The Love Letter Lovelies

by Glee-chan

20.

Her body hummed with numbness as she laid slightly passed out next to an already sleeping Sora. She had really done it. She and Sora had retreated to her room and had sex for the first time. The first moments were frightening to her, but after the initial jitters Shiho realized it was the most pleasurable thing in the world. Sora had lived up to her promise and was gentle, and a kind teacher. When it came time for Shiho to take the lead, Sora guided her along without making her feel like a hopeless child. She was happy when she made Sora climax, and repeated her lessons again shortly after without guidance.

The afternoon turned dark, and the two entangled themselves in the throws of passion throughout the night. Shiho didn't know how many times she orgasmed, or how many times Sora did for that matter. The end result was Sora passing out before Shiho, leaving her to watch with a blurred image of the sleeping pretty girl. It seemed so silly to worry about the first time now that she had done it. It was so simple and felt really good. And Sora… she was wonderful. Sora was the person she loved.

"I wonder if you love me." Shiho whispered at the sleeping Sora. She leaned over and kissed her forehead. "It's okay if you don't."

Sora just smiled in her sleep and muffled a "Shi…"

Giggling to herself Shiho wondered if she was getting a new nickname. She called Kaede 'Kae' afterall. It wasn't strange for 'Shiho-tan' to get shorten to 'Shi'. She ran her fingers through the girls hair and watched her sleep all the more. She looked so peaceful. She must had been holding all that lustful feelings in for so long it wore her out to finally release it. Shiho wondered inwardly if it was cruel of her to make Sora wait as long as she did.

"Shaved ice…" Sora mumbled from her dream.

Shiho giggled. She was completely taken with her. Her pragmatic brain was telling her that after having sex for the first time her feelings weren't being rational. She had only been with Sora for a short time. It was silly for her to be in love with the pretty girl and expect her to be loved in returned. But Shiho didn't want to think about that. She felt to good and didn't want to ruin the fantasy.

"No…don't." Sora's eyebrows went down.

Shiho stopped petting Sora's hair for a moment, wondering if that was what upset her. But Sora didn't seem to notice, she was shaking her head back and forth. "A nightmare?" Shiho whispered. She let out a soft Shhhh noise and pet her again. "It's okay, Sora-chan…"

"No! No no no!" Sora moaned, shaking her head on the pillow once more.

Shiho wondered if she should wake her up. She had heard stories of people waking up sleeping folks having nightmares with bad results. But she didn't like how scared Sora looked. She tried to calm her down with more petting but Shiho was staring to feel Sora's forehead sweat. Sora eyes were clinched tight and she kept moaning, with the occasional shake of the head.

Sora mumbled something unintelligible. It had to do with not wanting something. Shiho wasn't sure. Then, loud and clear, Sora whimpered "Please, Kae…."

Shiho's hand stopped petting. Her heart pinched. She should have known this was coming. She didn't have any doubt in her mind that during their night activities Sora was into Shiho… but in her dreams she still longed for Kaede, it seemed. Of course this was the case. Shiho had put her hopes too high. She had fallen in love, but Sora still hadn't. Even though she could justify everything, she felt a tear roll down her cheek.

She turned away, her body flopping up and down from the waterbed, wiping her tear. This was just something she'd have to live with. She'd have to win Sora's heart. But she couldn't think of anything of the sort. In a way she felt rejected. She gave her whole self to Sora, and Sora was dreaming of another girl. She felt another tear fall from her eye and she stifled out a moan.

"Shi…." Sora's voice sounded from behind her. "Shiho!"

That last time came in a shout, as Sora must of sprang from her sleep, sitting up. The bed rocked and rolled over the sudden movement, caused Shiho to roll her on her side, facing Sora. Sora's panicked face and Shiho's tearful eyes met. Quickly Shiho tried to hide her expression, but it was too late.

"Shiho-tan, what's wrong?" Sora reached for her. Shiho flinched. Sora withdrew her hands. "Did… I take advantage of you in my sleep?"

"No." Shiho whimpered wishing she'd stop crying.

Sora looked out of sorts. Her dream had freaked her out and when she woke up she saw a crying Shiho. Shiho could only guess what her brain was trying to do to figure this mess out. As much as she wanted to Shiho couldn't stop crying. How could she tell Sora that she knew she was dreaming about Kaede? It would be too cruel, especially since Sora was trying so hard to forget her.

"Tell me." Sora looked lost. "Are you upset about your parents?"

"No."

"What then?" Sora pleaded. "I want to help you."

"It's not … it's not your fault." Shiho mumbled from underneath her hands pressed against her face. "I shouldn't expect for you to be over Kaede-chan so soon… I'm just being emotional. I'm sorry."

Sora was suddenly clutching Shiho's arms pulling her up. "What do you mean? What does Kae have to do with anything?"

"You still love her." Shiho choked out. "I told myself not to fall for you until you gave her up, but…but I couldn't help it. So… so that's why I'm acting overly girly."

"I did give her up." Sora said firmly. "I did!"

"But… you talk in your sleep." Shiho sniffed.

