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APOV

Yeah, so after that conversation, I was left feeling out of my mind with confusion.

I ran to find Jasper, I could smell him, he was in the garage.

I kept my head down as I entered, if I looked at him one thing would lead to another.

"Jasper, Edward says turn his hate up." I said walking over to my Porsche and leaning against the hood.

"Turn it…he knows?" He asked. Even his voice…God, snap out of it!

"Yes, he says it's a good idea, he said to turn it up." I explained, covering my face with my hands and running them through my hair like I usually do when I'm stressed.

"Alice, what is it?" He asked. He was in front of me. His hands were at my waist. Keep it together! You're stronger than this.

I looked up, I managed to stiffen my resolve. But it seemed that he chose not to. He leant down and kissed me. I turned away. Wow, I'm proud of myself.

"Seriously, what is it?" He asked sounding worried.

"Edward…also said that…I'm still in love with him." I said looking up to see his reaction.

His face was impassive.

"But he just said that because he hates me right? He wants to mess me up, he finds it funny. He said to ask anyone. But it's not true, right?" I rambled.

He still looked at me impassively.

"Please." I said. "You have to tell me it's not true!"

He sighed and looked down.

"No…" I gasped. "No."

I stepped away from him and paced around the garage. I kept repeating the word "No."

I walked outside and grabbed a huge rock, with a final "NO!" I turned it to dust.

I looked at Jasper who was watching me from the garage.

"No, you're all wrong! I don't! Not anymore!" I screamed. It was just Jasper, Edward and I home at the moment, no one would hear.

"Alice, don't beat yourself up about this…" Jasper tried to soothe me.

"No! I think I will!" I raised my hand, about to slap myself.

It was caught in mid swing.

It was Edward.

He looked down at me annoyed. "Don't you dare do that to yourself."

I snatched my hand away from him and walked away over to a tree which I leant my head against.

"You shouldn't have let her do that." Edward scolded Jasper.

"If I'd known she would, I would have stopped her." Jasper snapped." You're the one who told her."

"I didn't know that we'd clarified that I wasn't supposed to." Edward said.

"You knew what she'd be like." Jasper said.

"Stop talking about me like I'm not here." I hissed at both of them.

"Sorry." They said immediately.

I felt more angry with myself than I had at anyone in my entire life. I wanted to be hurt, punished for everything.

"Then you stop thinking like that." Edward said sounding very angry.

"Then what the fuck I am supposed to feel like!?" I asked. They must have been shocked, I don't swear, not like that, not easily.

My head whipped round to stare at them both. "Should I feel complacent about it like everyone else seems to be?"

They continued to stare at me.

"Because idiot Alice can't seem to make her freaking mind up!" I said swiping at a near by bolder and breaking it apart.

"Alice, please don't." Jasper begged.

I looked at him, he had such despair in his eyes. Edward had a similar expression, but looked slightly as if he would have liked to take a swipe at me for it too.

I was still breathing heavily as Jasper walked over to me slowly, he took my hand. "No one blames you."

"Well, I want you to blame me." I said through my teeth. "I want you both to say I'm not worth it! To say that no decent person would mess people around like this."

"You know we wont." Edward said from behind Jasper.

Suddenly my anger turned to sadness.

"I've never felt like this before." I trembled.

Then I clung to Jasper. He rubbed my back.

"Shush, I know." He calmed me.

"Maybe I should leave for a while." Edward said.

I looked around at him. "No!"

"Why not? I'm messing you all up." He said, the self loathing clear in his voice.

"Stop it!" I told him.

I froze. "No, okay. I've got to calm down. I'm leaving."

I said turning and heading towards the forest.

"What!?" Jasper cried.

"No, you aren't." Edward commanded.

"Just for a while, not forever. I need to think. I'll be back in…a day or so." I said.

"Alice, don't. Please." Jasper said, the two of them stepped in front of me.

I sighed. "Just let me think about things. I will come back. I always do."

