This is my life Chapter 20, a twilight fanfic

This is my life

Chapter 20

JPOV:

I prepared myself and pressed my warm lips to her soft, delectable lips in a sweet slow kiss. I slipped my hands around her tiny waist and brought her body closer to my overheated self. She put her hands behind my head and stroked my hair.

I pulled apart and stared at her, panting slightly. I noticed that she was panting. I smiled a sweet smile at her and kissed her lips softly.

"I shouldn't be doing this Jared" Bella whispered. I chuckled.

"You broke up with him Bella, how is this bad?" I asked.

"You're Jake's best friend! I can't do that! He might not like it!" Bella exclaimed. I laughed.

"Jacob doesn't mind that we are together. He knows that I like you and that I imprinted on you. He doesn't mind it at all. As long as I don't hurt you like the leech did then I'm fine. He knows that I wouldn't hurt you" I said. She smiled at me.

"Thanks Jared. Can you take me home now please?" Bella asked. I nodded and stood up, taking her into my arms bridal style. I didn't want her to trip and hurt herself. I placed her in the car and got into the driver's seat. I drove off and headed towards Jake's house.

JPOV:

When Jared called me to tell me that Bella asked him to pick her up I was curious. I knew that something had happened since Bella usually goes to him when something happens between her and Edward. She went to him when she felt that their relationship was failing. I remember since he told me.

Flashback-

We were at a beach party for Emily's birthday and I saw Bella pull Jared aside. I was about to go over to them when I saw that it was an intimate discussion. Bella was leaning towards Jared and was crying, holding his hand in hers. I wanted to go over there and comfort my cousin but she looked okay with Jared.

I heard bits and pieces of the conversation with my…dun dun dun! SUPER SONIC HEARING! (a/n this is the part where you clap for Jacob and his SUPER SONIC HEARING!).

All I caught out of their intense conversation was "falling apart…annoying…wish this wasn't happening….he doesn't know a thing…wish he did…" I decided that the person that they were talking about what Edward. I had a feeling that Bella was losing interest in him and he had no idea.

I felt kind of bad for Edward Cullen, since he cared so much for Bella, but the imprinting effect got to her, so now she is slowly starting fall out of love with him. I just hope that he doesn't figure this out. I turned back to Bella and Jared and saw him kiss her cheek, making Bella blush and turn her head away from him. At least she is being loyal, showing him that at the moment, Bella was taken.

End Flashback

I lay back in my bed, thinking about Bella and what she has gone through: the abuse, the court trial, moving to La Push, switching schools and Jared imprinting on her. My mind crossed to Lori, remembering what happened when I imprinted on her. I felt so alive when that happened, like I was a new person even though I was still Jacob Black.

I smiled. Bella approved of my relationship with Lori, so did the pack. Lori knew how to take care of herself, so I knew that she would be okay…even though that situation happened, I knew that she was tough.

I wonder how Edward is fairing.

EPOV:

I climbed up the stairs to my room…alone. I was always alone now that Bella broke up with me. I knew I deserved it but it didn't help the pain I was feeling in my heart. Rose was the only person that agreed with Bella. She felt that I deserved it since I was so controlling and rude when we broke up.

I think that Edward should just get over it. No wonder Bella dumped his ass, he was so rude to her when he KISSED Jessica Stanley. If I were Bella, I would have dumped him too just for that.

I sighed to myself. I knew that I deserved it, I had broken the heart of my one love and I could never get her back. I couldn't even ask Alice to check up on her since she was always with the mutts. I lay down in my bed and thought back to the pass few months when I had a beautiful angel in my life.

I thought back to my first sight of her, my first date, first kiss, the trial, and lastly…or breakup. I could never forgive myself for losing the reason for my existence. I made a mistake and I could never take it back. I knew Alice was heartbroken that Bella would not marry me; that was all she thought about. How she never saw this coming, how she could have prevented it. It was not her fault. It was mine. I did it, I kissed Jessica and now Bella was out of my life.

