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Anyways another chapter inspired by a song. I think it's the last one with one, but not making any promises.

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Song owned by Lady Antebellum.

Chapter 20

Brooke's POV

I woke up to see Alanna asleep next to me. I smiled, just staring at this little girl who was so perfect in my eyes. Why would anybody leave her? Believe me when I say that I am messed up in the head, but I'm still here protecting her from the monsters under the bed. I sighed and stretched out a little. Then taking a look around, I realized this wasn't my room. I was still wearing my clothes from last night. Taking another look, I saw Randy's bag in the corner. What was I doing here? I don't even remember coming back to the hotel. I grabbed my shoes slipped them on and walked out of the room. Randy was just waking up. "Hey" he said in a sleepy tone. He moved to sit up on the couch and I sat beside him.

"Hey umm Randy, how did I get here?" he sighed loudly, damn it was just a question. What pissed him off?

"What is the last thing you remember?"

" Annoying Ted, beating up John, annoying Ted and did I mention annoying Ted?" He smiled a little. I got him to smile for half a second then it was back to pissed off. What the fuck did I do?

"Well after that you and Maryse got on the bar and starting dancing."

"Sounds fun" I laughed, he wasn't amused.

"Did you forget you are clumsy outside the ring? Which I still don't understand by the way."

"Yeah I always have been. You have known this what our whole lives? What's the problem now?"

"You fell and hit your head. You scared the shit out of me. We got the doctors and everything. You finally woke up thank God. Then I brought you back to the hotel. The doctors said nothing was wrong, Why can't you remember then? I swear if they lied to me.." I cut him off.

"Chill Randy, I'm fine."

"You almost died!"

"Now you are being overdramatic, the doctors said I was fine. It's not like I have never blacked out before. Hello Randy what do we do for a living?" He shrugged.

"I guess." He laid his head back and started rubbing his neck. He really was to big for the couch.

"You could have slept on the bed"

"I didn't know how you would feel about that. You know after everything."

"We always shared a bed before. This isn't are first break up."

"I know, I don't know what is so different this time." I know, everything I was running away from on the inside caught up with me. I don't want it to get to you too. "Look about Eve. I am so sorry. I never meant to hurt you, I was being stupid"

"Randy I forgive you for all of that. I know you were just confused and thought you were protecting me from you."

"How did…let me guess Cody and Ted?"

"Yeah, they thought it would make me feel better."

"Why didn't you ever come to me, if you knew?" I just looked down. If I looked into his eyes it was over.

"Brooke what the hell is going on? I haven't seen you like this in years."

"Like what exactly?" oh no I looked into his eyes. He was so worried. I can't let him think I need saving. I don't need saving I'm fine. He hesitated to answer.

"Like…like..You're dead inside. What happen with your mom?" I had to change this subject quick. I don't want to talk about. I wish they understood.

"Oh shit what time is it?" He seemed confused at first, then realized I didn't want to speak of it. I could tell he was hurt. My whole life I ran to him with all my pain, but I just can't this time.

"it's almost eleven"

"Alright well I have training at noon and appearances all day. So I will see you later." I got up and threw a pillow at him. I grabbed my jacket and as I was putting it on, I felt a bouncy ball hit my head. "Ow what the hell?"

"You threw a pillow at me"

"Oh I'm sorry did the big bad pillow hurt you?" I said in a baby voice taunting him.

"It did. It hurt me on the inside, I did nothing to you and you hit me." He went back to laying down, closing his eyes. "Babe I know I'm hot, but please stop staring" He smirked and went to fall back asleep. I went and grabbed a cold bottle of water and poured it all over him. He jumped up and starting screaming. "What the fuck? Shit it's so cold!" I was laughing so hard. "Randy your daughter is sleeping in the next room, calm your shit down" He glared at me and I bolted for the door before he could catch me.

