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Kenzi's POV-

Usually I never had a problem when it came to words. I had been a babbler for as long as I could remember, but right now I felt as if I couldn't form any words. My mouth was hanging open as I tried to form words so I could explain and yet my body did not seem to be working with me. It didn't help that Bo was glaring at me with her arms crossed over her chest and tapped her foot waiting for me to give her some sort of explanation, though I was pretty sure that nothing I said would make her feel better because I had been in many situations similar to this one and nothing anyone ever said made me feel better; usually it actually ended up making me feel worse, but if Bo wanted an explanation then the least I could do was try to explain to the best of my ability. If she was listening to me it meant she wasn't sucking out my chi which was a good thing in my book. I would need my chi in the future especially if I was going be with Dyson because as much I care about him, sometimes he could be a right pain in the ass, but then again, I could be the exact same way so I can't really say anything against it since that would make me the pot calling the kettle black.

Finally after a few moments I got my ability to speak back. " Bo, it really isn't what you think. Yes, Dyson and I were kissing which of course is bad, but we haven't been sneaking around together I swear. There is more to this than you know and I really want to explain. I know that nothing I say can make this better, but perhaps it will help you understand a little bit better."

My best friend (I wasn't sure if she saw me as her best friend anymore even if I would always see her as mine.) frowned as he glare got even darker. "Nothing you can say is going to make this better, but I deserve and explanation which is the only reason I am willing to listen to what you have to say and I want the truth, the whole truth, so you better not lie to me about anything no matter if you think it will make me angrier or not. I feel you owe to me to tell me everything."

"You're right Bo-Bo, you deserve to the truth." I paused to glance at Dyson who stood rigid next to me as if he was readying himself to defend me if Bo decided I should become her next snack. "Okay, I am going to start from the beginning. You remember when Dyson lost his love to the Norn? Well I got it back for him by cutting down the Norn's sacred tree. Then when I was taken and trapped in that cave with the Fae who became my twin, Dyson killed her by mistake when she did some things or tried to do some things that don't really need to be explained since they weren't that important and don't have a big impact on the main story. Anyways, he killed her and thought it was me. When Lauren did a test to make sure it was not me, he was more relieved than he thought he would."

When I paused to take a breath, Dyson took one step closer to Bo before he started speaking. "I realize that this comes as a shock to you and it did to me as well when I realized the truth."

"What truth would that be Dyson?" She snapped the question though her gaze remained locked on me.

My werewolf, whatever he was, (I honestly had no idea how to classify what were right this second) looked at his ex before replying. "The truth is that Kenzi is and always has been my mate. I have done a lot of thinking and such and if you had been my mate the Norn would not have been able to take my feelings aways because when my kind mates, they mate for life and the bond is almost unbreakable. I will admit that for a while I really did think you were my other half, but that's only because you were always around Kenzi and your powers messed around with my emotions making me think it was you even though you weren't my true mate. When I thought I had killed Kenzi, well it felt as if a part of me had died as well. I never felt that way before, not even with you. I am so sorry if I hurt you Bo, but I couldn't be with you since it would not be fair to you when I knew that I would never be able to feel the same way you felt for me. If you are going to be upset with anyone then it should be me and not Kenzi. I was the one who wanted to take things to the next level, even though we haven't because she was afraid it would hurt you. At first she even told me that we could never be together since she thought it would break your heart. I'm the one who pursued her and the only reason I talked to you was because I needed you to understand that even if I did not care for her, we could never again be together since I am not in love with you. We should have told you the truth and I am sorry we didn't, but she feared it would hurt you and so we decided to wait until after this latest crisis had been dealt with before we spoke with you since the last thing either of us wanted was for you to be distracted right now."

Bo's eyes darkened with every word he spoke and I took a step back without realizing I had done it until after the fact. "Well you did a terrible job at trying to keep me from getting distracted. It doesn't matter to me that Kenzi said no, she still kissed you and that hurts more than anything else."

i interrupted her before she could say anymore because the guilt was gnawing at my gut literally making me feel as if I was going to be sick to my stomach. "I am so sorry Bo. I hope you know-"

I never had a chance to finish since this time the Succubus cut me off mid sentence. "Don't tell me you're sorry Kenzi because I don't want to hear it. You may not have meant to hurt me and yet you did. You hurt me more than anyone else ever has and do you want to know why? The answer is because I trusted you more than I have ever trusted anyone else. You betrayed me even if it was not on purpose. I am not sure if we can ever be the same again and that goes for you as well Dyson. Look, I have to go before I do something stupid I'll regret in the morning. We are nowhere near finished talking about this, but we will have to continue when I've had some time to calm down and get a grip on my emotions. I think it would be best if you found somewhere else to crash for a couple of nights Kenzi, because as angry as I may be, I really don't want to hurt you and I probably would right now with how upset I am."

Tears gathered in my eyes as I nodded. "Sure thing Bo, I understand completely and I know this is the last thing you want to hear, but I really am sorry. I never wanted to hurt you and if you asked me to leave town or whatever, I would because you may not think so right now, but I love you like a sister and I wan to be happy, even if I have to leave in order for that to happen."

Watching her turn on her heel and walk away, it felt as if I had been stabbed in the heart with a rusty knife and the pain was still there when Dyson wrapped his arms around me in a hug meant comfort me. "Did you see her face? I think I broke Bo-Bo and I am not sure I will ever be able to forgive myself. How are we ever going to be able to be happy if guilt is always standing between us and pushing the two of us apart?"

Dyson ran his fingers in my hair as he placed a kiss to the top of my head. "We will find a way Kenzi, there is always a way if you look hard enough."

TBC...

AN: Hi guys, I really hope that you all liked this chapter and I put it up because you all have been so king and understanding when it comes to my sickness. Originally I was going to have Bo get really angry and attack Kenzi, but then I thought about it and came to the conclusion she would not do something like that no matter how angry she may be. Let me if you liked it and what you think is going to happen. Some of your theories are very interesting and I love reading them.

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