I leant up and kissed Jasper lightly. I turned to Edward, pausing before I gave him a light friendly punch. He gave a small chuckle.

As I walked away I said, "Oh and Jazz, make sure you remove all the hate from Edward while I'm gone. He's a grumpy old man."

Later that night

I lay in the midst of the trees, moonlight shining down on me.

I haven't been this alone in so long, I hate it.

"Do I have good timing or what then?" Someone asked.

I turned my head to the side. Bella.

"Hi, are you my Bella this time or the evil one?" I asked.

"I'd say I'm your one this time. I'm here because you are so unhappy at least. Sorry about last time by the way." She said laying beside me, looking apologetic.

"It's alright, I don't blame you. If it was the other way around I would feel the same." I said. God, I'm talking to her like she's real.

"Just act like I'm real for now. You need a friend, someone who's not your lover or your ex either." She said staring up at the sky.

"Yup." I agreed.

"You're feeling really unhappy right now aren't you?" She asked.

I thought about it, held back the sobs, then nodded.

"Oh, Alice. Don't feel this way." She cooed.

"But I want to feel bad." I said.

"Oh don't misunderstand me. I agree, going from guy to guy. It's stupid. I mean you can't love two men at once." She said. (AN Cough cough, Jacob irony, cough cough :L)

"Thank you!" I said relieved.

"Well, you can. But you shouldn't." She rectified.

"Not helpful." I grumbled.

"What are you going to do?" She asked me.

"I have no idea, do you think they could be wrong?" I asked.

"Are you questioning the mind reader and the empath?" She asked raising an eyebrow.

I made a noise of frustration.

"Besides I can see in your mind, I am a figment of your imagination after all. Yes," She sighed, "you do still love him."

"No, I love Jasper! You hear me? J-A-S-W-A-R-D! …Damn it!" I moaned.

Bella started laughing, and so that set me off. It was fun. But really I was giggling alone in a forest…yeah…not so good.

"Can't you just be with them both?" She asked me.

Possibilities…

"Oh my goodness. You were actually thinking about it!" She said laughing.

"Have you seen them?" I asked her, laughing some more too.

Then we both stared off into space for a moment…

We coughed. "Anyway." I went on. "What do you think I should do?"

"Alice…I'm you. This will be what you think." She reminded me.

"Well, I'm questioning myself then." I smiled.

"Keep and eye on the future, if whatever you do affects anyone's relationship's, yours and Jasper's, mine and Edward's, yours and Edward's, mine and your's…well you get the picture." She suggested.

"Then I'm doing something wrong. Right." I nodded.

I checked the future.

Vision

Jasper and I were laying across the sofa. Just another lazy weekend. He took my face and tilted it up to meet his, we kissed.

"Alice, Bella and I need to talk to you about this wedding thing, we don't want to-" Edward said from somewhere behind us.

We continued kissing.

"Alice." Edward continued.

Ignored.

"Alice, Jasper would you stop the tongue wrestling? Some of us have eaten food today." Bella said. So she was there too was she?

Sorry, Edward. But I'm a bit busy at the moment. I thought to him.

Suddenly I felt a slight pain at the back of my head.

"Hey!" Jasper and I complained, breaking away from each other. He hit Jasper too, oh, he's so going to pay!

"God, stupid brother and pixie sister making out all the time. Wow, that sounded really odd didn't it?" Edward said chuckling.

"Yeah, it really did." Bella agreed. They walked away arms on each other's waists.

End of vision.

"Gah!" I cried, rubbing my face to get that out of my head.

"Did he just call me sister!?" I asked, shaking me head.

"Yes. But you were okay with it! And your thoughts sounded very sisterly to me. No hint of lust there." Bella reassured me.

"Yeah. I wouldn't let him call me that if we felt anything for each other. I mean it's not as if…" I trailed off.

"What?" Bella asked.

"Did…did he just say…" I began a smile spreading across my lips.

"Oh dear God." Bella groaned.

"Wedding!?" I squeaked.