Sora let Shiho go, and looked mortified. "It's… it's not what you think."

"You were calling for her." Shiho looked away. "I know you care for me… and that you weren't using me before… so don't feel bad. I just… I just let myself-"

"It's not what you think!" Sora repeated in a raised voice.

"Sora-chan-"

"The dream, it was a nightmare, Shiho-tan!" Sora pulled Shiho's face so they were looking at each other eye-to-eye. "Kae was trying to…"

But she stopped. She looked like she didn't want to go on, but Shiho needed to know now. "She was doing what?"

"In the dream, she wanted us to break up. She said she loved me. I told her no. And she tried to… tried to have sex with me." Sora shallowed. "And I tried to fight her but for some reason I couldn't move. And you were there watching shouting at me like you hated me. But I couldn't move. I couldn't!"

Shiho forgot about everything and hugged Sora. How could she be so stupid? She knew there was a nightmare going on beforehand. But the very mention of Kaede's name made Shiho forget about all that and jump to conclusions. In the dream she was trying fight Kaede off, not calling for her. How could she be so dumb?

"I'm sorry I freaked out." Shiho whimpered.

"I'm sorry I scared you." Sora apologized as well. There was a pause then Sora ventured. "You said… you said you fell for me."

"Huh? Did I?" Shiho was glad Sora couldn't see her face from the embrace. "Oh."

"Is that true?"

Seeing no sense in hiding it now, Shiho nodded her head. "Yes."

"You're in love with me?"

"Yes."

"Really?"

"I told you I was." Shiho pulled away from the hug feeling exposed, regardless of her nudity. "I understand if you don't feel the same just yet… so don't worry."

Sora blinked a bit, looked away, then turned back to her. "Could you tell me?"

"No way." Shiho gave a light push to Sora. "It's awkward."

"Just say it."

"No."

"Just once, I want to hear you actually say it." Sora pushed on.

Shiho gave a slight pout. "Fine! I love you. There. Do you like seeing me get embarrassed?"

Sora rolled her eyes. "Say like you mean it."

Taking in a deep breath, she turned her focus into Sora's eyes. Even though her vision was blurred, for some reason everything about Sora was in vivid detail. "I love you Sora."

Sora's mouth opened then clothed. She pressed a hand to her heart and gave that crooked smile of hers. "Thank you for telling me like you mean it Shiho-tan. You really do love me don't you?"

Shiho nodded.

"When did you fall for me?"

"I don't know." Shiho lied. She knew she had been on the verge of falling for her for a long time, but their first time was what pushed her over the edge.

"I fell in love with you… when you told me 'from now on, I'm yours'." Sora whispered.

"Wait, did you just confess to me?" Shiho felt her body tingle.

Sora also nodded.

"So you don't love Kaede-chan anymore?"

"I love you, silly." Sora looked away. "Why do you think I was having that nightmare?"

"So…" Shiho crossed her arms under her chest, taking a business tone to her voice. "I love you, you love me… what's that mean now?"

"I don't know." Sora laughed. "I find myself not being able to think straight when I'm around you."

"That's because you're horny all the time."

"It's not just that." Sora didn't look the slightest bit uncomfortable admitting she was a nymphomaniac. "You said to Aunty that you thought I was addicting. Well I think it's the same way for me. I can't ever figure you out, it's sort of thrilling."

Shiho got on her knees, reach forward, and pulled Sora into her arms. Their lips met. After the kiss, Sora squeaked and flopped over on her back with Shiho falling on top of her. They both laughed for a bit, then Shiho returned kissing her. Sora opened her mouth and Shiho introduced her tongue inside. Both moaning, Sora wrapped her arms around Shiho, then spun around so she reclaimed the top. She pulled away, exposing that fire that flickered in her eye when she was turned on.

"I want you so bad." Sora spoke plainly, then warned. "I don't think I can be as gentle this time around. I want to hear you scream my name."

A bit of fear seized in Shiho from the bluntness of it. She felt a bit scared, but she realized that she also wanted to accept it. Sora had urges, and Shiho had to understand that about her. She wanted to be the type of lover Sora could feel free with. She'd just have to drop her unease and trust her. "D-Don't hold back, Sora."

Sora's eyes flickered again. "Shiho…"

"You won't hurt me."

Shiho could see the last bit of reserve in Sora's face. Even now with permission she was stopping herself. Then a thought came to her. Sora wanted to be encouraged not a written letter of approval. Shiho needed to dig down deep and become dirty for Sora. Would she sound like a fool doing it?

"Sora… take me. I want you too fuck me."

That's all it took. The uncaged beast was sprang loose into the world and Sora ravaged Shiho. Talking dirty became easier in the throws of passion. The more she did, the more she talked or moaned, the more turned on Sora became. Soon she didn't have a conscious thought. She automatically felt the things she was saying. She didn't care how loud she was. She found herself pulling hair, scratching and clawing… biting… She never in her life felt like such a wild animal. The more aggressive she got, the more wilder Sora became.

And like Sora had prophesied Shiho screamed Sora's name. Then a half an hour later, Shiho made Sora return the favor.