Emmett agrees with Rosalie, which hurts a lot, since I thought he had my back. He was glad that Bella got rid of me, he thought that I screwed this up and that I had to pay for what I did. He thought that this was a good punishment.

"Edward…son?"

"Come in Esme" I said monotonously.

Esme entered the room and sat down on my couch. "Edward…I'm sorry about all this"

"It's not your fault Edward, all this happened on accident. Don't dwell on it son. It will only make it worse" She said, rubbing my back comfortably.

"But it hurts so much mom…I lost the only thing that meant something to me in my life. She left me because of my stupid mistake. She won't even see me…and I can't even go convince her that I do love her and that it was all a mistake because she is with the mutts and it would break the treaty" I said, whimpering.

"Son…maybe this was for the best. Maybe…this was meant to happen. I know it sounds crazy but is you guys were meant to be together then I think she might have come back to you sooner" Esme said.

I sighed and looked away. I heard her sigh, get up and head out to the kitchen. I decided that I would try to get her back…if she ever came over to Forks again.

BPOV:

The next school day (Monday)

I crossed the patch of grass on the side of the school and headed towards the lunch tables. Jared sat with Seth, Quil, and Collin, another new wolf in the pack. I head over to them and sat on Jared's lap. He kissed my neck and nuzzled into my shoulder.

"It's great to see you too Jared" I said teasingly. He smirked into my shoulder and closed his eyes.

"Hey Bella, can I have a hug?!" Seth yelled cheerfully. I laughed and attempted to get up.

"Jared let me go!" I said exasperated.

"No. My Bella, mine!" Jared growled at Seth. I laughed, causing Seth to smirk.

"Wow Bella…I didn't know that Jared wore the pants in the relationship" Seth teased. I glared.

"He doesn't" I said. Jared's head shot up.

"HEY!" He said, letting me go.

"RUN!" I yelled to Seth and we ran to our AP history class and sat down. Jared sat down next to me and grabbed my hand.

"My Bella" he said. I laughed and squeezed his hand

"I think I like you Jared"

He grinned "I think I like you too Bella"

Class proceed from there. I sat with Jared in just about every class. I sat with Seth in the only class that I didn't have with Jared: ceramics. I sat with Seth and began working on my sculpture, which was a wolf on a rock. I was making it for Jared.

"Hey Bella, is that for Jared?" Seth asked. I nodded my head and smiled. Jared had been such a great help with everything that I was going through. He was there for me during my breakup with Edward, with the situation of me growing apart from Edward and everything else in between.

Flashback-

We sat in my room at Jake's house on the floor. I was crying hysterically and Jared had a whole box of tissues next to him already half empty.

"I know exactly what will fill you up Bella!" Jared shouted, running to his car outside. I waited patiently, crying the whole time. I had no idea what he had in mind but I thought 'whatever' and waited.

He came into the room with a large box of chocolates in his hand. I stared at him curiously, wondering what they were for.

"I heard that girls like chocolates when they break up with someone. I got you some this morning when you were sleeping. I went to the store as soon as it was open. Here, they are for you" Jared said sheepishly.

I giggled, took the box and grabbed a handful of chocolates. I offered some to Jared, who helped himself to a few chocolates. He looked at my handful of chocolate and smirked.

"Bella isn't that a lot of chocolate? You are going to get sick…and fat…" Jared said, proceeding to laugh. I glared at him and he kept laughing.

"You are so mean Jared!" I snapped at him. He gripped my shoulder and dragged my body closer to his. I just gave up being angry at him and leaned into his chest smiling.

-end flashback-

I finished sculpting my wolf and brought it to my teacher, Mrs. Lopez. She took it and put it with the others on counter. I went to my desk and began to study for a math test next period. I looked at the book and the examples.

"Geez Bella, studying already? We have lunch to study all this math stuff for the test. Even I don't study and I'm in the same class as you" Seth said.

