AN: I know that I just updated this one but I was pumped on it. I hope you enjoy

Kuon 10 : Tail for another Time

The pain is getting worse the longer that I sit here, somehow my body seems like it's exploding from the inside and somehow it feels that there are things being put into my blood. I can't even move anymore, they've done something to stop me from moving or speaking or acting and maybe that is why I'm able to reflect on my body chemistry and something doesn't feel right, right now.

I look to the side and see that since I've sat here there's been one clear liquid being taken out of me and an inky almost liquid being put into me and I can't stop it. I should have never come here alone. I look up and see a man enter, he looks like one of the senior doctors but I can't speak. It's as if I'm not even in my own body anymore.

"It's a pity really," the doctor says and I look up at him confused to what he's talking about. "You would have had such a bright future ahead of you could have just left things alone. So we made a mistake on a name and hurt your wife but we've been doing gene splicing, DNA reconfigurations, mutations for such a long time. It seems that by taking a look at the posterior of your body that you take quite well to this as well. You certainly are talented…shame your acting days are over, with a look like that you'd be ready for the zoo, perhaps you can act in a midday show for tourists."

"What are you talking about?" I growl out. I don't get this. How long have I been sitting in this damn room? Months? Weeks? Is it still the same day? I don't even know any longer.

"Here, take a look at yourself, freak," the doctor says as he places a mirror in front of me and I lean forward before drawing back, I'm terrified of seeing my reflection. I'm the same blue that Kyoko is but my transformation seems worse. Not only has my skin turned blue but I'm more furry than scaly, my hair and eyes are now blues as well and I feel so much fear in my chest. My ears are pointed and it feels as if I'm looking at somebody else.

I can do this though, I can transform myself. Kyoko was able to transform herself quite easily just by thinking about it. I close my eyes, willing myself to turn into somebody else and….there's a loud crash as I fall into trashcans and I open my eyes. What just…where am I?" I feel something hitting the other trashcan over and I pat down my back only to find that I have a tail. Did those sons of – sew a tail onto my body? With fear throbbing through me I realize that I can feel it, I can turn it, I…I have a tail. I'm blue and furry and have a tail.

As I manage to take deep inhales to calm myself I realize that I know this place. This is the Hizuri residence. This is the house I left when I was fifteen. It must be symbolic really. I left this house as a freak needing to be locked up and I return the same way. I close my eyes imagining the inside of the house and then find myself in the master bathroom. My heart is pounding now and it isn't until I see the names on the towels of Kuu and Julie that I feel safe.

Those two wouldn't mind me being here, right?

I look at myself and then know what I have to do and I take off my clothes. I'm some kind of animal now, an animal with claws, a tail, fur. I'm not human, I know that much. What did they do to me? I think back on Kyoko. I have to leave her. I can't have her subjected to any more of this madness. I want her to be happy. She deserves to be so happy and she can control the way she looks, all I seem to be able to do is teleport. I don't know if I can ever act again which means that I can't support her. I can't provide for her. I can't help her in the way she needs so I don't deserve to be with her.

I hear my phone ring and realize that it's morning already in Japan, of course it is. The reason why it's so dark here is because it's in America. I'm in the United States right now but I'm not home. I don't have a home anymore. No one can find out about me. I pick it up after returning back from my thoughts and realize I have to tell her that it's over. She doesn't deserve to be burdened by a freak her whole life and that's what is going to happen if she finds out it's me behind all of this.

"I'm sorry," I tell her trying to make sure she knows how serious I am about this. "I'm sorry, Kyoko. I don't want to talk to you right now. Please don't call me again. I don't think that we're right for one another and I don't want to go into the reasons. I just don't want to talk to you right now, I hope that you-"

"Kuon," she cuts me off and I freeze, I hope she releases the anger that she had for Fuwa onto me, that's what I deserve. "Can you repeat….everything you just said?" she asks and I look up to see that my now blue eyes have turned a piercing amber. Are they going to change again? She wasn't paying attention to me and I'm not sure why. Maybe she feels that we shouldn't be together either.

"It doesn't matter anymore," I try to tell her. I don't want to think of what I just said, I just need to find a new way of saying it. "I don't want to speak to you."

I hear her nervousness as she holds onto the phone, her voice is louder so it's closer to her mouth. She's holding it so desperately. "Kuon, talk to me? What's going on? Why doesn't it matter? Are you okay?"

She asks all of those questions so quickly and I just turn to the side so that I can see how the new appendage is attached to my body. I can't breathe but she has to know the truth. She has to realize the truth. "It doesn't matter," I try to convince her, "nothing matter's anymore." It doesn't. She doesn't deserve this, I need to figure it out for myself. I need to push her away from me so that I can save her.

"Sweetheart," she almost pleads with me, "please just speak to me. You know, whatever happened, it doesn't matter to me," she's begging me to reconsider but I can't. This isn't just picking out an ill fitting pair of pants or taking a trip to somewhere that she likes instead of somewhere we both enjoy. No, this isn't that. It isn't even as if we had an argument about Fuwa.

I can't let this move me or sway me, I have to think logically here and she'll need something from me. I can't provide for her like this, I'd be robbing her and stealing from her just by being her husband. I can't support myself but it isn't fair to ask her to support me. I'll make it work somehow.

