenly see a warm light coaxing me towards it.
As I pass through it I hear that voice that's been ringing in my head, "Nice seeing you again!" It sounds a lot warmer this time. I blink a few times to let my eyes readjust, and I finally see the person who holds the voice, and gasp, "Your-!"
"I believe you used to call me Mr. L.S!" He says with a smile.
"Wait wait! You were the fucking annoying voices?! How'd you get your voice to change so much, and aren't you dead?! Am I dead?!" I frantically ask.
I feel an elbow being propped up on my head, "That's because there was more than one of us, although Mr. L.S. did most of the talking." The cool voice replies, oh so nonchalant.
I look up, "Holy shit! Bro?!"
"Language!" A voice scolds, I turn towards it and I see Auntie Carla.
"I just- And your- " I start babbling.
"Use your words Joy!" ..Petra… I turn towards her voice and see the entire Levi squad. This is- Oh my god. I plop down on the floor and grasp my forehead, "Y-your all here!" I look up at them, "I- I don't understand!.. I thought you were all dead!" I get up and quickly hug them tight. I pull away and they smile at me sympathetically.
"We are gone sweetie." Auntie Carla tells me.
"B-but- A-am I dead?!" I stutter out.
"Not quite. You're borderline right now, aka you're in a coma."
"For how long?!" I ask.
"About a day, not very long!"my brother responds.
"Don't worry! You're going to be sent back!" Petra adds.
"C-can't I stay longer?" I softly say, "it's safer here and I get to see you guys! Do you have any idea how much I miss you? How much everybody misses you guys?!"
Mr. L.S. sighs, "we do realize and we're really sorry for putting you through all this grief, but sweetie, it isn't your fault that we died."
"How did you-"
"We know Joy. How you felt responsible for our deaths, for not being able to save us. Thinking you weren't strong enough, it isn't your fault. You couldn't help it, you were so young when so much bullshit happened," My brother tells me in a firm yet soothing voice, "but look at you now! You're so strong and brave you finally can control your powers now too! You're more than capable of handling yourself now, I'm so proud of you!" He cheerily adds. I sniff and quickly rub my eyes of any trace of tears threatening to spill. Trying to reaffirm the fact that, 'I'm strong'.
Mr. L.S. chuckles lightly and pats my head, "Come here, let me show you something." He says as he ushers me to the wall that once played my memories, "You know, people miss you back there too you know, look."
He points a finger at the wall and I see myself lying in one of the beds in the infirmary, my head is wrapped in bandages and 'the Zhiganshina trio' at the foot of the bed, Eren's crying, "I'm sorry.. It's my fault... I couldn't save anybody!.. I just ended up getting saved again!... Please wake up... You promised you'd be okay!.. I- I don't know what'd I'd do without you..." Mikasa lays a comforting hand on his shoulder as she covers her face with her scarf, and Armin wipes his eyes clear of tears.
The screen flashes, and this time Levi's at the side of my bed in a demanding way says, "Hey, brat. You should wake up soon, it's been about a day already it's never good to lie in bed that much..." He trails off and in a surprisingly caring voice laced with melancholy he softly continues, "You're the closest thing to family I've got left.. I lost so many people, I don't want to lose you too."
The screen flashed yet again, this time Sarah was by my bed, "Hey girly, you better wake up! We have so much bullshit to do still! You're my partner in crime! Who am I supposed to mess Levi with if you die?!..." She chokes the last part out as tears begin to well up.
Heh, of course that crazy bitch would say that.. One by one people said they're messages to me. All of them wishing me to wake up, each one of them sadden by the fact I might not be able to. I never realized... I bring a hand to my mouth as tears flow freely from my eyes.
"You realize now then don't you? You're here because you wished to find closure for you and for everyone. You can't stay here because there are people waiting for you. We may be dead, but you still have people that love and care for you that are still alive." Mr. L.S. explains.
Auntie Carla taps on the bottom of my chin, signaling me to look up at her, "Keep your chin up Joy you still have very many adventures ahead of you with Armin, Mikasa and Eren." She smiles warmly at me.