I laughed and continued looking over the book. Seth took his seat next to me and began looking over stuff he didn't understand.

Ring!

I put my book away as the bell rang for lunch to start. I got up and went with Seth over to the table where Jared sat with Quil and Embry. I sat next to Jared and snuggled into his chest.

"Aww! Isn't that cute Bella?" Seth teased. I stuck my tongue at him and snuggled back into Jared's chest. Seth grabbed his math book and started looking at the chapter we were on. I decided that I might as well do the same and grabbed my own Calculus book and started reviewing.

"You have a test or something Bells?" Jared asked. I nodded my head and continued studying. The bell rang and Seth and I headed to our Calculus class in the 3rd building. I sat at my chair in the middle of the room and Seth took his seat next to me. I set my two pencils on the desk and reviewed my notes one last time.

"Okay class, time to take your test. Put your books away, get pencils out and get ready to start. Remember to show your work. Even if you don't get the answer, at least show me the work so I can give you partial credit" our teacher, Mr. Harris said, pulling out the test packets. I took my packet, wrote my name and began. I looked at the first problem:

And began solving. By the time I was done with the test the class was almost over. I walked up to hand the teacher my test and sat down at my desk. When my butt hit the chair, Seth stood up and headed to the front with his test. He turned it in and sat back down.

"Alright, those who are finished may go outside and sit on the brick area outside the classroom. Nowhere else or the privilege will be taken away for good" Mr. Harris said dismissing half the class. I followed Seth and sat outside the classroom.

"How do you think you did?" Seth asked me as we sat on the brick bench.

"Um, I think I did well; at least a B or B+. Hopefully I did well. How about you? Did you think the test was hard?" I asked him.

He shrugged his shoulders "a bit. But I figured out the ones I had problems with. I'm not sure if the answer is right but whatever".

I smiled and went back inside the room a few minutes later when the bell rang. I pack my backpack up and headed to my next class, which was AP biology. I was excited because this was the class that I had with Jared. We only had this class and AP history together.

"Hey beautiful, how was your test?" Jared asked me as soon as I walked into the classroom.

"Eh, it was good. Just glad that it's over" I said to him, grabbing his hand. He led me to my seat and sat next to me.

He got out his phone and started texting someone. I got curious but decided not to butt in.

JPOV:

I got out my sidekick phone and texted everyone, reminding them that Bella's birthday was in two days on Saturday and that I wanted to go to the amusement park in Port Angeles for her birthday. I also made sure that everyone had her gifts. I wanted her to have a great birthday even though she hates it.

-Friday evening-

BPOV:

Ring! Ring!

I sat in my bedroom reading Wuthering Heights when the phone rang. I let it ring, hoping that Jake would answer it. He did thank goodness. I was so absorbed in my book that I didn't even hear him yell my name until he was at my door with the phone in his hand.

"Bella, its Jared for you"

I shot off my bed and reached for the phone. He gave me the white cordless phone and left. I said "hello?" into the phone when suddenly I was bombarded by music and Jared's voice singing into the receiver:

Baby you know that I miss you, I wanna get with you tonight
But I cannot baby girl and that's the issue
Girl you know I miss you, I just wanna kiss you
But I can't right now so baby kiss me thru the phone, I'll see you later on
Kiss me thru the phone, see you when I get home

Baby I know that you like me, you my future wifey
Soulja Boy Tell 'Em, yeah
You can be my Bonnie, I can be your Clyde
You could be my wife, text me, call me

I need you in my life, yeah all day everyday I need ya
And every time I see ya my feelings get deeper
I miss ya, I miss ya, I really wanna kiss you but I can't
Six, seven, eight, triple nine, eight, two, one, two

Baby I been thinking lately so much about you
Everything about you, I like it, I love it
Kissing you in public, thinking nothing of it
Roses by the dozen, talking on the phone

Baby you so sexy, your voice is so lovely
I love your complexion, I miss ya, I miss ya, I miss ya
I really wanna kiss you but I can't
Six, seven, eight, triple nine, eight, two, one, two

She call my phone like
Da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da
We on the phone like
Da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da

We taking pics like
Da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da
She dial my number like
Da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da
Six, seven, eight, triple, nine, eight, two, one, two

After he finished singing he paused for a moment. I was giggling and laughing so hard that Jake came into my room to see what happened. I was blushing.