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I was tweeting some fans on my phone and Natalya was half asleep in the chair next to me. We were in yet another waiting room for our fourth appearance of the day. Not to mention I'm not comfortable at all. I'm wear a skin tight, thigh length, long sleeved, v neck cut black dress and some red stilettos. All in the wardrobe of a diva. "Alright girls one more interview." One of our agents said. Natalya and I groaned. "Come on it's almost midnight. Are you kidding me?" I was ready to beg to go home. "Please tell me you are kidding. Pretty please." Natayla added. "It's the last one I promise." We whined a little more, but it's all apart of the dream job. My phone started ringing, it was Randy. Alanna probably was calling to say goodnight. I signaled for them to hold on while I answered.

"Hello"

"Hey Brooke, I was wondering if you could come by. Al isn't feeling well, she is asking for you."

"What's wrong with her? Did you call the doctor?"

"Coming from the girl who hates doctors."

"She is just a kid, she needs doctors, I don't. Now I'm serious did you call?"

"Relax it's just a stomach ache."

"Are you sure it's not food poisoning?"

"Babe I'm sure. Are you coming or not?"

"Umm hold on" I looked at them with pleading eyes. "She is sick and asking for me. Please can we skip this?"

"We promised them an interview." I looked at Nattie, I felt really bad she was just as tired as me.

"I'll cover for you, go see the kid."

"Hey Randy I'm on my way." I hung up and lunged at Nattie to give her a hug. "Thank you so much, I so owe you" She chuckled a bit and nodded. I grabbed my stuff and went racing back to the hotel.

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I felt like I had been knocking on the door for an hour. In reality, it's only been thirty seconds. Finally he opens. I walk right pass him.

"Where is she?" He looked me up and down raising his eyebrows.

"I told you I had an interview. I came straight here."

" You could have changed before you got here. I told you only a stomach ache."

"Why does it matter anyways?"

"Well this only being friends and nothing else will not work."

"You have seen me dressed like this plenty of times."

"Yeah and how many one night stands have we had? You know before the marriage thing."

"Oh…I forgot about those."

"Forgot? Kill my ego why don't you!"

"You know what I meant. Now control your hormones, we have a child to take care of!" I slipped off my shoes and Randy pointed to the bedroom. He leaned against the door and I went and sat next to her. "You okay love?" she looked up at me with those eyes. Her and her daddy have that stare that get you locked in another world. She hugged me tightly. "I feel better with you here mama Brooke." Hearing her say that made me feel nothing but happy inside. Anything that bothered me before has been forgotten at that moment. "You want me to play you some music, to help you fall asleep" She nodded. What can I say I am rubbing off on her. The girl sleeps with an ipod in her ear. I pulled out my ipod and put on her playlist. "Daddy can you come lay with me." He nodded and came to the other side of the bed. I leaned over and kissed her on the forehead. "Ok make sure she only listens to her playlist. We both know there are a lot of songs on there she can't listen to." I was starting to get up, when Alanna pulled me back. "Where are you going?" I looked at randy and he shrugged. "Nowhere, I'm staying right here." She smiled and cuddled up next to me. Thank God she was between me and Randy right now. It's like he could see right through me. He knew how much I wanted to be with him. If he tried to make me his at this moment, he could. Alanna is saving my ass right now. After listening to half of the first song she played, she was asleep. "I wonder if I am doing a good job." I looked up at him, he looked like he had been thinking this for awhile.

"You are, I should be asking that not you. I wish you could see how much you have changed, since she was born. I mean I had lots of fun with playboy Randy, but also had so many fights with him. I like you better now."

"Oh so you didn't like me before?"

"I hated you" I tried to keep a serious face but failed.

"You love me" we both laughed lightly.

"I know" if he only knew how much I meant that answer. He smiled grabbing my Ipod, taking it out of Alanna's ears and into his. He started scrolling down and then looked up at me with raised eyebrows.

"So umm Plies one more time applying to us anytime soon?" I chuckled a bit.