"I'll make sure to give you whatever you want, you want it then you can have it just make sure that it's written down on the paperwork," I tell her. I know that this is what would be best for her. She deserves what is best for her.

"What paperwork?" she asks and she has every right to be confused.

"The divorce proceedings," I tell her hoping to clarify and I feel a long silence. I know that she's in shock and I don't really want this to happen but having it happen is best for her. If she wants then I can promise her never to speak to my parents again. I just want her to have a happy life.

"I don't want to divorce you," she cries and my heart breaks in hearing that. It's as if she's that little girl in Kyoto again but I don't know of any magic that could help her. "I'm not signing those papers, not until you can give me an explanation of why I should."

I freeze and pick up my pants, I see that there's a slight rip in the back where this new part of my body should go and I purposefully tear it so I can put these back on. "Like a tail?" I ask her and hear the long pause again.

"Yes, exactly," she replies and I nod. It's a good thing we both agree about this. I know it works in my favor that a tail is a definite deal breaker for her but I can't stop my heart from hurting.

…..

…..

I wanted to observe what was going on and though I prefer to stay hidden, I wanted to see if she would go to the agency and how she would feel knowing I wasn't there but as I keep observing the agency I notice that I am there or whoever is now living my life is there and I feel scared for her. I've managed to find a large hoody and am keeping myself concealed by it because a blue furry person with a tail…or blue furry animal will draw too much attention.

However, there is someone who looks so much like my past self that I am terrified of what this might mean for her. I freeze again as I see Setsuka approaching LME. I need to stop her because I know if she goes in she's going to go right up to that fake version of myself and fall into their trap. She won't recognize me, I can stop her because she won't recognize me.

I manage to grab her arm, alarmed again at my blue furry hand but it doesn't seem she's noticed, "You don't want to go in there," I tell her and she freezes. Of course she freezes, some strange man has just grabbed her.

"Please get your disgusting hands off of me," she tells me and I'm not sure if she means that or she's just doing a really good job in her role as Setsuka. "I'll sue you for sexual harassment," she tells me and I reluctantly lift my hand from her arm.

"I'm begging you not to go in there," I ask her again and she rolls her eyes.

"Listen, I can do whatever I want to," she tells me as she flips her hair and I'm happy that she thinks of me as just a creep. I hope she can do that even if she does find out my true identity. "All I want to do is go in there and speak with my older brother. Not that you should care but there's something that I need to talk to my brother about….actually, why am I talking to you? Your head is probably full…"

Before I can stop myself I finish her sentence for her, "of holes like emmental cheese," she freezes and looks confused and I have to scold myself for nearly blowing my cover. Confusion is good. Acknowledgment isn't.

"I'm sorry," I tell her feeling that if I stay there even another second she'll be able to connect the dots, "I have to go. I really have to go." Hopefully she'll follow my advice or at least become more aware of what is around her. My own heart is breaking but I teleport. I didn't want to tell anyone but if there's someone pretending to be me then that means I need somebody to absolutely not fall for this imposter."

I arrive in the bathroom whilst the man I'm here to see is urinating and he looks at me completely creeped out but continues with the flow. He takes a couple of steps backwards and I feel bad for asking so much of him. "Who the hell are you?" he hisses, "I know marital arts, I can…"

"I need your help," I tell him, "And I need you not to te—"

"Why would I do that?" Dad asks and I look at him, lowering the hood of the hoodie and I stare at him hoping that he recognizes me. He looks completely baffled for a little bit before taking in my facial structure and since he can see me through it, I stand no chance when it comes to Kyoko. "Kuon?" he asks me and I look down at the ground. I guess I'm ready to be rejected by him.

He zips up his pants and looks at me, taking in my transformation. I'm terrified. He's going to tell me that he can't accept me as his son. "What happened?" he asks me as he put a hand out to turn my chin. My eyes have changed again, this time to a light green color.

"The hospital, I went back alone," I tell him before backing up with my hands up to defend myself. "I'm sorry," I whisper nervously. "I'm sorry if you can't accept me. I'm sorry that I came here…"

"Why wouldn't I accept you?" Dad asks me and I shiver. It's like ripping off a BandAid, painful but you only have to do it once. I take the hoody off entirely and show Dad my new tail. I look at him fearfully as his eyes widen in shock.

"Kuon, what is going on? Why don't you want me to tell - not that I would but…" Dad says and I feel like I've disappointed him, like I've lost him.

"I'm a mutant, a freak. I'm not someone you're able to love," I tell him and Dad throws his arms around me and pulls me into his chest for a hug.

"That's a whole lot of BS," he says as he keeps me close, "You're my little boy, my son, tail and all," he tells me and I can't believe he's saying this. I'm a total freak but he's holding me as if hardly anything has changed.

End of Kuon 10

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Thank you reviewers of Kyoko 10

Erza Tsuruga, ktoll9

Response to Reviews

They do need to burn it down to the ground, I agree and sorry to make people sad or angry but I hope you enjoyed it still. For those who are familiar with X-Men, Kuon's transformation is based after Kurt's but the link from X-Men is not the same because that would be super creepy.