"Thanks Jared! That was so cute! I loved it" I said.

"Happy early birthday Bella" Jared said. I froze and whirled to the calendar. It was September 12th...meaning that tomorrow would be Saturday, September 13th. Aka my 18th birthday. I gasped and Jared got concerned.

"What's wrong Bells?" Jared asked.

"My birthday...I didn't know that it had come so soon. I wasn't prepared" I explained. He sighed.

"I thought something else had happened" he said in relief.

"But mu birthday is something bad!!! I don't like my birthday! I hate getting old Jared" I whined into the phone. He sighed.

"Bella, there is nothing wrong with getting older. I am getting older too so don't worry you are not the only one getting old" He said. I decided to give it up right now.

'Okay fine…wanna come over?" I asked sheepishly.

"Sure. I'll be there in 10 minutes" Jared said and hung up the phone.

I set the phone on the dresser and noticed that Jake was still standing at the door, smirking. I stared at him confused. What is he staring at? I thought.

"You're so funny Bells; making a big deal over a special day. Don't worry about your birthday, just let people do stuff for you and enjoy it. Even just for one day" Jake said kindly. I smiled and nodded my head, thinking about it.

"Well, tomorrow is your party so Emily is having a party for you so don't forget to get ready for it"

I smiled and went to bed, since I was tired. I dreamt of Jared's kind face and sweet kisses on my cheek.

-Morning-

"HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY FROM ALL OF US TO YOU! WE WISH YOU A HAPPY BIRTDHAY SO WE CAN PARTY TWO! HURRAY!"

I was startled awake by singing- more like shouting- in my room and saw Jake, Jared, Embry and the rest of the wolf pack all decked out in party gear with balloons in their hands.

"Wh..what time- yawn- is it?" I asked sleepily.

'You silly moose, it's your birthday and its eight in the morning so get up!" Quil said. I sat up and leaned again the headboard of the bed.

"So now I'm a moose Quil?" I asked, lifting an eyebrow.

"Yes but you're a pretty moose. You make the other mooses go squawk! (a/n: taken from the princess diaries two)" he said. I just burst into laughter.

"Thanks guys but I hope that you didn't get me anything" I said.

"Well to bad, because we got you gifts! That you will have to open art your party later on tonight" Jared said. I just shook my head and sighed.

"Fine, but I won't like it. I asked not to get anything though guys! I hate getting gifts" I said.

"Well, sorry Bella. But we like getting you gifts because you are special to all of us and it would make us all happy if you would except the gifts; even if you don't want to" Emily said.

Great, now I want to take the gifts I thought

"Okay, let me just get changed and then we can do something together" I said, getting up and grabbing some clothes Emily gave to me. I headed into the bathroom and got changed. I had a white shirt with the British flag on it, with a pair of blue jean shorts with black and tan sandals. I thought I looked good so I grabbed my purse and headed to the kitchen.

"Hey good morning sweetheart!" Billy exclaimed. I smiled and hugged him in thanks.

"So what are you all going to be doing today? Heading out or something?" Billy asked. I shrugged my shoulders.

"We are going to the amusement park today. We want to ride the rides and have an awesome time!" Seth exclaimed.

I groaned "you guys are going to make me ride all those extreme roller coasters? Seriously?" I asked. They nodded and grabbed food from the refrigerator. I went into the cupboards and got out a bowl and some captain crunch cereal and sat down to eat. Jared grabbed another bowl and joined me.

"Come on Bella, can we please go?" he asked. I sighed and nodded my head.