"Crap, I was hoping you wouldn't catch that." Bella said, rolling her eyes." Wedding? How old was I there? About eighteen? Dear lord, I've become my mother. Oh, she is going to kill me."

I wasn't listening to what she was saying, "Oh my God! I'm going to plan it all! I'm thinking floral fragrances, lights, at our house I think. The Forks house? Yes, that would work. Oh, you're going to look gorgeous!"

"Wait, aren't you at all upset that he's getting married to someone else?" She asked, trying to take my mind off the wedding I think.

I thought about that for a moment. "I think if it was anyone other than you I would be. But it's you, I'd want you two to be happy."

Bella smiled and then, though it would pass through if she pressed harder, she placed her hand on my shoulder. "I think everything's going to be just fine, Alice."

I returned the smile.

She got up to walk away.

"But, Bella, what about the lust and the love, and Edward…" I tripped over my words.

"Do whatever you have to, Alice." She said before disappearing.

I stared at where she had disappeared. "Well, that's helpful!" I called after her. I could have sworn I heard a distant giggle.

I gave a huff.

"What day is it?" I asked myself.

8th, 9th, 10th…

"The eleventh of September…why does that ring a bell?" I pondered, then I remembered the obvious reason and made the sign of the cross. A vampire making the sign of the cross… but there was something else too. Why does it ring a bell!? "Ring a bell…bell…Bella…Bella's…Bella's birthday in two days!"

I grinned.

I sprang up and headed towards the direction I instinctively knew by now that Phoenix was in. ( AN I know the travelling to Phoenix is sooooo unrealistic but…It's a story! And vampires can do anything and you know it! :L)

On the Thursday morning, the morning of Bella's birthday, I stopped dead in my tracks while running. How could I show up to Bella's birthday without a present?

I walked into the city, it was still really early not at all light, I puzzled over what to get Bella.

What would a normal eleven year old want? …Wait, who am I kidding, of course Bella's not a normal eleven year old!

Then I instantly knew what to get Bella for her birthday, I dashed to the nearest book store.

BPOV

"Happy birthday to you. Happy birthday to you. Happy birthday, dear Bella, happy birthday to you!" I heard, though my mind was still hazy with tiredness.

I rolled over in my bed, groaning with lethargy.

"Come on, Bella, wake up! It's your birthday. I have presents for you." My mom tempted. But I was unimpressed and pressed my eyes tighter.

"One from me, your father and- oh." She faltered.

That caught my attention. I looked up at her and wiped the sleep out of my eyes.

"Morning." I greeted her. I wondered what was wrong, she was staring at the window, I followed her gaze. There was a neatly wrapped present there.

"That's a very lazy hiding place, mom." I joked.

"I don't remember getting that one, or placing it there for that matter." She puzzled.

I hopped out of bed suddenly feeling very awake, and took it, appraising it carefully.

I read the label: "Happy Birthday, Bella. Love, mom."

"Well it says it's from you, mom, you must have gotten it." I assured her. She looked perplexed for a moment, then she shook her head.

"Yes, I'm so forgetful sometimes, Bella." She noted, chuckling at herself.

I opened the present, it was a shame because it was so well presented, which contradicted my mother's usual style of wrapping. And inside was an early edition of Romeo and Juliet.

"Wow!" I gasped in awe. I had always wanted to read this. I ran over to my mother and hugged her.

Later on, when I was left to get ready, I looked at the copy again.

I knew my mother hadn't bought this for me. I had never mentioned my interest in reading Shakespeare around her. No, this was from…

I looked out of the window.

…This was from someone else.

APOV

I hoped that Bella would like her present as I ran back home. I took my time upon the journey this time, last time I was booking it.

So after two days of travel I was close to home.

I was passing tree by meaningless tree, but something caught my eye, so I backtracked and looked up to see Edward leaning back upon a tree branch.

I prepared myself for the onslaught of insults.

"A day or so?" He quoted slipping down from the tree.

"The "or so" usually leaves it open to alteration." I quipped, folding my arms.