Mr. L.S. taps my forehead, "and don't forget those lovely eye powers of yours if you ever miss us!"
I look at him puzzled as to what he meant when everyone starts to fade away.
"Ah- wait!" I yell.
I'm suddenly stopped by brother, he crouches down to my eye level, "We died, and we're so sorry, and goodbyes are really sad and lonely, but don't forget we're always here for you and everyone! Now, give me one last hug ya Bambi! I probably should've said this more, but I love ya little sis. Take care of yourself okay?" He says as he extends his arms, I hug him tightly.
Petra taps me on the shoulder, asking for a hug too, "Take care of our shorty corporal okay? Remember, it's none of your guys' fault we died okay?" She says warmly as I nod in response. One by one each one asked for a hug, even Oluo!
Till finally I got to Auntie Carla, "Take good care of Eren okay? He's strong and brave but can be reckless sometimes, and Mikasa can't take of him forever. She has to settle down sometime!" I pull away and look at her puzzlingly, she smiles, "You sweet dense child, lemme tell you a secret," she says leaning to my ear, "Eren never saw you as a sister!" She backs away from me and smiles.
"Wait!" They all just smile at me and wave goodbye, "I love you guys!" I feel tears well up in my eyes as I get a falling sensation.
3rd POV:
Josephine slowly opens her eyes, and sits up. She looks around and sees Levi sitting on a chair asleep. Hanji asleep at the desk in the infirmary, Armin on one of the beds hugging a book, and Eren haunched over in a chair next to her bed, his head buried in his arms. She brings a hand to her cheek and realized that she's been crying, she sniffs and laughs lightly. Suddenly the door opens and a loud clang! Is heard.
"Joy!" Mikasa yells as everyone that wasn't in the room suddenly comes flooding in, holding food trays that were supposed to be for everyone. Effectively waking every one up, with both their loudness and the smell of food. Josephine is suddenly bombarded with hugs.
"Thank God you're awake!"
"Are you okay? Does anything hurt?!"
"You're alive! You're alive!"
Are the series of things Josephine hears, she can't help but smile and cry at how much they care. Worried they all suddenly pull away.
"W-why'd you guys stop?" Josephine says and pouts, "I'm just happy that you guys cared this much!"
"D'awww come here! Of course we care!" Hanji says as everyone pulls her into a hug.
"Okay, okay that's enough. Let's let her rest." Levi says.
"Way to kill a moment!" Sarah says.
"She just woke up we don't want to overwhelm her." Levi explains.
Hanji nods in agreement, "You got quite the concussion Jo! From the looks of it you used your eye powers too much too! That's probably why you were out for a day and a half!"
Josephine pouts, "but I've already slept a lot, coome on!"
"No. A slight coma and sleeping are two different things. Stay here for observation, besides we'll see you tomorrow." Levi responds, "Come on everyone!" He says as he ushers everybody out the door, as everyone (except Hanji and Eren) hesitantly shuffle out the door he turns and softly says, "Glad you're okay."
Josephine plops down on her bed in a huff, "I'm not tired!"
"It's not like you have to sleep just stay in bed and rest!" Hanji responds.
Josephine sighs and turns to Eren, "How come you're still here? Are you gonna take care of me?"
"Oh? You don't want me to be here?" Eren responds in slight offense.
"That's not what I said! I was just wondering cause Banchou said 'everyone'. Plus last I remember, you were knocked out in a cart, but you heal fast and obviously don't have any bandages or something on you, so you don't exactly have a reason to stay here." Josephine replies.
"Well, I decided to stay here, and he didn't say anything about it so, here I am!" Eren explains and gives her a tight hug, "Plus everyone kept getting in my way when I wanted to hug you..."
Muffled sobs could soon be heard from her shoulder as she quickly tries to hug him comfortingly, "…Eren?.."
"I-I'm sorry.. It's my fault.. I couldn't save anybody.. You even almost died!... And now the survey corps is hated, and it's all my fault!" Eren chokes out.
"It's not your fault Eren! No one could've known what would've happened! They asked for your trust and you did it, and there's nothing wrong with that."