"Thank you! We are going to go on all the awesome rides! Now hurry and eat because it's an hour or so drive up there!" Jared shouted, stuffing his face with food. I laughed and continued eating.

"Okay Billy, we are going to head up to Port Angeles right now. We will come back around 9 and have a late night party okay?" Jake said to his dad, who nodded and waved us on our way.

"Bye Bella and happy birthday" he said to me. I smiled and followed Jared out the door to his car. Jake was taking Leah, Sam, Emily, Paul; while Jared took me, Seth, Quil, Embry, Collin and Brady. I sat in the passenger seat with Jared driving. He gripped my hand in his and pulled out of the driveway and followed Jake on the hour drive to Port Angels amusement park.

-An hour later-

We arrived at the amusement park and parked near the entrance. Since the park opened at 10 we were early. Jared grabbed my hand in his and led me to the entrance with everyone else. I stood at the front gate with everyone and looked at the rides I could see in the distance. I got nervous at most of them but decided to be brave and ride them.

"Okay come on Bells, let's go inside and figure out what ride to go on" Jared said, leading me inside the park, Seth and everyone else following us.

"Okay I think we should go on that ride!" Seth yelled, pointing to the yellow and blue roller coaster. I stared at it and decided to just go ahead and try it.

"I say we should go for it"

"Okay, let's go. Jake can ride with Bella first" Jared said. I followed Jake into the line and began talking with the rest of the pack. I got in the front row with Jake and strapped myself in. I was facing forward when Jared, who was sitting behind me poked my side.

"What?" I asked.

"I love you" Jared said, smiling. I blushed and grinned back at him.

"I love you too Jared" I said, facing forward again.

"You two are saps" Jake said. I laughed, since it was true.

"I know, we can't hel-AH!" I screamed as we took off on the ride.

"AHH!!!" I yelled, holding onto the handle bars holding me in place.

"OH MY GOSH!! WOOOO!!" Jake yelled. The exhilarating ride was over in about a minute and a half, but that minute and a half had me almost tearing up from how fast we were going.

"Thank you for riding Poltergeist, have a good day here at Port Angeles amusement park" said the ride operator.

I got out and headed for the exit. Jake was walking next to, yapping to Seth about how awesome the ride was. I just shook my head and walked out of the ride.

"Okay, so that ride was awesome. Which ride should we go on?" Sam asked, holding Emily's hand. I pointed to the ride across from it: Superman the Ultimate Flight. Quil whistled and started walking towards the line. I took that as a yes and followed him.

"Okay now I wanna ride with Bella!" Quil exclaimed. I nodded my head and continued to the ride.

Once I sat down on the seat I got strapped in and waited for the ride to start. I started to swing my feet a bit since this ride was a open feet ride.

"I hope I don't fa-Oh My GOD!" I yelled. The chairs were swing back so that we were face down and looking at the ground. I held on for dear life and prayed that I wouldn't fall out. Quil, who was hanging next to me began laughing hysterically. We began the slow climb up the hill and went over the edge.

I opened my eyes and saw that we were in a corkscrew twist. I just held on and swallowed my screams. I didn't want Quil to laugh at me again, even if it was funny.

"Enjoy your day at Port Angeles amusement park!"

"Don't they have better things to say to us as we come in" I asked.

"Apparently not" said Leah, who was next to Quil on his other side. I laughed and got off the ride cart and went over to Jared and held his hand.

We rode The Giant Drop, Demon, The Penguins Blizzard River, and a few more rides until it was 8 at night. We headed home, Jared and I drove home alone, the rest of the back ran home besides Emily, Leah and Sam, who drove in Jake's car with him.

We got to Emily's house and walked in a saw…

AN: hey guys in sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo sorry that I have not updated in so long. Its just that I am taking a biology class which has basically ruled my life right now. And another class online so I have not had anytime to type fanfics! Im soo sorry!!!!! ill try and update more! Please forgive me!

Oh and I do not own "kiss me through the phone" or the rides and clothes mentioned above.