He pursed his lips, "Where have you been exactly then?"

"That's not really any of your business." I retaliated, starting to walk back to the house.

"Yes, it is." He reasoned," It would have been my business about five years ago. So why not now?"

I looked down to the ground in shame, holding myself tighter. I kept walking.

"Alice, if you really wanted to get away from me you'd be at the house by now so just turn around and talk to me." He went on.

I sighed, then grudgingly I turned round to him.

"I'm angry with you." I informed him.

He stared for a moment before saying, "So you're angry at me because you're in love with me."

I rolled my tongue to the side and looked away.

But my eyes darted back as soon as I heard a chuckle escape his lips. I gave him a confused look.

He gave me his special crooked smile and then explained, "You asked Jasper to remove the hate, and that's what he did."

"But I'm back." I said, trying to mask my immediate joy.

"We didn't know when you'd be back. I only came out here because I heard your thoughts. I'm very in tune to you." He noted.

He opened his arms, "Can I?"

"Yes!" I squeaked running to hug him.

Oh, God. I've missed him so much, the real him.

But I need to keep it safe.

I stepped away without looking at him, "We should get back."

"Really, already?" He asked surprised.

"Mmmhhm." I hummed, walking away. "Jasper will wonder where you are, this wont look good."

"So, should I go into the house ahead of you?" He asked.

"No, just come in with me. No reason to hide that you came to see me." I told him.

"May I ask you a question?" He said. Ah, polite old Edward.

"You may." I smirked.

He smiled at me and then his face turned solemn. "What are you going to do about…everything."

I sighed again. "I have a long term plan but the short term is what is puzzling me right now."

"Mind divulging the long term, will it work?" He asked doubtfully.

"Oh, it'll work alright. But I'm afraid that I am unable to divulge at the moment." I laughed.

"And why not?" He laughed with me.

"It's a surprise." I whispered.

"Right. I guess I wont pry then. But can you tell me what it will lead to?" He questioned.

"Wow, you're curious tonight. It will lead to you and I being closer than ever." I smiled.

"Are we going to kill Jasper?" He asked, seriously.

"No!" I gasped.

He snickered and so did I.

"I'm only joking. You know if it weren't for Jasper and I loving the same woman we'd be, dare I say it, best friends." He reckoned.

"Well, I hate to be the barrier between you and that eventuality." I said.

"Jasper and I wouldn't have it any other way you know. We love you too much." He told me.

He brushed my hair away from my face, my skin burned where he had touched it. "You know I'm not deserving enough of all this love. Some girls only find one soul mate per life time, and that suits them just fine."

"Soul mate?" He asked beaming.

"Oh, yeah. Definitely." I nodded, beaming back.

I heard lightning quick steps, and then Jasper was stood before us.

My initial reaction was to embrace him, but as I took a step towards him I noticed how set his face was, determined.

"Jasper?" I said.

I hoped that he wasn't going to take Edward and I walking home together out of proportion.

"Nothing happened, Jasper, I swear it." Edward defended.

"No, I know." I spoke in a surprisingly calm tone.

"Jasper, what is it?" I fretted.

He looked at me, he appeared to be almost regretful.

I quickly glanced at Edward who was looking baffled.

I turned my attention back to Jasper.

"Alice, I think we should break up." He uttered reluctantly.

DUN DUN DUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay, you're either going to be like: "Wooooo! Maybe Edice have a chance now!"

Or: "Booooo! What the hell!? What happened to Jalice!?"

To be honest…I don't even know how I feel about this.

I'll either be giggling after I post this or kicking myself.

Oh, guys! I forgot to tell you this last time but I met Charlie Bewley who plays Demetri in New Moon. He. Is. Awesome. I mean, seriously such cool and down to earth guy. I urge you all to become Team Demetri. :L

Oh and please vote on my poll, Team Alice or Team Bella. I'm curious. Team Alice all the way btw. Even though I think Bella is the shizz. ;)

Okay, I'm done rambling. Please review guys!

Love from,

Livvy.