"Shut up. Didn't I say control your hormones?" He smirked. Oh my that smirk, always gets me. I looked at the time. Before I could open my mouth to tell him I was leaving, he put one of the ear buds in my ear. I recognized the song right away. "When did you start listening to this kind of music?"

"I don't but this hits close to home." I was lost in his eyes again, while the song blasted in my ear.

Lyin' here with you so close to me. It's hard to fight these feelings, when it feels so hard to breathe. Caught up in this moment, caught up in your smile.

There goes the music playing as if it's my life they wrote about. I did start finding it hard to breathe and I couldn't break his stare.

I've never opened up to anyone. So hard to hold back, when I'm holding you in my arms. But we don't need to rush this, lets just take it slow. Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight. Just a touch of the fire burnin' so bright. No I don't wanna mess this thing up, no I don't wanna push to far. Just a shot in the dark that you just might, be the one I've been waiting for my whole life. So baby I'm alright with just a kiss goodnight.

Is he? Is the love of my love. Maybe he is. He is the one that's always been there. Granted I have great friends, but he is the one I always run to first. Shit, this song and his stare at the same time. I don't know how long I can fight.

I know that if we give this a little time, It'll only bring us closer to the love we wanna find. It's never felt so real, no it's never felt so right. Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight. Just a touch of the fire burnin' so bright. No I don't wanna mess this thing up, no I don't wanna push to far. Just a shot in the dark that you just might, be the one I've been waiting for my whole life. So baby I'm alright with just a kiss goodnight. No I don't wanna say goodnight. I know it's time to leave, but you'll be in my dreams tonight…tonight..,tonight….

Oh no, he is leaning in. I'm fucked. He brushed some hair out of my face and slowly his lips made it's way to mine. It just felt so right kissing him.

Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight. Just a touch of the fire burnin' so bright. No I don't wanna mess this thing up, no I don't wanna push to far. Just a shot in the dark that you just might, be the one I've been waiting for my whole life. So baby I'm alright lets do this right with just a kiss goodnight. With a kiss goodnight, a kiss goodnight.

He deepened the kiss, but I snapped back into reality. Alanna was in the bed. I broke the kiss and looked towards her. I think he got the message, I guess he was just as lost in that kiss as me. I went and slipped back on my shoes, before I could make it to the door, he stopped me. "Can't we talk about this tomorrow."

"You kissed me back."

"State the obvious Randal." he glared at me.

"You know what I mean." He grabbed a hold of one of hands and rubbed the back of it soflty. "I lied. I lied when I said I can handle this. Yes I can't live without you, but I can't promise you I will stop kissing you when I want. Tonight proved that I can and you will kiss back."

"What so this was a test?" I scoffed

"Don't get all bitchy. Yes, if you were to get angry then I would know there was no chance. You kissed back though, so I'm fighting for you."

"Bitchy? Nice way to win me over."

"Win you over? Please, by the end of the week I will get in your pants."

"Oh so it's about getting into my pants." He smirked

"It's a bonus." I don't know what it is about that smirk, but the next thing I know is I have my arms wrapped around his neck. Every kiss with him feels better and better each time. We pulled apart and smiled. "Come on" I whispered. We intertwined hands, but he went one way and me the other pulling us back to where we were. "Where are you going?"

"The couch"

"Randy. You are not getting any now."

"What? Why not?" he whined

"Because of Alanna, she will freak if neither of us are at her side, when she wakes up."

"Well then let's do it now, shower, then slip back in bed."

"She could walk in on us, no door for the living room." He gave me puppy dog eyes and I returned the look with a stern one.

"I know, I know stop thinking with my hormones." He walked in to the bedroom mumbling something along the line of "I can't wait to have a two bedroom room again" I shook my head chuckled. Following him in.

I know how selfish it is to want to be with him, but I can't help it. I pray I don't bring him back to the dark he fought hard to get out of. I'm still stuck, weird thing is I see nothing, but light when I am with them.

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