"But they died…" Eren
"Yeah.. They did, but it wasn't your fault, and it's not like they're mad or hate you for it." Josephine replies sternly.
"How do you know?" Eren asks doubtfully.
"I saw them. And they told me." She bluntly replies, "While I was knocked I saw them, all of them. If I remember correctly Petra said to 'remember it's none of your guys' fault that we died.'"
Eren looks at her dumbfounded, "Is that even possible?!"
"I don't expect you to believe me, but please, don't burden yourself more than you need to." She replies, concern evident in her voice.
He hugs her tight once again, "I believe you. I believe you, thank you." He hugs Josephine even tighter as she suddenly remembers what Carla told her, "Hey, Eren?.." He hums in response, "While I was knocked out, I saw Auntie Carla too... And she told me something..."
He pulls away and looks at her in shock, "Really?! What did she say?!"
"Well um, she told me to look after you because you're kinda reckless, and Mikasa won't always be able too.."
"Of course mom would say that.." He slumps.
"B-but she also said that you're strong and brave!" Josephine reassures him. He smiles slightly.
"A-and she said that um.." She stutters out.
He looks at her questioningly, "What?"
"Well, um.. She said that you never exactly saw me as a sister.."
"Oh." Eren says as his face flushes. Hanji pops her head up from her paper work to listen.
Josephine looks down at her twiddling fingers, "And I kinda was wondering what she meant- by that."
He buries his face in his hands, "I can't believe mom told you that!" He murmurs.
"So umm.. How do you see me then?" Josephine softly asks.
"I-"
"Jooo!~ I was filling out some paper work and realized I don't know what to put for your last name!" Hanji interrupts Eren, and smiles mischievously.
"Oh, just leave it blank." Josephine responds.
"Hmm are you sure?~" Hanji asks.
"Positive!" Josephine nods. Hanji nods and goes back to her desk (still intently watching the two).
"You could use Jaeger you know." Eren says.
"Wouldn't seem right, I know you guys adopted me and all- and I'm grateful, but I never called Auntie Carla and Uncle Grisha 'mom' or 'dad' Plus it's not like I'm a 'real Jaeger' anyway, like I said. Adopted. Anyway, Mikasa got to keep her last name, and I'm cool with staying nameless. So that's that!" Josephine says firmly.
Eren crosses his arms, "I could make you one if you want.." He murmurs under his breath, his cheeks tinged.
"What?" Josephine says and blushes in surprise, "Did you just-?!"
Hanji runs up to them and presses her face against theirs, "Are those wedding bells I hear?~ Congrats you two! Although you guys are a little young, so you might want to wait a little! I'm so happy for you two!~"
"What?!" Josephine and Eren screech.
"I didn't mean it like that! I meant that if she wanted, I could give her my permission or- or something!" Eren retorts face flushed.
"But you already gave her permission before didn't you? You said, 'you could use Jaeger if you want.' Now, that sounds like giving permission if I've ever heard one!" Hanji retorts.
Eren grits his teeth in response and stands up,utters a quick, "Get well soon!" and walks towards the door.
"Wait!" Josephine calls after him. He hesitantly turns towards her, "Stay!.. Please?" She softly says. He hesitates for a moment, but takes the seat next to her bed once more.
"I didn't mean that!" Eren continues to try to explain himself.
She smiles slightly, "I don't think I would've really minded if you did." She whispers wary of anyone hearing.
"Heard that." Eren says smirking.
"Don't make me kick you out Jaeger boy!" Josephine retorts blushing furiously and burying her face into her pillow.
He brings his hand to his mouth to stop from laughing, "You're such a cute dumbass bunny rabbit!"
"Shut up!" She muffles out, burying her face deeper into the pillow.
Eren sighs happily, "I'm glad your awake and okay now... I don't know why but I feel much lighter when I talk to you.. or something like that. I feel much better now, thanks."
"You're welcome.." She muffles out.
"Ship! Joen for life!" Hanji yells out.
"Shut up!" The two retort faces flushed.